Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
We all want, so badly, to be loved unconditionally but we struggle to live with the ambivalence of adult love. Adult love starts off wild and intense; strong and stubborn like a mule. But with time, it weakens; eroded by the little things. It falters in the face of unmet expectations, flounders as our outcomes…
(original: 14 Jan 2006) Welcome to my relocation rants & raves! Hello! FIRST TIME BLOGGER and BUSINESS OWNER ... This is my first blog mainly for those interested in my relocation planning and activities from San Diego to the Bay Area. (And I'm sure it will contribute to my tendency to procrastinate and provide an…
The mind is a curious place. It's a place for ideas, a place for rest, a safe place for the softening of chaos, distress and pain. It is powerful, intense, bewildering and surprising all at once. Most importantly, it stores an immense trove of memories and information, some conscious (and even embarrassing!), but most…
In Biology WBC stands for White Blood Cells and RBC stands for Red Blood cells , but this is not about biology . This is about a game , a game of football to be precise , where two brilliant teams went all out for the prestigious champions league trophy . On may 28th , the UEFA Champions League final was played in…
I have earned the guts to say this out loud the hard way. I don't HAVE TO do anything. I feel like doing NOTHING and that's what I'll do. I do the things I want to do and feel like doing. There's no shits left to give for anyone or anything else. Only a very calm space inside me where there's an absence of all kinds…
In honor of my birthday today, I'm giving you a gift. I’m sharing the knowledge I've gained in 65 years around the sun. Regardless of your age, you wll benefit from the lessons I've learned. Sunscreen. Lesson: I grew up in the baby oil sunbathing era. You can spend your money on sunscreen or frequent dermatologist…
What if what I thought was wrong My perspective aren’t the right one The thought process is not the strongest one How do I forge it within myself To have intelligence I need to be hardworking and keep thinking on it Work on the details Been too lazy to think And that becomes a habit Even the type of bikes, the roads,…
Doesn't it feel good to check off a task, meet a goal, or get to your destination? That feeling is equal for small or large steps. For your new journaling habit, you need to start small. A small start means it's doable, less intimidating. It takes less time and fits into your schedule. You still see results. When…
- Not a second brain - Not a full-blown PK - Not even a draft space for articles It's a place for mindful consumption, storage and meaning making. The system is inspired by Justin Mikolay's note-taking system, that he considers as a key part to his creative process 3 steps: 1. Reading 2. Thinking (aka note-taking) 3.…
how did i get here - and where is everyone else?
The difference you can obviously think is conservative. But what does conservative means? It also means that they are more opened to new ideas and the problem with Asian thinking is it’s way too conservative. That there’s a certain system or rule to follow; which might not be real That you can date as many as you like…
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Today, I pitched during pitch night by build I felt good, I think I did a good job. I also feel like I was able to contribute very quickly to getting the presentation done, moving and increasing the quality/ funniness of it. Here is how I am trying to make the most out of the build cohort: 1. Meet interesting people,…
Karena merupakan hal paling rasional untuk dilakukan, jika menggunakan sistem keuangan saat ini. Yang dikenal dengan istilah "FIAT currency". Uang fiat adalah mata uang keluaran pemerintah yang tidak didukung oleh komoditas fisik, seperti emas atau perak. Salah satu kekurangan uang fiat adalah inflasi. Bank Indonesia…
if i wanted to lie to you, i'd say the storm inside you will settle. it will not. see the thing no one tells us about storms is that they're not meant to destroy. i think a storm was a child whose mother never held his hand when he was scared. or maybe the storm didn't know how to tell his mother that he was scared.…
Suddenly 10 days had passed and it feels like I arrived yesterday. It feels weird that tomorrow my mom goes and for the first time I won't really know when is the next time I see her, for what I know it's probably gonna be minimum a year which it would be the longest without seeing each other. I'm kind of used to be…
...she, anyway, doesn't know me anymore. we ended things. i couldn't stand being around her. it doesn't mean that i loved her any less. i loved her more than she loved herself. she loved me less than she loved the version of me she wanted. you see...there was our problem. i had brought this to her attention as well.…
I have done okay as dad this month. While my son did tell me that "I sucked", it was only after he lost control of his temper trying to fit a couple of Lego pieces together, and needed to be separated from them. I take that as a win. When he runs home from the bus, he will give me a great big hug, I will tell him that…
I'm always drawn to the internet cacophony about notes. Everyone takes notes. Everyone's notes are all over the place. There isn't a system in existence that organizes, centralizes, and syncs all notes. Except, there is. In fact, there are lots of software applications that help you with your notes. Some are more…
There’s one simple rule for beginning journalers about what time to journal every day. Journal at the same time every day. You are building a habit. You want to be consistent. The time you choose to journal dictates your consistency. Consider these three factors when choosing your time. Your typical day: Is there a…
I beg myself to do the hard level things. Being disciplined is hard. Time is limited - I should be doing outside the box thing. It shouldn’t be hard; I’m only in a small Construction firm in a small country. Should not be limited to the small arduos tasks here. There’s still so much more to life: there’s CEO. There’s…
Of trying to be the responsible one. Of trying to be the one with empathy Of trying to keep my own value in my mind Of trying to receive an iota of love and care of what I need Of being the one constantly abandoned Of giving it my all Of just trying sometimes.
Estou passando uns dias na casa dos meus pais em São Paulo. Voltar para cá me faz encarar uma realidade de onde às vezes teimo em escapar. Estava refletindo sobre a minha preguiça quando ouvi a minha mãe no cômodo debaixo arrastando o andador para se movimentar pela casa. Ela faz questão de fazer tudo apesar da…
Every time I need to tweak something on my work mac, I'm irked by the title of the settings pane. What every computer interface has referred to as "settings", Apple chose to rename "preferences". Settings implies a certain relationship between us and our tools. You set the fuel / air mixture of a carburetor for…
my transitional coworker, a coworker who took over my piano teaching job for me and who, during this transition, became my friend, is a musician more precisely stated, his main thing, as he sees it, is the music he makes, and this piano teaching gig, as he sees it, is just a side hustle -- it's the root that nourishes…
I'm not saying I've discovered the secret to happiness, but daily fiber supplements and a bidet is working out great for me.
my original blogs have scores of posts written over the years. consolidated now on wordpress after a mid-stay at medium, it's a very haphazard collection mostly surrounding themes like, not surprisingly, human misery, love, heartbreak, and philosophy. i told a friend i am pursuing masters in philosophy and he said,…
- An observation from today's preparation for a hackathon. - In a complex world, we tend to think complex solutions are needed. Yet, simplicity often leads to better results. Overcomplicating things can obscure the real issues, making solutions hard to implement and maintain. We don't always need to match complexity…
Governments the world over, want to be able to exert better control over Twitter. So far their only options have been to enact laws that compel the company to shape its behavior in particular ways. But Twitter is a global company that has to abide by the laws and regulations of all the countries in which it operates.…
My first thought here was ok.. let's see what's up. After reading a few blogs I wonder if there are any humans around here. It looks nice on the surface and feels cool under ground. I wonder ...There must be something out here, limits are everywhere so let's find mine, was wondering my self. In the end it's only 10…
Scene 1 Driver rang the door bell for car keys. Father goes to the main door and is off in the car with the driver. He is back in 5 minutes. I ask mother where did he go that he is back so quickly. He never goes for morning walks. Mother says he went with the driver to refuel the car so that the driver can now go run…
it would have been cool. me & you, the chance at romance. i think you would like it. i wish -- just let me know.
honestly, i'm not even sure if it's a skill to have, but two underrated skills are longevity (or persistence) and focus. first let's start with longevity. i was listening to a david dobrik's podcast a few days ago and he was saying that he didn't really speak to any friends he made in his first year in LA. not because…
Take a new leap of faith Read the book Go to events Go to sports meet new people Travel the world for half a year Talk to people you wanted to talk to Listen to podcast Ask for a raise Don’t escape from the hard things in life by short term dopamines (insta, fb, YouTube, dinner, sleep, etc…) Put your mind in it Put an…
i realize i've attributed the idea of nostalgia to a negative form of idyllic memory. like the only difference between memory and nostalgia is that wistful and picturesque filter we view our own memories through. i didn't think it was possible to look back on unhappy times through the lens of nostalgia without…
our existence is very bland and senseless, battling against the corrosive force of time. the dying of the light. it's very much like ingredients, which in and of themself do not make much sense. left to itself, it will decay without discrimination and we only have just enough time as everybody else to make any sense…
Já são 31 anos com fome. Fome essa de ir jantar o mundo que não passa. E quanto mais barriga vai ficando cheia, mais insatisfeito que se acha. Fome de comer tantas histórias, de mastigar tantas culturas e de engolir tantas comidas. Fome de sentar em tantas mesas, degustar as sobremesas e perguntar todas receitas. Fome…
Day-4 of my 30 day atomic essay streak. This one's about how I used mindful repetition to teach myself meditation. For my essays so far, the concept of 'Mindful Repetition' has been the only anchor. If you're unfamiliar with it, then please read 'Essay 2: Mindful Repetition, Compounds.' I have been wanting to practice…
Recently, the Indian prime minister Narendra Modi lambasted what he called 'revdi' culture at a public event. He was referring to the political practice of enticing voters - especially the poorer and lesser educated variety - with material goods in exchange for votes (revdi refers to a food item). For anyone who is…
sabe uma coisa que me irrita profundamente? pessoas que olham uma mulher em uma relação e daí olham para o homem e não se constrangem em agir como se a mulher tivesse sido salva por aquele homem maravilhoso que teve coragem de abrir o caminho de espinhos para oferecer amor incondicional a ela..... preguiça em níveis…
And having that “purpose” Like I don’t go to badminton just for another purpose Actually make friends Or be good in badminton Whatever your purpose is You don’t just “go there” Like you WANTED something If nobody is there you also wanted right? That should be the spirit Remember You don’t have to be friends with…
I have always found myself constantly searching for that one thing that will turn my life around. That one solution that will solve all my problems and make everything better. I remember times when I have lacked patience and have sought instant results. For instance,when I started doing yoga, I wanted to do advanced…
I keep having these moments of insight that bring a sort of relief but are quickly trivialized by the judgmental critic within. It's the same voice that has discouraged me from writing or sharing much of anything anywhere, with anyone. (Here's to victory 1 and knocking out my publish goal for 2026 as early as…
I am far from a frequent flier. However over the last decade or so, I've taken more than my fair share of flights from Mumbai, Chennai and Bangalore airports. Hyderabad, Goa and Delhi have figured a close second and in third place have been a smattering of flights including to cities like Lucknow, Leh, Indore,…
today my thoughts about the future of digital worlds was more of how to make them 'abstract'. my reason is because good design that aims for longevity is not one that stands out, it generally embeds itself into a way of life, a culture. as i continue to develop ideas and critique digital worlds, having a design that…
Good sleep - middle of the night, I'd wake up, see the time, relax and continue pleasant deep breathing for what seemed like an hour, then checked to see it was only 10 minutes later. Actually felt good. Work? OK. Lots of filing, meetings & meeting notes, then word of a major "dig up old stuff" project coming up. If…
(The following is a role playing diary written from the perspective of my Project Zomboid character) Days became easier once I got a working car, tools, weapons and a nice place far in the woods. I'm busy every day, yet sometimes I enjoy little moments like this more than before the outbreak. I was drowning in a badly…
We all have sense of self, an identity that we are known for but in reality the sense of self doesn’t actually exist. Your perception and thoughts of the world are born from the environment you are now in and the environment you grow up as a child in. Your character is what you are to others, what you show others is…
