3rd July 2022 - pitch night by Build
Today, I pitched during pitch night by build
I felt good, I think I did a good job. I also feel like I was able to contribute very quickly to getting the presentation done, moving and increasing the quality/ funniness of it.
Here is how I am trying to make the most out of the build cohort:
- Meet interesting people, see who I connect with and try to learn
- Push myself to make things
- Try new tools/ learn something
If I am being perfectly honest, not everyone here is as smart as people I am used to. But they definitely do bring a lot of fresh perspective to me.
I am very excited to take charge of my life and build in systems to push myself to be better
Mood swings:
I had absolutely fucking horrible mood swings today. I was very mean, very rude, and just shouting and picking up fights with everyone. So this led to me doing something that absolutely pissed musti off - tbh, i was probably trying to test his limits too. My takeaways:
- I have very bad moodswings now
- I feel like I am depending on Musti as a punching bag to let me let out all my anger
- I have learnt where the limit lies, and will hopefully not push it next time
But i do want to note down that when i was angry, i knew i was being unreasonable, but i let the emotions win over me, for instant gratification - i feel like because musti is okay with me yelling for no reason, i have an outlet. But i do not know if this is a sustainable solution