Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
I struggle to understand my emotions.My calibration ranges from sad,happy,hurt and angry.Beyond this I go "Idk it felt weird/not nice". An incident is making me ponder over this incapability and its real meaning. Context:I'm not close with my relatives.I don't share,ask about their lives,don't call,dont spend time…
Today, I struggled with stomach pains, felt generally a bit unwell, and even vomited. Initially, I thought it might be food poisoning from something I ate. But as the day went on, I started to think there might be another reason. I've been pushing myself too hard lately - not regarding the workload, that's doable, but…
8 out of 10 people hate their jobs; If you love what you do daily, you're one of the few lucky people. Rest all of us are like lost satellites drifting away deep in the space with no mission and no clue of why we are even doing it. Taking back the control of your life into your own hands is not as easy as people talk…
There is a word in Hindi called 'theherav.' It comes from the Hindi word theherna(to stop), but theherav doesn't mean to stop. It means something related to a person's character that allows them to feel collected most of the time. You know how many people make being clumsy their personality? A person with theherav…
People study for many different reasons, be that exams, getting a new job, or getting into a university. However, what we often miss is the end goal, the big picture, if you will. If we do not keep that in mind, then studying becomes meaningless and spirals into an unhealthy aspect of your life. But first, what is the…
Ahhhh some days are experienced yet sit deep within my subconscious never to be recalled on. today could be one of those days...
Digital productivity apps - shiny object buffet of apps with low to high caloric brain-nourishment value One's lived experiences deserves to be housed where the moments will be organized, tended, and loved Home sweet home, especially your digital home. --- My love letter to friends who ask if they should switch apps.…
Recently I have been hesitant to write my thoughts here too frequently. The reason is that I try to avoid repeating myself and strive to write something of value. There has been many things occupying my mind recently, so I will try to keep sharing them here for this outlet has a unique charm...
I‘m thankful for all the beautiful people I have in my life. I‘m grateful for all the amazing experiences I have made so far. I love being me. I truly appreciate all of this.
Hello! Lets talk about inhibitions and hurdles in taming the day. As someone who has tried almost every trick to stay on track and create a routine and series of habits that help me in navigating life as I see fit. Here are my observations: 1. Diligence is key, identifying action items and getting started is simple…
What you want and what you do Is what makes you you You want to be successful You gotta do what successful people do See people in the MRT using time to play their phone And they are people who utilises and read book And they consistently upgrade themselves Basic things like this but many people aren’t able to execute…
Hoje começo este novo projeto, que me convida a escrever um texto por dia durante um ano. Não tenho um objetivo master ao criá-lo, além do de cuspir palavras ao vento, contar pra mim mesmo e para você (oi, tudo bem? que saudades que eu tava de conversar com você) sobre a minha vida, pra ver se entendo melhor o que…
22nd I have realised my intense need for validation for the past hurt that I have gone through. That has been further magnified because Nelson does not agree with what I say and that makes me doubt my self confidence so much. So I have been actively seeking validation. I’ve been looking for evidence backing what I…
- at the group meeting we were going back to the same state for the holidays, bonding over public transport - at the holiday party chatting about vampires (i go on a 10 minute tangent about iwtv); we decide we should hang on 1:1 before declaring each other friends; bit about me being a 206 year old vampire - at the…
Hace unas horas leí una frase que me impactó mucho que decía masomenos así: "No te elevas al nivel de tus metas, caes al nivel de tus hábitos" y dándole vueltas me quede impresionado por la poca importancia que le damos a muchos de nuestros hábitos. Si bien llevar una vida con hábitos correctos no es tan complicado,…
Depois passar a segunda-feira pós-natal, também feriado na Alemanha, em companhia do meu pijama no sofá, fui tomada por uma energia inesperada. Foi no banho. Lavei os cabelos muito curtos e os olhos, que se recuperam da cirurgia, com cuidado excessivo. Aos poucos, a água quente jorrando com força no meu corpo me…
last night i slept worse than i have in months. i mean i’ve been sleeping like shit since we landed on this rock but last night the pain just took over me. the night before, i snuck out on my own to see if I could figure out what the orb was composed of. i thought, if i could just get close enough to chip off a shard…
Hi, I'm using these posts to practice writing. Here's a paragraph to start off with. I've never written before so feel free to express your thoughts on how I'm doing. I don't know where to begin. I can't even imagine how all this started. My first memory is pretty dark. I can recall my mother snuggled up to me for the…
We're so obsessed with the idea of permanence--we now fully believe in it. So much so, that it might as well be a new religion. Apart from words like 'forever' and 'endless' being used to describe our 'undying' affection/dislike for one another we've started to manifest permanence in other ways. Mostly by taking life…
Voltei de uma imersão de uma semana em Brasília. Foi o encontro anual do meu trabalho. Foi bom, mas não foi. Bom pela comida, pela natureza e pela oportunidade de ver pessoalmente quem eu vejo só online. Bom pela oportunidade de aprofundar laços e dançar em conjunto. Também conversar, rememorar e celebrar. Não foi bom…
To quote John Biggs: "Ok now what." Seriously though, I like this vast empty space with just a black text thing. Good stuff.
Its 16/Apr/2023 I have entered a weird patch in life where I dont know what I feel. I am turning 25 and that's not making anything better. Its been more than half a year I escaped an extremely abusive family and the trauma still lingers on. Too broke to have a therapist. It feels horrible, I feel like I am fighting…
I started this year, finding out my supposed boyfriend had a pregnant finace. It was a nasty experience, but I had to forgive myself and forgive him to forge ahead.
Sometimes it's easy to forget, with how big the internet seems, how small the world is. I clicked on a link to read an article by Raina Raskin, a new mother, about how the first time her baby smiled at her shattered her illusions about what mattered in life. All that status-seeking, career-promoting bullshit didn't…
Complete: to make whole or perfect; to mark the end of So many pursuits are taken up with the idea of perfection or wholeness arriving at some point. But what is ever complete? There is no state of perfection or wholeness that can be achieved. The closest thing to it might just be recognizing the futility of the chase…
I'm always surprised when I find out that I'm not who I thought I am. When I was younger, I thought of myself as a go-getter. Someone who pursued. A manic worker. But I find satisfaction now in not pursuing every possibility. In being selective and leaving a lot of room and time to digest and think rather than just…
The comfort zone is a deceptive piece of shit that keeps trying to stop me from having formative experiences. Although I am aware of this, it hits me every time and each time it costs me a great deal of effort to overcome it. The good news is that the comfort zone expands with every new experience, when seeking…
A lot of people are not aware of what are walled gardens of Internet so let me first address that. There was a time in the history of Internet where just logging on to Internet was like stepping into a dense tropical forest where you could go anywhere and get lost in it. Today that is not the case anymore. Don't get…
There’s no need to feel anxious about things, especially now I know that these aren’t like hard things to do yknow. Knowing about cafes, food and bars, you don’t have to “STUDY IT” per se, like really put all your efforts into it You’re stronger now. You used to be waking up feeling anxious about what you feared you…
My heart asks my brain this question every 23 mins of each day. Why would you not want to do the task right away? Do you not know where to start? Is whatever you want to do, something you are not ready for? Are you scared you're not good enough? Let's work for it right now then? It gets tiring, fighting the wrong…
Yesterday, I accidentally smashed a bottle of red wine in our kitchen. Pieces of the broken bottle scattered everywhere, and red wine covered the floor and splashed on the walls—it was a huge mess. Understandably, I was very pissed off at first. But I remembered Shirzad Chamine's mantra of "taking the hand off the hot…
conheci o nicheless pela newsletter da lalai e me apaixonei logo pelo layout, design e proposta. mas ficava sempre na cabeça a necessidade de firmar um compromisso de escrever todo dia ou coisa parecida. resolvi ser descompromissada. escrever quando quiser, mas quem sabe arranjar um jeito de lembrar mais facilmente de…
How did we get so impatient for change? You need to correct your expectation of results. Change is occurring. You are not recognizing it. With intentional practice, we can make positive changes. Are you looking for your ultimate goal or progress toward your goal? How often have you heard to break your big goals into…
I usually listen to music on YouTube (and think YouTube premium is rather underrated). I particularly like to watch musicians in their natural state and not 'performing'. Radio station interviews/ broadcasts are a standard fixture. A couple of days ago, I stumbled upon a Tiny Desk Concert by Alicia Keys on NPR. She…
Cheguei em Berlim após 25 horas de viagem porta a porta. É uma terça-feira, a noite está gelada, mas menos do que eu esperava. Há uma semana o termômetro marcava -8ºC, o que me apavorou por não ter roupa adequada para encarar o frio na viagem do aeroporto até em casa, mas para a minha surpresa está 8ºC positivo, o que…
i stopped doing the things i started doing to grow. i didn´t track my habits, didn´t do my finances nor did i plan my days. i didn´t eat healthy, didn´t work out or do a lot of productive things. going on the trip with my best friends really threw me off from real life. the five days in which i didn´t stick to my…
I'm sitting here in Rome, within spitting distance from the Arch of Titus, which commemorates the sacking of Jerusalem two thousand years ago. I'm sitting here, as a Jew, thinking to myself, well, they must've really thought something of the Jews then, to have built themselves an arch commemorating the destruction of…
Saya menyatakan bahwa saya ateis sejak 6 tahun silam, banyak pertentangan dari orang yang mengetahui bahwa saya tidak mempercayai tuhan dianggap kenistaan bagi mereka dan teguran untuk kembali mempercayai tuhan menjadi makanan penutup ketika mereka berbincang mendalam dengan saya. Landasan moral sudah mendarah daging…
ahh i have been revisiting a series of photographs called 'metaphors' by Ettore Sottsass Jr. each photograph would prompt the viewer to challenge how they view architecture. my favorite is titled 'Virtual Architecture'; a physical space made to represent a digital space. the concept hints to our physical limitation…
By being so harsh on yourself doesn’t work. Yes noticing the problem - but magnifying it doesn’t do anything - it’s just a toxic trait that you’ve dealt with when you were young (playing the victim card) Your conversations - with your housemate Why do you even need to talk about the negatives - the neighbours bla bla…
What happens when the community and beliefs that helped shape our minds and lives start to fail us? When the questions start to accumulate and remain unanswered or unacknowledged, a gap starts to form. If we’re fortunate enough, the community recognizes this and starts building bridges. If not, we’re forced to jump…
When you sit and stop listening to your cravings, stop giving in to your aversions, stop following the “should”s, just sit, eventually you realize: wanting isn’t craving. they’re not even similar. A common response to “What if you just did whatever you want all the time?” is “Oh, I’d just get fat and play video…
These last 600 days have been the most toughest period of my entire life. I have cried my eyes out, felt miserable, sat like furniture for days on end & contemplated committing suicide. This all happened around my folks at home, never did they ever came up to me ask : what is brewing ? how am I feeling ? how can they…
I just read Kim Stanley Robinson's The Ministry for the Future, recommended with great enthusiasm by my friend Rahul. In taking his recommendation, I was following my own recent advice https://nicheless.blog/post/135. Unusual for me was that this was a book of science fiction. Nothing against the genre - I just hadn't…
I'd rather be alone on a passing cloud than a lonely man in bustling crowd. We often exist in the complete freedom of a lonely life.
I've been wanting to write regularly for a bit now but haven't started. I don't know if I things worth saying is part of the reason. Other is procrastination. I hope no one reads these for a bit. It's odd when you realise people you know in real life follow your twitter and you do wtf. dont. Something like that ig.…
No words can pin down what we call reality, but words too are real
Last week, I embarked on my first unplanned trip in over 8 years. I hopped on a bus, packed lightly and arrived in Kamlapur at 5 AM without a room booked. So I walked away in the opposite direction of the request bombs being dropped on me by persistent auto-drivers. I wanted to search a cheap homestay but fear of few…
