Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
Yesterday I started working on ramen based on local ingredients from Goa. So far I've swapped the traditional pork topping for a Goan Choriz and I blended cashew nuts into the broth. As I gently pushed the boundaries here I constantly found myself asking what makes ramen ramen? The black and white answer is that Ramen…
Do you lie awake at night thinking of all the bad stuff happening in your life? Everyone’s brain is wired for a negative bias. We talk about the negative more. We remember the negative first. We all go through negative experiences. Their sources come from emotions, poor decisions, and mistakes. Some of these…
The wolf had a brief weird moment. He saw his own shadow waving at him. Was it a sign of some higher calling? Did the Gods of the forest will him to take a reckoning of his existence thus far? After all, he was walking the walk of a wisened and senile canid for a while now. Perhaps the moment was not far away when he…
I will miss her. She listened to me. She made me feel intelligent. Slowly she grew on me. I loved her drive and intelligence. She was colorful. She shone in the crowd. I fell in love slowly, then all at once. But she broke my heart, she ghosted and she left. I thought we could build a lot of things today. I wanted her…
India is undoubtedly facing challenging times. This isn't solely due to a specific party, but rather the collective direction we are taking as a nation. Our control has slipped away, replaced by desperation and misguided efforts. The current government's lack of action or passive endorsement of lawbreakers exacerbates…
Tone is rich and thick like treacle and just as sweet. Full breath support. All registers responding obediently and enthusiastically. Confidence and control when entering the Altissimo register. Like Bobby Gordon and Dan Levinson, who both played clarinet with Leon Redbone. Like the great Ken Peplowski. Like Annie…
Creativity is such a strange bedfellow. It warms you, sometimes. It guides you, sometimes. It frustrates you, sometimes. It refuses to leave, always. There are plenty of days when I wish that my creativity would take all these disparate parts and bring them together into a cohesive whole. Instead, creativity somehow…
These are the first words I've written in many months. I've been thinking about why this is the case, and part of it might have to do with fear. I'm afraid of not being able to do it well. But there's something more there. I think I'm afraid because I believe I might have some type of cognitive decline. That was…
AKA the perils of ambition and the loss of your home by emigration induced demographic change You wake up today and you are not 7 years old anymore. You cannot run outside and put your feet on soil or climb a tree with your brother Outside is the concrete and the great unwashed, more people in this building than in…
The idea is pretty interesting. I always loved to do some similar thing as my personal blog. Though may I do so, since Nicheless is a micro-blogging platform. The best things about Nicheless in my opinion are its neat UI design, simple white theme by default and suckless UX as a blogging platform. The lack of "numbers…
I took down my website. It was bullshit. Just like the many bullshit ideas that cross my mind, and all the other bullshit projects that I embark on. I started that site as another "creative outlet". A place where I could improve my writing. The latter, AKA "the goal", remains genuine. The former, AKA "the idea", AKA…
i not-so-proudly announce that i am not okay. it is also not okay. but okay.
My room is not so tidy. I don’t have a place for the shoes, there are some sheets of paper on the floor, but it’s okay. I look at it and I’m scared. It looks temporary. Now it’s tidy, tomorrow will be a mess. And the more I try to keep it tidy, the more my fear grows. Just like for my mind, I’m afraid of the following…
Remember V from furniture? He’s moving through life pretty quick Be like him Put your mind into it Never focus of the past The future abit Think of the present mostly Like he could’ve finished what I was studying within 3 hours Because he wouldnt have thought he had “enough” and rest of a bit; did a good job etc…
é preciso cuidar do corpo, das necessidades do corpo. não há possibilidade de conciliação com a natureza antes desse compromisso, é o primeiro passo, é primordial. não adianta cuidar de plantas, mexer na terra e construir teorias contra o fim do mundo se não olhar, primeiro, para o corpo. é nele que são firmadas as…
i'm looking for something i realized that i write to solve my problems and find clarity but since my problem is quite large now, i'm gathering much concentration and this is all i think about. i've been asking all my friends. i'm trying to solve something that no one has ever solved. but if the answer is out there,…
I'm cooking pasta al ragù and it's going fairly well. It's not my first time, everybody is happy when I make it, everybody seems to love it. I'm not a great cook and not a stickler for detail. I'm currently stirring the sauce in the pan and at the same time stirring the noodles in the pasta pot, I'm doing it with the…
I used to be a man who wanted to go into women's toilets. This wasn't a gender identity issue and I'm not a pervert. This had to do with the fact that I am the father of four daughters, who were once small girls. The default position on fathers taking their daughters to a public toilet is that they should go together…
...sometimes. Unless half the city is tryna go where you’re going and the traffic is insane. To which I say, adventure is not out there. Pls hang up and try again tmrw.
In my 4th decade I realize that 40s is the real inflection point in our lives - few reflections. 1. Curiosity: Whether getting lost in encyclopedia during my younger days to now reading up about cars. Somewhere during the Social Media era, my curiosity had become perfomative, I caught this bug of sounding…
I was wondering about how long it takes to get the results of a blood culture and the fact that they don’t yield great results in most cases, which led me to think about flow cytometry and how it might be able to detect bacteria faster than waiting for bacteria to grow in a blood culture. Turns out other people have…
Omfg, seems like something big is happening in La Paz City. === anon8858 I’m still recovering from the shock of the assassination attempt on General Rodriguez. I was there covering the General’s speech for El Subsuelo. This is the most disturbing scene I’ve ever witnessed. The General was arriving at the stage when a…
Writing like a lawyer for over twenty five years had clogged my system with literary cholesterol. I was never a fan of legal jargon - you won't get a "hereinafter" out of me - but years of legal writing made Jaitly a dull scribe. Giving legal advice, or drafting a contract, requires words to have unambiguous meanings:…
I have had a very very horrible week. I have been really scared, been overcome by anxiety, crying, etc. But today, I had an epiphany. A revelation of sorts. It finally occurred to me that this just wasn't feeling right. I do not feel respected by the blissclub process. I feel extremely pressured by the timelines they…
I don't know what else to call it. And jump-working sounds fun. I'm trying to describe my preferred way of working, where I basically do... whatever the fuck I like. Schedules and plans don't work for me. Themed days can go die. The absolute scatter-brain that I am, I grew frustrated with my inability to focus on…
I love synthesizers. I own a couple of vintage ones, and other bits of vintage audio gear. There's something very interesting about how they look and how they are designed, they're like a little time capsule of a bygone era, fascinating for a wide number of reasons. But it's also true that electronic bits of kit tend…
had a terrible day. when is it that you don't have that. took my folder of reading material and went down to the bar downstairs. realized that my transitions glasses don't work in low light and certain angles. 2 martinis and 1 drink done by a bartender in tequila, had something to eat. bonded with the bartenders, came…
Pitchfork is too obsessed with lyrics. They’re analyzing music the way people should be analyzing books. They’re talking about world-building and themes. Idk I feel like music is an experience to be felt and explained rather than analyzed
The problem with being an expert on Twitter is that there's no obligation to back your claims up with any real world experience. The fact that you can regurgitate other peoples ideas with little to no consequence means that, over time, people on twitter drift towards more talk, and less walk. I can't believe I'm…
I saw Homebound today. It was heartfelt. It showed me a side of India that I know nothing about. How their lives go. What their routines are. What they aspire to be. What problems they deal with. Part caste and religion plays in small ways in their daily experience. I hold Varun Grover in a very high regard. I'd see…
Louco isso né? A gente se propõe a fazer algo e vai deixando, deixando. O tempo passa e você percebe que mais uma vez deixou de cumprir um objetivo. É frustrante para caralho. Lembrei com dor no coração que não terminei o curso dificílimo de robótica que comecei a fazer com o meu irmão menor. Sei que dei um péssimo…
How did we get so impatient for change? You need to correct your expectation of results. Change is occurring. You are not recognizing it. With intentional practice, we can make positive changes. Are you looking for your ultimate goal or progress toward your goal? How often have you heard to break your big goals into…
Então, ontem depois de remoer mais um pouco o atendimento horrível que recebi na famosa padaria, mandei uma mensagem pro dono. O sentimento é dúbio: "ah, mas foi só um croissant de chocolate..." E ao mesmo tempo "exato. Mesmo numa coisa tão pequena, a pessoa se sente no direito de me tratar assim...". Enfim, seguimos.…
I couldn't hold it in any longer. I felt like a fraud for not having it stated out in the open clearly how I felt about S. So I decided to tell her. I told S that I did not think I was in a space to consider her a friend anymore. I told her I felt very hurt and betrayed that she could just ignore something that was…
The first "fact" that I learnt in childhood was "the sun rises in the east and sets in the west. Our day lies in these two extremes. The window of observation between these two extremes is underrated. As the sun swim towards the west, it paints the world around us in multiple strokes of extravagance. From the pesky…
Hoje "tropecei" na internet com um poema que eu adoro, "Do not go gentle into that good night", do Dylan Thomas. Quem assistiu Interestelar deve lembrar que o poema é mencionado várias vezes durante o filme. Na tradução de Augusto de Campos (um trechinho): "Não vás tão docilmente nessa noite linda; Que a velhice arda…
Love has been endlessly defined—fluttering hearts, blooming flowers, soaring violins. These tales shape our dreams, but is love truly so theatrical? Perhaps. Perhaps not. For me, love is something darker, more profound—much like a horcrux from Harry Potter. A horcrux, J.K. Rowling tells us, is a fragment of a soul,…
I’m pushing you away because I don’t know how to go back. And I miss you so much. How we used to be. I’m already not recognising myself. I want that care again. I want you in my life. The way it was. Mixed signals and all. But I can’t just walk back into it without an explanation. But how would I even begin tell you…
Today is my last day studying, and I can't seem to find any motivation at all. After a month of studying, doing 20 past exams, revising and revising, and feeling like there's always more to cover, today—on the most important day when I should be pushing through the last mile—I feel done, Im done (not done that I'm…
A quote on an Oprah Winfrey show got me thinking about how it is important to have the good wines when we are having a bad day. The premise is that if one is having a good day, one does not need the good wine, but an excellent cabernet on a dull day will cheer one up. A glass of champagne will add a sparkle to a day…
ahh a text i keep putting off from re-reading "the generic city" by Rem Koolhaas. from memory it speaks of ideas around identity. today i am seeing more conversation around identity from design. in contradiction to identity some designers thrive by removing identity...
Nowadays, I find myself overthinking what I write because so many eyes are observing. Judgment and fear arise, and I end up not posting at all. Writing for myself has become a liberating experience—I can pour all my thoughts into a post and then continue with my day, feeling relieved and lighter. This hesitation…
Quite often, I hesitate to acknowledge my pettiness. For instance, I took up this writing challenge for the month but have had days when I didn't publish. I missed writing the piece for a total of six days. Of the six, on two days, I hit publish without adding any content because I wanted it to seem regular. How…
One of my summer experiments as a child included learning to bake and assemble an ice cream cake. Bombay's summer heat, even in the 1980s was oppressive enough, that I was always experimenting with ''cooling'' recipes! My maternal Uncle, Bunny Mama, as we fondly called him, would indulge me with my kitchen…
Muito fácil nossa cabeça nos dar o baile quando estamos tentando criar hábito. Tô nessa missão de escrever todos os dias aqui e hoje esqueci (até agora!). Acordei mais de 9h da manhã, coisa raríssima, visto que tenho duas cachorras exigentes e pontuais. Sete horas da manhã, às vezes antes, elas já levantam e, como…
I had a dream that Kiese Laymon, Ta-Nehisi Coates, and Damon Young were hosting a writers' retreat somewhere verdant. It was me, Young, Laymon, Coates, Kenny Smith (of the NBA), and some writers I can't remember right now but we were all Black and saw ourselves as men. One was named Joel, I think. We were in the big…
A friend shared - It costs me up to 3-4 hours/day for this writing effort. My friend is consistently writing on a daily basis in the "build in public" approach. She is using a platform where that makes it so fun to do so with templates, drafts, and queues. And it is truly energizing for me to know writing daily brings…
So, what prevents us from making changes in a constantly changing world? Do we remain rigid while the world evolves around us? To understand this, let's consider the insights of neuroscientist Lisa Feldman Barrett. She challenges conventional thinking and offers valuable perspectives on how our brain constructs…
