Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
Pequei enquanto paulistana kk Não assisti a nenhum desfile aqui de São Paulo, mas, em minha defesa, eu estava empenhada em terminar um livro. No entanto, ontem eu consegui parar pra ver os desfiles da Sapucaí. Ver a homenagem a Lula foi tão lindo, pena que a globo fez uma cobertura medíocre e isentona. Aquilo é…
Big bosses stick to their final game plan They have a very strong will point Not just putting one foot in And when it’s about business You need to learn how to talk With a very strong will inside your brain Not being affected just because of emotions And other people manipulating you You gotta stand strong of your…
i love books that are "aggressively pointless" like they make a point to be pointless (i learned this term from a goodreads user who condemned a book for having this quality that i so dearly cherish. btw; that guy with mainstream taste from youtube named "jack" actually disliked jordan castro's /the novelist/ which…
pulled the thread of despair i took to bed last night, the "why bother?" that hovered, unbidden, writing roadblock 97, the one that combines worthiness with approval, the one that questions whether anyone reads anymore, if the world needs another cooking story, the one that tells me i can't for so many reasons. pulled…
I am going to tell her. I feel the emotions flowing all over without the conversation happening yet. But this is the time. And this is the time because yesterday reminded me of why I need to do this: I don't want to feel proud of much I can drink, or think it's awesome that over people drink a lot, or that normalizing…
We all want, so badly, to be loved unconditionally but we struggle to live with the ambivalence of adult love. Adult love starts off wild and intense; strong and stubborn like a mule. But with time, it weakens; eroded by the little things. It falters in the face of unmet expectations, flounders as our outcomes…
Se sentó en la orilla del borde y gimió: "Nadie me hace caso". El viento siguió pasando, haciendo las cosas que hace el viento, incluso dentro del propio cuerpo que dijo el absurdo. Luego llovió y de su agua salitrosa se hizo un espejo, donde vió, por fin, la causa de su nube amarga. Daniel Verdad ©
I had the privilege of a very long talk with my skip boss. What started off with niceties about skiing quickly moved to discussing a major problem at work. Earlier this week we discovered a necessary change to the database required to move forward with what had been a trivial value-add in our app. The change required…
Thirty years ago, a mob brought down a mosque in a town I thought existed only in stories. I do not recall it's violent aftermath in Bombay. I was only eight, shielded from much that was frightening about our world. But, I remember the news of the bombs going off. Especially the one near the Shiv Sena Bhavan in Dadar.…
I am far from a frequent flier. However over the last decade or so, I've taken more than my fair share of flights from Mumbai, Chennai and Bangalore airports. Hyderabad, Goa and Delhi have figured a close second and in third place have been a smattering of flights including to cities like Lucknow, Leh, Indore,…
Primeira vez que escrevo num blog. Sei la, muitas ideias e poucas ideias para jogar aqui de forma, minimamente compreensível. Sabe como é a mente de uma pessoa altamente criativa, ansiosa, sonhadora, autossabotadora e noiada? É um turbilhão de coisas ao mesmo tempo. Eu fico imaginando se eu me olhasse as vezes de fora…
Young people tend to be more reformist, and older individuals more revivalist. There is something about aging which makes people revivalist. Revivalism is induced by a cocktail, which is one part nostalgia and three parts lived experiences. A very hard liquor, it causes permanent and irreversible damage to the brain…
The early 1990s, summer holidays meant staying at a beautiful Boston suburb with my Maasi and her family. She used to brew a pot of an aromatic fresh coffee everyday. Occasionally we would drive to a local Dunkin Donuts for a quick takeaway. A trip to Montreal and Quebec with my cousins was an eye opener, so many…
Acabei de ler Quem Matou o Meu Pai, do Édouard Louis e não posso usar outra palavra que não "cortante" para descrever a experiência de ler tudo em uma sentada. A forma como ele costura sua história pessoal com a política... A rejeição dos pais por ele ser quem é, a repetição dos padrões, mesmo quando há tentativa de…
A classic blocker is the idea of your siblings reading what you wrote (i.e. that thing you thought in a certain circumstance): that is pure deep terror.
We grow up in small contexts. Until the internet. Life was local. Sentiments were local. Supply and demand were local, and hence taste. The menu available for leisure had limited options. Liberalisation and globalisation opened the world to new experiences. As part of the generation that grew up in this time, I…
Today I’m listening to Foxing’s 2014 album The Albatross. Recommended to me as a great introduction to the Midwest Emo genre, the album really bares it heart wide open for the listener. I enjoy the surpsingly varied composition, with plenty of one-off instruments and track vibes. The vocal performance swings between…
Today was a great day. Spend more money than I’d want to since yesterday but it’s okay but it wasn’t on drugs or booze.. tonight I made chicken Alfredo pasta w mushrooms to finish a great day
I've always been a bit on the fence about journaling, but I've just come across a very good argument for it - clearing the human cache. It is true that we get bogged down in thoughts, I know I do anyway, and it leads to pages of messy scribbles as I write out hour-by-hour plans for the days ahead on the same page as…
ahhhhhh shock! my eyes are opened to a creative AI tool, here is a first though after using the tool: creativity for the general public will soon be more accessible and capable of creating things for people who don't 'mind' what the outcome is as long as it hits their description closely. But what this tool will do is…
When I got my first job, I was happy - not on top of the world - but definitely happy. In my final year, after frantically trying to secure internships, just so I could convert them into a job offer or sitting for every job interview just so that I could get a job, I had finally secured an offer. All those days -…
We're so obsessed with the idea of permanence--we now fully believe in it. So much so, that it might as well be a new religion. Apart from words like 'forever' and 'endless' being used to describe our 'undying' affection/dislike for one another we've started to manifest permanence in other ways. Mostly by taking life…
Really this is just a place where I am going to keep my notes about things I am currently learning/working on or have learned in the past. Maybe some code snippets (not that I know any language fully). I suspect this blog is going to be all over the place as I am going to try to write about what I know, what I am…
Below are some of the easiest ways to alleviate the moments where you feel doubtful or desperate. - Write exactly what you feel on a piece of paper. Trash it - Clean your cupboard. Iron your clothes while listening to music. - Call up a friend you haven't spoken to in a while - Take a piece of paper, and just…
In 30 min more I'm going to a volleyball training, I know no one, I have realized that if a know someone even if I know them only online, not even in person, I have no anxiety when going to social gatherings. When I don't no anyone at all its a completely different story, I start to question if I should go or not, my…
It's getting easier and easier to produce mediocre information. Anyone can remix anyone's ideas and churn out garbage at a disturbing rate. The only question on peoples minds anymore is 'why should I care'? The price of entry is genuine human experience. You need a story about an actual, real-world experience that…
Visualization is a strategy to create a mental image of your success. Daily journaling helps you visualize your success each day. Success in whatever you hope to achieve. It starts with identifying what you want to accomplish. I write a statement of intent. I will spend an hour working on organizing my archived…
I realized today that, it's entirely possible for my work to be tracking my every movement. When I open my laptop, when I'm idle, when I clock out - everything is checked. If they looked, they'd see how much time I waste thinking, doing my work outside the device they track me on. I wonder if in those moments, they…
Unstructured work is under appreciated. It's the kind of work you do when there are unknown unknowns. Or when you're searching for a solution that might exist, but you don't know where to look. Or the work you do in pursuit of perfection, which can never be recognised, except in its absence. The process can be…
Do you have a friend who is in a toxic relationship, and as an outsider, you think, "Why the heck are you still there? Isn't it obvious?" Well, I’ve been on both sides of that situation, and it's easier said than done. As an observer, you don't have any feelings attached, so you look at it more rationally. But…
every one i see talks about how essential freedom is. how it's what our soul craves. truth is, freedom has a price. hell, everything has a price. we're born when a mother pays the price of pain. to have something, we must give something. i have never felt so free and yet bounded. you cannot leave who you are at home.…
The reason people are mentally and physically ill are usually social and economic. People need friends and a feeling of belonging. They need a sense of purpose. Financial security. A safe home and hope for the future. I read a story about a group of lonely, anxious strangers who were tasked with restoring a park over…
Read this in a post on Instagram which said, "It's crazy how each day that passes feels the same, but when we look back, everything seems different." I was dissolved in a trail of thoughts. I think a big reason for this is that change often happens gradually, in a series of small events. It's not always a one-time…
Neither compliments. Head-ons. Incoming jokes. Anything that is sudden and unexpected... Take it slow. No uhhs no umms. Silence and think Can make you be so much more attractive Stop writing and start living more because honestly - after you "dumped" your thoughts like how you dump Fukushima waters You won't be going…
Creating positive experiences to share with others is easy. Consider your smile. Everyone wants to experience something that puts a smile on their face. You control your own smile. You can also make others smile. It’s easier than you think. Make a list of what makes you smile. Here are a few things that make me smile.…
I certainly don’t expect everyone to like /Lolita/ So what’s the matter with me not liking others that many like? I suppose I just want to know what there is to like! So what do I like about Nabokov? He has big dick energy, that’s the first thing. And he’s funny about it. And he creeps me out in the right ways. It’s a…
It's the first week back at my job after a two week vacation. I had a nice Monday: no meetings, just checking email, code reviews. Then, on Tuesday, the onslaught begins. Meetings, meetings, Slack, distractions, multiple threads, dropping balls all over the place. Feeling dumb. Here we go again. I got some feedback…
- andy warhol - tao lin - megan boyle - jordan castro - sheila heti i really want to eat some raisins right now what do all of these people have in common? their ratio of thoughtfulness to playfulness is just right they exude a level of wit&sillies that is just below the threshold required for actual laughter but that…
Until recently, the idea of relapsing never crossed my mind, and I used to dismiss it as an exaggeration. In my judgmental mindset, I couldn't understand why people couldn't just change for good if they truly wanted to. However, my perspective took a significant turn just a week ago. As I mentioned earlier, I embarked…
A few weeks back, my partner (a chef in her own right) began the process of bringing to life sour dough starter. We named him Barry. Just a few days later, she had to leave and I was left alone with Barry. And well I had to learn how to take care of him, which has been a highlight of 2023 so far. Every evening, I had…
Journaling has many benefits. One benefit you may not hear others talk about as much is increased productivity. My morning journaling session prepares me for a productive day. I use these three strategies. 1. Set priorities. I write at least one sentence for each priority task. I simply write what I plan to do. I may…
my original blogs have scores of posts written over the years. consolidated now on wordpress after a mid-stay at medium, it's a very haphazard collection mostly surrounding themes like, not surprisingly, human misery, love, heartbreak, and philosophy. i told a friend i am pursuing masters in philosophy and he said,…
Indian hospitals are choatic by nature. When something is build to cater to such a larger number of customers, the quality is bound to take a hit. At least, that's the justification we all come to believe in. It is a chaotic mess of patients, their family, security guards, nurses and doctors, all trying to coexist and…
"Sometimes, the heaviest things we carry are the things we never got to say" Grief is not a storm. It's the cupboard that won't open anymore. He found it on a Tuesday. That quiet, off-colored moment where nothing hurts and everything does. A sock without a pair. A phone with the number still saved. The absurdity of a…
Back to writing again, as I process emotions I've been avoiding for a while. I'm determined to be consistent this time. Last week marked one year since I escaped my abusive family. When I went back home to meet my dad, I was heartbroken to see how much he has aged since the last time I saw him. Despite still loving…
Some of the best things happen when you decide to go for it. I experienced one best thing when I challenged myself to journal gratitude. The Ship 30 for 30 writing cohort proved I could be a daily writer. What did I have to lose expanding my writing by keeping a gratitude journal for 30 days? I journaled gratitude a…
it's better to spend time alone than to be bored by people. after the norwegians left, i haven't really enjoyed hanging out with other people our age because all they want to talk about is BOAT PROJECTS and i sit there thinking about how they're wasting my time and how i wish i could go read and write but when you're…
Recently, the Indian prime minister Narendra Modi lambasted what he called 'revdi' culture at a public event. He was referring to the political practice of enticing voters - especially the poorer and lesser educated variety - with material goods in exchange for votes (revdi refers to a food item). For anyone who is…
