10.10.25
how did i get here - and where is everyone else?
Gathering thoughts…
Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
how did i get here - and where is everyone else?
I have always found myself constantly searching for that one thing that will turn my life around. That one solution that will solve all my problems and make everything better. I remember times when I have lacked patience and have sought instant results. For instance,when I started doing yoga, I wanted to do advanced…
We're taught to practice with only one colour. We're taught to choose only one niche to excel in life. Jack of all trades is master of none, right!? But, did you know the original version of this quote has another line? It says, "Jack of all trades is a master of none, but oftentimes better than a master of one." It…
Every year, either December or our birthday makes us a tad existential. If not overtly, at least somewhere in our head, we are wrapping up a year gone past us. We try to evaluate, albeit half-heartedly, how far we've come, where we'd like to go, and so forth. It is like attempting to gain back the control that we…
the first thing if you give it more time than it's worth. Try not to be alarmed. It will come back to you.
Our friends say they’ve experienced a lot of goodbyes and they used to not bother even saying hello until they learned that there’s a possibility you see each other again and that possibility makes the hello and intermittent goodbyes worthwhile. But there are many people I miss who I will never see again. The feeling…
I was in Italy for a week and just got back to Cambridge, UK. Arriving at the train station and driving through the city to my apartment in an Uber was a nice experience. A city I visited for the first time only three months ago, which felt so foreign back then, now feels so familiar. I recognize the routes, can…
“I think you should dream the earth, As it has a heart and breathes.” — Davi Kopenawa, interview with F. Watson. Pitch, but the dark did not impede the vision, the forest brought comfort and not fear, there were many tropical flowers with the most seductive tones, the cyan ones were light and moved slowly with the…
We love the fullness of life. It's so obvious why we enjoy everything around us. A new bike, a kayaking adventure, 10 sets of cutlery. But here's the question. Can you tap into that sense of enjoyment of NOT having something? A sense of cleanliness. A sense of simplicity. A sense of emptiness. A sense of possibility.…
I think it’s time to pick this thing back up and micro-journal daily. The goal. To create a writing habit that sticks.
I took my borrowed bike from the home at which I was staying in Okayama City, Japan. It was summer and hot. The insects always woke up first, giving off a smooth, undulating chatter like a room full of partygoers all conversing to the rhythm of an unseen conductor. I didn't know where I wanted to go, only that I…
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1V0rGf9PjzI wow when i play this piece it does not sound so interesting wtf how i guess he's just super into it when i play there are parts that i find boring and i don't try to make them interesting lol THAT'S WHY HE GETS PAID FOR THIS AND I DON'T (that plus technique hahahahaha) i'm…
Ahh recently i was prompted by someone to try a different technique for a creation. it was new to me and required patience to learn. as i played with the technique, my ideas evolved into a more interesting creation. now it is time to further that idea and create something even better...
My earliest memory of paperwork was the annual trip to National Book Center to buy brown paper which I would use to cover our text and note books. Then the beautiful letters that my Grandparents would write from New Delhi or the ones that my Masi would write from Boston. Also, the special note pad that my Father had…
she stood there broken because she heard someone she held dear telling another a sacred confession of public adoration and she stood and sobbed unaware of it all oblivious the same sadness consumes me when i recall that i don’t serve him dinners or he doesn’t hold me through oaths and i think to myself; you & me both
There's a famous story of a group of blind men who wanted to know what an elephant was like. These men had heard a lot about this majestic creature, so they travelled together to the king's palace to visit an elephant. Since none of them could see, each man had to use his sense of touch to feel what an elephant was…
AhhA an unexpected result from design presents itself as 'pure' dynamic creation. the next step for many is to panic or deem that design a failure. i like to think of it in terms of post-rationalization. now that design can succeed in a new form to tell more stories...
"Write what you know" suggests you already have starting material for saying something. As you begin to write what you know, hopefully you also begin to see what you don't know. So you do some research, re-evaluate what you know, and re-commence with your writing. The inverse is true, too. What you know is revealed in…
i hate how much i loved your laugh. i hate how lonely all of this growth feels. i hate that you never celebrated my hard work. i hate that i tried. i hate that i loved your car. i hate that i loved every bit of that part of you that made me hate myself. i hate that i stayed. i hate that i waited while your mouth…
People commonly fantasize about starting their own location-independent, million dollar businesses. I know several people who now work out of their boats. While there is a whole industry on entrepreneurship (e.g. books, social media figures, boot camps, communities) - the overall landscape is covered in survivorship…
There is a negotiation which I have with myself every time I am presented with an opportunity to get drunk. The decision to get drunk is despite all good sense - it is not a problem of knowledge or understanding. What tilts the balance in favor of the bottle is an innate desire to experience a high like never before -…
You’ll find I’m inclined to decline your kind line to wine and dine, as I pine to recline and unwind my mind.
I‘m really bad at finishing something significantly earlier than the deadline. One reason for that is procrastination - I just need this hard deadline in order to get going. I work best under pressure. Another reason is perfectionism. Often, I just can’t stop overthinking and fine-tuning something. Thus can be a good…
I started this year, finding out my supposed boyfriend had a pregnant finace. It was a nasty experience, but I had to forgive myself and forgive him to forge ahead.
hoje o impossível foi não me emocionar com Ary Borges, uma mulher preta fazendo história na copa de futebol feminino pela seleção brasileira. três gols e uma assistência que, pasmem, poderia ser feito por ela também, mas ela preferiu abrir os caminhos e tocar a bola para a jogadora mais próxima, Beatriz Zaneratto. foi…
ایکیگای ۴ محور اصلی دارد. کارهایی که دوست داریم انجام دهیم، کارهایی که در آنها مهارت داریم، کارهایی که از آنها میتوانیم کسب درآمد کنیم و در نهایت کارهایی که جهان به آنها نیاز دارد. از چه کاری هیچ وقت خسته نمیشویم؟ چه مواقعی خیلی خوشحال هستیم؟ هنگام انجام چه کاری گذر زمان را متوجه نمیشویم؟ در گذشته چه کاری ما را سر…
There's been talk on Twitter lately about the massive funds of the Wikimedia Foundation. I had no idea, and I think others were surprised too. It makes sense, though. I was always surprised at the professionalism of their work compared to the homemade vibe of the volunteer communities that run the wikis. They use…
Being an introvert is not often a bad thing, especially in later stages in life. It becomes arduous to find people you can relate to and be comfortable around. It is either because everyone changes from being naive. Or it is because we just happen to interact with a lot more people to which we aren't habituated.…
every one i see talks about how essential freedom is. how it's what our soul craves. truth is, freedom has a price. hell, everything has a price. we're born when a mother pays the price of pain. to have something, we must give something. i have never felt so free and yet bounded. you cannot leave who you are at home.…
we hung out with a new sailor today; well, new to us, not new to sailing. and we did NOT hit it off. at some point i could feel that he was trying to leave. it was like he was waiting for us to say something that we never ended up saying. what was it that he wanted us to say? i wonder what it is that made me hit it…
Hoje eu passei o dia todo trabalhando em um artigo para o fechamento de uma matéria da pós. Da próxima vez, preciso pegar um tema mais fácil. O medo de lidar com grandes corporações e seu cinismo em relatórios oficiais e também na imprensa é grande. O que parece apenas desonestidade tem como pano de fundo estratégias…
I need to recognize that taking decisions is one of the worst things for me. I like what Shubham said - do things that you can which are in your control and hope for the best. I am finding it very difficult to take a decision. And I think the reason I struggle so much with it is because I: 1. strongly fear the blame…
My son eyes aren't teaming properly. They create blurry images. To compensate his brain shuts off his weak eye and overloads his dominant eye. This knock-on effects are reading fatigue, inability to stay focused, etc. We may have scratched this up to ADHD and sought medication. Thankfully, my wife kept pulling the…
I had another heavy conversation with my mom today. I’ve noticed she often has these outpouring sessions ever so periodically where she shares her pain and hurtful past incidents with me. 1. I’ve noticed a lot of repetition in the stories she narrates and I believe these are unresolved issues and conflicts that she…
I love just how quiet this interface is.
Post graduation, I recently moved to Bangalore for employment. The weather which has been its trademark selling point was unsurprisngly good. Its rain however seems to be lacking in discussion, while Bangalore's overall weather is hilariously unpredictable. You'll find yourself wearing summer shorts on rainy days and…
Maybe this is a lesson in never taking anything for granted. I’m not even sure why and how we’ve landed at this place, but we have. Questioning the foundation of something I never thought I’d need to question. Because this was the axiom upon which everything was built. But I guess, here we are. Time to wait and see…
When we feel displeased with someone, we make every effort to stop any interaction with them. It is liberating to see the difference it makes. In fact, once we have managed to master this detachment, we tend to feel bouts of motivation. The real tragedy is when something that causes us great pain is nothing alien but…
Eu vi Erycah Badu. Cara, que intensa. Ela é o tipo de pessoa que se fizesse uma seita, eu seria a primeira a entrar. Bruxona, catártica, muito além da mente. Ganhei o show de graça numa promoção do Instagram e não tava botando fé, mas rolou de verdade. Cheguei e falaram que meu nome não estava na lista, mostrei…
Most schools, at least the kind I went to too, are pointless and do more harm than good. People spend about 15 years of their life in schools. During this period, I feel they loose creativity and curiosity. They are taught to compete with peers and learn that failing is a bad thing. They are taught things which are…
the air seemed void and no one knew why, even the loudest ones got dazed, maybe shy. the girl on the clouds, yet on floor, seemed as if she would outpour any minute her tears, a galloon, those eyes bear. all the elation, all that frenzy, all the fury that made her crazy. why did she hide them, until today? but not…
Is a mix of competency and warmth. Find the balance - you can’t be too friendly but don’t know anything at the same time. To have charisma you need competent And you need to radiate out with the right amount of body & language works (way of converse, thoughts, vocabs - language is the best way to exhibit & market…
Have you ever been pretty drunk but had these fleeting moments of clarity? Like you snap out of the buzz for a few seconds and your mind functions normally? Sometimes you have these moments even when you are not drunk. You could be going on with life as usual, going through the motions. Suddenly you snap out of it.…
I reached for a jar on a shelf and this happened. Lots of things are breaking down around me, and now I see what God is doing. His pattern is to break things before he builds them into something newer + better. That’s exactly what’s happening in my life right now. Things are breaking down left and right, because he…
(original: 2010 November 8, excerpt) f|back: when my friend oracle speaks ... ... or [when my friend "oracle"] types ... when i chat with my friend, i enjoy the intellectual banter that ensues. my friend earned the nickname from "the oracle of delphi" - he shared a series of different answers to his daughter's…
It's the Friday afternoon, the feeling of welcoming the weekend starts setting in, a few have made plans for Friday night, while a few are making plans for a mini vacation, a few are just thinking to just sleep and forget away the week that has gone by... U start to hear the excitement around the floor and the noise…
Don’t forget your party favor! Thanks for coming to my birthday party yesterday. I'm glad you could make it. I've learned a lot in 65 years. I started writing so I could share it with you. You might have to spend some money on my gift to you yesterday. Today's party favor is also a list of life lessons, but these only…
I subjected myself to another thought experiment yesterday (12th September) to try and figure out if i could break down and understand how and why I feel a certain way. I purposefully sat down to think through and break down my issues with his past and try to figure out why it hurt me or why I did not like the fact…