Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
I missed journalling yesterday. But i do want to capture my thoughts. So here goes. I had a conversation with mummy today. I was as usual badgering her about not having confidence, not putting herself out there, etc. But after a while, i realised something that I have always known, but did not register. Mom's problem…
It's used to justify atrocities, it's used to discriminate, it's used to oppress and most importantly it is used to squash debate on critical topics. The very opportunity to improve a good endeavour can be shut down by using the "making the world better" card. They key is not whether it is making the world better or…
You’ve heard you should journal first thing in the morning. Get up early to spend some time with gratitude and bring clarity to the day to come. You’ve heard you should journal at night. Don’t go to bed without reflecting on your day and settling your mind. I advised both of those. You must journal both in the morning…
Coming home to a refreshing pool, a beautiful sunset, a delicious BBQ dinner, surrounded by loving parents feels like paradise. I‘m so lucky.
Creating is hard - so much harder than consuming. Sometimes I find myself trapped in a consumption hole, paralized by the amount of blood, sweat, and tears it takes to create. Consuming might be way easier and more stimulating in the short term. However, it is not fulfilling; it's a trap. Creating is hard, but it is…
I'm currently at an interesting event in Italy as a filmmaker and photographer. The location is fantastic, the weather is perfect, yet I feel empty. There are the participants and the client's team. And then there’s me – neither part of one or the other. This would be fine if my work were the main focus, but it’s not.…
Often, when we do things we overlook things and don't see the blind spots. In retrospect they look stupid and trivial to point that you get harsh on yourself. You often say things to yourself like "how can you be so dumb?" and "i should have been careful and not so naive". You start questioning your ability and it…
honestly, i'm not even sure if it's a skill to have, but two underrated skills are longevity (or persistence) and focus. first let's start with longevity. i was listening to a david dobrik's podcast a few days ago and he was saying that he didn't really speak to any friends he made in his first year in LA. not because…
I resonated with this idea of writing and sharing without any distraction or expecting any reaction. It feels weird at first, we'll see how it goes. Is anybody out there? Pink floyd dixit. Hope it does. If so, give me a sign.
你先去做 做出一堆狗屎 在慢慢去改. 只要做了 你就会发现你的技术会改进 “你可以懒惰 粗燥的做 可是千万不要想你变得完美了 才去做”
and who teach me how to love things i met a girl who loves to cook and garden and by hanging out with her, or maybe by cooking with her, i grew to LOVE cooking and just hearing her talk about gardening made me love gardening more i had a friend in hs who was an Arts & Culture Self-Guided Exploration Master and she…
Being you is therapy to your soul heart and brain .But yes it is not easy and can be lonely most of times! But cherishing your own self your ideals your perspectives of life can be so soothing ! Stop chasing to be like someone who you don’t want to be like . Be YOu & your brain can rest in your skull taxfree
My initial foray into technology saw me working for a venture capital firm, where I became indoctrinated with the idea that tech companies must follow a pretty standardised path, raising multiple rounds of funding before a big splashy exit. And for a while, this sounded like something I wanted. More recently though,…
Everything is scripted. Media. Social media. Social circles. Everything is designed to pull emotion from your soul. That unsettled soul feeds the system, runs the power of the show. Our lives as words on a piece of (digital) paper amongst a (digital) reality. We are both the actors and the viewers. Actors desperate…
In LYT, a question posed was exploring whether folks lack interest in publishing. Part of the context was one's possible tendency to focus too much on expressing one's self to one's self. Here's my abridged/edited response. --- I don't know if there is a right or wrong approach about one's publishing process. I face a…
Today I changed the layout of my phone. Home screen has only three widgets: Google Search, Spotify, My Tasks. Next screen has Weather, Gmail, and eight spots for apps. Next screen has only a calendar. I doom scroll entirely too much and this is an attempt to stop that. So far, so good. I intend on contributing a daily…
Last weekend, I ran for two and a half hours straight. No music, no podcasts, no one beside me, just me, the road, and whatever my mind decided to say. I used to think that sounds lonely, but it actually never feels that way. It’s something I look forward to all week, those long, quiet hours where I can hear myself…
Both my folks are the least loved, miserly happy kids in their respective families. Both have been at complete agreement to all decisions their parents have made for them. Yet both have terrible personal lives but have made peace with the perils of this life.
I think the hardest thing I’ve had to do is to decide who to be as a creator. Helping others explore and develop their creativity felt much easier than developing my own. There is such joy in standing with another creative and helping them t o aim their creative arrows toward their desired target.…
I've always been fascinated by things that don't belong together in any context. Monkeys and forget-me-nots. Pencils and wheels. Embers and bubbles. They don't, have not, and will not belong together in any plausible context. I suppose the magic lies in bringing unlikely beings together, a trope I absolutely adore. It…
so i have been very lost in my mental health for the past few weeks, not getting enough meditation in, i bounced back on pornography, my workouts have been inconsistent, i am not studying enough. I feel guilty for not doing enough, always, no matter how much work i do, i just feel that i can get more of it done. I…
Disclaimer : this might feel like a let down if you were expecting profound insights. Assumption : increased screen time reduces the evolutionary fitness of a person (yes yes that is debatable) Children who have had seizures are advised to restrict their screen time, because flickering lights can induce a seizure…
I recently came across Anna Lembke's content on YouTube & tapped into my hitherto latent interest in the neurochemistry of pain and pleasure. Fun fact: pleasure & pain circuits in the brain are co-located, i.e., the same part of the brain processes both pain and pleasure. Anyway... I had often caught myself…
the air seemed void and no one knew why, even the loudest ones got dazed, maybe shy. the girl on the clouds, yet on floor, seemed as if she would outpour any minute her tears, a galloon, those eyes bear. all the elation, all that frenzy, all the fury that made her crazy. why did she hide them, until today? but not…
the first thing if you give it more time than it's worth. Try not to be alarmed. It will come back to you.
We love conclusions. Conclusions lend certainty to identity, relationships, and thought experiments. For instance, soon after a conversation, we are quick to think,"Oh this person is cool." Even with thought experiments we shade the experiment with what we know to be true from our experience. Let's say if someone asks…
You're a man, 1. Wake up early. 2. Pray. 3. Make your bed. 4. Brush your teeth. 5. Drink a glass of water. 6. Review your to-do list. 7. Meditate. 8. Read. 9. Write. 10. Lift. 11. Stay sober. 12. Increase your income. Nothing hurts a man like zero progress in his life.
my original blogs have scores of posts written over the years. consolidated now on wordpress after a mid-stay at medium, it's a very haphazard collection mostly surrounding themes like, not surprisingly, human misery, love, heartbreak, and philosophy. i told a friend i am pursuing masters in philosophy and he said,…
"The clear breakthrough for me Was realizing everyone I was admiring online, spent most of their time creating and engaging offline" - @hipcityreg There's a french expression that goes "goutte d'eau qui fait déborder le vase" which effectively translate to "the last drop to make the vase overflow" and that's what…
In every job, there is a toughness and a hardness (difficulty) - everything has a level for you to attain; not everything is easy. In every job. Even if you’re not in the dream job yet you cannot lose your identity. You have to fight hard and do your best in every situation - earn as much, or learn as much: and do…
I woke up today with anger. I’m just so angry and so frustrated. Nelson told me about how he reacted to Pandu saying that your girlfriend is only not on your side, don’t talk. He was so upset then that I wasn’t on his side. And now he realises that he never thought about it from my side. That unless I saw the logic,…
It's a weird feeling. The feeling of having nothing to say, to anybody. You can't go on dates because you've nothing to speak, let alone impress them. You fear calls from friends, cause after five minutes of niceties, it's silence of the most awkward kind. Actually, that's when you kinda get the realisation that…
I asked fate for courage and fate gave me situations to become brave. I asked fate for success and fate made me earn it. I asked fate for strength and fate gave me the opportunity to become stronger.
Look at our movies, they are full of blood and violence. Look at the combat sports we enjoy, the crowd goes berserk when there's blood or if someone gets knocked out. These serve as an outlet for our suppressed violent selves. I think this ties back with the way humans became apex predators, our ancestors were…
In my 4th decade I realize that 40s is the real inflection point in our lives - few reflections. 1. Curiosity: Whether getting lost in encyclopedia during my younger days to now reading up about cars. Somewhere during the Social Media era, my curiosity had become perfomative, I caught this bug of sounding…
Is a mix of competency and warmth. Find the balance - you can’t be too friendly but don’t know anything at the same time. To have charisma you need competent And you need to radiate out with the right amount of body & language works (way of converse, thoughts, vocabs - language is the best way to exhibit & market…
Step 4 - There are some things you keep ready in advance, like 2 finely chopped tomatoes, a bunch of coriander leaves, and half lemon. Now add them all to the the cooker. And stir them well. In the figure of eight..? Yes, try. The tomatoes will release a lot of water. Keep stirring well to mash the tomatoes…
Used to feel anxious and NOT wanting to do any work because feels like it’s forced But now I feel - it’s OKAY to just go with the flow ESPECIALLY that will get you to where you want Rather than wasting time feeling bad and not good about it Think of it as a learning experience! Everything might be new If you just…
We're all busy beings. Gotta do this. Gonna make that. Stuff on my plate. Things on my list. Then there's the stuff we want to do but can't seem to get together. A little more movement. Deeper sleep. Sorting that room out in the back. Putting some time into the garden. Finishing that book. All the shoulds. Languishing…
As writers, we long to express (our) thoughts and be heard. In today's climate, we castrate authenticity from artists willing to push (against) the global consensus. Luckily, those daring enough, regardless of the consequences — barge through any boundaries that are societally placed within (our) psyches. I adore the…
How to get attracted is to be interesting - study the material and know the content Not aiming to play with words or being superficial like looks etc… Be interesting means reading more about it, actually infuse and understand it, being in the moment to joke around You wanted to be original & you don’t want to copy…
Eu me sinto um ET quando depois de um dia inteiro de trabalho intenso, não tenho energia para ir pra bar e ficar bebendo até 22h, sendo que eu sei que preciso acordar amanhã de novo às 6h e pouca da manhã... Onde essas pessoas (a maioria) arranja energia para fazer isso? Sinto que vim com um defeito de fábrica. Hoje…
Are you new to journaling? You need to be journaling at night. Before you're off to bed, you need an opportunity to put thought into your day. Your experiences Words you said Actions you took What made you happy, or what made you mad. You will want to solve the problems that you face tomorrow. Or maybe you need to…
I am a crow widow. Tonight the crows took my wife from me. I knew this day was coming. They called to her for months, drew her with shiny gifts. And she courted them too, attracted by their intellect, the prehistoric tilt of their heads. She was always too good for me. I knew that from the start. But I never imagined…
We often look to this quote with fondness and admiration. We often use this quote to inspire and motivate. For a new skill. For a promotion. For a healthier lifestyle. Yet we are often baffled and surprised when we see the other side of the same coin. The ugliness of how negative small changes can add up too. For…
What is existence but a search for answers that never quite come. Existence reflects patterns. Patterns that one must recognize in order to survive. What if... the internal discomfort of specific patterns exists for a reason? What if... the shaming of pattern-recognition is coordinated for the sake of mental…
[since pretty much no one would be able to find this link unless they saw my goodreads account, i've decided to put a lot of my book-focused ideas here] some readers are also writers, but sometimes people are just purely readers. i'm watching tokyochemist on youtube compare virginia woolf and ottessa moshfegh and she…
Really hoping this is the last restaurant I ever work at and end my cooking career with a bang and make something cool happen while working at this place. Been 3 months since I've started and it's been a pleasure so far.
