18th September - anger anger anger

I woke up today with anger.

I’m just so angry and so frustrated.

Nelson told me about how he reacted to Pandu saying that your girlfriend is only not on your side, don’t talk. He was so upset then that I wasn’t on his side. And now he realises that he never thought about it from my side. That unless I saw the logic, why should I agree?? And even Shivani was telling him “yea, you shouldn’t have done that”

That makes me so angry. Very good, you realised your mistake now, even Shivani as a third party agrees it’s your mistake. Should I sit now and clap that you’ve realised your mistake? When it mattered, you did not realise it. When it mattered, you put me through hell. You made me question my own sense of right and wrong and just made me feel simply criminal for not automatically being on your side. You made me lose confidence in myself.

Shivani would have agreed back then also. You would have hated her back then and told her she’s wrong then also.

Now that you have realised your mistake and have changed, does it take away from the pain I experienced? Do you want me to give you credit for it and start liking you again?

Yes. You’re right. When you changed and tried to convince me to the best of your ability that you changed, I didn’t believe you. You blame me for that. There was nothing you could do. I didn’t leave you with any option anta. No. There was an option. You could have left. you could have ended the relationship and moved away. You didn’t either.