11.10.25
all’s too loud, I need silence it’s whining like sirens a buzz so strong, a hum so intense it suffocates every thought in my head indecision of a mind split in two all sense disperses tunnel vision pulling through
Gathering thoughts…
Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
all’s too loud, I need silence it’s whining like sirens a buzz so strong, a hum so intense it suffocates every thought in my head indecision of a mind split in two all sense disperses tunnel vision pulling through
Today, it’s easier than ever to live the life you want. It doesn’t take long scrolling social media to see words like intention, mindfulness, and goals. The question is, do you know what you want? “Nothing will bring you peace except yourself.” -Ralph Waldo Emerson You must know yourself to know what you want. With…
My realization started with undershirts and socks. I have many possibilities. In fact, I find them everywhere. Some undershirts were old and worn. Others sat neglected. Why did I have them? Toss! Then I tackled my socks. I discovered over the years I had been hoarding socks. Why? This is where the mindset of…
I read a fascinating essay about the role of imagination in expanding human experience and how actors are a conduit for the audience to travel through the art they are witnessing. That's loosely the inspiration for this post, although you will find it to be slightly different. Plato viewed the power of imagination, or…
Lembre-se que todo minuto dentro da ficção custa tempo da sua vida real. Durma direito. Tome sol pela manhã. Hidrate-se. Faça uma atividade física. Caminhe. Alimente-se melhor. Escolha bem suas companhias. Semeie e cultive bons relacionamentos. Aprecie a lua. Passe mais tempo com quem te aprecia. Saiba lutar pelos…
Today I changed the layout of my phone. Home screen has only three widgets: Google Search, Spotify, My Tasks. Next screen has Weather, Gmail, and eight spots for apps. Next screen has only a calendar. I doom scroll entirely too much and this is an attempt to stop that. So far, so good. I intend on contributing a daily…
and it pains me not to know whose orgasm i came from. Everybody makes babies about moms. But everybody’s born from their dad’s orgasm. It’s almost like as a society we were meant to make numerical decisions. If you ask one person to guess the number of jelly beans in the jar, they will likely get it wrong. But if you…
Following routines are the easiest way to build a new habit. If your new habit is journaling, to reduce the daily struggle by using a format as part of your routine. As a beginner, you don't know your ultimate format. Start with a simple format to increase your chance of consistency. More complex formats can come…
If you've read my last post, you know that I've been obsessed with Kanye for the past few weeks. It's pretty much the only thing I listen to and have been greatly inspired by his album, My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy. But yesterday, when I was re-listening to MBDTF for the nth time, I enjoyed it way more than the…
In a culture that often emphasizes balance and self-compassion, advice to avoid being too hard on oneself is common. Phrases like “It’s not good to be so strict!” or “You shouldn’t force yourself!” may seem well-intentioned, but I believe they reflect a misunderstanding of self-discipline and personal growth. While…
Back in India, I read an article called "Travel is no cure for the mind" [https://moretothat.com/travel-is-no-cure-for-the-mind/]. It illustrated how changing your surroundings is not the answer to existential angst or the pursuit of joy and fulfillment in life. And while the article covered sufficient ground…
What happens when the community and beliefs that helped shape our minds and lives start to fail us? When the questions start to accumulate and remain unanswered or unacknowledged, a gap starts to form. If we’re fortunate enough, the community recognizes this and starts building bridges. If not, we’re forced to jump…
One of the most startling aspects of becoming a father is how that experience somehow heightens every emotion in life. The highs are much higher than pre-fatherhood, while lows are more difficult to accept. In some ways, there is plenty to learn when you become a new father. First, that 'newness' never leaves.…
Hoje eu fiz as pazes com uma grande amiga, uma daquelas amigas que estavam aqui desde que o Guilherme Candido deixou de ser Guilherme Hurts, cresceu barba e disse que tinha o sonho de fazer filmes. Essa amizade me auxiliou no caminho tortuoso do audiovisual e me fez chegar em outros lugares que eu não teria chego…
There are chaos in my head. An ocean's worth of storms inside a skull. Contradicting ideas and thoughts fighting each other like storms in the seas. However, there is no victor. Intrusive thoughts making me question my own thoughts and self. This goes to anyone who can relate with me. You, I see you. I hope we will…
last week, i fell into an argument with jaime who pushed back against my desire to investigate the workings of the orb. “theres no figuring out how it works” they said. “nothing here makes logical sense, nor should it. we just have to trust in the path that this planet is giving us. the orb is an opportunity to…
ano passado eu fiz uma lista das coisas que eu achava que seriam essenciais para mim este ano. sem elas eu não viveria, pensava. este ano eu conquistei muitas coisas e me recordo que três delas estavam nessa bendita lista: comprar um violão bom porque senão eu não teria mais como tocar, comprar um notebook porque…
Every now and then I try some podcasts, the ones you find in the homepage of spotify. And I hate them, they're impossible to listen to. I don't know, maybe at speaker school they teach to speak that way, but it is too much. Too much energy, artificial happiness, the necessity to make everything as lightweight as…
On our first official full day in Finland I realized how lucky I am to have experienced so many cultures and seen so many different countries/continents. My mom couldn't stop stopping at every single corner to take pictures about the silliest things (in my opinion), for example, being surprised at how blue the sky…
Extractive systems exhaust resources by removing them faster than they replenish. These systems are parasitic, while regenerative systems are symbiotic. Regenerative systems protect and enrich what they depend on. Consider a few regenerative examples: - A regenerative economy would protect the natural energy systems…
Almost feels like people reveal themselves only on the internet anonymously nowadays. It makes me wonder whether she is reacting like this because she wants to continue the conversation or she is being genuine. Everyone has a mask irl. Idk anymore.
For about a month now, I’ve been working on writing a novel from an idea I’ve been working out for a few years. While writing a novel is something I’ve always wanted to do it is somewhat daunting. I began writing this story a few years ago as a graphic novel, but found myself discouraged when I couldn’t afford to pay…
I tend to resist structure as it feels like a slippery slope to conformity. But as more and more of life consists of simply changing tabs or apps on a fixed screen, it's easy to get lost without any sense of beginning or end. We talk about feeling stuck because of our 9-5s, and tout the benefits of blending work and…
Being an introvert is not often a bad thing, especially in later stages in life. It becomes arduous to find people you can relate to and be comfortable around. It is either because everyone changes from being naive. Or it is because we just happen to interact with a lot more people to which we aren't habituated.…
It's crazy how effortlessly our perceptions shift and how quickly we adapt to new circumstances, seamlessly readjusting our sense of "normal." Our readiness to adjust so swiftly demonstrates our remarkable ability to thrive, no matter the circumstances.
i just wrote back my father in-law -- who asked me where i am spending christmas, on the boat or back to the US -- that i'm indeed spending christmas on the boat as to save money for boat projects and that i'm looking forward to reading (a thomas bernhard book, i said) and writing if he were to ask which thomas…
You need someone you can tell everything. I share with my friends. They know a lot about me, but they don’t know everything. You can tell your journal everything. This essay and the next are examples of how I use my journals as a best friend. You may be surprised when your journal gives you an answer. I often clear my…
What if augmented reality (AR) went beyond simply projecting (virtual, simplified) models of objects into our existing world? AR should be a true expansion of our sensory inputs, enhancing how we experience reality. Scientific instruments already achieve this by allowing us to perceive phenomena beyond our natural…
Hoje é o aniversário do Ola, o meu marido. Levantei às 8h da manhã para tomarmos o café da manhã juntos e qual foi a minha surpresa ao abrir a cortina? Me deparar com um céu inteiro cor-de-rosa e um arco-íris se alongando de ponta a ponta, como se estivesse me mostrando onde está o pote de ouro que tanto tenho…
India or Netherlands? Business or job? Self-made or ovarian lottery? There is no right or wrong. There are nuances to this question. M tells me to have an honest chat with my parents. She may be right. Sometimes, we make things up in our minds. Those thoughts reflect in our behaviour. That behaviour then attracts…
"You're in the kitchen, frying up some good food, and the oil is running a little low in the pan, so you add some, and the food starts sizzling again, and the aroma fills the kitchen. That's what it felt like. It was so nice." My aunt, who is in her nineties, had her grandson, his wife, and five great-grandchildren…
We're taught to practice with only one colour. We're taught to choose only one niche to excel in life. Jack of all trades is master of none, right!? But, did you know the original version of this quote has another line? It says, "Jack of all trades is a master of none, but oftentimes better than a master of one." It…
Can we all just agree to spell the word "thru?" Imagine the environmental impact of saving all those electrons and ink not having to write "through." Probably won't happen, tho.
I've been immersing myself in this world of meme coins over the past few weeks. It was a simple idea, I'm trying to find the best investment portfolio for financial liberation, a mix of long term & short term holds. Along this journey, I stumbled across meme coins, it seemed like the perfect playground to test my…
A spiritual advisor said "gratitude is an action." So as we send text messages and, for the special ones, phone calls of gratitude to those in our life, it is time for me to reflect on how I display gratitude, rather that a simple admission of being "thankful." To my wife and family, I am grateful. She has a full time…
Help me out. Tell me what I'm supposed to expect here. I have a lot of projects to share progress on right when every social platform is failing me. So, help me out. Is this it?
You might be able to sum up the dharma with “comparison is the thief of joy”. Just expand the comparison to not be versus other people, but versus anything and everything. Your food fell on the floor, and it’s made you sad? Now you’re comparing having the candy versus not having the candy. Let go of it. You stubbed…
A while back at a public event, I saw a guy with a shirt that had a design with those words (it was a cool design btw). It was one of those moments that you are like "ohhh, cool shirt" and that's it. But the phrase got stuck in my head, so much so that later on, I wrote a note on my cellphone. With everything I've…
people want to have good intentions. and often, they do. but as with all things human, the reality is blurrier than that. we ourselves can be tricked by these intentions. disguised as selfless, acts of kindness can be like a shield from responsibility. how quickly we devolve from the purest aims to bitterness and…
Journaling is the ultimate in self-care. Self-care is taking action to do what you need for your physical and mental health. Keep in mind your physical and mental health are intertwined. It’s challenging to have one without the other. Journaling is the most valuable tool for self-care. Writing a conversation with…
posts in the discover tab only shows posts from 2022, wonder if this platform is still active.
somewhere between platonic and romantic there is you & me. i don't see your eyes when the lights are off. take my hand-- we dance. romance?
Olha. Ainda estou internada. E assim, não sai da minha cabeça o funk puta rica, puta mexicana. Eu não consigo parar de cantar isso e já está me irritando, apesar de engraçado. Não é uma música que eu ouço, mas tava no Twitter e apareceu um cara cujo nome é Xurrasquinho (daí você vê kkkkk) dançando ela. Desde então,…
Recipe: lots of awareness and curiosity on how your backside contributes to your movement, a bit of tension in your lower abs, lots of micro exercises to train your mind, and a couple medium-hard workouts. Took 2-3 weeks, not much time every day. Result: My body feels more alive, my back hurts less. This morning it…
I googled synonyms for happiness because I didn't want to sound cliché but all of them sounded too pretentious. Lol. This is just a personal take on the feeling that everyone is so bent on finding. I’d read headlines off of newspapers and magazines that told me stories of people and the lives they lived. To me at that…
These are the big things I'm thinking of right now: 1. Trade less Last cycle I was obsessed with rebalancing portfolios and trying to be agile. I made a stupid number of trades, often daily. I got lost, it didn't really work, and it was exhausting. This time around, I will be more deliberate and intentional. 2.…
You started to feel anxious because You are comparing yourself to your friends subconsciously Your brain tells you and giving you signals that you didn’t know “Preparing yourself” don’t mean you need to putting yourself into stressful situations It just means adjusting your mindset That given certain situations - what…
Know the workings of the system. Think about - deep dive into internal work on yourself. People leave you again and again and again. Is it your immaturity to actually think it’s their fault? It’s so normal for people to leave for their own goods. You must be mature if you don’t have the power or influence on their…