Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
I'm no Psychologist, but I have a theory about human behaviour. We're all trying to maximise the following: Intrinsic Enjoyment x (Social Capital + Financial Capital) Let me break it down. First, a few definitions: 1. Intrinsic Enjoyment: How much you enjoy doing something, independent of any external rewards. 2.…
i have never recovered from the love i felt for you it doesn't matter if someone is bf material or not--you can fall in love with them--because it's not for the sake of making them your bf that you fell in love with them
i just called myself "we" like i'm fucking King Henry the VIII
Spoilers ahead! Joy/Jobu, a character I resonated with after a long time. The anguish, lost mind, unheard sobs, hopeless eyes and whatever she was made of. I was feeling nothing like her. I felt it when she said "If Nothing Matters, Then All The Pain And Guilt You Feel For Making Nothing Of Your Life Goes Away." The…
We're always optimising that we lose the ability to really enjoy any moment. We are always trying to see, "How can I get the most of this moment". If you look at Efficiency as a formula = Value out of this moment / Time spent on this moment. Then we have begun to optimise for both = Getting most value, whilst spending…
Really this is just a place where I am going to keep my notes about things I am currently learning/working on or have learned in the past. Maybe some code snippets (not that I know any language fully). I suspect this blog is going to be all over the place as I am going to try to write about what I know, what I am…
Nov 20, 2023 marks a few approaching ends—the conclusion of the year, the nearing end of my mid-20s, and the closing of this chapter of my life. I have found a myriad of tools to distract me from my anxiety, with nostalgia being a key one. I dress in '90s fashion to emulate the teenagers I saw when I was a kid in LA,…
Imagine if a team could share ownership of a company's social media presence without being told what to do and without a huge amount of process or formality getting in the way. The way I see it, a company exists to help people solve a problem. They already have a group of the most qualified people to solve that…
I am feeling very overwhelmed by my work. It seems like a never ending pit of tasks to do. No matter what i do to figure it out, it is still pending. More and more and more. I cannot seem to reach any conclusion. Perhaps this is because it is such menial, manual work. Perhaps because it is the extent of…
who is the most important person? is it your spouse? is it a parent? is it your child? is it you? the truth is, none of these people should be the most important... at least not all the time the most important person needs to be the one in front of you whomever you're with, they deserve your undivided attention it…
In 2020, I had this grand plan and it was unorthodox, but effective. I traded in my Android smart phone for a feature phone. I stopped reading the news religiously. I started to write more. And by hand. I would take notes on pen and paper writing in cursive to maximize my recall and memory. It all worked. I started…
Estou de férias e ontem, como não poderia deixar de ser pela lei de murphy, era 18h e eu ainda estava trabalhando. Depois, sai sozinha pra comer lamen, na companhia do meu Kindle. Terminei o livro do clube do livro tomando um bom caldo de porco com macarrão e alga. Tomei uma coca cola sem gelo e com limão e pedi…
My first post here. Exploring So far so good. I <3 nicheless's clean interface 0 bloat.
Now in the early years of my fourth decade as an adult, am trying to determine what will end up being my go to cocktail in this decade. Wine has and will always remain my trusted and loyal companion at home. Beer will be that calm, peaceful and silent friend walking by my side. But a cocktail will take on a…
Today we had a lawyer friend of my dad and his 19 year old son who is about to study law visiting. In our conversation we started discussing AI and the future. This not only highlighted my deep immersion in the tech world but also surprised and somewhat triggered me by seeing once again just how naive some educated…
What is a model for radical honesty, and how can we communicate it in a way that others understand both our actions and their role in them? Consider a quadrant with "benefit to self" and "benefit to others" as its cornerstones. The opposite side consists of losses to oneself and others. Examining this model, what…
Never be stressful about relationships Even when the Grab driver is doing stupid things such as driving a bit to the front when you walk towards it - I don’t know what is his intentions but if I step forward and go forward and fight: it’s a waste of time. I will keep thinking about the negative points and I’ll be…
devo ter escrito sobre isso aqui em algum momento... não me lembro e não quero procurar. mas queria falar hoje sobre criação. o que nos forma enquanto humanos, o que molda nossa personalidade. o poder das pessoas cuidadoras na nossa vida corrente. estava na cop30 e entre festas madrugadas adentro e muito trabalho,…
Liberals defend the value of freedom of speech, but they are silent when asked what that speech ought to contain. Liberals fight in favor of the rule of law and due process, but when asked what the law ought to be, they have no preference. Liberals believe in free markets and private enterprise, but when asked for…
What wellness practice(s) do you do for your business? Not too different from how I take care of my own health/wellness (e.g., annual check-ups, nourishment, movement, recovery/sleep time) - since about 2003 (more than 20 years), I do 3 types of SOLO / SELF activities, with minimal to zero discussions with…
Twitter is not so much a social media company as a core part of the global digital infrastructure. Today, that core infrastructure that hosts billions of messages - from the public communications of governments, corporations, civil society and celebrities to the mundane rants of ordinary citizens - is about to pass,…
Okay, it's 2022 and i'm 45 y/o and i still don't know what i want to do with my life. I wonder if surviving and not to be a burden is good enough goals.
today is sunday and the air has a quiet and restful quality and i have decided to go with the energy and do whatever i want to do, wander with my mind. and youtube is recommending me videos with 43 likes by people with 2.23k followers [i'm talking about the channel tokyochemist; she talks about books] and i am so…
This is hard to admit, but I've been struggling with reading long form content. Today, I opened an article, and half way through, I put my phone down cos I just couldn't take it. I forced myself to go back and read the rest of it. It's worrying me that my attention is not mine anymore, and there's a bunch of reading I…
The newsletter is dead. At least that's what (relatively) smart people on Twitter are saying. I wanted to think about it. So I'm writing. What is a newsletter? It's a bunch of content that reaches people. The OG newsletter was probably a newspaper. Difficult to create, print and distribute. The difficulty at every…
Everything is scripted. Media. Social media. Social circles. Everything is designed to pull emotion from your soul. That unsettled soul feeds the system, runs the power of the show. Our lives as words on a piece of (digital) paper amongst a (digital) reality. We are both the actors and the viewers. Actors desperate…
Llegué. Fui recebida por um motorista sorridente. Vi primeiro o céu, que de um amanhecido recente, servia de palco para passarinhos dançantes. Até os prédios, de tão grandes, refletiam o que parece ser normal por essas terras: o calor de gente. Calor de salsa, de sol, de tesão, de pimenta. Calor que nem sei como é que…
Este é o primeiro natal que passo em Berlim. Diferentemente do que eu esperava, o dia amanheceu com um solzinho ralé que tirou a cor cinzenta do dia. A temperatura agradável de 8ºC me permitiu usar um vestido midi verde de cetim com mangas 7/8 e fechado até o pescoço. Comportado, bonito e brilhante. Estávamos todos…
Storytelling is one of the oldest pastimes. Growing up you look forward to hearing stories from your parents or grandparents. Once we grow up, we enjoy stories through various mediums like books, movies, TV shows, oral accounts, news, etc. This led me to think, what is the best way to experience a story? What would…
Some days, my brain can be a chaos of endless worries and scenarios that give me anxiety. These thoughts can be exhausting, but deep in my heart (very deep inside), I appreciate this aspect of my mind. It probably comes from my survival instinct, a part of me that is trying to anticipate and prepare for any possible…
Ontem eu tive terapia. E também descobri um bicho geográfico em mim, depois de mostrar meu pé para mais ou menos 10 pessoas do meu trabalho. Dois biólogos, uma jornalista, uma economista, uma historiadora, uma bibliotecária, um cara do TI, etc. Todos eles falaram: bicho geográfico! Tá vendo o rastro? E realmente, tá…
Things I am angry with Nelson for, (Regardless of whether Nelson intended to make me feel this way or not, the impact was there): 1. Making me lose confidence in myself and what I think is right. This is a power he continues to hold over me. He needs only to disagree with me about something and I begin feeling like I…
Here’s the continuation of the previous post: === anon2080 Another sneak-peek of my conversation with Dr. Caleb Takagi Gutiérrez. - “I’m sure you’re aware of the local artists criticizing your initiatives as ‘appropriating their work’. Do you have any message for them?” CTG: “First of all, I take these criticisms very…
I own a KZ750E - the four cylinder. Every now and then I try to convince myself that I do not need another motorcycle - but I mostly fail. I have narrowed it down to being a parallel twin. But I have a hard time deciding. Today I will share the research I did today between the three mentioned in the headline. My main…
This quote is famously attributed to Dom Pérignon, a Monk from the Champagne region of France, who in the 17th century spent a significant part of his life perfecting the drink that we now know as Champagne or Sparkling Wine. On a recent flight, flying 35,000 feet above earth at 600 miles an hour and sipping…
Ahhh 🔁 iteration; continuous testing of an idea until one finds perfection in design. ironically perfection does not truly exists, but iterating on an idea can get design to a point that is almost perfect. i find the most relatable design does not strive to be perfect, yet it it gets so close that allows others to…
I'm honestly so relieved that application season is finally over (at least for now). I submitted my financial aid essays just a few days ago, and it feels like I can finally breathe. For months, I was constantly anxious, trying to juggle work and essays at the same time--which, as it turns out, is really hard. Now I…
Authority, like a vector, has two properties: magnitude and direction. The magnitude of authority is proportional to the limits on individual freedom. The magnitude may range from anarchy to totalitarianism (chaos / order). All viable regimes fall somewhere between these idealized states. The ideal magnitude of…
hospitals are scary - their cream tinted walls that seem to stretch out infinitely, the clutter of people walking and what seems to be the most terrifying is the occasional stretchers filled with sick people that pass by. you see their faces, their eroded smiles and the only a husk of the person they used to be -…
our existence is very bland and senseless, battling against the corrosive force of time. the dying of the light. it's very much like ingredients, which in and of themself do not make much sense. left to itself, it will decay without discrimination and we only have just enough time as everybody else to make any sense…
Recently I was wondering about how the world has become bigger and smaller for me at the same time... And probably not just for me but for everyone in a sense... I went back home... where i used to be a small kid 20 years ago... I saw kids playing in the common area... i remembered playing cricket there and always…
nada é tão distante quando o querer prevalece. djavan acertou - sempre acerta - quando disse que "tudo é viável pra quem faz com prazer". aliás tudo nessa musica é um acerto absoluto.
To refer to a phenomenon or quantity as being deficient implies that there is some proper amount one might expect to have. A gas tank that is three-quarters empty, for example, would rightly be considered deficient if our destination were two hundred miles away; a "gasoline deficit," as it were. It would be just as…
It hit me today. The realization didn't hit me like a ton of bricks. (Like some people would say.) But it did arrive to my conscious awareness. What am I talking about? Well, the fact that people don't do that of taking time and space out of their mundane routine. Like what I can write in the following paragraphs can…
Do you rest by moving to territory that isn’t challenging you? Sit on the couch so you’re not physically challenged, eat familiar foods so you’re not sensory challenging, binge netflix so that you’re not mentally challenged. Or do you rest by expanding the comfortable territory until it contains where your current…
We're so obsessed with the idea of permanence--we now fully believe in it. So much so, that it might as well be a new religion. Apart from words like 'forever' and 'endless' being used to describe our 'undying' affection/dislike for one another we've started to manifest permanence in other ways. Mostly by taking life…
Day 3.5, 5:30 pm: does the new publication automatically subscribe everyone? what art for the first "intro" teaser--mom in the kitchen photo or a sketch? Day 4: writers' hour, 5 am, stuck on the monthly blog post which is about mom's newsletter. does this count toward my 15 minute goal of anything C&T related? yes. an…
i am thinking of writing fan letters to my favorite authors. what do you think? i'm thinking of specifically: - megan boyle - i would like to say: i love your sense of humor, i love that you expanded my beliefs about what a "book" is and opened my tiny tiny mind up to the world of possibilities - jordan castro - a…
