Nov 5, 2023

youtube is a flattering good friend

today is sunday and the air has a quiet and restful quality and i have decided to go with the energy and do whatever i want to do, wander with my mind.

and youtube is recommending me videos with 43 likes by people with 2.23k followers [i'm talking about the channel tokyochemist; she talks about books]

and i am so flattered that youtube has nailed my taste and that they don't see me as a pedestrian who could be pleased with just anything

they're not telling me: here are the most popular videos right now, here is what's trendy -- no, they RESPECT ME, and my hobbies, and my interests.

i watched a tao lin interview and a tao lin presentation and after this video about Ottessa Moshfegh i may be compelled to watch a matt healy interview or that chicken shop date again

Kelly

being cool's the only thing that matters. being cool means you're at ease with your life.

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