Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
Teachers. Parents. Friends or colleagues But the one that can teach you is experiences Your own experiences and mistakes So never feel like you’ll not where you meant to be - you are! Use time wisely and explore else you’ll miss out the opportunities Of just being yourself And feeling confident Anxiety - everyone…
You’re having a problem staying consistent with your new journaling habit. You just proved you're human. You are one among millions. "Look," my husband points to a man writing in a journal. We are waiting for our flight. "He writes in a journal like you." Except I have not written in my journal today. Journaling is a…
Until recently, the idea of relapsing never crossed my mind, and I used to dismiss it as an exaggeration. In my judgmental mindset, I couldn't understand why people couldn't just change for good if they truly wanted to. However, my perspective took a significant turn just a week ago. As I mentioned earlier, I embarked…
Today I had a beautiful day. Getting up early to a great breakfast, hopping on a mountainbike in the morning sun, being in the mountains, doing intense physical exercise, drinking refreshing drinks, wellness with my family, and having a fantastic dinner together. Not all days can be like that, otherwise we wouldn’t…
''We come for the jobs and stay for the weather.'' Famous words by a friend when I could not stop raving about the cool Bangalore evenings in May. Unlike coastal Mumbai, Bangalore which is set in a valley is a basin with pockets of land that collect water, eventually giving rise to lakes. I have almost no working or…
Entrei em um grupo de mulheres maduras que viajam sozinhas. Tem muitas histórias divertidas e inspiradoras ali. Quero muito ir viajar, mas não posso terceirizar o cuidado com meu cãozinho idoso. Aí vi um post de uma mulher na República Tcheca. Ela costumava viajar pelo mundo sozinha, mas agora os pais estão doentes e…
To understand a system, you must define its boundaries, forming its own “universe.” While we often think of individuals as separate from their environment, in reality, they are deeply interconnected. Evolutionary constraints highlight this relationship: organisms are shaped by and respond to their surroundings. The…
I procured a taxi driver poster at 18. It followed me everywhere since then, much like loneliness did with De Niro in the same movie. The poster was perhaps a silent token of my acknowledgement of my struggles with loneliness. Upon graduating, presuming that perhaps loneliness would no longer follow me, I left my…
The second post on this journal should have come sooner. When I started, I had envisioned myself writing weekly, if not daily. I had grossly underestimated the toll that a change of surroundings can take on a person. When I was back in India, I would get enamoured by how eminent writers like Hemingway used to spend…
Good night's sleep, even without the whirlpool and crappy eating. Odd dream: only a snippet of making out with a woman I know to be a lesbian. Got to listen to birdsong over coffee this morning. The birdsong doesn't make me feel as happy as it used to. Time for a break, time for a change. 280720 May 2022
I'm kind of tired seeing people sharing unsolicited advice about growth, productivity, finance - all of these things that supposedly make you successful. My definition of "success" is so different from those in my surroundings now, but... it feels so strange to leave so fast when this is all I've known, too. But I…
I want more harmony. That feeling of recognition when these are fitting into place. I want that joy of knowing that I am exactly where I am supposed to be. I want that specificity... The knowing that my life is of a unique design. Co-created with God. Joyful. Full of peace. Not void of pain.. But under-girded by the…
It's counterintuitive but I think it's true. We struggle to find time to stretch our creative muscles. But modern creativity doesn't come with more freedom. It comes with more restriction. Think of Morning Pages. It became wildly successful among creative professionals because it forces you to write 3 pages. No more,…
ahhh as i continue AI text to image generation it makes me think about how it relates to the overarching narrative of art. the closest movement would be surrealism with the goal to release the creative potential of the unconscious mind. now with less barrier to creation, the content within one's mind can now be…
(The following is a RP entry from the perspective of my Project Zomboid character, again) I'm a bit scared right now to be honest. Today I was doing the usual looting and found a police station; Jackpot! I thought... and indeed I won the lottery of guns, after clearing 2 floors of zombies I got to the lockers and…
I have been feeling slightly uneasy about how to spend my time and days. I have a lot of work to finish and tasks to do, and I do not know where to start. The feeling of having too much to do, no idea where to begin but at the same time not having any hard deadlines to help me take decisions is happening. I am unable…
I’ve been working on building some reverb tanks the last few weeks. I got the first one wired tonight and I messed up something. The two circuit boards, that are not connected, are somehow interacting with each other. I’m going to try and wire up the second one tomorrow and see if I can find what I did wrong the first…
Knowing is table stakes. “Do you know the patient?” A common question asked in the clinical world. When I was in training, I literally thought the question meant whether the patient is part of the list I am responsible for that day. A simple yes or no. Now when I get asked, I know that the knowing is much deeper. Do…
Sleep is my most important resource. On average I need around 8,5 hours of effective sleep. More than other people. Without it, I struggle through the day, with everything from thinking clearly to staying motivated becoming a challenge. And I am also quite sensitive to sleep deprivation - feeling symptoms of cold and…
i stopped doing the things i started doing to grow. i didn´t track my habits, didn´t do my finances nor did i plan my days. i didn´t eat healthy, didn´t work out or do a lot of productive things. going on the trip with my best friends really threw me off from real life. the five days in which i didn´t stick to my…
You’re either making it - making change in the world Or you’re just living the game If it’s too heavy; forget about the past and the future - just carry the present The best skilled people knows that skills comes with discomfort; and only by persevering in discomfort you’re able to gain skills The best is actually…
The only thing that bores me more than my opinion is yours. I haven't heard a new take or a hot take in more than 20 years. Most of my takes are bargain basement off the shelf opinions that I hold true -- I think? -- not because I believe them but because of some delusional image I have of myself. I am not the only…
'People don't quit companies, they quit managers'. Just like the way companies do background checks, you also need to do background checks on managers/teams/companies. Oftentimes we don't put in the effort for two reasons - 1) lack of choice, we need this job 2) we don't even know how to do it. Glassdoor reviews can…
A friend and I regularly check-in across the ocean - California, US and Vietnam - regarding activities around PKM, GTD, and solopreneurship. Two days ago, I recently shared about my on-goings - "... and lots of self-reflection - or shall I say "Self-Inflection" - I feel like I am at a transition point" Self-inflection…
Today has been one of the most exhausting days i have had in a while. If i take a look at what i did today in terms of work: 1. Call with Harsh: 30 mins 2. Call with Shriya: 15 mins 3. Bliss club Interview: 1 hour 4. Call with NGO: 30 mins 5. Sleep: 2 hours 6. Freak out about salary: 40 mins 7. Warehousing call: 30…
Giving me those 2008-2009 vibes. All these new places on the internet to say stuff and see said stuff. Who owns this? And when will they start selling ads? The Deck was peak ads. I miss 43things.
I'm no Psychologist, but I have a theory about human behaviour. We're all trying to maximise the following: Intrinsic Enjoyment x (Social Capital + Financial Capital) Let me break it down. First, a few definitions: 1. Intrinsic Enjoyment: How much you enjoy doing something, independent of any external rewards. 2.…
There is something strangely tender about being alive at the same time as everything else. About breathing while cities hum, seasons turn, people fall in and out of love, and the world continues without asking how you’re doing. We spend so much time believing we should have arrived somewhere by now. As though there is…
Hello! Lets talk about inhibitions and hurdles in taming the day. As someone who has tried almost every trick to stay on track and create a routine and series of habits that help me in navigating life as I see fit. Here are my observations: 1. Diligence is key, identifying action items and getting started is simple…
i have had quite an interest in exploring what it means to build and inhabit more “homey” and inviting digital spaces. oftentimes i've had hangups about the polished and performative pressures that i experience on social media apps. feeling the need to tweet or post the perfect thing to represent myself. very often,…
I woke up today with anger. I’m just so angry and so frustrated. Nelson told me about how he reacted to Pandu saying that your girlfriend is only not on your side, don’t talk. He was so upset then that I wasn’t on his side. And now he realises that he never thought about it from my side. That unless I saw the logic,…
Managing money is hard for a couple of reasons. Firstly, most of us don't understand what money is and how it works. We don't really understand why pieces of paper have value - many of us still think it's backed by gold. We also don't understand why a random piece of metal aka gold is so precious. We don't understand…
Lately I've been struggling to stay focused. Without missing a beat, the first piece of unsolicited advice I got was to try meditating. Then again. Meditation. Whether you're depressed, distracted, grieving, stressed out, anxious or, well, pretty much anything these days, you can rely on someone nearby who won't shut…
Fui a um brunch muito chique à beira do rio Spree com um amigo. Coloquei um vestido bonito e um casaco tão pomposo quanto parecia ser o evento. O lugar era moderno, uma construção recente no meio de uma área industrial decadente. Chegamos às 13h35. Encontrei um conhecido na entrada do jardim. Depois uma amiga que…
Que mágico é saber cozinhar. Recentemente, fizeram pra mim um arroz delicioso! No estilo cozinhar com o que tem, a pessoa pegou da geladeira uma alcaparra que estava paradinha tinha tempo, pimentão verde, cebola, lentilha e tomate. Com certeza tinha outras coisas também, mas essas foram as que eu mais notei. A…
Sometimes I feel like I see my grandmother in your eyes. The way the soft lines across your speckled face crinkle when you laugh. How your hair reaches up to the sky like the winding branches of a tree. I think sometimes I see my grandmother in you where she is not. When your eyebrows crease and I can't tell if I had…
We recently started to teach my daughter to read after she started writing letters and asking about how certain words are spelled. My son has taken to math like his father and is quite the human computer. I ordered some books for them and my wife and I have begun teaching them to read and do higher order math outside…
Unstructured work is under appreciated. It's the kind of work you do when there are unknown unknowns. Or when you're searching for a solution that might exist, but you don't know where to look. Or the work you do in pursuit of perfection, which can never be recognised, except in its absence. The process can be…
pronounced: "eye" or "I" which Google just told me is pronounced "ai." waow, that one really came full circle on its own, didn't it? stands for: Artist employment initiative wut it is: a collaborative effort with Kind AI )you know the one)s( better than Ʌei do, I'd imagine, anon( to provide funding for individual…
I'm trying to write publicly at the same time authentically At the same time, without the performance pressure of likes, comments, RTs. Seems cool. Seems entertaining. Seems a good cathartic experience. I'm always in search of niching down. Hopefully this one would prove otherwise. I don't have to niche down. I can…
Sometimes, an urge suddenly pops into your head - you feel the need to visit a website, check your Reddit feed, browse promotions in an online store, or look up stock values. These impulses can disrupt your deep work session and break your flow. Resisting this recurring, nagging urge can be challenging. The good news…
Waiting rooms at hospitals and Doctors clinics are possibly a place where a clock or contraption that measures time, don't have much use. A minute on a clock vis a vis a minute from when the Doctor reads your report on her / his screen and shares the results with you, seem much longer than a minute. While the clock…
This is the deal. There are no "one size fits all" solutions in reality. You can see this out there in different realms. Be it the product creation, the medical, online course, financial and so on. It's like that meme of the different characters along the bell curve. Which also relates quite well with the graph of…
Why do many new age hippies interpret the Buddha's teachings in the wrong way? The moment the Buddha was dying, people were lining up for him. He was sitting under the bodhi tree where he reached his enlightenment. Ready to leave his physical body behind. A man appeared from the crowd and tried to ask the Buddha a…
there are some scenarios that people think of as "adventures" but that are NOT in fact adventures!!!! if you know how it's going to end, it's NOT an adventure!! like skydiving. not an adventure. true adventure is responding spontaneously to life's calls and not knowing where you'll end up i have a sense of adventure…
não me mande não experimentar alguma coisa porque a sua realidade com aquilo foi ruim. eu gosto de provar. gosto de sentir. gosto de eu mesma pensar em avançar ou recuar. é certo que não preciso morrer pra ver deus, mas se eu achar que preciso morrer, me deixa. depois eu volto e conto como foi. quero provar e sentir.…
Ontem eu fui assistir as quase três horas de agente secreto. Antes de partir pro conteúdo do filme, preciso exaltar o charme do Wagner Moura. Pelo amor de deus, o homem TEM O MOLHO. o jeito que ele fala, que ele olha e se mexe... Mexe comigo. Mas sobre o filme. Interessante a construção da narrativa e como no final…
Hie there, I'm a college pass out student and really looking forward to getting into a good job (Which is in the IT dept. imo). But there are times when I feel completely exhausted as I'm working on several projects and also learning so many new things about programming. I guess this time shall pass and soon I'll be…
