Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
I have been a heavy user of the internet since 2000. There were years between 2012 and 2016 when I was very active on social media. Since then I have shied away from maintaining any online identity. There has been a constant urge to build an anonymous identity (to find like minded people) but I don’t want to build any…
You started to feel anxious because You are comparing yourself to your friends subconsciously Your brain tells you and giving you signals that you didn’t know “Preparing yourself” don’t mean you need to putting yourself into stressful situations It just means adjusting your mindset That given certain situations - what…
As a beginner, you need effortless to build a habit. There’s only one way to make daily journaling effortless. Before you journal, follow this two-step process, prep the stage and prep the page. These steps take a few minutes. 1.) Prep the stage As a beginning journaler, it’s important to prep your space ahead of your…
Blogs on what I learn or what appeals to me. Read on a topic over a single day and then write, unassisted (except for quotes), at the end of the day. The goal is to develop concise and coherent communication skills. Feel free to drop a text if you have something more to offer on a topic. Let's see where we get with…
22nd I have realised my intense need for validation for the past hurt that I have gone through. That has been further magnified because Nelson does not agree with what I say and that makes me doubt my self confidence so much. So I have been actively seeking validation. I’ve been looking for evidence backing what I…
Ainda não sei qual será o caminho que esse blog irá tomar. Quem viver, verá.
In my 4th decade I realize that 40s is the real inflection point in our lives - few reflections. 1. Curiosity: Whether getting lost in encyclopedia during my younger days to now reading up about cars. Somewhere during the Social Media era, my curiosity had become perfomative, I caught this bug of sounding…
Growth is a function of experimentation; when you stop testing new ways of doing things, you stop growing. -Omar Itani I was waiting in a coffee shop when I discovered Itani’s newsletter, “The Optimist.” The above quote jumped out at me. Newly retired, I was in the coffee shop, optimistically experimenting with ways…
Person number 1 vs person number 2 Relationships - people text, fuck, catch feelings and suddenly understand that: you have choices in your life - person 1 heartbroken - person 2 Now can’t admit I’m person 2 Always being telic Trying to “get some goals” “achieve something in your life” “being in that relationship by…
It is difficult to think where you’ll be at any point in the future. Things don’t always go to plan. So, what is the point of setting goals? On our default path (ie. 9 to 5 job - thanks Paul Millerd) we are asked to make targets or objectives relative to what we know today. What we think we’ll want to tomorrow. But we…
Today I had an inspiring call with Alex West, a solopreneur that runs a $600K/year automated lead generation business. He has been very outspoken about his journey over the last few years, and done so in an extremely authentic und reflective way. In our conversation, he mentioned daily writing as the reason for this…
I have spent an obnoxious amount of time asking myself, "what should I do with my life?" Not because there is anything necessarily "to do" or because I have an inherently unsatisfying or distressing life. In fact, it's quite the opposite. I have a cushy, work-from-home, tech-adjacent, golden-handcuffs, kind of job. Me…
The world announces itself loudly. It never asks for permission. It arrives as friction, metal against rail, voices colliding, engines coughing smoke into the afternoon. People move with purpose or pretend to. Everyone is going somewhere. Everyone is late. Noise becomes the proof of existence. I stand inside it and…
Has any man ever responded positively to a woman offering unsolicited astrological information?
Question 1: What unactivated dream are you holding onto today from those before you? My name was given to me by my great-grandmother. I was an infant when she held me in her arms for the first and last time, somewhere near the coast of Nigeria. From what my parents told me about the interaction, she looked at me and…
It occurred to me then that Kiwi is the Annabel to Kippy’s Lolita. And truly I don’t think I ever recovered from her death. This whole meme is getting out of hand, this cometragedy of beloved animal soulmates
Do you know how to fight against the wave? 1, Rationalize your feelings. Every time you feel something, you tell yourself, "It's not that bad, I don’t have it so bad." This way, you don't acknowledge them, and a part of you feels unheard. 2, Do everything you can to get rid of it. Meditation, yoga, dance, journaling.…
Never be stressful about relationships Even when the Grab driver is doing stupid things such as driving a bit to the front when you walk towards it - I don’t know what is his intentions but if I step forward and go forward and fight: it’s a waste of time. I will keep thinking about the negative points and I’ll be…
My initial foray into technology saw me working for a venture capital firm, where I became indoctrinated with the idea that tech companies must follow a pretty standardised path, raising multiple rounds of funding before a big splashy exit. And for a while, this sounded like something I wanted. More recently though,…
What happens when your environment does not match your needs? As our need for food and safety is fulfilled, a new void opens up. The need for love and connection. This is where we start noticing other aspects of our environment. A friend, a beautiful lady in the street, a like on a post.. Our environment is the same,…
No words can pin down what we call reality, but words too are real
I think all of us growing up in India have never learned how to say 'No.' Since childhood, we got trained to respect elders and comply with their requests. A harmless practice in childhood that later leads to many ill-formed mechanisms as we grow older. A major downside of it often is our inability to know if we want…
i love books that are "aggressively pointless" like they make a point to be pointless (i learned this term from a goodreads user who condemned a book for having this quality that i so dearly cherish. btw; that guy with mainstream taste from youtube named "jack" actually disliked jordan castro's /the novelist/ which…
I started fruit farming a year ago in Lamjung, located in central Nepal. Aim is to reach 100,000 fruit trees. Currently I am at 3000. Biggest challenge facing so far is getting right saplings. Now making nursery to grow my own saplings. Its amazing here. Peace, quite and all forested area. Right on the road, but very…
i don't have an answer to WHY but i know that they do (i say "they" even though i'm american because i do not suffer from this ailment) HOW I KNOW THEY HATE THEMSELVES: they are so obsessed with being the best at everything that they do not afford themselves the luxury of simply enjoying themselves, because they do…
For years, I spent my Saturday morning grocery shopping for the week. My workweek routine drove my weekend routine. Now I’m retired. I’m very routine-driven. I would need to prepare my list early. This required a change in thinking. I saw an advantage. If my granddaughter came to spend the night, grocery shopping…
The magical feeling of New York City just before race day on Sunday is incredible. People from all over the world coming together for a spectacular challenge. Wonderful! nycmarathon2022
What is existence but a search for answers that never quite come. Existence reflects patterns. Patterns that one must recognize in order to survive. What if... the internal discomfort of specific patterns exists for a reason? What if... the shaming of pattern-recognition is coordinated for the sake of mental…
All things and beings that exist are born from the vastness of the universe, shaped from its matter, yet we wander through life believing ourselves to be independent, everlasting souls, existing within but separate from the very cosmos from which we were created. This illusion of separatedness is the mind’s deception,…
Rights are like muscles. They must be exercised regularly to prevent atrophy. They are earned through hard work and preserved through constant maintenance. As with any maintenance work, the cost of neglect can lead to sudden unexpected catastrophic consequences, particularly so when one can least afford to address…
I read a quote today that went something like this: "Writing is thinking. If you're thinking without writing, you only think you're thinking." I know this to be true. I've always felt sharpest after a writing session. But I am lazy. Over the coming weeks, I'm going to try and publish my thoughts about whatever it is I…
Ahhhhhhhhhhhh Exhausted from the day. tomorrow excites me. a dream of tomorrow as i sleep will be worth the efforts of today...
There was an interesting discussion on Hacker News (https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=33675503) about burnout, which spawned some reflection within me. The comment that really got me thinking, was a user that wrote that for him, burnout had not occurred in the periods with the highest pressure or workload. But in…
We're always optimising that we lose the ability to really enjoy any moment. We are always trying to see, "How can I get the most of this moment". If you look at Efficiency as a formula = Value out of this moment / Time spent on this moment. Then we have begun to optimise for both = Getting most value, whilst spending…
It is not easy to write anything. Everyone wants to write something. Preferably something good. Preferably something good and useful. Preferably something good, useful, and uplifting for the heart. But isn’t the very act of writing itself a kind of uplift for the heart? I will not settle that question now. Because my…
Eu li uma newsletter que eu curto muito ontem reproduzindo um trecho escrito por Isabel Allende que dizia o seguinte: Talvez estejamos neste mundo para procurar o amor, encontrá-lo e perdê-lo, de novo e de novo. A cada amor, nascemos de novo, e a cada amor que termina recolhemos uma nova ferida. Estou coberto de…
Adulthood is all about being with people you love. Away from home, Lost in a City of strangers, Getting introduced to a new world. It gets lonely in the Adulthood but the only way from here is finding your Community, friends, art, media. I find people complaining on twitter about being lonely and not able to make…
Now its 2024. Vibe coding is here. Its like telling the computer to make what you want - mobile app, web app etc and it will create for you. You do need to know some basics and sometimes a lot more than basics depending on what your idea needs to come out and feel alive. Even I, I am also learning this. I am vibe…
I completed a 2-day "ultra-marathon-type" race this weekend where you run 48 miles over the course of 48 hours. It was grueling and I enjoyed the challenge. I have run a regular marathon and done other various physical challenges, always trying to maintain some novelty and keep myself interested. In the final hours of…
You might be a lifeline in a social setup but lifeless underneath, you have a gallery full of smiling selfies but you don't have one smile for yourself everyday.You have a phone full of contacts but you don't want to dial to any one. When you try to analyse yourselves you come to conclusions like I am an introvert, I…
Ontem eu editei a minha lista de melhores amigos no Instagram e, exercitando as sugestões da minha terapeuta, expus que precisava de ajuda. Precisava de coisas do mercado e da farmácia e queria companhia. Prontamente alguém com quem eu fico com frequência respondeu perguntando o que eu queria e que horas ele poderia…
There is only one God, luck. Every individual is more often than not a captive of forces beyond their capacity. Such is the power of luck that it can effectively put hard work, effort and persistence to shame. Helplessness is one of the many brutal emotions known to human kind. For that is when the mind decides to…
Control: it’s such a strong power. Control your mouth when you don’t feel like saying. Be calm and composed like water. Control your mind when it comes to hardship or when you think of the wrong thing. That’s the difference between you & Bryan - and being a leader takes alot of this character. It’s not a sign of being…
The lucky ones among us get a chance to grow up with our families which in most likelihood have a parental figure or two to provide for our education, medical care and learning. The lucky ones, someone calls us the lucky ones and we don't believe it. How can we be the lucky ones? Everything is laid down for us - which…
Doing some research tonight, but came across this helpful commentary on 1 Corinthians 15:22-23 from St John Chrysostom (Homily 39): "For as in Adam all die, even so in Christ shall all be made alive." What then? Tell me; did all die in Adam the death of sin ? How then was Noah righteous in his generation? And how…
eu odeio aulas com dois professores. acabo numa espiral de comparação e, via de regra, um professor é MUITO melhor que o outro, sim. infelizmente. tenho ficado mt irritada com pessoas que viram mães e de repente as pessoas que não querem ser mães viram "egoistas radicais". sem paciência total! você não virou alecrim…
I thought I was further along than I actually am. Turns out, it's 1 of 10 finished. And finished isn't even the right word. That 1 of 10 is far from being done, but it's at a point where at least I won't combust from embarrassment showing someone. But we always end up on the fact that none of it matters. I've always…
we started the day with a to-do list of "things we can tolerate doing today plus some things that seem pretty necessary" just items flying out of our mouths - drain, fill, drain, fill, drain, fill water tank - return packages - laundry - replace thermostat and so on and i have done TWO things and now i am taking a…
