Jun 21, 2022

1. I'm here.

I have been a heavy user of the internet since 2000. There were years between 2012 and 2016 when I was very active on social media. Since then I have shied away from maintaining any online identity.

There has been a constant urge to build an anonymous identity (to find like minded people) but I don’t want to build any expectation. They say talking to a stranger is as good as visiting a therapist.

This is my tiny step towards becoming a little more vulnerable.

Can I be consistent here as I have been in my diary? It’s an experiment. I am checking how vulnerable can I be? I have been longing for it. What’s on the other side of it? Why am I trying to derive meaning from it? Can’t I just write for the sake of loving the activity?

I like talking to myself. Since I am coming out of my diary, you can now hear me too. Can we dissociate judgement from being vulnerable? The best of relationships share being vulnerable without being judged.

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