Why do I feel lifeless at times.

You might be a lifeline in a social setup but lifeless underneath, you have a gallery full of smiling selfies but you don't have one smile for yourself everyday.You have a phone full of contacts but you don't want to dial to any one. When you try to analyse yourselves you come to conclusions like I am an introvert, I like my space etc.But deep down you also know that it's bullshit. You know that you hardly put efforts to interact, you donot want to get out there, now this dual persona of yours is messing up with your brain.
It keeps you awake at nights, the thoughts haunt you and the answers evade you.Sometimes you just love this void and silence that you are ready to live with it.
It's becoming a connundrom of guilt, disinterest and procrastination. Somedays you just want to put an end to this and conquer the world, on other days you barely want to move a muscle.