Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
I feel sadness I feel blocked I feel stupid What are the thoughts producing these feelings? - There's so much to do. - There are so many unknowns. - My words don't always make sense. - Am I actually bringing value to this world?
My older son (see photo) is starting to have serious homework every day. Serious means: if he did it on time, it would be 30 min max. But he doesn't, so I need to check and check and check. Today he was playing Minecraft on his laptop... Instead of doing fractions, learning a song for Music class or reading about…
Twenty-four years ago, I had a great idea. I started a journal to record my sons' actions and words. Sometimes I look back at old photos and wonder about the details behind the picture taken. A written record provides even more details. My great idea lasted about eight months. Then nothing. Now I am writing and…
1. What's something that puts a smile on your face instantly? 2. Who's that someone you look forward to sharing the good news as soon as you receive it? 3. If money and responsibilities are taken out of the equation, would you still live in the same city? 4. What's your favourite childhood memory? 5. Do you feel…
I know that "Your brAnding is mOre tHan jusT Your logo" is a tired phrase of the 21st century design world and everyone seems to be throwing it around like confetti in a feeble attempt to add depth to their content. And while I'm here to mock it with you, I'm also here to be a party pooper and say it's true. Just…
The road behind is lined with trees that are tall enough to puncture clouds and obstruct birds. Some people of the world call it a single-lane road, but most know that it is more a passageway, a corridor through which we're expected to move heavy-duty vehicles with big fat asses through. And you best hope that there…
It starts with a door opening. Then you just see a man's feet trudging through the snow on a horrible dark night. He turns over the ignition and the car's headlamp seems to appear in the darkness. We watch the car make its way down the road. It's the only car on this awful kind of deep snow-covered road. And then a…
It is difficult to think where you’ll be at any point in the future. Things don’t always go to plan. So, what is the point of setting goals? On our default path (ie. 9 to 5 job - thanks Paul Millerd) we are asked to make targets or objectives relative to what we know today. What we think we’ll want to tomorrow. But we…
so i have been very lost in my mental health for the past few weeks, not getting enough meditation in, i bounced back on pornography, my workouts have been inconsistent, i am not studying enough. I feel guilty for not doing enough, always, no matter how much work i do, i just feel that i can get more of it done. I…
É. Não tem pra onde fugir. Não sou negacionista e mais: acredito muito na ciência, na medicina, apesar de estar cantando a música "lenda", da céu loucamente nos últimos dias. Minha dog vai ter que operar. Mas antes, dá-lhe prediderm, dá-lhe remédio pra não ter trombose, muitos exames de sangue e do coração. Ela odeia…
No better feeling than new tools day. Find a spot for it to live, maybe do the job you bought it for, then put it away to rest, making sure not to disturb it too much. No. Use your tools. Tools are mean to be used. If you don't use them, you deprive them of their purpose in life. Use your iPhone, get it sandy. Use…
karl's (much younger) gf said "karl said you guys were really impressed by him" ("is that true?" she implied) and he was smiling like "you tell her, tell her what you told me" and i was like "well yeah karl is pretty much the coolest person we've ever met" he was like "told you ;)" i just love karl's confidence he…
1. how far do we have to go? 2. are trees ticklish? 3. why didn't i say hi? 4. how to find a job that i love 5. can i go back? 6. what do earthquakes feel like? 7. what does heartbreak feel like? 8. how to keep breathing 9. how to care more 10. where do i find it?
i've been talking to a newish friend a lot lately and i am getting oversaturated with him! SATT. gnuag g'ha he is great in some ways; tenacity of spirit, willingness to try, writes great music but my god i know other people with spirit, willingness and talent and who ALSO have verbal intelligence and philosophical…
Pemuda ini bernama Timoteo Rhousdy. Tak pernah ia tahu kapan sesungguhnya ia lahir, kapan sebenarnya namanya hadir, dan kapan pula ia akan tahu siapa sejatinya orang tua kandungnya. Berkat kemuliaan hati sepasang suami-istri Teguh Fransiskus Rhousdy dan Anneke Lim, Timo—begitu panggilannya—diangkat menjadi anak bungsu…
I am quite sure that it's not an uncommon thing for any desi/middle eastern child to declare the following statement - My mom's biryani is the best in the whole wide world! And I'm no such exception to this. I do believe my mom's biryani is the best and every other person who has tried it so far has claimed the same.…
For many years, the river apologized for its banks. Whenever it flooded, it apologized. Whenever it changed course, it apologized. Whenever it carried away a bridge built carelessly across its body, it apologized. The villages grew accustomed to this. They spoke of the river as though it were a servant. They drew maps…
… and break it down. Will they make their bed Will they lay for 15 more minutes and be late What do they know The things they know and don’t - and how they act to get those information How they work around with people
I think I've found some sort of silver bullet. Not a magic solution to a problem, but an assumption that nullifies most questions I had. What questions? Questions about human behaviour. Behaviour can be predicted when you're observing a situation and you either have all the information that contributes to a decision,…
after going to indonesia, my appetite for experiencing the world has been awakened, for the first time (before this trip, i was excited to talk to people from different places, but didn't necessarily see the point in actually /going/ anywhere...and despite that, i had somehow visited 20 countries so everyone in my…
We are finding a piece of puzzle to fit in our life and make a picture complete. Each piece you meet here and there does not fit but we try and try and keep trying This vacant position is filled on our own timeline During this entire phase we fall in love with the process of finding because we don't know once the…
Hoje falei pras minhas amigas sobre o cara elegante do meu trabalho e como, quase de forma obsessiva eu olho para ele procurando alguma parte amassada em sua roupa, algum desvio de postura ou um fio de cabelo fora do lugar. Não encontro. Da ultima vez que o vi, notei que ele vestia uma camiseta branca de algodão e uma…
Olhando para fotos antigas, fotos essas que nunca soube da existência, também me peguei olhando para sentimentos que outrora não sabia do gosto. É curioso como são tortuosas as linhas que transportam sangue do coração para o cérebro, um caminho tão curto, mas ainda sim de diferenças metafóricas enormes. ♫ so baby,…
here is my first post the entire content is about writing my first post i figure it's the quickest way to start a habit that will last or swiftly end an interest that won't
Just do everything perfectly. Once at a time. Conversations - throw away the unimportant bits. Be clear - tell yourself be clear Even when you got into shit situations Find one way to go out You are good at doing that You need to improve To be better at doing the task while doing though Don’t get stuck at previous…
Muito fácil nossa cabeça nos dar o baile quando estamos tentando criar hábito. Tô nessa missão de escrever todos os dias aqui e hoje esqueci (até agora!). Acordei mais de 9h da manhã, coisa raríssima, visto que tenho duas cachorras exigentes e pontuais. Sete horas da manhã, às vezes antes, elas já levantam e, como…
I recently saw a photo on LinkedIn of someone I met a few years ago. I felt an unexpected resistance to respond, that moment sparked a deeper thought. At any stage of life, you hold a certain view of yourself and often assume that others see you the same way. I call this a self-image snapshot: a frozen perception of…
While washing dishes, a splash of cream fell into a plastic tub that had previously contained a meat-based sauce. Instinctively, I winced; this visceral reaction was followed by a brief inquiry into the nature of transgression. Religious Jews, who believe that it is forbidden by divine law to consume meat and dairy in…
somewhere for this to live! - my thoughts on loving friends, blurring the platonic (or my exploration into the actual etymological/philosophical origins of the word cause.. i keep wanting to make it include romance.. which i feel is valid rn) --- "friend crushes" and what that even really means/is it a thing -…
What happens when your environment does not match your needs? As our need for food and safety is fulfilled, a new void opens up. The need for love and connection. This is where we start noticing other aspects of our environment. A friend, a beautiful lady in the street, a like on a post.. Our environment is the same,…
My room is not so tidy. I don’t have a place for the shoes, there are some sheets of paper on the floor, but it’s okay. I look at it and I’m scared. It looks temporary. Now it’s tidy, tomorrow will be a mess. And the more I try to keep it tidy, the more my fear grows. Just like for my mind, I’m afraid of the following…
Timoteo Rhousdy adalah sebuah karakter fiksi yang lahir dari imajinasi penulis dengan panggilan BAST. Seluruh kisahnya dibangun dari khayalan dan kreativitas semata, oleh sebab itu, nama, lokasi, dan peristiwa yang berkisar di sekelilingnya sepenuhnya merupakan ciptaan penulis untuk tujuan bermain peran (role-play).…
Ontem eu editei a minha lista de melhores amigos no Instagram e, exercitando as sugestões da minha terapeuta, expus que precisava de ajuda. Precisava de coisas do mercado e da farmácia e queria companhia. Prontamente alguém com quem eu fico com frequência respondeu perguntando o que eu queria e que horas ele poderia…
As writers, we long to express (our) thoughts and be heard. In today's climate, we castrate authenticity from artists willing to push (against) the global consensus. Luckily, those daring enough, regardless of the consequences — barge through any boundaries that are societally placed within (our) psyches. I adore the…
How many places do you visit that you will never see again? I thought this was the standard. You have one-off relationships with different places and cities because life changes. You evolve in life and naturally change: cities, careers, relationships, old selves. Some people consciously make an effort to come back to…
What is the mind? I don't know. But I know something that seems seems pretty central to it. That is the focus of attention. I've seen people debate over whether or not we really have a will that we control. I can sympathize with arguments on either side. In my experience, if we have control over anything, it's how we…
Starting a new business, or a tool, or a startup is considered an enormously good thing. And when you start something and shut it down after some time, you feel equal amount of sad. Why is shutting down considered bad when its the opposite when you stop for the right reasons.
I have had a very very horrible week. I have been really scared, been overcome by anxiety, crying, etc. But today, I had an epiphany. A revelation of sorts. It finally occurred to me that this just wasn't feeling right. I do not feel respected by the blissclub process. I feel extremely pressured by the timelines they…
People has so many topics outside of work. You gotta have life outside work or feel energetic & interested to go outside to enjoy life. Now I’m feeling like it a bit - I like going outdoors and explore Or just listen to conversations That’s how you get to like know more perspectives and more things It’s pretty…
- tao lin + andy warhol + terence mckenna as Worshipped Rebel Gods - harnessing a type of energy - my fav podcast [i laughed on the bus] - people who give me the feeling of "mm i like that" when they talk about their lives - funneling the energies i like into my life honestly energy is a thing you can touch and see it…
Hoje, tomando um sorvete da cangote, na Santa Cecília, em São Paulo, eu vi o Pedro Bial! Ele vestia um moletom cinza e um chinelo havaianas preto na conta do pé dele. São Paulo é assim. Você está andando e bum! Um famoso. Ele só pagou, pegou o sorvete e foi embora em seu volvo. Não olhou prós lados, não deu chances de…
Heya! I have always wanted to come back and write and reflect here more. Rather than committing myself to lofty targets, I plan to be intentionally inconsistent here and writing here only when something strikes me so hard that I cannot stop writing about it. So what's something now that I cannot shut up about it? I…
There's a sickening feeling of being surrounded by darkness. What feels like an everlasting doom consuming your peripherals. You're trapped, maybe not physically, but mentally, or both. If, one stands in place, that place becomes your home. A home that echoes into the voids of your mind driving you insane. The purpose…
Most of my disappointments arise from from poor expectations. It's true that material things will probably not make you happy but with non-material things, I feel the reason behind many disappointments is wrong expectations in the first place. Here are some examples You start a job and over time you're unhappy with…
I often wonder about The Great Filter. Conventional scientific wisdom holds that as there are close to 100 billion stars, about 500 billion planets and possibly 10 billion earth-like planets around those stars (all this just in the Milky Way), the chances of intelligent life are high. We just haven't met any yet. Why?…
Acabei de ler Quem Matou o Meu Pai, do Édouard Louis e não posso usar outra palavra que não "cortante" para descrever a experiência de ler tudo em uma sentada. A forma como ele costura sua história pessoal com a política... A rejeição dos pais por ele ser quem é, a repetição dos padrões, mesmo quando há tentativa de…
అహో! శిలే తే సౌభాగ్యం య దహల్య కృతయుగే సంస్కృతే రితిహాసస్య సాక్షిభూతా సి సర్వదా భావము: ఓ రాయీ! కృతయుగంలో నీవు అహల్యగా ఉన్నావు. ఎంత భాగ్యం నీది! సంస్కృతికి, ఇతిహాసానికీ కూడా ఎప్పుడూ సాక్షి గా ఉన్నావు సారాసార పరిచ్ఛేత్తా స్వామీభృత్యస్య దుర్లభః! అనుకూల శ్శుచి ర్దక్షః ప్రభోః భృత్యో పి దుర్లభః భావము:భృత్యుని శక్తినీ,…
Ahhhh some days are experienced yet sit deep within my subconscious never to be recalled on. today could be one of those days...
