Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
The protests in India, which began mid June under the label of CJP or Cockroach Janta Party, took a life of its own when Gen Z made their aspirations known on social media using instagram in full force. This combination of youth, frustration, joblessness, directionless leadership and a bleak future was a recipe for…
marlonfuentes.org Re, "Rules" A "frame" is an arbitrary boundary, created for a specific purpose. A "rule" is a specific instruction to implement this frame/framework. If you think the frame is useful, then apply the operational rules to benefit from it. Not following a rule means the rule is not helpful, and/or you…
Walks might be considered inefficient, but for me, they are worth every minute. I enjoy walks—they slow me down and allows me to take things at my own pace. During these moments, I like to take time to reflect on my day, either planning ahead or recapping how things went. It’s also an opportunity to reflect on other…
There is generally good awareness on the importance of gratitude tracking and how that improves mental health. There is a tendency to make gratitude noting as a mega milestone kind of event like, child birth, exams, promotion, and more recently, what is trending also is daily micro gratitude practices, where listing…
The real essence of understanding lies in the ability to listen without the hunger to judge or correct.....for judgment interrupts what listening can reveal.
Today I spent almost the entire day just doing excel analysis. It is tiring and tedious, but I love it. It makes me feel so satisfied when I finally put data into a form that makes sense to me, no matter how menial the task might be. I spent 1.5 hours by myself today post dinner just listening to music and doing excel…
Easier said than done, right? I know this firsthand because this has been my problem for years—decades, even. You see, I've always loved writing. I started crafting stories and essays at eleven years old. The writing wasn't great, but I loved the process: formulating thoughts and ideas, turning them into stories that…
Today has been another day of just constant “Shivani-nelson” static. On top of that, I saw a slack ping from Varun (top boss) on a thread, where he directly addressed me. Here’s me noting down how my body reacted to it; 1. Immediate heart rate increase 2. Sinking feeling in my stomach 3. Thoughts in my mind about -…
is it a good thing to have friends who look up to you? yeah of course ; and it feels nice to be someone's mentor (but sometimes i feel dubious about some of them, like i fear that one of my mentee-friends is just taking my ideas and espousing them as her own to sound intelligent; i fear she lacks the mental faculty to…
Of course it's been pointed out with increasing frequency of late, but I believe it bears repeating. This addiction to seeking out the comfort of the likeminded to the exclusivity of all others and recoiling from the sheer audacity of differently-minded people to exist cannot possibly lead to anything good in the long…
I'm 2 weeks away from finishing my final placement of medical school. 6 years of studying are nearly complete and it feels strange. I already have a substack but I love the idea of being nicheless. Although I've called this 'thejuniordoctor', I'm not sure it will solely be writing about the profession I'm going into.…
"What's your name?" One encounters this question in an ever declining frequency. As you add years, the frequency of the question reduces. Recollect the moment you answered with pride with your chest bloated Pronouncing your name. As one ages, one takes increasing offense if asked "What's your name?" So courtesy comes…
“we have survived so many fires, i can no longer tell if we are alive or simply burning.” — Pavana Reddy Letting go is difficult. Of people, dreams or your old self. People who need help often look a lot like people who don’t need help. They seem in control, always with a positive word. Everyone we come across has…
What’s more intimidating for a writer than a staring contest with the invisible question mark on a blank page? Not much. A simple solution is to prep the page. I start with to prepping the environment as well. Here are the seven steps I take at the end of the day: I place my journal and pen where I plan to journal in…
As human organizations grow in size and complexity, they tend toward selecting for conformity over competence. If unchecked, this tendency can lead to ruin. Why does this happen? In order for the organization to be effective in pursuing its goals, the proportion of individuals tasked with making strategic decisions…
I'll start by saying this is might be a controversial take. I'm not here to stir the pot, but I'm here to try and keep my own sanity. This past week brought a lot of noise around Elon Musk taking over Twitter. I must have listened to 10 podcasts, glanced at hundreds of tweets, and probably missed thousands of more…
Therein lies comfort in the anguish of avoiding one’s true potential. Some of the most destructive lies we tell are told in silence—in the vastness of our own minds, where the stage is set and the seats are filled by a public of one. There, beneath the noise, we rehearse our excuses like monologues, perfect our…
the issue with my having fallen in love with alt lit is that there is no way to procure these motherfuckers publish them on amazon, you alt lit authors i want to read them publish them for like $0.99 so i can buy like 10 of them for the price of one kidney publish more of "selected unpublished blog posts by a mexican…
In every task you do, know that no one owes you anything. The reviewer doesn't owe being nice to you. Your customer doesn't owe it to be nice to you. Once you click 'Submit' or press 'Send', your work is not only 'yours'. It is open to the world. So, let it be. Let go. You'll be surprised by the results in the longer…
Hoje é domingo. Ontem não escrevi, aproveitei a gordurinha que deixei aqui para descansar. Dormi muito, ouvi podcast, quase terminei uma série, vi BBB, terminei um livro. Cabeça de santo foi legal, apesar de apressado. A fala que mais me impressionou foi do coveiro dizendo que lidar com a morte o ensinou a viver. Já…
What I want to learn to figure out: how to forgive and forget? I think the reason I got triggered again is because I dealt with the Nelson story by painting him as the villain and moving on. But shoo dating him is just clear evidence that I can’t be right and it has deeply challenged my beliefs on that. If Nelson…
Don’t fool yourself. I don’t anymore. Most mornings, I get this strong urge to just dive into work right away. Like, do something, anything, just to feel like I’m being productive. My hands need to be busy, right? But here’s the truth: that’s a trap. Somewhere in the back of my mind, I used to believe that starting…
I understand they happen to be there because it's cheaper and simpler, but what a tasteless and generic place to put them. Lighting can be beautiful if you set the sources gracefully. Indirect lighting can make a magic atmosphere and functional lightning can be a great tool depending on your goals. But "one light bulb…
I stuck with the same hair colour throughout 2022. I started my new year continuing with petty thoughts. I basically saw an insta post of S, which said she was “serving looks”. And all I could think of was “can’t believe N is allowing you to dress up well and not feel bad about it” I have very very uncharitable angry…
É a primeira vez que passo o Ano Novo em Berlim. A temperatura surpreendeu bastante batendo 16ºC no termômetro. Eu, que durmo geralmente bem, fiquei insone durante a noite anterior após começar a ler um livro tão lindo e tão triste, que me deixei envolver pela leitura a ponto de despertar totalmente. Acordei hoje…
Outside of work and family time, I have about five free hours each day to build my side projects, learn new skills, practise old ones, and enjoy my hobbies. I wish I had more, but as someone who doesn't have kids yet, I'll take it. 5 hours is plenty. But I've been trying to figure out how to spend those 5 hours. I'm…
People study for many different reasons, be that exams, getting a new job, or getting into a university. However, what we often miss is the end goal, the big picture, if you will. If we do not keep that in mind, then studying becomes meaningless and spirals into an unhealthy aspect of your life. But first, what is the…
My initial reaction was to hammer out an email to put my new financial advisor in his place. I took a deep breath. I needed to get home to my journal to gain clarity. Before I began journaling daily other extreme emotions caused extreme reactions. I struggled to contain my immediate response, even those I might…
comecei a ler "Boa noite, Punpun", meu primeiro mangá. o Gabs que me emprestou. ontem fui na casa dele, para o segundo ensaio do curta "Dependência". tem sido divertido fazer esse curta. apesar do cansaço generalizado que o fim de ano traz, vai ser divertido produzir CINEMA. visto que minha última experiência foi a…
Today is 31st Dec. The last calendar day of 2022. Hence, I will keep this one very short. In fact, this is just a year end note to self. A lot happened this year. I got my dream job but left it in 9 months. Instead, I chose a soulful path of wealth building. Took a bet on myself. Now building my own venture.…
ahhh do we experience one emotion at a time? can you remember a singular moment of one emotion? i have bee trying to dig deep in my memories for a singular moment, so far no moment presents itself. in contradiction; the emotions we experience may all be defined as a excitement...
Siebren de Vos published this thought-provoking post: https://nicheless.blog/post/the-beauty-of-nothingness And it gave me some food for thought. I replied to him: "I think the human mind does better with minimalism and simplicity and order... however, nature abhors a vacuum. Generally, humans consider "the…
Know how to say no Why people don’t give a shit about what you say Because you don’t have the balls to say what you want to say And also you keep focusing on smaller cheapskate solutions If you want to say no at a last minute cancellation The trouble seems harder Of course it would take longer and harder to say once…
I remember having read this anon poster before. They’re not happy about the previous posts: === anon6232 Really? Are we going to celebrate Caleb after his outrageous interview with Ensenada Insiders? It’s amazing to me how he can claim he supports the local artists of La Antigua, when the most highlighted piece in the…
If only I could.. Left in the liminal spaces Adrift
I procured a taxi driver poster at 18. It followed me everywhere since then, much like loneliness did with De Niro in the same movie. The poster was perhaps a silent token of my acknowledgement of my struggles with loneliness. Upon graduating, presuming that perhaps loneliness would no longer follow me, I left my…
Unplanned, unexpected moments are the most beautiful ones. Today we were walking around Aalto University without a plan, without any expectation. It was cloudy, we accidentally found this lookout spot, and then all of a sudden the cloudiness turned into one of the most beautiful sunsets of my life. Even the birds were…
I am no longer employed. For anyone to survive in the corporate world, one has to follow some rules. If you want to pursue further studies, you have to study for it along with your job. You have to manage to keep your boss happy and at the same time squeeze more time out to study and ace your exams. If you are someone…
It's not nostalgia. It's not missing someone or some place. But it still stings the same. This winter has sent me to miss what I'll call "The Feeling". The Feeling is warm and cozy. The Feeling is like a lovely conversation over a cup of tea. The Feeling could last forever. The Feeling is the little things. The…
A very quick digital collage. I like playing with collage but I don't know if they're any good. Though how can you go wrong? I might pick this one up again and play with it further. Maybe I can just store these here.
Two weeks of grieving and feeling like a zombie walking through time and space. Trying to slowly get back to my normal self but, still its WIP. I feel looking back, this heartbreak was very necessary. Shows that I did end up being needy at the end of the day but I had a lot on my plate as well. Makes sense to not be…
I read a quote today that went something like this: "Writing is thinking. If you're thinking without writing, you only think you're thinking." I know this to be true. I've always felt sharpest after a writing session. But I am lazy. Over the coming weeks, I'm going to try and publish my thoughts about whatever it is I…
Just like your cleansing schedule - it’ll take hours to do. However if you have the “do-it” mentality: you’ll reach there no matter what, you’ll get better once you start to do it everyday Just get started first Always have an end goal in mind. Then set a timeline First principles Like why you wanted to do it You have…
My PKM includes not only fingertips to keyboard and screen to type but also fingers around a pen or pencil to write on paper. (Yes, I use Rocketbook. No, I don't have a tablet - yet.) Listening. When a prompt in LYT Workshop 9 was posted to share memorable podcasts, I immediately thought of and shared - this podcast…
I scored 11 out of 11 here. This has been, I suppose, the greatest source of psychic pain. It’s hard to cope, when you’re constantly reminded that the way your mind works is a mess. There are benefits to this psychic disorganization, it just takes some time and understanding to accept the benefits. I’ve accused myself…
Same time. Same place. When you’re new to journaling, routine is important. The consistency of routine will create the habit. When I started journaling, I followed the same routine for 13 months. Every day I wrote gratitude as soon as I walked into the kitchen to start my day. It worked for me. I still prefer…
I am quite sure that it's not an uncommon thing for any desi/middle eastern child to declare the following statement - My mom's biryani is the best in the whole wide world! And I'm no such exception to this. I do believe my mom's biryani is the best and every other person who has tried it so far has claimed the same.…
Ahhh my moment of peak conscious occurs frequently before my eyes fall asleep. at that moment there is a choice; do i record that moment/idea or loose it...
