2023/2022

I stuck with the same hair colour throughout 2022.

I started my new year continuing with petty thoughts. I basically saw an insta post of S, which said she was “serving looks”. And all I could think of was “can’t believe N is allowing you to dress up well and not feel bad about it”

I have very very uncharitable angry thoughts. And I’m not sure what to do to get them out. But I will figure. Maybe my biggest learning of the year is to acknowledge and respect my own negative emotions.

I don’t want to be able to see N as a good decent guy. I can’t. I know it isn’t possible. But that doesn’t mean he isn’t. And that also doesn’t mean I should.

Unfortunately I’d like to feel the satisfaction of having been proven right. But I might not feel it, lol. Okay. This is circles. You’ve been here many many times before.