Moving on in silence - Big dreams

Two weeks of grieving and feeling like a zombie walking through time and space. Trying to slowly get back to my normal self but, still its WIP. I feel looking back, this heartbreak was very necessary. Shows that I did end up being needy at the end of the day but I had a lot on my plate as well. Makes sense to not be romantically associated with someone when either of our emotional needs arent being met. I am glad I never begged him to stay. I really wish the best for him, hope he feels better. Still love him and have no resentment towards him [this is a first].

Over 2 weeks, my fingers itched to ask him whether we should start from scratch but stopped myself from doing that because he mentioned about how he was unhappy and realised that there is no point of getting back unless either of us is available for each other emotionally which we currently aren't.

The good friend persona of his exists in my head but nothing more than that.

Well coming to me, I think I am tired of crying and am on my way to get my life back in order. Want to tap into the feminine side of me more! Lost out on a freelance design client but I learnt my lessons of estimating time better for upcoming projects.

Wrt grad school, I just hope I am not dreaming too big. Was sorting out my finances and will work towards it. All eyes on grad school!!