Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
The same scary thought haunts me It could be the brightest day or the coldest dark night The same thought haunts me It's something I've lived with for years It pops up in my dreams, my daydreams It creeps up on me when I least expect it The same thought haunts me "Why me?" We all have our own version of "why me?" Yet…
I never believed in those who ran "writing courses" or anyone who gave me a framework for writing. There is only one way to write and that is to sit at the typewriter and bleed. There have been so many days when I had to bang my head just to put a few sentences together. You can feel the words and almost form them but…
Airport Arrival Terminals are a places filled with joy. Families and friends reconnecting, giving each other a warm hug and a kiss. Some, weirdly enough, spraying hand sanitizers as soon as possible. People stand waiting behind a railing waiting to get a glimpse of their loved ones, and as soon as they see them, their…
Depois passar a segunda-feira pós-natal, também feriado na Alemanha, em companhia do meu pijama no sofá, fui tomada por uma energia inesperada. Foi no banho. Lavei os cabelos muito curtos e os olhos, que se recuperam da cirurgia, com cuidado excessivo. Aos poucos, a água quente jorrando com força no meu corpo me…
Writing is hard. It’s even harder when you don’t have anyone to tell you whether the writing sounds good, or whether it’s something that would appeal to them. When you’re in this situation, how do you write well? How do you write something that others will enjoy reading, or find useful? Here’s a rule I’ve been using…
I've grown up being told that whatever I do in life, money should never be my goal. Instead, it should be a byproduct of my achievements. I do realise that this instruction can only come from a place of privilege. A place of wants, not needs. I've got a roof over my head, enough food to eat, and a secure family that…
Continuation from the previous blog: Now, I'm focused on establishing a healthier routine for myself. Going to bed and waking up early has become a priority, and having a proper breakfast energizes me for the day. I relish each moment of progress, savoring the taste of victory as I take positive steps forward. I'm…
Person number 1 vs person number 2 Relationships - people text, fuck, catch feelings and suddenly understand that: you have choices in your life - person 1 heartbroken - person 2 Now can’t admit I’m person 2 Always being telic Trying to “get some goals” “achieve something in your life” “being in that relationship by…
This is the partial title of a scientific paper that wanted to assert the main predictor of belief in astrology, the pseudoscience that saw the biggest boom (or revival) in the past decade - mainly due to social media. While for some it came as a surprise that narcissism is the biggest predictor of belief in…
Some of the best things happen when you decide to go for it. I experienced one best thing when I challenged myself to journal gratitude. The Ship 30 for 30 writing cohort proved I could be a daily writer. What did I have to lose expanding my writing by keeping a gratitude journal for 30 days? I journaled gratitude a…
To be as close to being 100% authentically yourself as possible. It's a small observation that I've seen in any domain that I really dabbled into. When I was in cegep and was pretty big into fashion, you would always start copying others, but the goal was always to "find your own style." To know what you love wearing…
Sometimes, I find myself self-critical over my apparent lack of focus, worrying that my broad range of interests doesn't get me anywhere. "Business Idea Factory" by Andrii Sedniev has helped me see the value in my widespread curiosity. The book highlights that exposure to diverse experiences is not just beneficial but…
In the early stages of the COVID-19 pandemic, the tech industry made two inferences that broadly informed strategy: - Software is now going to eat the world at a massively increased rate - Many people now like to work remotely and have a better work/life balance The industry accepted this as a package deal: fine,…
Ontem a minha dog retirou os pontos da cirurgia de retirada de todas as mamas do lado direito. Não sem resistir, chorar, gritar, querer morder todo mundo na sala. E não sem eu brigar com o veterinário bruto que acha que pode falar que a cachorra é dramática. Puxa sua pele com uma pinça e passe a tesoura numa área…
ahh Poetry from eras gone show why our words are powerful. They inspire new creations decades and centuries later. It connects us to the past, present and future. One day I would like to design Poetry, but for now I do not know what to say. Time will give me a stronger voice...
People often say "decisions makes our destiny",advices that decisions should be taken with care and should be calculated with pros and cons blah blah... But all the major pivots and moments of all life have more luck than expected.Luck or God's grace is more important than your decisions which you might think have…
To my 3 year old ex to those memories to those happy moments tears shed for me i apologize - forgive me. to those dear good mornings that cheery routine a part of me those GNs, stickers and little jokes cutting you off i apologize - forgive me. to cope, to move - not necessarily forward. Id bounce from hinge to bumble…
Remember those boxy robots from a couple of decades ago? The ones that spoke to humans and passed witty quips? I remember being so hooked to it that I'd have given an arm for that experience as a kid. Safe to say, we fell rather short in our attempt to make that a reality. We used the language of computers aka logic,…
Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi says flow is the secret to happiness. I agree. Not just because we were born in the same city (but not in the same country — Europe is fun like that sometimes). I feel great when I achieve a state of flow. There’s no self-doubt or bad ideas. Creative juices are flowing, and I lose my sense of…
you keep shouting my name on the sidelines so much so, that - unconsciously, of course, and probably without intent - you became my biggest cheerleader, even when i don’t do things exactly right i’ve never had that. then, i noticed that you apply the same softness in other aspects of our… acquaintance the first to ask…
There’s one simple rule for beginning journalers about what time to journal every day. Journal at the same time every day. You are building a habit. You want to be consistent. The time you choose to journal dictates your consistency. Consider these three factors when choosing your time. Your typical day: Is there a…
I love non fiction. The Master & His Emissary by Ian McGilchrist is ideal, a fascinating study of the brain and how it works. If you are interested in creativity it’s a gold mine. Sadly I can’t say the same for fiction. Of course I SHOULD appreciate the works of great authors but impatience kicks in, pages gets…
Coming home to a refreshing pool, a beautiful sunset, a delicious BBQ dinner, surrounded by loving parents feels like paradise. I‘m so lucky.
i noticed that sometimes i am prone to self-deluding untruths. i have observed primarily two types of lies: (1) "i will do xyz" and i do not end up doing xyz (and this task has nothing to do with difficulty of achievement; if i wanted to do it, i would've done it. it is always something trivial) (2) "i am so excited…
One of my guiding principles for inner work is “let everything be”. If you feel angry, let yourself feel angry. If you feel sad, let yourself feel sad. If you feel bored, let yourself feel bored. It’s the resistance to these feelings that causes problems. Or in buddhist terminology, this resistance is tanha: a wish…
There are animals that are also plants. Elysia Chlorotica is a slug that looks like a leaf. She's the one on the top left in the image above. Part of what makes a plant a plant is that it can make its own food out of inorganic materials like sunlight and water. Slugs like Elysia are mixotrophs. They eat food like…
Acabei de ler Quem Matou o Meu Pai, do Édouard Louis e não posso usar outra palavra que não "cortante" para descrever a experiência de ler tudo em uma sentada. A forma como ele costura sua história pessoal com a política... A rejeição dos pais por ele ser quem é, a repetição dos padrões, mesmo quando há tentativa de…
…in other people. I read someone's blog post here on Nicheless. I couldn't be arsed. That got me thinking about who could be arsed on reading my posts. Well done for making it this far.
Easier said than done, right? I know this firsthand because this has been my problem for years—decades, even. You see, I've always loved writing. I started crafting stories and essays at eleven years old. The writing wasn't great, but I loved the process: formulating thoughts and ideas, turning them into stories that…
There are almost no obese people in Copenhagen. Most people are obese in Lexington, Kentucky. It is not that people in Lexington are lazier or dumber or more morally flawed than people in Copenhagen. In Lexington, you can't walk anywhere and it's really hard to buy decent food. In Copenhagen, it's hard to buy shitty…
It has occurred to me several times in the past. I feel like expressing it to a friend of the opposite gender. It is the feeling of polyamory - it is not about just sex, it is about having conversations, it is about being available to listen and share with each other. I felt like calling the friend and asking to meet…
I can’t believe I spent the whole day reading Joyce and Woolf just to try to understand what people like about them — why do I always do that? Give people chances when I clearly don’t like them? (Well I liked Joyce in high school; or at least one story from the Dubliners. And Woolf has said some nice paragraphs which…
Short one today. Got stuff somewhat ready for tomorrow. Invited some coworkers over for a hangout after work. First time inviting people over to my place. Was trying to print and post some photos that I took as wall decorations. Almost end of the week. One more thing: I think I may want to try and make this a photo…
I‘m really bad at finishing something significantly earlier than the deadline. One reason for that is procrastination - I just need this hard deadline in order to get going. I work best under pressure. Another reason is perfectionism. Often, I just can’t stop overthinking and fine-tuning something. Thus can be a good…
I am less afraid of artificial intelligence than I am of the artificially intelligent.
Shit day - but never forget where you came from & lose sight of where you wanna be. Be like Alvin Tan. Confident, if not anything he at least brings his best out. Don’t have to be shy and negative about yourself - thinking what you say is not going to be correct. Just say you whatever you want to say. At least you’re…
I can be very restless and impatient; and sometimes surprise myself with my patience while watching birds. Watching birds going about their chores assiduously pleases me like nothing else. It's fascinating to watch a swallow build its nest drop by drop of mud, a lammergeier soar high with a bone and drop it on a rock…
Its 16/Apr/2023 I have entered a weird patch in life where I dont know what I feel. I am turning 25 and that's not making anything better. Its been more than half a year I escaped an extremely abusive family and the trauma still lingers on. Too broke to have a therapist. It feels horrible, I feel like I am fighting…
I have been a heavy user of the internet since 2000. There were years between 2012 and 2016 when I was very active on social media. Since then I have shied away from maintaining any online identity. There has been a constant urge to build an anonymous identity (to find like minded people) but I don’t want to build any…
1) Humans have a tendency to be drawn to binary distinctions. Whether you draw the divide between parties (R/D), or political inclinations (liberal / conservative), or population density (urban / rural), or social class (elite / deplorable), every distinction can ultimately be reduced to us vs. them. This primordial…
Why stressing into the things when it’s too late to control The first mistake that people make is they try to avoid mistake It’s okay to be making mistake About systematic You remember the times you woke up for school, do the homeworks and be a goodboy That’s training yourself to be adulting It’s nothing “nerd” about…
In my personal experience, (and according to some self-help gurus) the blank canvas is very intimidating. It happens when you start on anything new- every letter you type, every stroke of the brush seems to violently destroy the beauty of the blankness, the nothingness. To be worthy of taking up space, the very first…
My parents video call me everyday. It could sound like I am complaining but that's not it. I like that they do. Most days I do pick up the call regardless of if I am out, at a party or at a friend's place. Usually, the conversation goes as follows- where are you (when I'm out) did you eat? what's happening? what else…
I'm cooking pasta al ragù and it's going fairly well. It's not my first time, everybody is happy when I make it, everybody seems to love it. I'm not a great cook and not a stickler for detail. I'm currently stirring the sauce in the pan and at the same time stirring the noodles in the pasta pot, I'm doing it with the…
the night appears to pass in blinks yet the dreams hold ages, it seems. the pleasant stories playing in a thread, we crave, they never come to an end. to finish them, trying again to sleep, the thoughts resurfacing from the deep. too-bad, the stories refuse to weave, how quickly we let the gone to leave. how many more…
I'm not saying I have OCD and ADHD, but it takes me an hour to walk from my bedroom to my kitchen.
After watching the live feed for hours, I managed to find this post which seems to be a direct response to the previous one: === anon0330 I’m not a guy who writes long posts. But I have to respond to the holier-than-you post circulating the other day. People who condemn los Raznos seem to conveniently ignore how the…
One of my favorite ways of expressing and receiving love is through creating assemblages—sharing a playlist of carefully chosen songs, an are.na board that appeals to a person’s specific interests, a collection of seemingly arbitrary objects that tell a story about a relationship’s history… Through this exchange, a…
