you have no idea

you keep shouting my name on the sidelines

so much so, that - unconsciously, of course, and probably without intent - you became my biggest cheerleader, even when i don’t do things exactly right

i’ve never had that.

then, i noticed that you apply the same softness in other aspects of our… acquaintance

the first to ask how i am
the first to check in when i’m withdrawn
the first to ensure i’m alright when i’m clearly not

and since i can’t tell you this; i’ll leave this here for you, untouched and frozen in time, etched in pixels to ensure it remains - my constant truth

you are what i always knew i wanted

and i know i cannot have.