forgive me

To my 3 year old ex
to those memories
to those happy moments
tears shed for me
i apologize - forgive me.

to those dear good mornings
that cheery routine
a part of me
those GNs, stickers and little jokes
cutting you off
i apologize - forgive me.

to cope, to move - not necessarily
forward. Id bounce from hinge to bumble
faces blurring like days
meaningless, sheet to sheet

and soon I would lead these
faceless on. shunting shunning
fleeting smiles before
cutting them off

brain whirring, feelings numbing
the apps deleted
a slower day is needed
and it'll come, but i
hold out for larger things - forgiveness.