Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
One of my guiding principles for inner work is “let everything be”. If you feel angry, let yourself feel angry. If you feel sad, let yourself feel sad. If you feel bored, let yourself feel bored. It’s the resistance to these feelings that causes problems. Or in buddhist terminology, this resistance is tanha: a wish…
my sleep was really poor i blame it on (1) lack of exercise (2) having to sleep next to a person (3) said person "forcing" me to watch movies with him, but delaying the start of the movie until late because he has to "work on something", causing unfavorable screen lights to enter my field of consciousness and…
I'm sitting here in Rome, within spitting distance from the Arch of Titus, which commemorates the sacking of Jerusalem two thousand years ago. I'm sitting here, as a Jew, thinking to myself, well, they must've really thought something of the Jews then, to have built themselves an arch commemorating the destruction of…
you can convince yourself that you're happy. that whatever you're doing right now is healthy and that your friends love you - in a group or not. yet, you cant run away from the truth. heaven knows im miserable, i hope that death would be nicer to me then in that sense. i dont want to die but i dont want to live like…
2023 - a new year. A new year where people will make and, inevitably, break new year resolutions. Like last year. I resolve to begin my writing journey…with consistency. I prefer short form - short and succinct. This is my aim. What will I be writing about? People say specificity wins. Maybe that will evolve over…
it's so easy to take our greatest strengths for granted simply because they come naturally to us. and conversely, to normalize behavior that simply conforms to our surroundings. without stopping to ask the hard questions - to quiet the constant noise begging us to react to it, to be fiercely autonomous, it's easy to…
TIME BANK At any instant, the present moment is all you truly possess. Your balance in the TIME bank will never exceed one moment— for the future is yet to be deposited, and the past has already been spent. What remains is only now. Spend it with care.....
There is generally good awareness on the importance of gratitude tracking and how that improves mental health. There is a tendency to make gratitude noting as a mega milestone kind of event like, child birth, exams, promotion, and more recently, what is trending also is daily micro gratitude practices, where listing…
The question of whether AI will make writers obsolete is a complex one. We can't predict the future, but it is clear that AI will change what it means to be a writer. In a recent workshop, Dan Shipper pointed out that 150 years ago, good penmanship was essential because everything had to be done by hand. Today, doing…
I have always wanted to build a writing habit for the longest time. However a combination of imposter syndrome, unavailability of time, not prioritising writing and fear of my bad content stopped me. A major factor was also the world around me which shared their writing on social media. I was even afraid to create a…
Most schools, at least the kind I went to too, are pointless and do more harm than good. People spend about 15 years of their life in schools. During this period, I feel they loose creativity and curiosity. They are taught to compete with peers and learn that failing is a bad thing. They are taught things which are…
I am quite sure that it's not an uncommon thing for any desi/middle eastern child to declare the following statement - My mom's biryani is the best in the whole wide world! And I'm no such exception to this. I do believe my mom's biryani is the best and every other person who has tried it so far has claimed the same.…
my original blogs have scores of posts written over the years. consolidated now on wordpress after a mid-stay at medium, it's a very haphazard collection mostly surrounding themes like, not surprisingly, human misery, love, heartbreak, and philosophy. i told a friend i am pursuing masters in philosophy and he said,…
She was a poem, I wrote in the sand, and I watched, As the waves of time, faded her memory. Time draws its own lines, carrying away each moment, each word. I was a fool to think, the shore, could hold her forever. Like the beautiful sunset, at dusk, watch it with awe, take it all in, because the sky will darken. Now,…
so this is basically my first time writing here I have written some small things here an there thought of giving a try here too so i want to start a process or it will be my theme where i will be writing something once in a weekend in a way where ill be asking questions or your opinions about some of my thoughts or my…
I wrote 2 drafts with some ideas about topics I could write about... they are gone. I can't recall what they were about, as much as I sit around and try to remember, I'm still left with just a blank page in my brain. This shows how important it is to write your ideas the moment they pop out because everyone has good…
ahh this week i have been further using some AI text prompt to image generator tools in attempt to create an image that has a living quality. the cover image starts to show signs of life; the sphere eroding and green moss-like texture on the surface. the eroding texture bleeds up the image and begins to blur away due…
He came to see me, Even if I forgot. He was the inspiration, Behind every lovely shot. He always sat there, Fulfilled and lone. Beholding me gracefully, He jollied and shone. I remember spending nights, Thinking of him on my roof. I crave this gorgeous- He lives aloof. I ask the ones whom he met, Is he the same he…
“Therefore if God gave them the same gift as he also gave us after believing in the Lord Jesus Christ, who was I to hinder God?” Acts 11.17 NET. God gave the outpouring of the Holy Spirit to those gathered in Cornelius’s house so that everyone could reach this conclusion: the gospel is for all. MORE: Cornelius’s…
I'm watching a YouTube video called Network: The World is a Corporation. It's a single scene from one of my favorite movies, Network, written by Paddy Chayefsky and directed by Sidney Lumet. I'm not a big rewatch person, but I like to quote and reference this scene a lot to people, and since my memory isn't as sharp…
Governments the world over, want to be able to exert better control over Twitter. So far their only options have been to enact laws that compel the company to shape its behavior in particular ways. But Twitter is a global company that has to abide by the laws and regulations of all the countries in which it operates.…
i think sheila heti is actually somewhat mainstream despite being indie in style but tao lin is still fully indie despite being published in Vice just because like i think sheila heti is spreading a mainstream message [in a groundbreaking way] but tao lin is spreading a somewhat indie message ["somewhat" meaning a…
Why is it so hard to start working out again when I know it’s going to help me feel better? I know it’s going to have a positive impact but it’s still so hard to start
Creating is hard - so much harder than consuming. Sometimes I find myself trapped in a consumption hole, paralized by the amount of blood, sweat, and tears it takes to create. Consuming might be way easier and more stimulating in the short term. However, it is not fulfilling; it's a trap. Creating is hard, but it is…
Tá aí uma coisa que eu me desdobro para cumprir. Não gosto de amigo secreto, karaoke, confra de firma e outras coisas que coloquem na mesma frase colegas de trabalho e festa. E é uma questão. Grande questão. Quem não é visto não é lembrado e toda essa baboseira inventada por uma pessoa claramente extrovertida. Eu me…
There are times and topics that make me want to lay in the middle of the floor and stay there until... who knows. I have yet to take that option. Yesterday at a mental health facility a patient opened the door to his balcony, looked down, turned around, and laid down in the middle of the hallway until someone came and…
A spiritual advisor said "gratitude is an action." So as we send text messages and, for the special ones, phone calls of gratitude to those in our life, it is time for me to reflect on how I display gratitude, rather that a simple admission of being "thankful." To my wife and family, I am grateful. She has a full time…
tradition, convention, protocol; these are tools to control and manipulate groups of people. rules are meant to enforce behaviour that is largely not natural. you basically momentarily pretend that you care, but mostly you don't. it's liberating to be able to live without having to pretend. you pretend to comply,…
Most of the work I am most excited to accomplish feels nebulous in nature. Maybe it's partially my level of current understanding (true expertise is abstraction/compression of complex ideas into mental models, frameworks, puns, analogies and stories), but living in the unknown is one of my most favorite feelings. In…
Dear person, I am waiting, waiting for you to make a grand entrance and take my breath away as you exit the stage and keep it with you until my heart stops beating. I am deranged yet lucid enough enough to love you till my mind gets lost beyond the depths of the world. I am waiting for when we would just sit together…
I will need to pull out a history book to understand the how and why of how women's nails became a social symbol. My virgo nature, as I write this, makes me want to understand the cosmetic industry, the inventions of why only women got an opportunity to be creative when it come to coloring their nails. I will reserve…
1) There’s no work life balance. Life will get to a rhythm if you choose your PRIORITY right. What matters the most to you NOW? Regardless of your past relationship, career choices, family and friends. What matters now? ————————————————— 2) The best skill, or so called power — if I were to pass to my son if I ever had…
Grammar is not the enemy of creativity—it’s the architecture that makes meaning possible. Beneath every sentence, every idea we attempt to share, grammar shapes the invisible scaffolding of thought. It teaches us how language works, not as mere ornament, but as structure. Without grammar, our words collapse under…
ieri notte mi sono svegliato alle 3, ho acceso il telefono e ho finito per installare il browser di Qwant per iOS, che è poi una versione semplificata di Firefox. Sono passate solo 17 ore, durante le quali ho anche dormito, guidato, camminato 17 km in montagna fino a 3.000 metri di quota, mangiato un paio di volte e…
Every once in a while, it's good to make a break from the traditional routine. This is outside of the normal breaks that one should have during the day or the different activities done in the weekend. Those are fine and work well but there's need for something more drastic sometimes. Changing the routine, changing the…
https://voca.ro/1hJFed3yuwpt me, practicing for gig night i need to file my nails it is so hard to play the F chord
Some days will be lit. Other days you’ll have to find your fire.
As a baby your nervous system isn't fully developed yet. When you feel stress, you need touch. Real touch, soft, slow, friendly, safe touch. You're held by a caring being much larger and stronger than you. The gentle motion and smiling face is comforting to you. You feel the stress ebbing away. As you grow older and…
Don't believe every wisdom that you get blindly, do not follow into the dogma instead fuck around and find out, which means test out your own hypothesis. Don't give into the seduction of borrowed wisdom, learn to rigorously test out the biases as well as the wisdom that you are given as true. Do not accept anything at…
Otra vez me alcanzó la madrugada, 2:26 para ser exactos. Gracias por leerme. En este mini blog, como creo que eso es este formato de 300 palabras. Decidí que voy a estar escribiendo ideas e historias más personales. Hoy en internet uno debe vender o venderse, por lo que a veces las ideas e historias personales ya no…
What is the mind? I don't know. But I know something that seems seems pretty central to it. That is the focus of attention. I've seen people debate over whether or not we really have a will that we control. I can sympathize with arguments on either side. In my experience, if we have control over anything, it's how we…
I've recently been feeling like the effects of pandemic burnout were at once stronger and more severe than I ever considered. That's besides the plain fact of contracting Covid twice along the way. Shit has been rough. Sleep overtakes me even after God doses of espresso and cold brew. Fresh air can help, but sometimes…
hot chocolate howling winds my italian neighbor was like "do you have an extra line? let's tie an extra line so that your boat is more stable" i was like yes please and our danish neighbor was like "wait wait don't put it there, because it could rip your stanchion. here, let's take this cleat instead" jumped on my…
Hoje eu acordei um pouco mais tarde, tomei meu banho, lavei meu cabelo, escovei os dentes, coloquei uma roupa que logo se mostrou o look errado pro sol que ia sair depois das 10h da manhã e fui mais uma vez para o mercado central. Desta vez, para comer pão de queijo com pernil desfiado e, pasmem, queijo da canastra.…
do you remember when you were 19 and called 28 year olds "silver foxes"? you are now 30.
I think this is such a good outlook and it's something to catch yourself on. A specific example. I went to see The Batman a few months ago and I've had lots of people ask me what I thought about it. I said that I thought it was good, but I said that I had seen it before. Corrupt cops, a mob that runs the city, good…
I am four days into the new regimen and I am feeling pretty good about the whole thing. I got up at 6:30am this morning to ride Peloton and that is the earliest I have gotten up in 3years by my own volition and not because of travel. I was exited to get to bed last night without a cigar, and to wake up and knock out…
And it rains. Some of the surface water would run off into swales and boomerangs. The soil is arrested. The overflows would then be captured by the recharge wells. The remaining water would slowly infiltrate into earth, trickles into the shallow aquifer. The open wells swell. Some of this water is used for domestic…
