uniqueness and normalcy

it's so easy to take our greatest strengths for granted simply because they come naturally to us.

and conversely, to normalize behavior that simply conforms to our surroundings. without stopping to ask the hard questions - to quiet the constant noise begging us to react to it, to be fiercely autonomous, it's easy to sleepwalk through life.

this is however, learned behavior. as we get older, formulate relationships, "educate" ourselves, and adapt to the world around us, we stop asking as many questions.

those gnawing suspicions about the way the world works, they harden into complacency.

the unanswerable questions get sugarcoated into satisfactory answers.

we numb ourselves in an attempt to make sense of it all.
but what if it was never made to make sense?
what if the world was not meant to be understood, but merely to be developed? bent to our perception of reality?

our unique perspectives, sharp edges get dulled down over time. mimicry takes hold and before we know it, the life full of boundless possibilities ends as a trail of disappointment.

what if the whole time, all we were meant to be was ourselves? to more deeply observe instead of perfectly predict? to enjoy rather than explain?

what if we've always known who we were, instead of trying so hard to figure it out?

what if we simply trusted ourselves? what then?