Gathering thoughts…
you can convince yourself that you're happy. that whatever you're doing right now is healthy and that your friends love you - in a group or not.
yet, you cant run away from the truth.
heaven knows im miserable, i hope that death would be nicer to me then in that sense.
i dont want to die but i dont want to live like this anymore
i wish i could turn back time, appreciate what i had before it all went to shit
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