Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
The invisible hand assumes that when individuals act in pursuit of their own self-interest, their decisions cumulatively generate outcomes that benefit society. This principle rests on several assumptions—perfect information, rational decision-making, and institutions that allow private choices to align with broader…
If you've read my last post, you know that I've been obsessed with Kanye for the past few weeks. It's pretty much the only thing I listen to and have been greatly inspired by his album, My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy. But yesterday, when I was re-listening to MBDTF for the nth time, I enjoyed it way more than the…
There are almost no obese people in Copenhagen. Most people are obese in Lexington, Kentucky. It is not that people in Lexington are lazier or dumber or more morally flawed than people in Copenhagen. In Lexington, you can't walk anywhere and it's really hard to buy decent food. In Copenhagen, it's hard to buy shitty…
I can’t believe I spent the whole day reading Joyce and Woolf just to try to understand what people like about them — why do I always do that? Give people chances when I clearly don’t like them? (Well I liked Joyce in high school; or at least one story from the Dubliners. And Woolf has said some nice paragraphs which…
I am less afraid of artificial intelligence than I am of the artificially intelligent.
You need someone you can tell everything. I share with my friends. They know a lot about me, but they don’t know everything. You can tell your journal everything. This essay and the next are examples of how I use my journals as a best friend. You may be surprised when your journal gives you an answer. I often clear my…
What happens when the community and beliefs that helped shape our minds and lives start to fail us? When the questions start to accumulate and remain unanswered or unacknowledged, a gap starts to form. If we’re fortunate enough, the community recognizes this and starts building bridges. If not, we’re forced to jump…
You don’t meet “new friends” by actually meeting new international friends You gotta be interesting enough And that means not afraid to speak up to anyone Let yourself be yourself be in your skins Do whatever you do in the moment And work on things Can’t be empty headed anymore Enjoy every moment and taking everything…
Eloise was always a fan of the outlet malls. She'd often come home from a day out with bags of clothes and a giant grin on her face. She'd lay them out on her bed, pointing to each price tag while her husband, Ed, would nod along. "This was 60% off, Ed," she'd say. "Look at this one, Ed, it retails for $400! I got it…
Ik kan de weg nooit vinden wanneer het donker is. Ik noem het mijn nachtblindheid, ook al weet ik dat dat het niet echt is. Ik verdwaal wanneer ik geen kleur zie. Ik raak liever niet verdwaald. Ik dool al zo veel rond in mijn eigen hoofd, doorheen mijn eigen lichaam, en het idee van dobberende gedachten in een dwalend…
somewhere for this to live! - my thoughts on loving friends, blurring the platonic (or my exploration into the actual etymological/philosophical origins of the word cause.. i keep wanting to make it include romance.. which i feel is valid rn) --- "friend crushes" and what that even really means/is it a thing -…
In the past, I struggled so much to fall asleep. Every night was a real-life nightmare, with my brain refusing to shut down and winding up in all these hypothetical scenarios that brought me anxiety. But strangely, that doesn’t happen when I read before going to bed. Reading before sleeping, apart from making my eyes…
Imagine you are making a cake and a milkshake. You put the cake in the oven and realise it's going to take 2 hours to bake. Until the cake is in the oven, you smartly make the milkshake, and then come back to the oven and finish making the cake. That's async processing. All the work is being done on one thread but…
The cold, empty space stares back at me: What if it doesn't resonate? What if I'm not pleased with it? Tick-tock More seconds elapse and I don't even have a draft to call first. It's an uncomfortable feeling. Staring across the chasm between the brilliant insight in your mind and the not-yet-articulated onto the…
门当户对 - it's the relationship / survival skills. You did have love with YQ but it doesn't work in the end But if you're not - you gotta work hard to get there -------------- Because never compare. There's so much things that you can do when you're single. Focus on something that you won't regret You think you will…
As a fellow degen, I've done my fair share of discord grinding. Most times, it almost feels like a job. In the rarer (and best) cases, it feels natural and becomes like a virtual third place. The problem is if you want to be a degen, you have to continue grinding in other discords to get those other WL opportunities.…
Barf ka muqaddar hai apne hi paani main pighal jaana.
there are pleasures for which there SHOULD be some guilt involved for example: physical books used to be trees. reading books is technically a guilty pleasure if you really care about that kind of stuff, like, killing wildlife and stuff when you really think about it, almost every aspect of "modern" life becomes…
AhhA an unexpected result from design presents itself as 'pure' dynamic creation. the next step for many is to panic or deem that design a failure. i like to think of it in terms of post-rationalization. now that design can succeed in a new form to tell more stories...
I've recently been feeling like the effects of pandemic burnout were at once stronger and more severe than I ever considered. That's besides the plain fact of contracting Covid twice along the way. Shit has been rough. Sleep overtakes me even after God doses of espresso and cold brew. Fresh air can help, but sometimes…
I've noticed that the first 10 minutes of my day can make or break it. If I hit snooze several times and start scrolling through news on my tablet, I usually end up feeling sluggish and scattered. But when I directly get out of bed, stay off my devices, write down thoughts in my journal, and take a quick cold shower,…
Have you ever scrolled through your past writings or posts online and had a feeling of cringe. That can't be me, What a stupid I was ! I am sure you have, at some point. In part, this is explained by a phenomenon called Denning - Kruger effect. The less you know about something, the more likely you are to not know…
There is only one God, luck. Every individual is more often than not a captive of forces beyond their capacity. Such is the power of luck that it can effectively put hard work, effort and persistence to shame. Helplessness is one of the many brutal emotions known to human kind. For that is when the mind decides to…
Every single human society that has ever existed, past or present, has had to contend with the question of how to control the generative impulse. Variously identified as the will to power, yetzer hara (יצר הרע), or "toxic masculinity," it is almost always referred to in terms that are more male than female, and…
They say that not a single person on the planet can make something as simple as a pencil. The creation of a pencil - from the lead to the wood - is the culmination of a grand orchestra of people working together. Very few of them were were actively trying to make a pencil, but it's the collective effort that…
My birthday is February 14. I have a week to decide what gift I should ask for that is going to define my life. Snowboard pants? A raspberry pi to run a Bitcoin full node? My wife asked me what she should nudge the kids to get me: post-apocalyptic graphic novels or a young adult lit book in Spanish. These are the…
i'm losing the faith that i can ever really be ordinary in the ways i wanted to be ordinary but i hope to at least be extraordinary in the ways i want to be extraordinary i'm gettin a feelin that i want to look at megan boyle's birth chart
A typical week starts on Monday morning with office work and suddenly you realise that you have a lot of things pending to be done and you convince yourself that "I will do it over the weekend". This list piles up and finally when the weekend arrives we would have forgotten about it and when we realise the weekend…
I was woken up by mom having really high fever and immense body pains. It was immensely scary. I was suddenly face to face with exactly how helpless I was without her. Also, my immediate reaction was anger towards her. Anger for being vulnerable. I don’t know why I react this way Just the previous night, had a…
the air seemed void and no one knew why, even the loudest ones got dazed, maybe shy. the girl on the clouds, yet on floor, seemed as if she would outpour any minute her tears, a galloon, those eyes bear. all the elation, all that frenzy, all the fury that made her crazy. why did she hide them, until today? but not…
Leaving a new place that I just knew and that I loved always makes me wonder if I will ever get back there. That thought comes as I depart, as I take the final looks onto the place. My mind seems to need to know if it's like a last and forever goodbye, or if it's more like "I will see you again sometime". Ubud was one…
When hunter-gatherers discovered fire, they would have felt it was magic. But now, when we look at fire, we just see it as a normal thing. In recent times, there are a lot of AI tools popping up. When looking at tools like ChatGPT, it feels like magic, but in another five years, it will become a normal thing, like…
It's been 1.5 days since I underwent a surgery to repair my shoulder, and I can't believe that I've been struggling to find non-work thoughts and activities to fill my time. Persistent anxiety about the state I've left certain projects, which have been all-consuming in recent months, even manifests in my dreams. I've…
Running is my way of meditating. When I run, my mind enters a state of calm and focus. My breathing becomes my tempo. Running gives me space away from the digital world. It gives me space away from people. When I run, I feel my body energize — each muscle of mine gets into gear. I feel the sweat almost have a…
More than half a decade ! I will be done with my current job soon, after having spent more than 6.5 years here. It feels strange , disconcerting , sad , exciting and a strange sense of relief as well. I don’t know what to feel or think anymore and hence am letting all sorts of emotions and feelings wash over me. This…
26 May 2022 0342 I'm on a date with a woman I don't know IRL. We're walking around in the south side of my home town and go into an old bank building I used to frequent. It's a combination library, pool hall & convenience store. There's a yellow & black strip down the middle of the floor dividing the room in half -…
The internet has given rise to a new genre of humorous content and I personally love it! The ones I find particularly amusing are around wine and comparing it to life. ''Yoga Class? I thought you said Pour a Glass''. You get the drift. When did wine become such an ubiquitous part of corporate lore? I for one of course…
I released myself from the shackles of performative acts within the corporate landscape that's solely measured through external metrics dictated by an ambiguous algorithm on its designated platform (I deleted my LinkedIn account).
Hoje eu passei o dia todo trabalhando em um artigo para o fechamento de uma matéria da pós. Da próxima vez, preciso pegar um tema mais fácil. O medo de lidar com grandes corporações e seu cinismo em relatórios oficiais e também na imprensa é grande. O que parece apenas desonestidade tem como pano de fundo estratégias…
I'm watching a YouTube video called Network: The World is a Corporation. It's a single scene from one of my favorite movies, Network, written by Paddy Chayefsky and directed by Sidney Lumet. I'm not a big rewatch person, but I like to quote and reference this scene a lot to people, and since my memory isn't as sharp…
You wanna be charismatic and people person as much as possible. So when you leave the office - remember that you’re only doing it cos you wanna get rest at home. Everything you do makes sense - so heads up and say bye to your superior and colleagues (imagine what E will do) - oh bye! And the voice will not really…
Since 2016, or even earlier before Apple introduced just a tab in App Store for Games. I have argued Apple should separate their App Store and Game Store. By continue charging 30% for Games, and rethink the whole model for App Store, they would not have been end up like they are today. Resentment from developers.…
I wrote this in February, thanks to Nicheless it’s seeing the light of the day. With Covid, we adapted from buying from stores to buying almost everything online and getting it home delivered. This was ok (not saying great). We ordered stuff and it reached in 1/2/3 days. Local kirana wala, a phone call away also got…
Any sufficiently developed theory that seeks to explain and predict phenomena will eventually cross the boundary from prediction to control. You don't get nuclear bombs without first developing nuclear physics. You don't get CRISPR without the study of genetics. And you definitely don't get behavioral modification…
Imagine my third-grade surprise when I got to Kingston the first time since migrating and found out our driver was named "Drugs." My grandmother arranged the pickup and everyone was saying this name like it was a normal title. Like his name was John or Joe. Except, it was a word that'd been drilled into my head the…
Folks are flocking from Twitter to Mastodon. And, we recently learned that decentralized posts are called "toots". A decentralized server that is reportedly confusing to join and post is popular for the moment. Many Tweeps create a lot of noise about leaving the platform. And, I've noticed that my follower count went…
Que cidade maravilhosa A minha preferida do Brasil até o momento. Comi bem, dancei bem, passeei muito. E aqui vai uma lista generalista do que pude observar em 10 dias - faz muito calor. Mesmo assim, as mulheres priorizam o cabelo grande. Aliás, elas são muito bem arrumadas, vaidosas e cheirosas - chove todo dia - da…
Made me realised on how much growth I can do & still need to do Be interesting & don’t think so many - just do & live Too many thoughts inside your brain - you gotta divert the energy to around your world eyesight Take what’s most interesting and take it in. Ask interesting questions The energy and emotional…
