Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
From a spiritual advisor: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=92i5m3tV5XY For the past ten years or so, every morning, the routine is to make my bed, read some spiritual literature, meditate, and pray. Lately, I have gone back to the ole Headspace well for meditation. But sometimes, like today, I sit still for a few…
When my brother and I were growing up, our dad would respond to my brother's "alternative" preferences for how he chose to express himself by rolling his eyes and saying, "whatever floats your boat." This phrase was etched into his mind and, later, into his skin, when he commissioned a tattoo artist to ink a wooden…
By being so harsh on yourself doesn’t work. Yes noticing the problem - but magnifying it doesn’t do anything - it’s just a toxic trait that you’ve dealt with when you were young (playing the victim card) Your conversations - with your housemate Why do you even need to talk about the negatives - the neighbours bla bla…
This is not a post where I tell you that getting bored is good and all. But to see why actually am I getting bored! I just said that I've been working as an Intern for the past 9 months, and yet when my room mate is not around, it seems that I don't have anything to do apart from work. My room mate does not make a…
4 days before I was gonna move into my dorm I got the news that I'll be having to move 8 days later from what I expected, my first reaction was frustration. Everything was already planned, already in order and now I had to deal with it. I guess I'm very lucky that I don't have economical problems and I can just book a…
You might be a lifeline in a social setup but lifeless underneath, you have a gallery full of smiling selfies but you don't have one smile for yourself everyday.You have a phone full of contacts but you don't want to dial to any one. When you try to analyse yourselves you come to conclusions like I am an introvert, I…
Due to too much suspicious activity on Instagram Listening to “supposedly motivational podcast” But not aligning actions (WHICH IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING TO DO) DOING is most important and most vital Else it’s not important You should try out certain scheduling technics Which you’ve done quite well one day Just need…
i have never recovered from the love i felt for you it doesn't matter if someone is bf material or not--you can fall in love with them--because it's not for the sake of making them your bf that you fell in love with them
When did being mindful become an abstract, complicated process that we must opt into daily? To be mindful is simply to be attentive and aware. To get out of your own head. To realize the world doesn't revolve around you. To be curious about what is going on with others and to engage accordingly. In other words: don't…
For the longest time I've had a not so healthy relationship with consuming content. I would feel guilty about watching a show or a movie. One of the major reasons was that I had procrastinated so much on the things I should've done that when it was leisure time, it felt wrong. I felt like I hadn't earned it. Have you…
Ontem eu falei aqui que tava na bad pq um ficante terminou comigo. Fui almoçar com uma amiga e chorei no metrô, chorei no almoço, chorei voltando pra casa, passei mal na rua, enfim o drama. Eu já aceitei que eu sou dramática. Falei com essa minha amiga que eu almocei, uma amiga que tá vivendo um amor de verão dos…
I have spent an obnoxious amount of time asking myself, "what should I do with my life?" Not because there is anything necessarily "to do" or because I have an inherently unsatisfying or distressing life. In fact, it's quite the opposite. I have a cushy, work-from-home, tech-adjacent, golden-handcuffs, kind of job. Me…
Modern music is sampled at around 48kHz, 24-bit depth, stereo (left/right channels), and songs on average are about 5 minutes. Which begs the question: “Just how many five-minute-songs can there really be?” The average song, ignoring compression, assuming above parameters, requires about 700M bits:…
I have had a very very horrible week. I have been really scared, been overcome by anxiety, crying, etc. But today, I had an epiphany. A revelation of sorts. It finally occurred to me that this just wasn't feeling right. I do not feel respected by the blissclub process. I feel extremely pressured by the timelines they…
The comfort zone is a deceptive piece of shit that keeps trying to stop me from having formative experiences. Although I am aware of this, it hits me every time and each time it costs me a great deal of effort to overcome it. The good news is that the comfort zone expands with every new experience, when seeking…
wake up early // get active // find solitude 4 am // run + lift // movement meditation ——————————————— "We rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope" - Romans 5:3-4
One of the goals of my career sabbatical is to spend time with new technology tools. To that end, I decided to start working with an autonomous coding agent as a way to spend time with technology and to have an actual project to demonstrate what I'm learning (that project here: https://stachemail.co). I am late to the…
My realization started with undershirts and socks. I have many possibilities. In fact, I find them everywhere. Some undershirts were old and worn. Others sat neglected. Why did I have them? Toss! Then I tackled my socks. I discovered over the years I had been hoarding socks. Why? This is where the mindset of…
Let me first explain describe the situation - I have plans and things I want to do, they are not that hard to do but for some reason, I just cannot take the first step. Laziness, procrastination, being too comfortable, lack of desire of doing the thing that I thought I wanted, burnout, lack of discipline - the actual…
He came to see me, Even if I forgot. He was the inspiration, Behind every lovely shot. He always sat there, Fulfilled and lone. Beholding me gracefully, He jollied and shone. I remember spending nights, Thinking of him on my roof. I crave this gorgeous- He lives aloof. I ask the ones whom he met, Is he the same he…
Segunda-feira sempre soa como um dia ingrato, mas na última teve jogo do Brasil x Suíça, que resultou em 1x0. Foi gritaria e confusão. Revi um monte de pessoas conhecidas numa leva só enquanto tomava uma cerveja gelada ruim. Saí do evento de pileque e com fome, pois o hambúrguer era tão humilde que não deu conta de…
“I’m through with this fuckin war, through with marchin in the dust, through with gettin shot at. I’m done, I’m goin’ home,” spouted Jenkins as he got up from the fire. “Quit bein’ a pussy, ain’t one of us here that don’t wanna be home” countered Carlton. “I ain't no pussy.” “Sure acting like one.” “Evenin’ boys”…
I finally jumped onto the startup bandwagon towards the end of 2021 at the time when offices were sending emails to their employees about opening up. It occurred to me then that if I did not do this, then the only choice left to me would be to go back to the corporate world. I decided to start my own corporate world…
and not on a Thursday. saturday wedding. suited and booted. pastel flowers. pink tie. Then reality sinks in. The plan is not mine to make. And you’ll marry on a Thursday anyway.
During my meditation practice today, I had a realization that has left me feeling both elated and bewildered. For the first time, I understood that the boundary between myself and the external world may not actually exist. In our everyday lives, we tend to view the world as something separate from ourselves. We see…
Yesterday I started working on ramen based on local ingredients from Goa. So far I've swapped the traditional pork topping for a Goan Choriz and I blended cashew nuts into the broth. As I gently pushed the boundaries here I constantly found myself asking what makes ramen ramen? The black and white answer is that Ramen…
What is Life? if we were to die one day, And what is Life? if we're gonna live forever.
Yes, I have a sweet tooth. I love me some sweets: pastries, candy, cakes, cookies… you name it, I love it. But there has been no better sweetener in life than community. Combining community with all aspects of my life has provided that extra 🤌 But how? I’m currently learning how to DJ right now, and sure, learning…
1. find a dark crevice to escape to. under your bed, behind a heavy curtain, in your closet, on a long walk in the middle of the night. usually its scary when you can’t see anything around you, but in these moments, let the emptiness of this blank palette make space for your racing mind. 2. notice the colors. the 8…
Back from spending time with "family" - not blood, but "adopted". had to drag myself out a bit to get there, but had a thoroughly good time with them, some of whom I hadn't seen in person for several years. It can be nice to have non-family family around. No word from my buddy, but then again, for all his faults and…
Being okay with not being okay. Contradiction? Kinda. Really it’s different layers. Maybe you’re not okay at one level, but if the higher level is okay with it, then on the whole, you’ll feel okay. Maybe your bank account is zero. Is that a problem? Yes of course, but an equally correct answer is: Only if you treat it…
one thing i've always been shy to admit was that i always wanted my birthday to fall on a weekday because it meant that i could finally get attention from my friends or have a day all meant for me. birthdays are a funny concept - celebrating the day you were born when all i've wanted to do was dissapear. still, its…
My first thought here was ok.. let's see what's up. After reading a few blogs I wonder if there are any humans around here. It looks nice on the surface and feels cool under ground. I wonder ...There must be something out here, limits are everywhere so let's find mine, was wondering my self. In the end it's only 10…
Reading the news, one can easy to feel the world is falling apart. But is it? Or is it us, thinking things are worse than they are? When a major plane crash happens, the front pages worldwide scream, “Plane crashed in XYZ.” And if you have a flight coming up, seeing this can make you freeze. It’s well-documented that…
What if we stuff Samosa with Kachori stuffing and vice versa. Which one would you call Samosa now? Is Samosa a Samosa because of its shape or how Intel says 'Look Inside'. Similarly, what makes us humans? Faltu baatein apart, Could someone please experiment with stuffing kachori with samosa stuffing and blah blah and…
"gonna just put on some classical music and write" never ends well because i will just fully want to listen and not write at all but i can listen to rap and write sometimes
Start slow. Then whenever you progress you’ll learn along the way to make it the best - that’s also a way of starting: when you start to do, you start to learn as well! Never be afraid of starting. Being procrastinating isn’t going to anywhere. It’s not a good system. It kills you slowly, laying on the bed rather than…
It has occurred to me several times in the past. I feel like expressing it to a friend of the opposite gender. It is the feeling of polyamory - it is not about just sex, it is about having conversations, it is about being available to listen and share with each other. I felt like calling the friend and asking to meet…
You can impose fear by not talking to anyone and people might take you seriously But the better way is to gain respect That’s the hardest To be good at your job at the same time connecting human relationship It’s hard to beat that
Sometimes I get a rush of motivation for studying, even if it’s a subject I don't necessarily like. I enjoy the process and the feeling of learning. However, when I start to feel the weight of others’ expectations about my performance or results, that spark of motivation quickly fades. It’s strange because many people…
When you were a child, this was a recurrent scene: It's Sunday, all your family gathers around the table to have breakfast. Your mother is pouring the coffee and your father is reading the paper. You see him scanning the pages, looking for something that grabs his attention. He reads and nods a few times, doing some…
Sim, ainda estou em Belo Horizonte. Hoje fui comer a famosa rosca com queijo canastra, açúcar e canela lá no mercado central acompanhada de um cafezinho preto maroto. Que delícia ein! Minas gerais não decepciona em nada na comida. Em nada. Do café da manhã ao jantar, tudo impecável! Do incrível Café Palhares, onde…
My hands traversed her thighs, she had tattoos. A lot of them. I had none and didn’t plan on getting one either. “You’re pretty, you know.“ She doesn’t believe it. I wish I had told her more often how beautiful she was. I wish I held her face and showered her with kisses. We met during turbulent times. There to talk…
Critics are everywhere. No matter what anyone does, how great of an achievement it is, you will have a set of people waiting to belittle them. It is very easy to be a critic. It takes no courage, no effort and no dedication to say — "Told you so they'd fail". There are people out there who literally wait for others to…
Here I plant my flag, in words three hundred, Each word is precious, they're exactly numbered; Of course, we could do like the ancient Greeks And write without the spaces -- we'd be freaks! But -- problem solved! We'd have limits no more. The host would think that I'm a writing drunkard -- In which case I'd certainly…
There have been times when I've been told "good job" and it has made me uncomfortable. You'd expect "good job" to be encouraging. I did too. Except, it felt condescending and I never understood why. Until I came across Adlerian psychology and the difference between horizontal and vertical relationships. For the sake…
If you spend yourself chasing butterflies they will fly away If you spend your time making a beautiful garden they will come to you. Charisma - is something that means YOU PUT OTHER PEOPLE FIRST THAT IS FUCKING CHARISMA - oh my god. It’s that easy - nothing to do with personality; nothing to do with funny It’s just…
Some people move through life like furniture, always there, but never holding weight. Their presence hums with borrowed purpose. They exist best in reflected light, speaking loud in rooms that forgive forgetfulness. You start to notice the soft betrayals: the delayed reply dressed as distraction, the listening that…
