Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
Hoje eu sai de casa às 6h30 da manhã. Passei no médico 7h30, um piadista mórbido que disse "vamos fazer ressonancia nesse crânio pra descartar tumor nesse cérebro" e ficou atento por 5 minutos enquanto eu explicava com o que eu trabalhava. Como é feriado em SP, a Paulista tava fechada e o meu médico é lá. Depois do…
ahh a text i keep putting off from re-reading "the generic city" by Rem Koolhaas. from memory it speaks of ideas around identity. today i am seeing more conversation around identity from design. in contradiction to identity some designers thrive by removing identity...
Our outward appearance tells others a lot. Wear a suit and show your business personality Wear an orange robe and show your religious personality Wear harem pants and show your free-spirit personality This is all signaling. By signaling we let others know that our "culture" exists. Now here's the problem.. We, humans…
When my brother and I were growing up, our dad would respond to my brother's "alternative" preferences for how he chose to express himself by rolling his eyes and saying, "whatever floats your boat." This phrase was etched into his mind and, later, into his skin, when he commissioned a tattoo artist to ink a wooden…
Routines are bossy. They are a fixed sequence of actions that must be followed to work their magic. You must follow your routine to make the magic happen. Don’t get me wrong. I love routines. The structure of routines helps you build good habits for your health, productivity, and more. They help me get through my day.…
Last Sunday, I took a reverse glass painting class. I’m not a painter. Exploring creative outlets is on my to-do list in retirement. I might find a new hobby. I might make new friends. My new experience was positive. Not for the reason you think. Learning a new skill means making mistakes. Encouragement determines the…
Imagine if the earliest explorers were asked to create an itinerary before they set out to travel. Absurd, right? But that has completely changed for the rest of us. We travel after meticulous planning. In fact, our planning is so meticulous there is a whole industry around curating trips. Travel influencers are a…
I wanted to save myself from me. It was a horrifying experience where I was so scared of my life that I wanted to end it because all I could hear myself say was that I am not enough. I started chasing money, power, fame. It then reached a point where I wanted to do everything to prove a point to myself that I am…
For the past two weeks, I've been binging this podcast called Dissect, where the host analyzes Ye's MBDTF, one of Kanye's most acclaimed album that he's ever produced/created as well as listening to the album and I've been mad inspired. It's just crazy how much detail he put into the album and I've been wondering...…
I recently read an article by my fav blogger/idol/human Lawrence on finality of everything (look it up, it's a gem). Here's an excerpt from that- 'Understanding the finality of everything brings a clarity that only a wiser version of myself can see. If I know that one day I’ll long for the very things I routinely…
I get on a writing jags. I am in one now. It exercises an important muscle that has a profound effect on every facet of my life. Communication: documentation, emails, texts, Slack! Clearly stating and articulating what it is that I know, seek to know, or need to move forward is a super power. At work I write RFCs for…
So many excuses to not create. I need to take a leap of faith. Pounce onto the challenge with hunger. To act with conviction, not just ponder.
Are we ever truly free from the past? Do fresh starts exist or is it just another mind trick that serves more as a consolation than a solution? Maybe consolation itself is a solution when facing hard situations. The mind needs to believe in some reaffirming story, however unreal it may be. Maybe it's all stories like…
Go deep not broad - for the work you do; and the relationships you put in Be a guy who has reputation - and reputation can change over time What do you want others to think of you Though it’s not that important if others think of you else wise (because that might not be true interpretation people with low EQ can…
Hello, self! You're receiving this email because uhm, you subscribed to yourself. I think Louis is onto something here, and I hope it catches on. I just find that welcome message a tad funny. "Subscribe to yourself to receive your messages!" At least I know someone will read it later. Writing anonymously does give…
I was woken up by mom having really high fever and immense body pains. It was immensely scary. I was suddenly face to face with exactly how helpless I was without her. Also, my immediate reaction was anger towards her. Anger for being vulnerable. I don’t know why I react this way Just the previous night, had a…
I was 13 or 14 when access to the internet became something that lots of 'normal' people could have. I instantly got it, this was a complete shift in accessibility of information AND the ability to participate in 'publishing' and sharing your own creations. It took me 6 years to go from there to building websites,…
Superman, raised in small-town struggles, would not just listen; he would rise. In development, he would embody the kind of thinker who believes that change begins by confronting power itself. His approach reflects the spirit of critical development theory, where progress is not only about growth but about questioning…
i've done all the tasks i needed to do today!!!!!! celebrate good times also i am starting to understand my mom more and she is funny me "i think i was a boy in a past life" mom "oh that's just like this life"
To quote John Biggs: "Ok now what." Seriously though, I like this vast empty space with just a black text thing. Good stuff.
Started playing Dungeons & Dragons again and Im easing back into being a dungeon master, something I enjoyed as a child. There are two big challenges: Preparation time and wielding narrative tension The reality of playing DnD as an adult is that time is scarce. And preping for a game as a Dungeon master takes up a lot…
This situation has helped me to understand one of the most important truths in life. We do not deserve to be happy. Both deservedness and happiness are human inventions that try to project a fictitious vital image that never materializes and, therefore, generates unhappiness. To explain this point we do not have to…
Just do everything perfectly. Once at a time. Conversations - throw away the unimportant bits. Be clear - tell yourself be clear Even when you got into shit situations Find one way to go out You are good at doing that You need to improve To be better at doing the task while doing though Don’t get stuck at previous…
thick full lashes seem like an adaptation strategy to desert living...(like camels) i wonder why people think thick full lashes are so sexy are we attracted to desert dwellers? i read that when modern humans left africa, they mated with neanderthals (who come from the valley "thal" of neander) and thus gained genes…
We arrived here on a Sunday evening. It was already 9 PM as we trudged out of the airport gates lugging a heavy pile of suitcases onto an empty road. Someone should have received us here and, after a few moments of panic and frantic WhatsApp calls, we found out that the driver was late. We sat down at a parapet on the…
We started with Simple HomePage, an HTML or even just .txt file. And then Graphics, Links to a few more pages. We needed more so we have CMS or a program, Perl Script on the Server, so we could publish online. It will Generate the Page from DB and Store it as Static File. Basically Moving the Web Site Editor from…
i think nicheless is the place where i slowly give shape to my becoming of a writer. see, all these years i have struggled to find my authentic voice. i have always found myself impersonating the style of the grandiose writers, philosophers or poets - depending upon whom i read last. there may have been elements of my…
Although struggle and suffering is part of life, some of it is avoidable. What I too easily confuse is that ALL suffering should be avoided and the presence of ANY suffering is a result of poor choices. Whether conscious of it or not, each day I wake up with an idea of what life should look like. And then I engage…
We're following the leader wherever he may go. Aren't we familiar with the famous song from Peter Pan where the kids follow whoever is first with reckless abandon? We had no issue playing this version of Simon Says when we were younger. And yet, why do we make being a follower of Christ so hard? We overcomplicate…
The reason people are mentally and physically ill are usually social and economic. People need friends and a feeling of belonging. They need a sense of purpose. Financial security. A safe home and hope for the future. I read a story about a group of lonely, anxious strangers who were tasked with restoring a park over…
Acho que já falei que comecei essa série com meu amor. Adoro a questão dos sonhos, o mistério e as músicas. É violento e triste. Ainda estou na primeira temporada. Hoje em dia, muita coisa séria impossível. Imagina ter que falar por orelhão pra não ser rastreadom Poder queimar um restaurante sem mil câmeras…
When we think of the word "slavery," defined as a system of relations in which individuals are compelled to perform labor, it is reasonable to define the inverse as the absence of compulsion. The word most associated with such a situation is "freedom." Closely related but with a more political connotation is the word…
Continuation from the previous blog: Now, I'm focused on establishing a healthier routine for myself. Going to bed and waking up early has become a priority, and having a proper breakfast energizes me for the day. I relish each moment of progress, savoring the taste of victory as I take positive steps forward. I'm…
How to get attracted is to be interesting - study the material and know the content Not aiming to play with words or being superficial like looks etc… Be interesting means reading more about it, actually infuse and understand it, being in the moment to joke around You wanted to be original & you don’t want to copy…
A: But why? B: Because you need to sell your art to survive. A: But why? B: ...because one must survive. A: But why? B: ...I mean...well...because death is painfool? A: But why? B: If you mean "why were we designed to feel pain," I don't know, I suppose it depends on which type of belief you subscribe to. A: But why?…
I keep looking here, but there's nothing here. I can't look away. I come here without thinking. When I realize I've been lassoed again, I feel shame for it. And then I stay, as though I am not the one who is feeling that shame. My mind is divided against itself. Some day, I will look back and realize that this place…
Last week I went down a YouTube rabbithole of credit card optimization. I watched loads of videos of extremely smart people showing off how they maximized their credit card reward rates. Not just smart people – rich smart people. Folks whose time is money. Somehow, each of them determined that spending hours of their…
You want to start a journaling habit, but you haven’t. Let me walk you through the process. I’ll do this with you in italics. Have your tools handy. I leave my journal and pen on the kitchen table, where I write each morning. Let’s start there for now. Put the coffee on to brew. Sit in front of your journal. You’ll be…
If you're building anything that involves AI, then you have to know about the bitter lesson. The bitter lesson is an article by Rich Sutton from March 13, 2019. This sounds like ancient AI lore but is only six years old. Rich Sutton, a pioneer of reinforcement learning and a Turing Award winner, wrote a short essay…
Today we did an excursion to a famous startup incubator in San Francisco. They offered us to be part of their community and work there for free. Extremely generous. As an aspiring founder, having access to the best startup ecosystem in the world and being part of a fantastic community of ambitious builders is an…
Do not have a backup plan Try things more radical Drop out or do something that is more extreme You’ll perform better Just trust your ability of your brain You’ll be surprised where that would take you And I think you found it by being an archi coordinator in K You did achieve amazing things by trusting yourself Don’t…
The room was silent and my body was motionless. But my mind was agitated. I’d been sitting cross-legged on the floor for over an hour, with sweat dripping down my brow, and intense pain radiating from my knees. It felt like they were being crushed by giant invisible fists that were provoked by my stillness. I needed a…
As much as it hurt a bit when I wrote the title for this piece a month and half ago, I also realise it sometimes takes time to form a thesis or coherent set of thoughts to say I think this is what I was after. I wrote a Substack articles on social apps 2 Septembers ago. I'd thought of these apps for about 1.5 years at…
a força, o ritmo, a vontade, o prazer, a audácia, o cuidado, a potência, o tremor, a umidade com que usas a língua (portuguesa, é claro)
"Take care, there's a 30 zone here," my father reminded me. We were driving through a generic German suburban street, wide and well maintained. There were nice and wide sidewalks on both sides of the road, bordered by a red stripe of a bike lane. Slowing down to 30 km/h made me feel strange, expecting some imminent…
We all want, so badly, to be loved unconditionally but we struggle to live with the ambivalence of adult love. Adult love starts off wild and intense; strong and stubborn like a mule. But with time, it weakens; eroded by the little things. It falters in the face of unmet expectations, flounders as our outcomes…
This will likely happen many times over. I'm not necessarily building towards something, which makes this pseudo-habit hard to complete. Which brings up an interesting thought for me: am I conditioned to do things if and only if it leads or builds towards something? I definitely have this mindset these days. While not…
There is something fascinating about eating a ''foreign'' food. A food that we have not eaten growing up, and then when we discover or eat it for the first time, the entire experience is mysterious! Since we really don't know what it was supposed to taste like, we have an open mind in wanting to learn more about it.…
