Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
Day-4 of my 30 day atomic essay streak. This one's about how I used mindful repetition to teach myself meditation. For my essays so far, the concept of 'Mindful Repetition' has been the only anchor. If you're unfamiliar with it, then please read 'Essay 2: Mindful Repetition, Compounds.' I have been wanting to practice…
Alfred Hitchcock said, "Happiness is a clear horizon." -- Feelings of joy or excitement are not happiness; happiness is a place of contentment. The problem arises when we place happiness so high on our list of priorities that we forget it comes from taking action. Yes, I'm not against happiness; it is desirable.…
Have been wanting to cultivate a daily journaling habit but haven’t succeeded yet. Let’s see how this goes. A lazy Sunday as it gets, just back from the gym and realised the right elbow injury from yesterday’s badminton was a real thing. Resting out from gym for a day and from badminton/tennis for the rest of…
We're always optimising that we lose the ability to really enjoy any moment. We are always trying to see, "How can I get the most of this moment". If you look at Efficiency as a formula = Value out of this moment / Time spent on this moment. Then we have begun to optimise for both = Getting most value, whilst spending…
My first book read by an Indian author, was, The Book Of Short Stories, By Rabindranath Tagore. It was in my school library at the age of 13, when I discovered this masterpiece. I was enthralled by the collection of stories in it that gave a brief understanding of the prevalent complex caste system, society and…
I feel sadness I feel blocked I feel stupid What are the thoughts producing these feelings? - There's so much to do. - There are so many unknowns. - My words don't always make sense. - Am I actually bringing value to this world?
Hoje eu passei o dia todo trabalhando em um artigo para o fechamento de uma matéria da pós. Da próxima vez, preciso pegar um tema mais fácil. O medo de lidar com grandes corporações e seu cinismo em relatórios oficiais e também na imprensa é grande. O que parece apenas desonestidade tem como pano de fundo estratégias…
We just escaped from the loud club. We had just celebrated your birthday there but it wasn’t your environment. Apparently you once lived a party life, but I hadn’t seen that side of yours, you had put all that behind you. Our drunk friends took an auto. We decided to walk it. I was sober enough, I am fucked up on the…
I seem to be needing emotional punching bags to deal with my emotions. What happens if the punching bag is alive and feels you punching it? Anyway, just commemorating the first time I’ve cried on call with SM because of an argument we’ve been having.
Então, tirei os sisos, tudo certo, pontos sequinhos na medida do possível e tudo cicatrizado. Até que: AFITAS. Que coisa horrorosa. Três protuberâncias me causam tanto transtorno que eu sinceramente estou com vontade de morrer. Dor aguda e constante, tonturas, ardência, sensibilidades... Coisa horrenda. E sim, estou…
The other day I saw a video about working out what we need in order to be happy. It's not that we don't want stuff, it's just that it takes a long time to figure out if what we want is accurate or authentic. Most of us just end up wanting what others around us want. We can spend a lifetime fulfilling other people's…
A movie is like a person. Not everyone likes any one person. Not everyone understands that person. But there are always people who love that person despite all his inherent flaws and understands why he is the way he is and accept it all. That is enough for that one person.
I don't dare let myself believe the ideas I actually feel are true. It would make me feel far too exposed. I need someone else to validate me before taking an idea on as a capital-B Belief. I'd like at least one other person to go 'yeah, makes sense to me'. If I don't get that, I better tuck the idea away and try to…
Most of us work towards building a life you don't need to escape from. A free life. "F(ree) You". There are few moments in life where your perspective to life alters completely. One such event was when my investments started to cover my monthly expenses and beyond. I managed to reach this point owing to many reasons,…
After being in the world of business communication for a while, it seems that whenever someone takes a long time to respond, they apologize for it. They say that their personal life is busy, or had other priorities to take care of. The problem is that after seeing this over and over, it loses its effect. I would do…
It's the first week back at my job after a two week vacation. I had a nice Monday: no meetings, just checking email, code reviews. Then, on Tuesday, the onslaught begins. Meetings, meetings, Slack, distractions, multiple threads, dropping balls all over the place. Feeling dumb. Here we go again. I got some feedback…
So many Day Ones lay in my wake. So many starts that never finish. Will this time be different? Perhaps the biggest difference will be recognizing the difference between Completing + Finishing. I can complete an era even if it looks unfinished from the outside. Even if I don’t have the satisfaction of a neatly tied…
eu odeio aulas com dois professores. acabo numa espiral de comparação e, via de regra, um professor é MUITO melhor que o outro, sim. infelizmente. tenho ficado mt irritada com pessoas que viram mães e de repente as pessoas que não querem ser mães viram "egoistas radicais". sem paciência total! você não virou alecrim…
TIME BANK At any instant, the present moment is all you truly possess. Your balance in the TIME bank will never exceed one moment— for the future is yet to be deposited, and the past has already been spent. What remains is only now. Spend it with care.....
Supriya Roychoudhury's piece Hathi on FiftyTwo.in is clear in my memory both because it was excellent and because it was one of the few bright spots during the second wave of Covid in April-May 2021. (https://fiftytwo.in/story/hathi/) It told the touching tale of Hathi, an elephant presented by India to the Kabul Zoo…
i zoned out at the table again and for a while you didn’t say anything but then like a gentle tug, realigning my orbit when the disassociation dissipates, you anchor; “are you alright?” and it echoes then and now, in my own head, like a muffled drum “are you alright?”
The big picture is tempting, especially if you’ve been there before. You think you know exactly how to get there. There’s a problem focusing on the big picture. Whether it’s familiar or new, there are many distractions. Having that big picture in mind is needed as a goal. The options you have to reach the goal can be…
i realize i've attributed the idea of nostalgia to a negative form of idyllic memory. like the only difference between memory and nostalgia is that wistful and picturesque filter we view our own memories through. i didn't think it was possible to look back on unhappy times through the lens of nostalgia without…
There are many productivity gurus out there who talk about automating things as much as possible. I don't think that would fly with me. Just today, I realised the 'confidence' that small tasks - like cleaning the house, doing laundry - bring to you. Small tasks compound to big tasks. There is an American colonel…
One of the best parts about my time in university was the people I met. Even though we were all very different people and quite literally, came from different places, I feel we were on a similar wavelength. We cared about similar things and as we discussed our varying points of view, we moved forward and deeper…
"Hating myself for not going into Azuki at 8ETH last week" or something along the lines is one of the most common tweet I've been seeing over the past couple of days. Or "Sold my Azuki at 5ETH ngmi." It's easy to say this with hindsight, but in the back of my mind, I know that 90% of the people who say probably…
Primeiro: eu assino a news de uma pessoa chamada Lalai Person. Foi por conta dela que eu achei esse nicheless e também revivi a vontade de morar na Alemanha, que parece um país bem quadrado no quesito regras (leva multa de 5 euros se atravessar o sinal fechado e as pessoas não estão sempre correndo na escada rolante,…
As human organizations grow in size and complexity, they tend toward selecting for conformity over competence. If unchecked, this tendency can lead to ruin. Why does this happen? In order for the organization to be effective in pursuing its goals, the proportion of individuals tasked with making strategic decisions…
I don't know how to write. This is my first blog post. For months now, I have agonised over how to write, why anyone would care about my writing and what the hell I would even write about. Over those months, no content has materialised on the paper in front of me. But why wait? The truth is that nobody cares about…
I‘m thankful for all the beautiful people I have in my life. I‘m grateful for all the amazing experiences I have made so far. I love being me. I truly appreciate all of this.
There is a negotiation which I have with myself every time I am presented with an opportunity to get drunk. The decision to get drunk is despite all good sense - it is not a problem of knowledge or understanding. What tilts the balance in favor of the bottle is an innate desire to experience a high like never before -…
Como é bom descobrir alguém novo e gostar. Hoje fui no show da Salma Jo com meu boy com ingressos que ganhei de uma amiga. Ela comprou, mas não conseguiu mais ir. Disse que era porque estaria em outra cidade, mas eu acho que é porque a namorada dela falou que ela tem ido a muitos shows. Isso aconteceu em uma discussão…
It only takes a second for your routine to be thrown off. Lightning hit our TV. It was our only TV. We don’t watch TV that much. It’s a nice way to wind down at the end of the day. We enjoy sports (it’s baseball season!). We love old movies. With no TV what will we do? Lucky for me, I have other pastimes. I am not…
no yeah i definitely think of myself as an artist. &i like how matty healy talks about his music as "art" and not as "music" like most musicians do matty healy is attractive to me in a special way, like i like his...personality
Louco ver a patinação onde Vera Iaconelli se enfiou na entrevista com a grande artista Tadaskia. Eu ouço o podcast dela, isso não é uma sessão de análise, numa curiosidade quase antropológica sobre a vida das amigas da mesma raça e classe social (em sua maioria), onde ela consegue guiar a conversa por campos…
As a man, a husband, in my forties, who has moved more than 5 times in my life and had to get a new collection of local friends, one piece of advice I wish I could give myself is: never is an opportunity to "get real" with someone. When folks ask: "how's it going?" the reflex is to keep the response as shallow as…
"If you are so bothered with it all, why don't you do something?" My friend's voice is etched within me. These words remain central to my last Acid trip, 4 years ago. I have been doing something about it. For 1460 days now. I left my job, started building. There is a lot wrong with our world, if not 80% of us would…
What happens when your environment does not match your needs? As our need for food and safety is fulfilled, a new void opens up. The need for love and connection. This is where we start noticing other aspects of our environment. A friend, a beautiful lady in the street, a like on a post.. Our environment is the same,…
Two weeks ago I turned 24. I’ve been using this time to try and figure it out what to do with my life. I feel lost and with no clear purpose right now, but at the same time I know that I got to take advantage of my age and try a lot of different things to find out what to do. I don’t know where to start but I’m…
Recently read this short story collection by Murakami and some quotes from this collection have won by heart and here they are: 1. And that span of time had created a translucent barrier between us that was hard to traverse. Even when I had to say something, the right words just wouldn’t come out. And every time I…
Covid came and Covid went (well, not really). There was isolation for a long time. Then there was not, as long as you wore masks in private spaces. Shortly after I started going out, I began having these recurrent dreams. I would dream that I entered someplace (the bus, the shopping, whatever) and suddenly notice that…
The ultimate sin on Wikipedia is original research. You know, cranks adding lengthy conspiracy diatribes to what was a perfectly reasonable article. Banning original research is a convenient way to shut these people down. Now all you have to do is say 'where's your source?' Unluckily for us, you can fall foul of this…
It was a productive Monday. My apple pencil came and so did the cat food. Went to h-mart to get stuff and ate more leftover curry. Started thinking of ways to improve my workflow on the new iPad. Had a recording itch and tried using garageband. Sleeping late.
See that? That’s a sticker on that glass door you’re about to open. It says PULL. But here’s the thing, the sticker is on the other side of the door. It’s an instruction on opening the door, but it’s not for you. For your eyes it’s backwards, like a mirrored version of the word, but your brain still reads the word…
First time time posting anything anywhere in years. I guess you have to learn to post rambling nothingness before you can post actual cognizant thoughts.
Pitchfork is too obsessed with lyrics. They’re analyzing music the way people should be analyzing books. They’re talking about world-building and themes. Idk I feel like music is an experience to be felt and explained rather than analyzed
tradition, convention, protocol; these are tools to control and manipulate groups of people. rules are meant to enforce behaviour that is largely not natural. you basically momentarily pretend that you care, but mostly you don't. it's liberating to be able to live without having to pretend. you pretend to comply,…
Indians have fell in love with historical fiction. Not the one where fiction incorporates historical elements but the one where fiction is served up as history. And we gobble it all up as reality and consider ourselves smarter for having done so. It's a selective exercise in being a highbrow audience & a demonstration…
