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I'm sitting in my garden enjoying the last moments in my house, fresh air, tranquil and great weather. Time goes by so fast, feels like last week when I would come back to school to this feeling.
Gathering thoughts…
Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
I'm sitting in my garden enjoying the last moments in my house, fresh air, tranquil and great weather. Time goes by so fast, feels like last week when I would come back to school to this feeling.
I'll start by saying this is might be a controversial take. I'm not here to stir the pot, but I'm here to try and keep my own sanity. This past week brought a lot of noise around Elon Musk taking over Twitter. I must have listened to 10 podcasts, glanced at hundreds of tweets, and probably missed thousands of more…
pronounced: "eye" or "I" which Google just told me is pronounced "ai." waow, that one really came full circle on its own, didn't it? stands for: Artist employment initiative wut it is: a collaborative effort with Kind AI )you know the one)s( better than Ʌei do, I'd imagine, anon( to provide funding for individual…
Everyone loves trees. Planting a tree is universally positive and wholesome. It invokes an image of care and nurture. Hands full of dirt, investing in the promise of a green, fruitful future. Add to this picture, a 2019 study published in Nature claiming that planting a trillion trees could capture a third of the…
Thirty years ago, a mob brought down a mosque in a town I thought existed only in stories. I do not recall it's violent aftermath in Bombay. I was only eight, shielded from much that was frightening about our world. But, I remember the news of the bombs going off. Especially the one near the Shiv Sena Bhavan in Dadar.…
hard to accept, but a lot of what we believe is placebo. dogmas, rules & ways of living that don't really prove themselves; but don’t hurt either. believing in them isn’t always bad – ease of mind based on false beliefs is ok. but I believe this derives from a societal disease of not practicing scientific skepticism –…
It's been 1.5 days since I underwent a surgery to repair my shoulder, and I can't believe that I've been struggling to find non-work thoughts and activities to fill my time. Persistent anxiety about the state I've left certain projects, which have been all-consuming in recent months, even manifests in my dreams. I've…
i've been doing this: (1) reading until my brain can't take any more words [currently reading fitzgerald and thomas bernhard; loving both] (2) music a lot of music (3) write repeat that's my fun routine. my unfun routine is boat work. ha.
today my thoughts about the future of digital worlds was more of how to make them 'abstract'. my reason is because good design that aims for longevity is not one that stands out, it generally embeds itself into a way of life, a culture. as i continue to develop ideas and critique digital worlds, having a design that…
Ontem eu li "O Jovem", da Annie Ernaux, em que ela narra sua história de amor vivida aos 54 anos com um homem 30 anos mais jovem. Achei o livrinho de uma beleza extraordinária, onde ela não fala apenas da história sobre os dois, mas dos desejos femininos e dos preconceitos que sofremos como mulher. Para ela, não era a…
Sometimes you come across a pair that is clearly very close to each other. Observing them interact, it's unclear who is taking care of whom. The daughter still seeks to impress and seek validation, while showing her mother how things are done. The mother still instructs, but also follows instructions, probably…
I was told as a kid that I was good at writing. That identity, “writer”, formed quietly in the background, and stayed there, since it never seemed worth much. But I’ve assumed the identity of “editor” in plenty of circumstances - usually unasked for, unnecessary, and annoying. I’m ready to stop tearing down and start…
Okay, some more thinking. Maybe I can relate now with what Nelson went through when I started dating Musti. He said he found it mean that I was being so lovey dovey in front of him. That I was doing things and showing affection for musti that I never showed Nelson and that he always craved. Perhaps I’m going to feel…
Used to feel anxious and NOT wanting to do any work because feels like it’s forced But now I feel - it’s OKAY to just go with the flow ESPECIALLY that will get you to where you want Rather than wasting time feeling bad and not good about it Think of it as a learning experience! Everything might be new If you just…
I genuinely enjoy listening and learning about the person in front of me during conversations. And I want to get better at this. The art of asking the right questions is crucial in this process. It's the easiest way to become more charismatic, as being a great listener and question asker naturally draws people to you.…
As a new year's resolution this year, I would like to write a book. Nothing too complicated, something small that helps software engineers learn to make homemade ramen from scratch. I'd love to package what I know into something I can hand friends when they're in a funk, eating too much processed food, and spending…
Also, given I am at a distance now, can I give him the credit he deserves for the effort that he put in to fix it? Can I slowly let this ghost of 2017 Nelson lose power over me so that I can gain inner peace? Can I forgive? I am a very vengeful person, and I know I have felt like "I want Nelson to suffer for what he…
pulled the thread of despair i took to bed last night, the "why bother?" that hovered, unbidden, writing roadblock 97, the one that combines worthiness with approval, the one that questions whether anyone reads anymore, if the world needs another cooking story, the one that tells me i can't for so many reasons. pulled…
Ever heard this saying, “God helps those who help themselves”? I don’t know who came up with this but it is not in the bible. If everyone can help themselves, they won’t seek God.
Recentemente Tia Laura arrumou suas coisinhas, preparou um antepasto que só ela sabia fazer e o deixou curando em cima da mesa, tirou o pó dos ombros e pegou aquele elevador que só sobe, não desce; e se foi. Com o poder de tranquilizar quem quer que fosse, ajudar como podia todos ao seu redor, sempre tinha aquele…
the most sexy people is people who knows what they’re doing Doing what’s important to them and achieving them Not by watching others living their lives, that’s very unsexy Doing what you loved to do And doing it is kinda sexy and it happens by doing And by doing you need discipline That’s why you gotta protect your…
to build a resilient & flexible system, you need iteration. it’s inevitable. a system can only prove its value when exposed to multiple different contexts. if it fails to adapt to a new context, it’s not a great system yet. as you iterate on multiple contexts, the system will progressively adapt to cover more edge…
Recently read this short story collection by Murakami and some quotes from this collection have won by heart and here they are: 1. And that span of time had created a translucent barrier between us that was hard to traverse. Even when I had to say something, the right words just wouldn’t come out. And every time I…
it's so easy to take our greatest strengths for granted simply because they come naturally to us. and conversely, to normalize behavior that simply conforms to our surroundings. without stopping to ask the hard questions - to quiet the constant noise begging us to react to it, to be fiercely autonomous, it's easy to…
OpenAI keeps shipping world-changing products at a ridiculous pace. And I’m terrified. The computer revolution went after scribes and accountants. The internet revolution went after mailmen and retailers. Now, the AI revolution is coming for the creative folk. And I like to think I’m one of them. It’s natural to be…
I recently watched a viral clip of a podcast in which Tyler Cowen asks Marc Andreessen about the concrete advantage of web3. Marc attempts to explain, but doesn't do anywhere close to as good a job as you'd expect him to. And the skeptics loved it. That got me thinking - I've been bullish about web3 for quite a while;…
there are pleasures for which there SHOULD be some guilt involved for example: physical books used to be trees. reading books is technically a guilty pleasure if you really care about that kind of stuff, like, killing wildlife and stuff when you really think about it, almost every aspect of "modern" life becomes…
“That which we call a rose by any other name would smell as sweet.” The Bard had wisdom it’s clear. Were a “rose” called a “plinth”, it would be just as pretty. Perhaps we’d have babies called Billy-Plinth? Is it true therefore that it doesn’t matter what you call your brand? If the product, service or values and…
I have successfully wasted 1.5 hours browsing random af videos and reels on youtube. I really struggle to figure out the power of these videos! What is it in them that allows us to just be so hooked to them? I am increasingly feeling excess cringe and also annoyed at the type of content that is "designed to trend" on…
A student made a comment in class about "planting the bomb." His teacher asked what he meant, to which he responded by making fart noises. The teacher reported him to admin, admin called the police, and the police hauled the boy off and detained him for making a bomb threat at school. This is a real story from a…
Age appropriate things for me now include ''Temple Hopping'' and getting immense joy from that experience! Who would have thought? Early part of this year, my sister and I set off on a beautiful Friday to explore some wonderful places of worship in aamchi Mumbai! Bright and early, we rendezvoused at 6:30 am at…
Tapi mengapa kita diminta untuk jujur? Ada dua alasan. Pertama, jujur membuat proses mental yang terjadi di "latar belakang" berkurang. Bayangkan kinerja mental kita seperti komputer; Semakin banyak aplikasi yang berjalan di latar belakang, semakin berat proses pengerjaan di aplikasi utama. Makanya ada kebiasaan untuk…
When I started my writing journey, consistency was the goal. With consistency, practice is inevitable. What are you practicing? I consider these three elements: The basics - My process, the headline, and the outline are my basics. I need those before I can produce a quality piece of writing. If I'm not careful, I…
A writer doesn't choose to write. That's why they often run from it. Avoid it to the point they'll procrastinate. They'll clean instead of clean (express) the interior of their mind. It's easy to run away from the work. But, a writer is called to do the work, regardless of the outcome. I've heard other writers say,…
Barrenness isn't supposed to be beautiful. But in Paracas, it somehow is. Windy, dusty salt flats, gently curved dunes, cloud capped mountains, jagged cliffs, dark sand, and a seaweed filled ocean. They combine to create a landscape that would look strange even on a postcard. There's no fresh water for miles, so most…
a big block to my introspection/writing has been my poor wifi i just prefer to put my thoughts out there i can feel the judgment already...from older folk like byung chul han who think that this lack of privacy is in a sense a lack of "ritual" and that i have made my "temple" of thoughts into a "museum" but i do have…
The early 1990s, summer holidays meant staying at a beautiful Boston suburb with my Maasi and her family. She used to brew a pot of an aromatic fresh coffee everyday. Occasionally we would drive to a local Dunkin Donuts for a quick takeaway. A trip to Montreal and Quebec with my cousins was an eye opener, so many…
I am currently in the random situation of helping a big German influencer film the first episode of her new podcast sponsored by Spotify and I‘m extremely surprised by how incompetent she is and how little of a clue she has. It’s crazy how far you can go by just acting competent. It’s all about the attitude.
Se sentó en la orilla del borde y gimió: "Nadie me hace caso". El viento siguió pasando, haciendo las cosas que hace el viento, incluso dentro del propio cuerpo que dijo el absurdo. Luego llovió y de su agua salitrosa se hizo un espejo, donde vió, por fin, la causa de su nube amarga. Daniel Verdad ©
Today I am thinking of Alex the parrot again. The first and only known non-human to ask an existential question. His last words to his caretaker: "You be good, I love you. See you tomorrow". I wonder how much animals can really know. Octopi come to mind when I think of consciousness. They are very smart -- smarter…
Send a message. Call them. Talk to them. The fury of youth will subside but loneliness will remain. Don’t let ego get in the way. Life gets in the way and they probably don’t have time. Reach out. If they don’t reciprocate, you at least know you gave your best.
it's haunting the extent to which i have gone quiet. last night i opened my instagram after a long time. it's purely an exhibitionist platform, but that aside i've some threads in there. most of them begin to grow quiet around 2018, gradually deafening in 2019 and coming to complete silence in 2020 - when i quit. i've…
We grow up in small contexts. Until the internet. Life was local. Sentiments were local. Supply and demand were local, and hence taste. The menu available for leisure had limited options. Liberalisation and globalisation opened the world to new experiences. As part of the generation that grew up in this time, I…
I’m sad for what I won’t experience. I can imagine walking out the front door, leaving the shade of the porch and feeling the powerful sun immerse me in its warm, like i’m getting into a hot tub without the wet feeling. Maybe all these things i will miss are things i already miss from the idealized summers in south…
My initial reaction was to hammer out an email to put my new financial advisor in his place. I took a deep breath. I needed to get home to my journal to gain clarity. Before I began journaling daily other extreme emotions caused extreme reactions. I struggled to contain my immediate response, even those I might…
Today I submitted my thesis and fully enjoyed life afterwards. Cooking great food, laying in the sun, kayaking in the lake, enjoying the sunset next to the water, going into a woodfired sauna - I kind of understand now, why Finnish people are the happiest in the world.
Tomorrow I have - hopefully - the last university exam of my life. I'm glad. What a stupid way to assess a person's abilities.
I've been looking forward to this post all day even though I didn't always know what I would write about. My new phone set up is working perfectly. I have begun making everything I need and want to do a "Task" in the "My Tasks" application. I then enter dates, times and recurrences. If timing changes I make the needed…