Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
Today has been another day of just constant “Shivani-nelson” static. On top of that, I saw a slack ping from Varun (top boss) on a thread, where he directly addressed me. Here’s me noting down how my body reacted to it; 1. Immediate heart rate increase 2. Sinking feeling in my stomach 3. Thoughts in my mind about -…
They say that if you die at home, your cats won't even wait until your cold until they start eating you. I'm completely fine with that. It means my cats will survive until someone finds me/them and looks after them. Is this a weird first post on here? Oh well.
I'm 2 weeks away from finishing my final placement of medical school. 6 years of studying are nearly complete and it feels strange. I already have a substack but I love the idea of being nicheless. Although I've called this 'thejuniordoctor', I'm not sure it will solely be writing about the profession I'm going into.…
"Finish something. Anything. Stop researching, planning, and preparing to do the work and just do the work. It doesn’t matter how good or how bad it is. You don’t need to set the world on fire with your first try. You just need to prove to yourself that you have what it takes to produce something. There are no…
3. writing -- i have so many things to say and no one to say them to, so i write. i say i have no one to talk to not because i literally have no friends or acquaintances but because when talking, one needs to consider the interests of one's conversation partner, and it is exhausting to limit oneself to topics which…
I love synthesizers. I own a couple of vintage ones, and other bits of vintage audio gear. There's something very interesting about how they look and how they are designed, they're like a little time capsule of a bygone era, fascinating for a wide number of reasons. But it's also true that electronic bits of kit tend…
I'm an introvert with no sense of how to mingle socially. It becomes incredibly awkward in social settings but not on social virtual settings. This is where I thrive. This is where I talk. This is where I consume. This is home.
i'm starting to like music that makes me feel the way that literature does ; i'm enjoying picturing things. i think my third eye is opening again (every psychic ever told me my third eye was closed and it's true; i couldn't even picture things when i was reading for a long time; but now i hella can and i prefer music…
tonight i wasn't sure what to do i've been cycling between reading & writing, and i forgot about music im back to listenin to rap did you know rap was invented in the 1970s? i can't imagine a world before rap what else is waiting to be invented? i've been reading my other blog tonight it is so good i was like damn…
1. What's the biggest business a single person can build without any employees? 2. Can a society with diverse, conflicting values survive? 3. Is it better to embrace human nature and play status games or fight it and attempt to avoid them? 4. What factors make a place worth living in? 5. How can I help my hometown…
ahh AI text to image generation tools that are hot topic recently are pushing the boundary of how we can create and iterate. exploring vocabulary and visuals is an interesting topic. its like a new form of poetry. just like centuries ago, there will be many poets but not so many famous poems. i imagine what this new…
You should say something that’s secretive That has a chapter 2 To hold conversations Is not to speak whatever’s on your mind But to pull others head towards your “mysterious and many other missing details” stories. To hold converse is to leading the words on Not spilling everything out cos some people might not be…
Is knowing that whatever you do is truly your own fault and accountability Whatever your life will turn out to be is purely based on you and you ONLY 保持清醒 Your own decisions to do whatever is purely based on you Just take a simple example You could’ve been early so manny times That nobody forces you to be late But…
Apple is about to have their own on-devices AI that will improve UX. I believe this will be another inflation point for Smartphone cycles. A lot of function no longer requires sending over to the server, things such as Voice Message from any Apps such as Whatsapp to Telegram being transcribed into Text on Devices.…
Acho que já falei que comecei essa série com meu amor. Adoro a questão dos sonhos, o mistério e as músicas. É violento e triste. Ainda estou na primeira temporada. Hoje em dia, muita coisa séria impossível. Imagina ter que falar por orelhão pra não ser rastreadom Poder queimar um restaurante sem mil câmeras…
For years, I spent my Saturday morning grocery shopping for the week. My workweek routine drove my weekend routine. Now I’m retired. I’m very routine-driven. I would need to prepare my list early. This required a change in thinking. I saw an advantage. If my granddaughter came to spend the night, grocery shopping…
Are we getting better at recognizing AI generated content? I guess so. I read certain pieces of content online and I suspect those have been generated by the likes of ChatGPT. I am not able to put a finger on how I am able to do that. I tried asking my friends and colleagues and many of them admit that they have been…
To my 3 year old ex to those memories to those happy moments tears shed for me i apologize - forgive me. to those dear good mornings that cheery routine a part of me those GNs, stickers and little jokes cutting you off i apologize - forgive me. to cope, to move - not necessarily forward. Id bounce from hinge to bumble…
Hoje eu voltei a trabalhar. Bom ter rotina, sou grata. Em meio às notícias de invasão da Venezuela e sequestro do Maduro, fiquei apreensiva, mas tem coisas que só esperar pra ver. Outras, que nem vendo a gente acredita. Flashbacks do Iraque inundaram meus pensamentos. Gritos internos pedindo para que alguém com mais…
A common misinterpretation of Sun Tzu's Art of War is that competition involves 'deception' in the sense of lying, cheating, and manipulation. However, if we considered his work as aiming for peace being the highest form of excellence rather than destroying opponents, it can have a very, very, different meaning. For…
The difference you can obviously think is conservative. But what does conservative means? It also means that they are more opened to new ideas and the problem with Asian thinking is it’s way too conservative. That there’s a certain system or rule to follow; which might not be real That you can date as many as you like…
ahh ahh ahh... creating daily has disadvantages. i enjoy creating daily, however my mind deems some creations a failure because they lack intent. i have been thinking of a way to mitigate this disadvantage. creating a streamline process of design to extract the fundamentals of an idea. everything beyond the…
Almost feels like people reveal themselves only on the internet anonymously nowadays. It makes me wonder whether she is reacting like this because she wants to continue the conversation or she is being genuine. Everyone has a mask irl. Idk anymore.
A: But why? B: Because you need to sell your art to survive. A: But why? B: ...because one must survive. A: But why? B: ...I mean...well...because death is painfool? A: But why? B: If you mean "why were we designed to feel pain," I don't know, I suppose it depends on which type of belief you subscribe to. A: But why?…
I just read Kim Stanley Robinson's The Ministry for the Future, recommended with great enthusiasm by my friend Rahul. In taking his recommendation, I was following my own recent advice https://nicheless.blog/post/135. Unusual for me was that this was a book of science fiction. Nothing against the genre - I just hadn't…
He came to see me, Even if I forgot. He was the inspiration, Behind every lovely shot. He always sat there, Fulfilled and lone. Beholding me gracefully, He jollied and shone. I remember spending nights, Thinking of him on my roof. I crave this gorgeous- He lives aloof. I ask the ones whom he met, Is he the same he…
Como fui parar no norte do Peru? Para minha alegria ou não, estou aqui. Confesso que tive dias bem difíceis. Dias de solidão, e não de solitude. Questionei minha própria decisão várias vezes. Mas não vivo eu só de agora. Estou construindo a vida a longo prazo. Estou construindo a minha liberdade geográfica, emocional…
Last month, my partner broke up with me in a park, holding a party bag I was foolish enough to think was a gift. It had all the clothes, books and other things I had lent them, and I was astounded that I, suddenly, didn't care for any of them. I didn't want them back. Soft and stupid reminders. The time passed…
It frustrates me to watch debates that descend into whataboutery. And if images speak louder than words, I hope the one above manages to drown out a bunch of pointless arguments. Whataboutery is a tactic used by people who know exactly what they're doing – intentionally distorting the public's perception of reality.…
My office consists of cubicles for associates and cabins for the partners. The partners take up the perimeter of the office, having glass walls with blinds - allowing them to observe us and prevent us from observing them. A subliminal show of their power over us. All in all, very panoptican and something I ruminate…
无形的力量 There’s some power that you can’t be seen Discipline Trust Vision Knowledge All these are not superficial All powerful things are not visible. Not in clubs Not in monetary terms Used to feel so weak or anxious Because I didn’t practice discipline which would make me strong Some people consider music as power…
Most people test what AI can do. Ankur Goyal suggests testing what it should be able to do. Typically, as product developers, we build a feature then write some tests to protect it. When tests fail in the future, you know you've broken something important and need to fix it before pushing any changes. This is true of…
Being okay with not being okay. Contradiction? Kinda. Really it’s different layers. Maybe you’re not okay at one level, but if the higher level is okay with it, then on the whole, you’ll feel okay. Maybe your bank account is zero. Is that a problem? Yes of course, but an equally correct answer is: Only if you treat it…
There lived a man in southern Spain He had no penny, no fear, no pain Into an alley he lost his way Ran into gold, saved it for a rainy day Not a day went past, he didn't count it all His friends now few and fears grew tall Looking for more in his alley of gold With nothing to share he grew lonely and old The weight…
Message to myself 2 years ago: There are different ways of looking at the world than the way that you look at the world. This fact feels obvious to you, but the part that doesn’t is: it’s really easy to dismiss those other ways as less real, relevant, meaningful, realistic. The aversion you have to looking at the…
Please know that it is genuinely okay that people don't want to be in your life or they do not want to get part in one of the event that you're partaking it's totally perfect what you need to do though is be cool about it so when E is saying that i'm a good friend because you still go to a session that you know that…
Focusing is like a mythological beast to me, something you heard of from many but never saw with your own eyes. Whenever I decide to start my study session, even if I feel my willpower strong as a rock, i quickly lose everything, finding myself staring at the void of a white wall. My productivity has vanished and I…
Im eating a Ferrero rocher chocolate bar (YES THAT EXISTS; at least in italy) and drinking coconut milk (to prevent Alzheimers) The sugar is diminishing the effects, unfortunately, maybe. And I’m watching a short film on YouTube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KORZf5JL1hU And it is raining Hit me, inspiration. Just…
I stumbled upon this platform and became curious. Will restriction generate creativity? I believe it will, but I will have to see. Observe the changes. Useless until proven useful. But... I expect external things to provide me with inspirtaion for writing. I don't hold my own procrastination and insecurities…
When a technologist designs a solution for a specific community, particularly one they live in, unintended consequences are more manageable. But when that same solution is massively scaled, we have to carefully consider three concepts: 1. The technologies we create reflect what we value, but they don’t necessarily…
When my brother and I were growing up, our dad would respond to my brother's "alternative" preferences for how he chose to express himself by rolling his eyes and saying, "whatever floats your boat." This phrase was etched into his mind and, later, into his skin, when he commissioned a tattoo artist to ink a wooden…
This PPT from Jim Keller is suggesting roughly 30% of Performance increase with a slightly increase in clock speed. We are talking about 23% of IPC increase. If we were to fit this number into Geekbench 6.1, assuming linear scaling of performance with clock speed, you get about 2250 Single Core Performance at 3.5Ghz.…
This exercise of mostly for my own benefit. I got into the habit of being negative and critical. Apparently digging yourself out of that hole is harder than the little effort it took to dig a negative hole and have a petty party down there. Here is my first try to climb up 🧗🏻♀️: 1. I'm grateful that my parents…
Be a doer, not ‘JUST’ a thinker 道理: 做/最有效率 - 头脑冲刺 别想 - 做 不做无谓的事情 Acting like the best man in the room Best thing to do - think - ACT! (Reputation matters: for competency. But humanity & symphathy makes it charismatic ✨) Click:: Jump!:: (Remove past thoughts):: Think-forward:: G O! ::think of everything deep::…
Dreams of fortunes, inside towers tall, Deaf ears drown inner calls. Fancy house, a high-rise view, For fleeting praise i chose to pursue. My youth traded for suits and ties, Seeking my worth in some other's eyes. Dawn to dusk in office halls, Sleepless nights inside mansion walls Through sleepless nights and silent…
See that? That’s a sticker on that glass door you’re about to open. It says PULL. But here’s the thing, the sticker is on the other side of the door. It’s an instruction on opening the door, but it’s not for you. For your eyes it’s backwards, like a mirrored version of the word, but your brain still reads the word…
When we watch Black Panther, the first thing that comes to mind is Wakanda, the magnetic technology, the glittering skyline, and the promise of a future untouched by colonization. It looks like the perfect city: modern, proud, and self-sufficient. In many ways, urban planners in our world share the same fascination.…
My mom has found a unique way of pranking me. She'll throw a random but believable assertion related to my life (or so I think). Consequently, my inquisitive trait kicks in, trying to trace the reasons and origins of it. The ordeal ends by her revealing the farce behind her statement and how it revealed my deep-rooted…
