Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
I am wondering what it takes to be all right today or on other days. Yesterday — or maybe two yesterdays ago — I was unsteady. I woke up and the breaths didn't want to escape my lungs through my mouth or their proper airways. I realize what was calling to me wasn't the mortal drag of my eventual drop to the ground.…
we don't SET an intention -- we don't CHOOSE it we become AWARE of the intention within when i'm by myself, i flow and i get myself to a peak state of high but it is a very fragile state and very easily interrupted. so i kind of don't want to travel this winter because i don't see how anything external can be more…
Atravessar algo ruim é um grande desafio. Bem no estilo se ficar o bicho pega e se correr o bicho come, não fugir dele é a melhor opção, dizem. Para esmiuçar, entender o que houve, ressignificar, digerir, contar a história, é necessario cutucar. Aja terapia. E aja papel também para secar as lágrimas e para escrever.…
Today marks the end of my three-month study abroad in Cambridge. It's been a wonderful journey, filled with profound learning, unforgettable experiences, and a deep affection for the city. Initially, the thought of this chapter closing is saddening, and it's natural to feel this way. Transience often conjures feelings…
Last Sunday, I took a reverse glass painting class. I’m not a painter. Exploring creative outlets is on my to-do list in retirement. I might find a new hobby. I might make new friends. My new experience was positive. Not for the reason you think. Learning a new skill means making mistakes. Encouragement determines the…
Day-4 of my 30 day atomic essay streak. This one's about how I used mindful repetition to teach myself meditation. For my essays so far, the concept of 'Mindful Repetition' has been the only anchor. If you're unfamiliar with it, then please read 'Essay 2: Mindful Repetition, Compounds.' I have been wanting to practice…
Sim, estou feliz e surpresa com o fato de estar adorando viajar sozinha. A paz imensa que é não ter que ficar justificando, negociando, pensando em outra pessoa além de mim... Não tenho palavras para descrever o prazer disso. Eu vim pra Minas muito cansada. Muito cansada mesmo. Ontem eu dormi a tarde, hoje vou dormir…
What if the ChatGPT cutoff date of late 2021 wasn't chosen arbitrary? What if it was chosen intentionally to avoid training ChatGPT on AI-generated content? What if the researchers chose this date because they know that in late 2021, the total amount of published content reached a point where AI-generated content…
i just discovered some poems i wrote a few years ago they are so good (remember how i said "people who can't write, write poetry"? lol i'm changing my tune now that i see myself as a fucking POET) Poetry is to bouldering as prose is to sport climbing: A great poet has the skills for prose, the only question is…
Neil DeGrasse Tyson once made an argument underlining the difference between a political/courtroom debate and a scientific debate. And according to him, the crux of the difference lies in the possibility of an agreement between the two participants based on mutually agreed, objective, observable facts. That is, for…
furthermore, i think city folk and even suburbanites should go back to the countryside (because that's where everyone is from, originally; and before that, the wilderness) and start farming again i'm preaching the opposite of that movie "interstellar" where they make farming a dirty ignoble thing and make high-tech…
I’ve often prided myself for having “realistic expectations” but the truth is my expectations are so high that no one ever meets making me auto closed off in relationships. Been closed off aka pessimism has been masquerading as “realistic expectations” for long enough. I’m embracing a new and simple approach. The act…
I‘m thankful for all the beautiful people I have in my life. I‘m grateful for all the amazing experiences I have made so far. I love being me. I truly appreciate all of this.
MARLON FUENTES - https://web.archive.org/web/20240616171400/https://marlonfuentes.com/about/ --- Re. "Rules" A "frame" is an arbitrary boundary, created for a specific purpose. A "rule" is a specific instruction to implement this frame/framework. If you think the frame is useful, then apply the operational rules to…
This quote is famously attributed to Dom Pérignon, a Monk from the Champagne region of France, who in the 17th century spent a significant part of his life perfecting the drink that we now know as Champagne or Sparkling Wine. On a recent flight, flying 35,000 feet above earth at 600 miles an hour and sipping…
Hoje é o aniversário do Ola, o meu marido. Levantei às 8h da manhã para tomarmos o café da manhã juntos e qual foi a minha surpresa ao abrir a cortina? Me deparar com um céu inteiro cor-de-rosa e um arco-íris se alongando de ponta a ponta, como se estivesse me mostrando onde está o pote de ouro que tanto tenho…
I realized I’m not a social creature with moments of solitude, I’m a solitary being with social contact. But I miss people I’ve lost contact with. Perhaps because goodbye is the de facto way now, I experience it too much.
before i left italy, i was perfectly content. now that i've been to indonesia for 2 months, i am so fucking bored back in italy. my life in italy before we left consisted of: - friends (who are now kind of scattered) - books but half the books i was about to read are about tiny north american problems which seem so…
I am the type who like analogies. I understand things better with analogies. I am aware that this type of thinking is not dynamic, and perhaps out of touch with reality. But as a thought exercise i enjoy doing this in my head. sometimes it helps me avoid bad startup ideas outright. And many times it makes me believe a…
Yeah, you expect me to believe dinosaurs were mega-huge? And then animals just stopped being so big arbitrarily? Oh we-ow there's not as much oxygen or whatever - so T'Rex woul've been dog sized if it had allergies? Isn't it interesting that the dinosaurs just happen to get bigger the older the fossil is? Don't…
Today I spent almost the entire day just doing excel analysis. It is tiring and tedious, but I love it. It makes me feel so satisfied when I finally put data into a form that makes sense to me, no matter how menial the task might be. I spent 1.5 hours by myself today post dinner just listening to music and doing excel…
Les dates se confondent ; les jours sont les mêmes. Je me réveille un matin pour réaliser que trois mois sont passés. Mes repères temporels ne suffisent pas à sauver ma pauvre horloge interne. Je vis des journées de trente heures suivies de nuits de dix-huit heures. Ce rythme de vie fut fatal à ma notion du temps,…
Love is not monogamy, love is not possession or ownership. Love isn't rainbows and sunshine and love definitely isn't an instagram post for all to see. Love is a witness to what's left between two people when everything else has been torn away. Love is understanding, love is acceptance that things won't always be…
meu amigo mudou o número de telefone e foi aí que percebi que em algum momento eu havia perdido a minha grande habilidade de decorar números de telefone. fiquei imersa na reflexão do que poderia ter sido a causa da perda da minha habilidade por cerca de cinco minutos. eu me gabava por saber de cor os números dos meus…
It all depends on you Never have the slavery mindset You might be smart and be good at your job But what you believed in And your guts to stay true Stay logical and see things through Do not use emotional Don’t count on motivation Use logical Count on discipline As long as you put your effort into ANYTHING Including…
I often wonder about The Great Filter. Conventional scientific wisdom holds that as there are close to 100 billion stars, about 500 billion planets and possibly 10 billion earth-like planets around those stars (all this just in the Milky Way), the chances of intelligent life are high. We just haven't met any yet. Why?…
Today, it’s easier than ever to live the life you want. It doesn’t take long scrolling social media to see words like intention, mindfulness, and goals. The question is, do you know what you want? “Nothing will bring you peace except yourself.” -Ralph Waldo Emerson You must know yourself to know what you want. With…
To quote John Biggs: "Ok now what." Seriously though, I like this vast empty space with just a black text thing. Good stuff.
Lately, everything seems a bit blurry. Too many thoughts. Too many feelings. A mix of the two and it's a mess. I'd wish to not feel, but being on a perpetual high, due to the pill-popping, makes me feel emptier than usual. The emptiness engulfs me, leaving me completely bare and broken. I've been feeling like this for…
what is self doubt and why does it matter? self doubt is not believing in yourself, not trusting your gut. you could be the most talented person on earth and not know it because you don't give yourself the chance . . how do we fix self doubt? - get yourself out there and experience - be active get some reps in - find…
O último gole de álcool que tomei foi na virada do ano. Prometi começar 2023 aderindo a um detox alcoólico, aqui chamado de "Dry January", campanha que muita gente abraça no começo do ano ao lado do "Veganuary", mas eu achei muita coisa para dar conta e só abracei a primeira. "Beber menos álcool" está sempre nas…
A learning from recent experience. It’s natural to feel a rush of excitement when we meet someone we deeply admire, whether they are celebrities, industry leaders, or personal heroes. But putting them on a pedestal completely blocks the path to genuine connections. True connections are built on mutual respect and…
You want it - you need to get it. Speaking like yourself And having that “qualifications” and deep thought process Having a mind is one thing But speaking eloquently and able to convey your messages to the world is one too You think of mum - speaks and shouts loud but no content - people look at her for fun Think of…
How can we know how many people are currently here with us? The artifacts we leave to the world will almost certainly pierce someone's heart at some point in time. Who can know when and how? And who can know how strongly? The other day, I remembered a location in my home town of Boulder, Colorado on the back side of…
my friends and i are narcissists we think we're pharaohs among peasants
Is it true that we are more or less the same on the inside? I don't mean psychologically. I'm thinking of the vital organs, the stomach, heart, lungs, liver: of their placement and function. -- You Too Can Have a Body Like Mine
I finally jumped onto the startup bandwagon towards the end of 2021 at the time when offices were sending emails to their employees about opening up. It occurred to me then that if I did not do this, then the only choice left to me would be to go back to the corporate world. I decided to start my own corporate world…
In the late 1990s, the most visited website for many Indians, especially NRIs, was samachar.com. It provided single-point, free online access to most major national newspapers. A quarter of a century later, and the online Indian news landscape is unrecognisable. Some of the best, most honest journalism in India today…
Frenchman Jules Allix, in the mid-nineteenth century, popularized a kind of organic Internet made out of snails. Drawing upon the physician Franz Mesmer’s theory of “animal magnetism,” which postulated the existence of a universal magnetic force connecting living things, it was predicated upon the idea that any two…
Often, I am exasperated by the number of people asking for recommendations on Twitter. The recommendations for skin care, wearable devices, or poll questions asking this or that get a free pass. Those aren't as annoying or unnecessary. But anything to do with books to read, music to listen to, shows to watch, and…
Shit day - but never forget where you came from & lose sight of where you wanna be. Be like Alvin Tan. Confident, if not anything he at least brings his best out. Don’t have to be shy and negative about yourself - thinking what you say is not going to be correct. Just say you whatever you want to say. At least you’re…
How do my daily actions respond this question? What I have done this week: - Worked until late the past weeks. - Spent 2 hours thinking what did we miss? What questions to we need to ask. With these actions I am getting better at: - Managing a project that I will never get credit for - At getting a "good job" "good…
Moms article came in the paper today. We had such a nice and sweet time with all of us in Ammamma’s room as atta read out the article to us. The dogs were there, everyone was so happy, it was just really sweet. We were actually woken up by a phone call from moms friend congratulating her. I realised it’s a big deal…
I've been seeing a few founders lately that already have 3 or even 4 projects and working on them simultaneously. Even if they operate under the same brand, to me this is a red flag. It's already really hard to build one really good brand/project, imagine if you have to build multiple at the same time? The common…
and who teach me how to love things i met a girl who loves to cook and garden and by hanging out with her, or maybe by cooking with her, i grew to LOVE cooking and just hearing her talk about gardening made me love gardening more i had a friend in hs who was an Arts & Culture Self-Guided Exploration Master and she…
exercise & study (like a language) can improve energy levels. No more “I’m tired” mentality. Say “this is hard mode” and this can affect 精神状态 Remove toxicity around you
Dreams of fortunes, inside towers tall, Deaf ears drown inner calls. Fancy house, a high-rise view, For fleeting praise i chose to pursue. My youth traded for suits and ties, Seeking my worth in some other's eyes. Dawn to dusk in office halls, Sleepless nights inside mansion walls Through sleepless nights and silent…
First day of my break. I quit my wonderful job in Fin-Tech a few months back and have finally transitioned out of all my responsibilities. I woke up this morning with a smile on my face. So grateful that I can afford this, that I have savings enough to not be anxious about this break. Despite that, I do get a little…
