Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
I've lived my life on high ambition. In school it was about getting the highest marks, or winning the competitions I enrolled in. Slowly it turned to having a great career, becoming the best person I could be etc. But recently, I've been disillusioned by this approach. Don't get me wrong. Greatness is... great. It's…
Otra vez me alcanzó la madrugada, 2:26 para ser exactos. Gracias por leerme. En este mini blog, como creo que eso es este formato de 300 palabras. Decidí que voy a estar escribiendo ideas e historias más personales. Hoy en internet uno debe vender o venderse, por lo que a veces las ideas e historias personales ya no…
ppl dream so small. every comment on every live performance of every artist says "i want to go to their concert". not i. i want them to sing this to me privately in the fucking shower. matt healy. "robbers" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qu2QXKDNoWs this. in the fucking shower. let's go.
Week two of the new routine and its going pretty well, but there are a number of hangups that I am having trouble with. The first thing is that I had a cigar last night and ended up staying up until 1AM which pushed my wake up to 8:30AM, which in turn, pushed everything else out. I have yet to do my piano and Spanish…
i think sheila heti is actually somewhat mainstream despite being indie in style but tao lin is still fully indie despite being published in Vice just because like i think sheila heti is spreading a mainstream message [in a groundbreaking way] but tao lin is spreading a somewhat indie message ["somewhat" meaning a…
The graver division in society is not between those who support one side of an ideological position, but between levels of devotion and objectivity to the ideological position. Between LOYALISTS and LEANERS. The loyalists find no wrong in their positions, and those who subscribe to them. If there's any fact, any line…
I'm 27 years old and I haven't experienced a lot of things. You'd be surprised to know how many of them are small things. Last weekend, I went to bowling for the first time. 🎳 I had a proper hair spa for the first time. 💆♀️ I smoked for the first time. 🍀 I almost solved my first mystery in an escape room. In one…
It’s true - believe in the power of attraction Who you mix with take the average of 5 and it’ll become you E - said he’s becoming less ambitious Which is true I think it’s because he’s been working from home Read books and know people That will inflame your fire Like how you mix with G And know Y&and her dad. These…
I stuck with the same hair colour throughout 2022. I started my new year continuing with petty thoughts. I basically saw an insta post of S, which said she was “serving looks”. And all I could think of was “can’t believe N is allowing you to dress up well and not feel bad about it” I have very very uncharitable angry…
"Take care, there's a 30 zone here," my father reminded me. We were driving through a generic German suburban street, wide and well maintained. There were nice and wide sidewalks on both sides of the road, bordered by a red stripe of a bike lane. Slowing down to 30 km/h made me feel strange, expecting some imminent…
We like to think of ourselves as rational decision-makers who are persuaded to accept arguments and ideas on the basis of logical merit. This is laughably divergent from how things really work. The idea itself that humans are rational decision-makers has no basis in empirical observation; it is just some wishful…
There is a word in Hindi called 'theherav.' It comes from the Hindi word theherna(to stop), but theherav doesn't mean to stop. It means something related to a person's character that allows them to feel collected most of the time. You know how many people make being clumsy their personality? A person with theherav…
There are many things you automatically do better at, if done a second time. For me, when writing a piece of software, I get it all wrong the first time. It may work, but I can see how the code could be written in a cleaner and more effective way. If I get the chance to do it over, the result is better, and it doesn’t…
When we prepared for our move from plush to mush, we planned to live mostly without electricity. Solar power was - and still is - part of our plan. Since that part requires more funds than currently in our tiny bank account, we rely on whatever electricity is available. I have mixed feelings about just how easy it has…
i love megan boyle in ways i can never love a person i meet in "real life" because she exists in words in books and articles that i can choose to pick up and put down -- she doesn't require "live" response and it is an honest relationship in which i do not have to pretend to enjoy anything so if she's really into…
Ik kan de weg nooit vinden wanneer het donker is. Ik noem het mijn nachtblindheid, ook al weet ik dat dat het niet echt is. Ik verdwaal wanneer ik geen kleur zie. Ik raak liever niet verdwaald. Ik dool al zo veel rond in mijn eigen hoofd, doorheen mijn eigen lichaam, en het idee van dobberende gedachten in een dwalend…
Ahh reading of an old utopian idea with a realization that it has a possibility to exists in the context of today...
"For my theme song, my leather black jeans on" are the two first bars on Kanye's song "Black Skin Head" from his album "Yeezus". If you don't know the background of the album, Yeezus, it's basically a huge "fuck you" to the entire hip-hop industry and it's Kanye truly accepting who he is as a person and doing whatever…
“On a gathering storm comes/A tall handsome man/In a dusty black coat with/A red right hand.” Peaky Blinders fans will know this song. It's the ballad to which the credits are set, typically with Tommy Shelby striding in slow motion through smoke and mud, peak pulled low, overcoat sweeping behind. The song was…
I created my account in hopes to improve my daily writing. However I've noticed only posts are from 2022. Hello world? edit I have discovered the search bar - HELLO WORLD!
wake up early // get active // find solitude 4 am // run + lift // movement meditation ——————————————— "We rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope" - Romans 5:3-4
Some days, my brain can be a chaos of endless worries and scenarios that give me anxiety. These thoughts can be exhausting, but deep in my heart (very deep inside), I appreciate this aspect of my mind. It probably comes from my survival instinct, a part of me that is trying to anticipate and prepare for any possible…
26 May 2022 0342 I'm on a date with a woman I don't know IRL. We're walking around in the south side of my home town and go into an old bank building I used to frequent. It's a combination library, pool hall & convenience store. There's a yellow & black strip down the middle of the floor dividing the room in half -…
Entropy is randomness, uncertain, confounding. Physics doesn't seem to be random, yet it accounts for entropy. It claims that entropy is a measurable physical property. Life is entropic and not. It is paradoxical and not. It is measurable and not. There is an ardent need for clarity, but our understanding and…
Lately I've realised I've been quite prescriptive. A friend of a friend pointed this out and I plan to work on it. Going back to social. I wanted to start a SubStack, wrote one and dipped. This is another issue. There are rabbitholes I should jump into but haven't. On the social front, I plan to just experiment more…
Hoje eu vou escrever dois textos pq me atrasei no dia 9. Não escrevi por conta da ansiedade pra um amigo secreto que eu não queria ir. Bora pro primeiro. Cara, que assustador viver neste país sabendo que a qualquer momento um louco pode fazer qualquer coisa com você, com patrimônio público e praticamente nada…
To look back at this year, I need to go back further, starting with 2007. I have a tainted memory of a late night wrestling with my thoughts, I seem to remember thinking to myself that I was insulated from the worlds problems because I live in the UK. A few months later, I witnessed a global financial meltdown and the…
To Jiang Wei & Bryan: don’t just think of yourself: 下次跟你们抽, 我现在赶时间 If you reroute it same destination but different feels: 我回来再跟你们抽 我刚好要meet 朋友; 这个可以让他们好回 因为你让他们开心,所以他们也不会 因为你的不开心而不让你开心 The most topnotch about emotional intelligence: people care about you because you care about them; and also you have that aura ✨ and…
i wish we had better trains, better role-models, better air, better coping mechs, and higher risk-appetite what if i continue using this as twitter and not create anything of value what th hell
Are you struggling with a habit? Look at your materials and tools. Your materials and tools can inspire you to show up every day. Showing up every day makes a habit. This idea works. I first noticed this with my husband's hobby. My husband is a stereo fanatic. We don't have the same tastes in music. As he perfected…
Trungpa has always really spoken to me. All the themes he touches on are salient to my life — fear and bravery, sadness, loving-kindness, self-hatred. He takes things I believe myself to be good at (being soft, sad, sensitive, honest, open) and says these are what you need to cultivate in order to be free of fear and…
Hoje eu comecei meu dia um pouco mais tarde. Era 9h e eu ainda estava preparando para tomar banho. Fui bem devagar e bela para um brunch no Copa Cozinha enquanto eu participava do clube do livro. Esse não era o plano. Eu parei antes no café bonjour PORÉM gente eu me recuso a pagar 20 reais num cafezinho só porque…
The comfort zone is a deceptive piece of shit that keeps trying to stop me from having formative experiences. Although I am aware of this, it hits me every time and each time it costs me a great deal of effort to overcome it. The good news is that the comfort zone expands with every new experience, when seeking…
When ever we talk about ARM and Performance. Most discussions, whether that is on Twitter, HN or Reddit immediately jump into an Apple Fanboy thread. And pointing out how far behind the other ARM cores are. But is that really the case? Apple A16 has a GB5 of 1870 @ 3.6Ghz. Running at close to 5W. On the same TSMC 4nm,…
Hello Folks, Today I write about the story of football and its significance in our history & the impact the sport has had around the world. As I Write this, one of the greatest players to ever walk on the field is probably playing his-LAST DANCE match. (More on that!) Football is probably the most democratic sport, it…
If you’re starting a journaling habit, there’s no reason to write deep thoughts. You need to concentrate on the habit you’re creating. You want to be consistent at the same time each day. It doesn’t even matter what you are journaling. It matters that you are journaling. Making your journaling habit easy to complete…
Spent first day at PG after shifting here the day before. People are nice whom I've met till now, Dada (Tanoy), Siddharth, and Sanjeev (My roommate). Dada was making kadhai paneer when I came with my luggage. I introduced myself and normal questions of my existence. Afterwards, I got to know that Dada was drunk, and…
"The technological enthusiasm and hobbyism of today is strikingly similar to at the turn of the 19th century, and it has led a comparable degree of willful blindness about the risks. In 1903, the managers of a big New York dynamite manufacturing company begged publicly to The New York Times for new laws to abide by.…
Sometimes it doesn’t matter about the delivery (at first). Of course it matters but - what you started or initiated is much more interesting and useful/you’re supposed to live it that way. Imagine the scenario which you had in your head for quite a few times: You rather not do something because you’re afraid of making…
sass voice "cuz listen, you wanna suck it up now, so you don't have to suck it in later" head bobble wink tongue click i acquired a false perception of myself. i thought of myself as a meek spiritual introvert who therefore enjoys yoga but every time i did yoga i was so fucking bored...UNLESS i was in a group and i've…
Booking a plane ticket or places to stay can be such a pain in the ass. There are so many options and factors to consider that I end up spending more time booking than studying (which is what happened today and yesterday). At first, it's fun—you're excited and full of energy to find the best flight and stay. But after…
and it pains me not to know whose orgasm i came from. Everybody makes babies about moms. But everybody’s born from their dad’s orgasm. It’s almost like as a society we were meant to make numerical decisions. If you ask one person to guess the number of jelly beans in the jar, they will likely get it wrong. But if you…
my heart just skipped a beat i noticed that you can only tell in hindsight who you really loved for me, one of my true loves in life was my friend danny we used to listen to music together and talk about philosophy i just found danny on my old spotify account; he follows me there i want so badly to message him but…
Superman, raised in small-town struggles, would not just listen; he would rise. In development, he would embody the kind of thinker who believes that change begins by confronting power itself. His approach reflects the spirit of critical development theory, where progress is not only about growth but about questioning…
It's strange that people think low of people who are vulnerable yet hold vulnerability as a virtue in high regard. Double standards.
On our first official full day in Finland I realized how lucky I am to have experienced so many cultures and seen so many different countries/continents. My mom couldn't stop stopping at every single corner to take pictures about the silliest things (in my opinion), for example, being surprised at how blue the sky…
Not really sure how this goes, but I do like the 300 word cap. Halloween was last night and it's always fun to see the kids all dressed up. I'm more of a dress up parent. It feels inauthentic to be walking around on Oct. 31 in your regular people clothes. It's like a no judgement / everyone accepted day. More men opt…
Today we had some memorable encounters with animals we met along the way - one of them was with a herd of highland cows. As we played classical music, they approached us, each displaying unique behaviors - some bold and curious, others hesitant and cautious. Each animal, like us, has a life filled with feelings and…
