Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
before i left italy, i was perfectly content. now that i've been to indonesia for 2 months, i am so fucking bored back in italy. my life in italy before we left consisted of: - friends (who are now kind of scattered) - books but half the books i was about to read are about tiny north american problems which seem so…
Ontem, em uma aula do mestrado, me senti burra. Burra, pura e simplesmente. A professora passou um texto do Latour e eu li, reli, traduzi, li de novo e nada. As palavras cairam em um vazio e foram quicando. O tec tec tec pareciam mais interessante do que a próxima frase. Na aula, a professora pouco explicou. Ela fez…
Okay, some more thinking. Maybe I can relate now with what Nelson went through when I started dating Musti. He said he found it mean that I was being so lovey dovey in front of him. That I was doing things and showing affection for musti that I never showed Nelson and that he always craved. Perhaps I’m going to feel…
Urmi came to Vizag to meet Venky and I. We have talked so much that we have completely exhausted ourselves. It’s fun and nice though. I really like the conversations we can have. I know this may not be a group that meets often, but I hope we’ll meet at least some times. Few important takeaways: The 2 components of a…
What is it about being drunk that fills you with a sudden zest for life? What is it about being drunk that helps you remember that you love people?
Segunda-feira sempre soa como um dia ingrato, mas na última teve jogo do Brasil x Suíça, que resultou em 1x0. Foi gritaria e confusão. Revi um monte de pessoas conhecidas numa leva só enquanto tomava uma cerveja gelada ruim. Saí do evento de pileque e com fome, pois o hambúrguer era tão humilde que não deu conta de…
It has occurred to me several times in the past. I feel like expressing it to a friend of the opposite gender. It is the feeling of polyamory - it is not about just sex, it is about having conversations, it is about being available to listen and share with each other. I felt like calling the friend and asking to meet…
Recently, I've noticed an uptick in conversations around 'content.' Too many creators want to decide what should be called content and what shouldn't. Most comparisons stem from a sense of self-superiority on "the process" one has, before one publishes or creates. The complaint is usually one or the other variations…
Why is it that you see most of the philosophers talking about high performance rarely act upon them and are high performers? Philosophers tend to romanticise life in their heads and yet dont see the beauty of the world they live in. Here, is something to note that I have read some of the works of alan watts, Jiddu…
All what we did was based on subconscious…? -B Consciousness is just a self-explanation to our actions/behaviour? Doesn’t mean that your fate is set - whatever experiences you faced is the subconscious that decides on what you’re already taken And your conscious mind is the aftereffects Humans have emotions and that…
Hoje começo este novo projeto, que me convida a escrever um texto por dia durante um ano. Não tenho um objetivo master ao criá-lo, além do de cuspir palavras ao vento, contar pra mim mesmo e para você (oi, tudo bem? que saudades que eu tava de conversar com você) sobre a minha vida, pra ver se entendo melhor o que…
Forever can be broken down to a bunch of nows but can there be multiple nows? No matter how much you conquer you will always be beaten by the last second, the last mile and eventually the last breath. Which begs the question of what you really own. 20 minutes into meditation and i cannot tell whether the arms i’d…
hot chocolate howling winds my italian neighbor was like "do you have an extra line? let's tie an extra line so that your boat is more stable" i was like yes please and our danish neighbor was like "wait wait don't put it there, because it could rip your stanchion. here, let's take this cleat instead" jumped on my…
When we prepared for our move from plush to mush, we planned to live mostly without electricity. Solar power was - and still is - part of our plan. Since that part requires more funds than currently in our tiny bank account, we rely on whatever electricity is available. I have mixed feelings about just how easy it has…
I can't begin to count the number of new beginnings I have declared. Maybe it's my perfectionist streak in me that demands this. Maybe I should fix this, maybe not. But I do hope to make this one count. There are a few things, I aim to implement in my life. Firstly, thinking about mine and others' failures. I'm going…
i read a book about how there are people who defy all expectations. like they just HATE fulfilling expectations, doesn't matter if it's internal or external. i may be such a person. i told myself that i should go running at 5 and cook at 6 and have dinner ready by 7.30 but it is now 5.55 and i have been working on…
The other day I saw a video about working out what we need in order to be happy. It's not that we don't want stuff, it's just that it takes a long time to figure out if what we want is accurate or authentic. Most of us just end up wanting what others around us want. We can spend a lifetime fulfilling other people's…
i love megan boyle in ways i can never love a person i meet in "real life" because she exists in words in books and articles that i can choose to pick up and put down -- she doesn't require "live" response and it is an honest relationship in which i do not have to pretend to enjoy anything so if she's really into…
Turns out the hardworking entrepreneur and the wise monk were right. The entrepreneur and the monk both lived the ultimate goal in their minds already. They experienced it mentally. Beautiful women, sandy beaches, all the food and fun in the world. Some say we have to get to that life before we realize it is not what…
Just like your cleansing schedule - it’ll take hours to do. However if you have the “do-it” mentality: you’ll reach there no matter what, you’ll get better once you start to do it everyday Just get started first Always have an end goal in mind. Then set a timeline First principles Like why you wanted to do it You have…
The graver division in society is not between those who support one side of an ideological position, but between levels of devotion and objectivity to the ideological position. Between LOYALISTS and LEANERS. The loyalists find no wrong in their positions, and those who subscribe to them. If there's any fact, any line…
After all this time,I still keep falling for you.
Pitchfork is too obsessed with lyrics. They’re analyzing music the way people should be analyzing books. They’re talking about world-building and themes. Idk I feel like music is an experience to be felt and explained rather than analyzed
i have never recovered from the love i felt for you it doesn't matter if someone is bf material or not--you can fall in love with them--because it's not for the sake of making them your bf that you fell in love with them
To the ones, Laying awake at night, Wondering if you’ll ever find someone. Scrolling through Instagram, Looking through the window of life, And it seems like the Whole world is finding love, You’re happy for them. But there’s a whisper, A doubt, A tiny prick to the heart “Will I ever be as happy as them?” Some of us…
So many Day Ones lay in my wake. So many starts that never finish. Will this time be different? Perhaps the biggest difference will be recognizing the difference between Completing + Finishing. I can complete an era even if it looks unfinished from the outside. Even if I don’t have the satisfaction of a neatly tied…
Oh my god! This was another key insight that I was missing my entire life. I have at various times considered myself a dark, brooding loner, a deep man of mystery, or too wounded to let someone in to my world. Introvertive Anhedonia makes a better case for an explanation of my relationship issues. The short definition…
There’s a new post about the art drama in the region: === anon6232 I got to say, Dr. Caleb’s presentation at the Arts Symposium was surprisingly good. He is good at what he does, and he is well-intentioned. No one in our zine has denied this. At Clan•Destinos we feel it’s our obligation to point out the blind spots of…
I've been thinking about how civilizations of the future would organize their data. What mechanism would a galaxy use to work together and share reliable information accurately and instantly? I started thinking about our own history and how we manage knowledge in our most complex societies. As much as sci-fi movies…
the writing (that i'm reading, that i wrote, that i'm editing) is getting better. it is less sour. oh thank god this is salvageable. also i seem to encounter norwegians who make me think "you are so cool bc we are so similar" but i am not even remotely scandinavian and i think it has a lot to do with how they like to…
Shit day - but never forget where you came from & lose sight of where you wanna be. Be like Alvin Tan. Confident, if not anything he at least brings his best out. Don’t have to be shy and negative about yourself - thinking what you say is not going to be correct. Just say you whatever you want to say. At least you’re…
What I want to learn to figure out: how to forgive and forget? I think the reason I got triggered again is because I dealt with the Nelson story by painting him as the villain and moving on. But shoo dating him is just clear evidence that I can’t be right and it has deeply challenged my beliefs on that. If Nelson…
Yesterday was another day with no electricity, no internet, or cellular service. We couldn't check messages, browse Instagram, or watch TV. I read a book and went to bed at 9 pm. It made me think about how much more time we would have if we didn't have all these forms of digital entertainment. I didn’t feel like I…
Most of my disappointments arise from from poor expectations. It's true that material things will probably not make you happy but with non-material things, I feel the reason behind many disappointments is wrong expectations in the first place. Here are some examples You start a job and over time you're unhappy with…
I went without a phone for almost two weeks. the first day was absolutely terrifying. granted I was in an unfamiliar place, staying alone, and unable to give proper notice that I'd be unreachable. but as I rode home today with a new iphone box, typically one of my favorite activities, I felt a twinge of sadness. there…
i'm really glad that my friend is a big lana del rey fan; i almost feel like that's his defining personality trait: love for lana del rey; and he tells me things about her and he sent me an article about her and i keep thinking about it... i'm eating haribo happy cola because lana's song title "cola" gave me a sudden…
Twitter 是：一條時間軸，一個段落的最小單位，一個間接的利益輸送管道，暴政的起點，抗議暴政的火苗，一首 90 年代的人類詩，一個群魔亂舞的廣場，一個知識的起點，一個讓人發笑的地方，一個奈米的創作地，一個濃縮時間的膠囊，一座巴別塔，一條又髒又臭，但能把所有人載往目的地的地鐵，在夜店外的垃圾堆，一片播放著白噪音的牆。 儘管如此，我愛 Twitter。
we never smile at people, thinking it's trivial. never greet upon meeting, cause it's said without meaning. never thought to reach out and stay, because-what will others say? we wanted to help them, there, but will the others spare? never went ahead to dance with our dear, we'll get judged-came this fear. never enough…
All models are wrong; some models are useful. Models are fantasies every single one of us holds in our consciousness about how the external world, in whole or in part, works. We are constantly exercising and updating these models to decide how bring reality into accordance with our desire. When things work as…
Elon Musk said: "Love is the way, no matter what." For a man with four wives and twelve children, it may seem easy to say such a thing, but after giving it solid thought, he is true. Love is an intrinsic craving for every individual; if you were to ask anyone, they would undoubtedly recount their experiences with…
A sense of assurance that eventually things will fall into place and you will be more than fine. Its a state of mind which makes you calm, happy and at complete ease. The last I felt this is when I was in Kannur, Kerala for New Years. The clean and calm beach with the shades of sky changes from orange to hot pink, the…
Or, “How have you been?” Or “How are you doing?”. These are one of the most cliched questions. When you get to its heart, it’s about being honest with the person asking you. But do you want to be vulnerable in front of anyone? There are times you want to share a piece of your puzzled mind - not necessarily seeking…
being the nice guy is not going to get you anything. you think you are doing people good but no you are just killing yourself bit by bit. people will go on doing what they want to do. hurt you. worse, not even care about you. people are just trauma. you got to be an asshole to get what you want. put your own needs…
Time has changed but we still fall for things that promise quicker resolutions. We fell for 2 minute Maggi's because it says so and now we are falling for 10 minute deliveries. Same strategy, same trap and we too are falling the same way. Although I have seen some backlash to this new way of deliveries on Twitter. I…
Knowledge sets us free, art sets us free. A great library is freedom. -Ursula Guin. Public libraries are where we witness the entirety of human existence. The youngest members create their imaginations while the oldest are constantly trying to understand the present and future. The middle aged are upskilling…
With a simple sunshine in the morning can make you feel the warmth and brightens up your entire day. We often take the heat of the sun for granted however this simple useful resource is the reason for our existence, survival and life in general. Watching the rise of the sun and setting of the sun is a beautiful…
At a young age, it is difficult to say with certainty if you wish to become a lawyer or if you 'like' the job - because at that stage you haven't had the opportunity to do the job yet. Then the question to ask is 1. Do you wish to become a lawyer because you take pride in being a lawyer? OR 2. Do you wish to become a…
Your life and mine eyes that intertwine. Like rings around a finger and golden sheets of amber. Like a bicycle wheels belonging to childhood. Innocence and romance, Chocolate and laughter. Your life and mine, like the surface of a swimming pool in a fresh morning. Or the side of a river, calm. And pebbles. Your lips…
