Don't be the nice guy
being the nice guy is not going to get you anything. you think you are doing people good but no you are just killing yourself bit by bit.
people will go on doing what they want to do. hurt you. worse, not even care about you. people are just trauma.
you got to be an asshole to get what you want. put your own needs first. exploit people. use them for your benefit.
that's what those assholes did to you. by the time you realize it its too late for you. the damage has been done.
you just lay there thinking about all those people who wronged you for no fault of yours.
you turn back to your sweet friends loneliness, that's what you get for being the nice guy. thats your reward.