what should i do?

i read a book about how there are people who defy all expectations. like they just HATE fulfilling expectations, doesn't matter if it's internal or external.

i may be such a person. i told myself that i should go running at 5 and cook at 6 and have dinner ready by 7.30 but it is now 5.55 and i have been working on books

i am the type that needs to surprise myself -- people tell me that i'm the type that they can't predict. guess what? i can't predict me either! it is a fun way to be.

but what should i do now?? should i still go on a run and delay everything by one hour? god. i do need to cook that damn dish and why did i plan on something so elaborate that takes an HOUR? knowing the kind of person i am i should've never done that. i am the type that needs to ride the wave of impulse. if i don't plan on doing it THAT DAY, i should just not do it.

that's why i prefer not to ask people to hang out like days in advance. i would prefer to just ask NOW, like "do you have time NOW to hang out?"

i will not say what i will do. i will surprise myself.