Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
Good Evening. It is 0:24 AM where I am right now. It is nice to write words again. Tt feels good to do something that's not participating in the negativity and cynicism and general heat of 21st century mainstream media. Here's to a new sincerity, to humanity, to thoughtfulness, and the generosity that's only possible…
Coming to terms with failing in big or small things is a difficult and ongoing challenge baked into life. It’s the struggle for perfection in whatever way we define it and the realization that it is not attainable. There is no perfect. There is just the pursuit and recovery. Getting tied to the idea of perfection only…
You should say something that’s secretive That has a chapter 2 To hold conversations Is not to speak whatever’s on your mind But to pull others head towards your “mysterious and many other missing details” stories. To hold converse is to leading the words on Not spilling everything out cos some people might not be…
Whenever you say something, my ears take the words right out of your mouth
If the captain of the ship can't be stable - then cruising a ocean liner through a path of ice and fire would be very very difficult - you got to be stable mentally (because most of the the thought and business comes from mentally). 自从变成浪漫主义 - 开始怀疑自己就变得比较愚蠢 romantically idiot to be submersing in ideology that you can…
ahh as i continue to think about digital worlds my mind draws to how i would like to be 'seen' inside of these worlds. digital fashion has been emerging with mainstream NFT projects as mundane clothing that imitates what we wear today. yet a digital world does not require us to wear clothes with the same intent. i…
I’m living on an island close enough to a town. While I’m living with my parents, I’ve also lived with my friends all day. I’m active and love to swim. Challenging myself to do a task takes effort but I’m able to do it. I took up surfing one summer and that has been my identity now. I am not a sports person but I can…
As a child, it felt that entertainment was prioritized over love. Not the commercialized love but the true essence of caring for one another. True love, for some, lays at the end of a long path of healing from childhood trauma as well as adulthood trauma. How can one show compassion to a world that has only made it…
Então, voltei pra casa. Saí da internação graças a Deus, mas não posso mentir falando que não sinto saudades da comida. Muito boa a comida do hospital que eu fiquei e equipe fofa. Descansei bastante e espero que meu corpo me recompense com uma barriga sem líquido infeccioso e sem pontos sangrando. Um outro aspecto da…
The warmth of the sun, the warmth of a hug and the warmth of someone's action, all these things had made my day full of happiness and love, I so lucky to be able to feel and glad to of being aware of the little things (or at least I try).
The mind is a curious place. It's a place for ideas, a place for rest, a safe place for the softening of chaos, distress and pain. It is powerful, intense, bewildering and surprising all at once. Most importantly, it stores an immense trove of memories and information, some conscious (and even embarrassing!), but most…
Today is so much more than yesterday Today made yet another tomorrow. Today can forgive Today can relive Or just love and forget all of last night's sorrow Today can be different or just another whistle, a name given to a former ride Today can be wild Today can be a lie YOU GET TO CHOOSE (you really really do) The…
i not-so-proudly announce that i am not okay. it is also not okay. but okay.
Today I officially logged out of Facebook. I do not have the app on my phone and just use Chrome to doom scroll. Today, I just had enough. I catch myself doing it all the time. Its like I naturally gravitate to it, my thumb's natural navigation. Even if I fill that time spent elsewhere on social media, at least it…
When you choose your Halloween costume, which self do you show? Is it the fun, happy self who dresses like a pumpkin, pirate, or candy bar? Or do you face your fears of letting your inner goblin, demon, or Grimm Reaper show? The costume you choose is a lot like journaling. You should write about your fun, happy…
Are you new to journaling? You need to be journaling at night. Before you're off to bed, you need an opportunity to put thought into your day. Your experiences Words you said Actions you took What made you happy, or what made you mad. You will want to solve the problems that you face tomorrow. Or maybe you need to…
I love the structure of a routine. After being out of routine for the last three weeks, I finally returned to it. I felt the burden lift from my shoulders when I pressed “publish.” My sacred hours are in the late evening. I write an essay, something like an organized brain dump, on my topic of choice. The last task of…
Are people who used to do the shit all the time all and all and all again Instead of being a NPC think what you’ve done in your younger days or been working up till now that you liked I feel like those people who you think are NPC (didn’t dare to comment on you and still hate on you internally) Are the ones who were…
My initial foray into technology saw me working for a venture capital firm, where I became indoctrinated with the idea that tech companies must follow a pretty standardised path, raising multiple rounds of funding before a big splashy exit. And for a while, this sounded like something I wanted. More recently though,…
i'm really glad that my friend is a big lana del rey fan; i almost feel like that's his defining personality trait: love for lana del rey; and he tells me things about her and he sent me an article about her and i keep thinking about it... i'm eating haribo happy cola because lana's song title "cola" gave me a sudden…
"Take care, there's a 30 zone here," my father reminded me. We were driving through a generic German suburban street, wide and well maintained. There were nice and wide sidewalks on both sides of the road, bordered by a red stripe of a bike lane. Slowing down to 30 km/h made me feel strange, expecting some imminent…
The doors open wide And you see the light Finally after a long long time And your heart rejoices In glee and delight It dances to songs that it never had the ability to hear before And now it has forgotten the pain Of the chains That bound it from becoming Who it was always anyways It danced and danced As if there was…
Recently I was wondering about how the world has become bigger and smaller for me at the same time... And probably not just for me but for everyone in a sense... I went back home... where i used to be a small kid 20 years ago... I saw kids playing in the common area... i remembered playing cricket there and always…
Take a moment to think about where you are right now in the world, the room or the building or town you're in. You can probably visualize your surroundings in your head, how you got here, where you are in relation to surrounding places. Now think of where you are right now on the internet. Think about how the place…
In honor of my birthday today, I'm giving you a gift. I’m sharing the knowledge I've gained in 65 years around the sun. Regardless of your age, you wll benefit from the lessons I've learned. Sunscreen. Lesson: I grew up in the baby oil sunbathing era. You can spend your money on sunscreen or frequent dermatologist…
A serious daily journaler may have an extensive journaling routine. Three morning pages? They take 30 minutes or more, depending on writing/typing speed. A multiple-component journaling routine? My routine takes 20 to 45 minutes consisting of the following: gratitude, intent for the day, sometimes I need an…
- playfulness of thought / intellectual playfulness - freedom of thought - privilege of pointlessness
O título vem de uma frase que Gabi Pankekinha falou no BBB, às 3h28 do dia 7 de abril. Eu gosto do BBB por isso. Por algumas semanas, você tem acesso a formas mais cruas de pensar do que a gente vê nas redes sociais. Diálogos genuínos, dores e alegrias reais. Eu vejo super como aprendizado, mesmo. Eu comecei a…
Eu tô tomando duloxetina pra dor crônica. E, sim. É um antidepressivo. Não vou mentir aqui dizendo que não tenho resistência a remédios psiquiátricos. Quando o médico falou eu já virei a cara e perguntei se não tinha outra opção. Levei uma bronca seguida de um sermão da enfermeira desbocada que tava no quarto. "Eu…
It's not nostalgia. It's not missing someone or some place. But it still stings the same. This winter has sent me to miss what I'll call "The Feeling". The Feeling is warm and cozy. The Feeling is like a lovely conversation over a cup of tea. The Feeling could last forever. The Feeling is the little things. The…
então, eu posso ter demorado imensamente, mas voltei! e só finalizo esse blog quando atingir 365 posts. ontem eu assisti incompatível com a vida e chorei... chorei por ter me visto me despedindo, cantando, dançando, gritando, desguando sobretudo. pode sair, tá tudo bem. também pandemia. também ecos. também vômitos de…
This line from any James Bond movie seems to be a part of the franchise and has sustained over the last six decades. In fact, it's safe to say it's a part of Mr. Bond's identity. Therefore when I was recently gifted a bottle of vermouth, I wanted to experiment making martinis and I went down my own rabbit hole of why…
Muito possivelmente eu não vou manter esse diacho de blog atualizado, mas hoje deu vontade de escrever, de falar com as pessoas e nadar numa piscina de academia. Olha que são 3 hábitos que só me fariam bem. Ao longo dos meus quase 48 anos esperando o ônibus que não vem no meio de uma zona que não conheço muito bem.…
We're taught to practice with only one colour. We're taught to choose only one niche to excel in life. Jack of all trades is master of none, right!? But, did you know the original version of this quote has another line? It says, "Jack of all trades is a master of none, but oftentimes better than a master of one." It…
So, I learned a few things over the weekend. Can anyone from a so-called third-world country like Indonesia guess the average cost of a one-bedroom apartment in New York City? It’s $4,778 per month or roughly IDR 79 million. Holy. Freaking. Airball. For that price, we could probably rent a room in Istana Bogor and…
I had a rather productive morning as I did not laze around till afternoon so pats on the back for that. There have been countless times I've refused to see the efforts I actually put in & pretty much kept overthinking about how everything I do makes no sense. I know the root cause & have been working on it for a…
When reading a blog article by Alex West, I stumbled upon this paragraph: "You may be the hero of your own movie, but in everyone else's you are nothing but an extra. You appear and flash on their screen for an instant, and then you're gone forever. No one cares about you. And that thought is liberating. It allows you…
Hoje eu tirei os dois sisos que faltavam. Nasceram os quatro. Normais. Sem tortisse. Essa palavra existe? Mesmo assim, a gengiva não cedeu. E cobria os debaixo. A dificuldade para limpar foi pesando. Anos depois do nascimento daqueles que não eram esperados, careou. Sim. Cáries. Então, precisei tirar. Os dois…
Romance is having ideas. Love is executing them. We have a tendency to romanticise things too quickly. A new year resolution. An elusive job. Someone we went out on a date with. We build ourselves to a point of simultaneous anticipation and trepidation, that there is a very real possibility that we might burst at our…
just because you're entitled to an opinion, doesn't mean you're required to get one. and just because you relinquish your right to an opinion, doesn't mean you're an idiot. the brain cells required to keep up with that shit can be spent elsewhere, if you so wish it's called the freedom of thought. when i hang out with…
Ik kan de weg nooit vinden wanneer het donker is. Ik noem het mijn nachtblindheid, ook al weet ik dat dat het niet echt is. Ik verdwaal wanneer ik geen kleur zie. Ik raak liever niet verdwaald. Ik dool al zo veel rond in mijn eigen hoofd, doorheen mijn eigen lichaam, en het idee van dobberende gedachten in een dwalend…
ahh my imagination has been sparked by a utopian concept by Superstudio. 'The Third City: New York of Brains' is a concept where a cube houses 10,000456 living brains so they can survive humanity's destruction. however i imagine what if humanity is never destroyed? we will be able to go visit this place, it would be…
Got moneys doesn’t mean shit. It’s how you treat people, with genuine care, with genuine kindness - having confidence means it’s okay not to be liked, even nobody is with you it’s going to be okay. And that usually is cos you have your own tribe already that you can do that - you can’t treat it with everyone that way…
If Apple does release a slimmer new iPhone, it will likely do so in 2025 as part of the iPhone 17 lineup, say reports from Haitong International Securities analyst Jeff Pu and co-founder and CEO of Display Supply Chain Consultants Ross Young (as reported by 9to5Mac). Kuo, Bloomberg and The Information have reported…
Of trying to be the responsible one. Of trying to be the one with empathy Of trying to keep my own value in my mind Of trying to receive an iota of love and care of what I need Of being the one constantly abandoned Of giving it my all Of just trying sometimes.
Brands today give little credit to their customers. Failed branding and marketing efforts are often disguised under the ruse of 'fickle customer loyalty' and 'minuscule attention spans'. But the truth of it is the same customers that are scrolling right past your ad are binging 8 episodes of that Netflix show they…
Day-4 of my 30 day atomic essay streak. This one's about how I used mindful repetition to teach myself meditation. For my essays so far, the concept of 'Mindful Repetition' has been the only anchor. If you're unfamiliar with it, then please read 'Essay 2: Mindful Repetition, Compounds.' I have been wanting to practice…
Read the news about the incident in Itaewon in South Korea. Shocking event really. 156+ dead with 151+ injured. Work was productive. I can finally start working on design docs to push for ideas I’ve had. I started looking at jetbrains space, a new productivity tool. Started looking at the ActivityPub protocol. It…
