Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
Lately, the past two weeks, I have been trying to figure out or trying to answer the question "Who am I?". It has been a couple of rough months for me, given a recent unemployment, but, I now have time to slow down, think, and prioritise what are the most important things to me. What I want of my life? What I value?…
“We are splinters and mosaics; not, as they used to hold, immaculate, monolithic, consistent wholes.” schreef Virginia Woolf in een van haar dagboeken. Wanneer ik schrijf raak ik soms gefrustreerd met de manier waarop ik mijn gedachtenstromen volg, laat dwalen en met vele omwegen weer terug probeer te leiden. Ik denk…
A good engineering manager should prevent knowledge hoarding. Knowledge hoarding happens when an individual contributor mistakenly believes that it is in his self-interest to be the only person who knows how to do something on a team. This increases his value to the organization; if he shares his knowledge either…
He came to see me, Even if I forgot. He was the inspiration, Behind every lovely shot. He always sat there, Fulfilled and lone. Beholding me gracefully, He jollied and shone. I remember spending nights, Thinking of him on my roof. I crave this gorgeous- He lives aloof. I ask the ones whom he met, Is he the same he…
...that those, who are critical of all the ideation, post-it notes, paper sketches, workshops, prototypes and other design process stuff, are right! You don't, strictly speaking, need any of those. The only thing you need to create a successful design, is correctly predict the future. Most of it anyway, but especially…
why do some people give off the vibe like you can trust them? like they don't judge you? like you want to tell them everything? without even getting to know them, you get that vibe, and it turns out you're right! i think at my best i can have a pure childlike aura with curiosity and humor ; at my worst i'm childish…
i read a book about how there are people who defy all expectations. like they just HATE fulfilling expectations, doesn't matter if it's internal or external. i may be such a person. i told myself that i should go running at 5 and cook at 6 and have dinner ready by 7.30 but it is now 5.55 and i have been working on…
Ontem eu li "O Jovem", da Annie Ernaux, em que ela narra sua história de amor vivida aos 54 anos com um homem 30 anos mais jovem. Achei o livrinho de uma beleza extraordinária, onde ela não fala apenas da história sobre os dois, mas dos desejos femininos e dos preconceitos que sofremos como mulher. Para ela, não era a…
The cold, empty space stares back at me: What if it doesn't resonate? What if I'm not pleased with it? Tick-tock More seconds elapse and I don't even have a draft to call first. It's an uncomfortable feeling. Staring across the chasm between the brilliant insight in your mind and the not-yet-articulated onto the…
There is a tale of a priest and the dog where tying the dog eventually becomes the ritual but a hollow one. A hollow ritual is a ritual with no essence just like a hollow festival. Most festivals we celebrate are hollow , abstracted from the essence of their origin. What allows this phenomenon to occur is selfishness.…
it was a running joke among my friends growing up that I'd come over just to be able to take a nap because that wasn't allowed at home. it wasn't all that serious, of course, but I was incredibly fortunate to have both of my parents home, all day, every day for my entire life - which meant that I wasn't often truly…
Our friends say they’ve experienced a lot of goodbyes and they used to not bother even saying hello until they learned that there’s a possibility you see each other again and that possibility makes the hello and intermittent goodbyes worthwhile. But there are many people I miss who I will never see again. The feeling…
Look at our movies, they are full of blood and violence. Look at the combat sports we enjoy, the crowd goes berserk when there's blood or if someone gets knocked out. These serve as an outlet for our suppressed violent selves. I think this ties back with the way humans became apex predators, our ancestors were…
as I write this, there is a meeting going on in the background. Someone is saying something, and others are writing. Most are pretending to listen while they browse the internet on their laptops. Meanwhile, our client on the 56-inch LED screen continues to talk about the product. This is not the first time I am seeing…
Apple is about to have their own on-devices AI that will improve UX. I believe this will be another inflation point for Smartphone cycles. A lot of function no longer requires sending over to the server, things such as Voice Message from any Apps such as Whatsapp to Telegram being transcribed into Text on Devices.…
What is the relationship between marginal, radical, or heretical beliefs and one's status or standing in polite society? Status predisposes us to think and believe in certain ideas about the world that reinforce or confirm our location in the hierarchy by virtue of demonstrating to others of equal or higher status…
The best mentors are the ones who don't charge for their time. Hear me out. I'm not talking about the ones who make mentoring their main source of income. I'm talking about industry veterans who are passionate about what they do and want to pass on all that they've learned over the years. They've already "made it" and…
It's used to justify atrocities, it's used to discriminate, it's used to oppress and most importantly it is used to squash debate on critical topics. The very opportunity to improve a good endeavour can be shut down by using the "making the world better" card. They key is not whether it is making the world better or…
This page serves as my personal digital diary. Due to my overly active mind and severe ADHD, I often forget thoughts that never even make it to my consciousness. It's as if I've thought of everything, but in reality, I'm not thinking at all. The topics covered will range from the silliest reasons to serious thoughts…
I am reading a book called as Range by David Epstein. The book is about how being a generalist will help someone to navigate this world where all things are mostly specialized. Tiger Woods started learning golf when he was 4. He knew he enjoyed it and he knew he wanted to be great at it. He engaged in "deliberate…
I always carry pieces of the people I’ve lost with me. Lovers, friends and even some strangers. They reside in me. I have never been great at showing emotion or telling people how much they mean to me. But I miss them dearly. Each and everyone who added to my life. Even those from what feels like ages ago. It’s not…
This is the deal. There are no "one size fits all" solutions in reality. You can see this out there in different realms. Be it the product creation, the medical, online course, financial and so on. It's like that meme of the different characters along the bell curve. Which also relates quite well with the graph of…
I read a quote today that went something like this: "Writing is thinking. If you're thinking without writing, you only think you're thinking." I know this to be true. I've always felt sharpest after a writing session. But I am lazy. Over the coming weeks, I'm going to try and publish my thoughts about whatever it is I…
as for the history of black amerikka, they are & have been in plain sight. over the last 500 years, we just did not have on the correct lenses to see the whips & chains evolving. the programming that took place over 500 years ago during the creating of amerikka worked so well that we don't even know what went on with…
Running around my neighborhood has made me bitter. I see piles of trash on the side of the road and I tell myself a story about people that don't care. I see more and trash and I feel more anger. What can I do? What control do I have? The same control I tell my kids that they have - I can only control myself. So I'm…
Ask me a question ('reply privately' at the bottom of this post) How can I hold the tide in my hands? Should I try? (Oct 25th, 2026) You're (probably) way too small to hold the tide, but it can hold you. And when we hold each other it's really important not to get too caught up in who's doing the holding. It's okay to…
Recently I have been hesitant to write my thoughts here too frequently. The reason is that I try to avoid repeating myself and strive to write something of value. There has been many things occupying my mind recently, so I will try to keep sharing them here for this outlet has a unique charm...
The world is changing too fast. I'm not sure what the turning point was, but I went from thinking of people as old school, to realising that I'm finding it hard to keep up with the times. Social media is a constant reminder of this. A few years ago, I consoled myself that it was ok to stay off the gram as the negative…
Culture is not something that is written in documents/slides or on walls. Culture is created during everyday moments during company building. Culture is the unspoken actions and behaviors of the team during daily operations. Culture starts with founders. Culture is the extension of founder's behavior and personality.…
I take courses related to personal knowledge management (PKM). An alum of 3 unrelated PKM-based online courses, I am retaking them (Sept - Dec 2022) for refreshed content and to adjust my practices. Each course has its own premise. Granted there have been times I have taken pause and even cringed. Nonetheless, a bit…
Back from spending time with "family" - not blood, but "adopted". had to drag myself out a bit to get there, but had a thoroughly good time with them, some of whom I hadn't seen in person for several years. It can be nice to have non-family family around. No word from my buddy, but then again, for all his faults and…
In life, shouldn't this be my goal? What can I do to make sure I wake up excited each day? How can I structure my future days to improve the probability of this happening for me and the people I care about? I won't share an answer (because I don't have one yet) but I'm confident this is a question worth asking.
"Write what you know" suggests you already have starting material for saying something. As you begin to write what you know, hopefully you also begin to see what you don't know. So you do some research, re-evaluate what you know, and re-commence with your writing. The inverse is true, too. What you know is revealed in…
I take things too personally. When someone tells me they don't like my photos, my brain says, "I'm such a bad photographer." When someone says, "Your outfit is so plain today," my brain says, "I have no style, I look ugly." When someone points out a pimple, my brain says, "I AM UGLY." Something happened today that…
Sim, ontem tomei alguns muitos shots de tequila. Vim pro litoral para comemorar a formatura de um amigo querido e passei o dia todo muito tranquila. Fiz saladas com a mãe e tias dele na cozinha, almocei, fui a praia com eles, conversamos, rimos e me senti confortável para beber. Só bebo assim: se 1. Sentir vontade e…
Do not pamper your children. They become ungrateful fucks who will just complain Now I understand why I am always fucking complaining - or always compare myself to others (which doesn’t have any purpose whatsoever) - XM, YJ, these people who likes to “show” on their insta - how many friends they got and shit Deep…
i once had a piano student who had glenn gould energy a little baby of 7 or 10 years old and he told me he only plays the piano to impress girls i thought so young...and he already knows what life is about.
As I see myself on pictures I’m not happy with how I look. I been self aware that i’m a big boy and have been all my life, only take action as if was seasonal work and don’t commit to myself. Looking at this picture really makes me reflect a lot on my bad habits and how I’m really just poisoning myself.. I don’t have…
In LYT, a question posed was exploring whether folks lack interest in publishing. Part of the context was one's possible tendency to focus too much on expressing one's self to one's self. Here's my abridged/edited response. I don't know if there is a right or wrong approach about one's publishing process. I face a…
Airport Arrival Terminals are a places filled with joy. Families and friends reconnecting, giving each other a warm hug and a kiss. Some, weirdly enough, spraying hand sanitizers as soon as possible. People stand waiting behind a railing waiting to get a glimpse of their loved ones, and as soon as they see them, their…
it's haunting the extent to which i have gone quiet. last night i opened my instagram after a long time. it's purely an exhibitionist platform, but that aside i've some threads in there. most of them begin to grow quiet around 2018, gradually deafening in 2019 and coming to complete silence in 2020 - when i quit. i've…
I believe in the power of swiping. I believe it is a song continually singing left or flipping right, delighting in the minor and major of it all and the fall of the green and the birth of the ice and the magnificent way we all stop to think twice about our lives, our dreams, our reams of baroque reasoning our ways…
proust said that the hope of being soothed gives one the courage to suffer. i just read dostoevsky's "white nights" and i gained courage for suffering. i felt as though i confronted suffering right on, hand in hand, with the narrator. i feel like an utterly different person now. // i've hit a stride -- i'm getting…
⋆ I don’t really like Radiohead except 15 step ◯ And you like that creepy song too, like, “the creeps” ⋆ Yeah ◯ So you like 2 songs ⋆ Yeah ◯ So you like more songs from Radiohead than from most bands ⋆ Yes that’s right ◯ That makes you a fan
‘Indian Matchmaking’ and ‘A Suitable Girl’ have much in common: producer Smriti Mundhra, match-maker Sima Taparia, and an overwhelming display of complex but problematic routines and notions around arranged marriage. Yet, one is cringe (but binge-worthy), while the other is deeply unsettling. The difference in…
Dear person, I am waiting, waiting for you to make a grand entrance and take my breath away as you exit the stage and keep it with you until my heart stops beating. I am deranged yet lucid enough enough to love you till my mind gets lost beyond the depths of the world. I am waiting for when we would just sit together…
i may look i have it all smile on my face happy, joyful got many friends all that i want but deep inside in my mind it is like fragile glass and it might break if i can't keep going anymore "fake it til you make it" thats what they say until you fake it and lose yourself fake confidence.
Olha só, cheguei no 100!! Que alegria ver que a constância tem dado certo. Criar uma rotina e me comprometer com ela é incrível! Criar um hábito é difícil, mas fico feliz de saber mais uma vez que sou capaz de desenvolver o que eu quiser. Inclusive, hoje eu sonhei que já estava no ambiente de mestrado. Eu apontava a…
