Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
people want to have good intentions. and often, they do. but as with all things human, the reality is blurrier than that. we ourselves can be tricked by these intentions. disguised as selfless, acts of kindness can be like a shield from responsibility. how quickly we devolve from the purest aims to bitterness and…
Sometimes, I find myself self-critical over my apparent lack of focus, worrying that my broad range of interests doesn't get me anywhere. "Business Idea Factory" by Andrii Sedniev has helped me see the value in my widespread curiosity. The book highlights that exposure to diverse experiences is not just beneficial but…
During my meditation practice today, I had a realization that has left me feeling both elated and bewildered. For the first time, I understood that the boundary between myself and the external world may not actually exist. In our everyday lives, we tend to view the world as something separate from ourselves. We see…
From a spiritual advisor: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=92i5m3tV5XY For the past ten years or so, every morning, the routine is to make my bed, read some spiritual literature, meditate, and pray. Lately, I have gone back to the ole Headspace well for meditation. But sometimes, like today, I sit still for a few…
2023 - a new year. A new year where people will make and, inevitably, break new year resolutions. Like last year. I resolve to begin my writing journey…with consistency. I prefer short form - short and succinct. This is my aim. What will I be writing about? People say specificity wins. Maybe that will evolve over…
Wednesday 29th January. 18 games on one evening. An accumulator-builder's dream. This is a gluttony of football. One show promising to serve up this grotesque buffet of deep-fried dopamine hits. "We go live to the San Siro" "There's been an equaliser for City" "Big chance for Benfica" This is football reduced to its…
A few weeks back, my partner (a chef in her own right) began the process of bringing to life sour dough starter. We named him Barry. Just a few days later, she had to leave and I was left alone with Barry. And well I had to learn how to take care of him, which has been a highlight of 2023 so far. Every evening, I had…
Instead of a small cramped cage, Bruce Alexander constructed a 200-square-foot housing colony for his rats. Into this space, which was heated just right, were placed delicious cedar shavings and all manner of bright balls and wheels. There was ample space for mating, space for birthing, room to roam, and warm nests…
rientrare a casa dopo qualche giorno di camper è un pò come tornare in prigione. Nonostante il campeggio sia un luogo spartano e privo di protezioni della privacy, mi fa sentire molto meglio che a casa. La gente si fa i cazzi suoi, non come qui... Sembra che non voglia capire il mio disagio ed il mio bisogno di…
H.266 VVC is technically better than AV1. In terms of Quality, Performance and Complexity. FVC is a working name for the successor of VVC. With a target of 50% reduction regardless of computing power. In all previous case they have encoding and decoding complexity target. So it seems FVC is trying to push the boundary…
Então, tirei os sisos, tudo certo, pontos sequinhos na medida do possível e tudo cicatrizado. Até que: AFITAS. Que coisa horrorosa. Três protuberâncias me causam tanto transtorno que eu sinceramente estou com vontade de morrer. Dor aguda e constante, tonturas, ardência, sensibilidades... Coisa horrenda. E sim, estou…
Airport Arrival Terminals are a places filled with joy. Families and friends reconnecting, giving each other a warm hug and a kiss. Some, weirdly enough, spraying hand sanitizers as soon as possible. People stand waiting behind a railing waiting to get a glimpse of their loved ones, and as soon as they see them, their…
Tried weights to stretch my ears for the first time. They seem to work very well. I’m trying to get back to 38mm like I had a few years ago. I went from 32mm to 35mm with this first time using the two 32g weights. I think I’m going to stay at this size for awhile and let my ears get use to it before I try moving up…
e ai? voltei! a vida é curta pra escrever tanto e eu tô tentando me acostumar que, sim, algumas memórias vão se perder mesmo. a escrita, pra mim, tem um pouco dessa tentativa de não esquecer o que eu vivi, mas.... passei o carnaval em salvador com o meu namorado. em são paulo, já não sou muito afim dessa festa…
June 26, 2013. Jerry Seinfeld sits for an interview with Howard Stern. Stern asks about his routine - how Jerry constantly observes, constantly hunts for material, constantly thinks about comedy. Jerry gave an answer. Fuming with surprise, Howard Stern was like - "That's being at work 24 hours a day," Stern says.…
Obviously not this one. There's a lot of rambling in my head too, like now. But because these are ramblings, do they matter? Are they worth thinking at all? Should they be shared? Where do our limits lie in thoughts?
when you transfer money from one account to another account, in the memo/notes section write a self-affirmation i wrote: "i am full of love" next time i could say something like: "i have everything i need to be peak happy" which is true i do have everything i need all i need is my imagination and fresh air and…
I have been a heavy user of the internet since 2000. There were years between 2012 and 2016 when I was very active on social media. Since then I have shied away from maintaining any online identity. There has been a constant urge to build an anonymous identity (to find like minded people) but I don’t want to build any…
Okay, some more thinking. Maybe I can relate now with what Nelson went through when I started dating Musti. He said he found it mean that I was being so lovey dovey in front of him. That I was doing things and showing affection for musti that I never showed Nelson and that he always craved. Perhaps I’m going to feel…
Subconsciously, we know what we're capable of. We're cognizant of the software code God programmed within us to flourish. We know what elements make us, us. A unique individual (and perspective) placed into the world to influence others. We end up afraid of reaching our full potential, each passing moment that we're…
Hello. I have missed the last 2 days of blogging. Sorry. I have been having immense anxiety for the past 2 days. And I think I am in a state where nobody and nothing seems to be helping. The biggest reason for this is because my sense of self worth is tied to my sense of productivity. And I feel like I am productive…
Running around my neighborhood has made me bitter. I see piles of trash on the side of the road and I tell myself a story about people that don't care. I see more and trash and I feel more anger. What can I do? What control do I have? The same control I tell my kids that they have - I can only control myself. So I'm…
"What's your name?" One encounters this question in an ever declining frequency. As you add years, the frequency of the question reduces. Recollect the moment you answered with pride with your chest bloated Pronouncing your name. As one ages, one takes increasing offense if asked "What's your name?" So courtesy comes…
I was 13 or 14 when access to the internet became something that lots of 'normal' people could have. I instantly got it, this was a complete shift in accessibility of information AND the ability to participate in 'publishing' and sharing your own creations. It took me 6 years to go from there to building websites,…
Comecei uma nova série. Landscapers não foi tão legal, viu? Odeio qualquer coisa em preto e branco, me dá preguiça, e frequentemente esse recurso foi usado na série. Me arrastei até o final porque não gosto de coisas inacabadas. Mas!!!! Comecei tokyo vice que tá tirando toda nhaca de Landscapers. Cara, a trilha sonora…
I love the simple process of journaling. Experimenting with new ideas to enhance the journaling experience keeps the habit fresh and interesting. I’ve tried rearranging my journaling components, using prompts, and adding doodles. I finally settled on the order of components. Prompts and doodling didn’t last. I…
As people return to travelling and airports, it’s been interesting to see how behaviour has changed. Some observations. Masks are no longer required in French airports but the vast majority of people are wearing them. This I expect is in stark contrast to what’s happening in the US and even the UK. You get the…
We have steadily become trained to gather inspiration like a humpback whale gulping down thousands of krill. The constant inundation of images and concepts can confuse the mind and stifle your own creative spark. Really, the most profound moments of inspiration happen, not within the outer noise, but within the inner…
Acabei de ler Quem Matou o Meu Pai, do Édouard Louis e não posso usar outra palavra que não "cortante" para descrever a experiência de ler tudo em uma sentada. A forma como ele costura sua história pessoal com a política... A rejeição dos pais por ele ser quem é, a repetição dos padrões, mesmo quando há tentativa de…
Recently, I faced a challenge with relapse, and it was difficult to cope with the urges triggered by external factors. However, I managed to let go of the temptation and move forward. It was a tough day, but I found relief in staying strong. Although I regretted the relapse, the experience offered me a moment of…
When studying something Im not particularly a fan of I just eat, not because of hunger, but because of the necessity to stay awake. This happens even if I try all the tips and tricks from studying with other people, taking breaks, sitting in the right positions, making it interactive... my eyes just close. Starting to…
Endlessly offering my shoulder for you to lean and cry on, but you always reject it. Endlessly prioritizing you, instead you chose to ignore me. Endlessly understanding you, but you chose to see me as an inconvenience. Endlessly giving you my love, even if I don't get anything in return.
More than half a decade ! I will be done with my current job soon, after having spent more than 6.5 years here. It feels strange , disconcerting , sad , exciting and a strange sense of relief as well. I don’t know what to feel or think anymore and hence am letting all sorts of emotions and feelings wash over me. This…
Life, it seems, will fade away Drifting further, every day Getting lost within myself Nothing matters, no one else. While the rest of the old Metallica banger Fade to Black doesn't really apply to this post, I wanted to borrow generously from the past kings to start it. In a remote hyperconnected world, it is easy to…
I. Best-case scenario Donald Trump is elected president in November. An Iranian proxy, whether Houthi, Hezbollah, or Iraqi Shi'ite militia, attacks an American naval vessel in the Persian Gulf. Trump orders a brutal retaliation that decimates the Iranian oil industry in Bandar Abbas. Iran, humiliated, pulls back its…
I love helping people just for the sake of it, without expecting anything back, if I just can share, give or do something that doesn't really affect me negatively I will be happily willing to do so. Being part of such a caring community makes the vibe contagious 🫶🏻
You imagine some futuristic tall pointy structures that go into the clouds, like the Sky Tower in the movie Oblivion [0] But I realised recently that many of us, including myself, are already living in the sky. Over the past few years, I lived in a house on the 33rd floor and worked in an office on the 5th. I spend…
Skyggene gjør seg alltid større enn de er. Mørket tåler nesten ingenting. Det går i stykker av litt lys.
Ontem eu fui assistir as quase três horas de agente secreto. Antes de partir pro conteúdo do filme, preciso exaltar o charme do Wagner Moura. Pelo amor de deus, o homem TEM O MOLHO. o jeito que ele fala, que ele olha e se mexe... Mexe comigo. Mas sobre o filme. Interessante a construção da narrativa e como no final…
At a young age, it is difficult to say with certainty if you wish to become a lawyer or if you 'like' the job - because at that stage you haven't had the opportunity to do the job yet. Then the question to ask is 1. Do you wish to become a lawyer because you take pride in being a lawyer? OR 2. Do you wish to become a…
I'm no Psychologist, but I have a theory about human behaviour. We're all trying to maximise the following: Intrinsic Enjoyment x (Social Capital + Financial Capital) Let me break it down. First, a few definitions: 1. Intrinsic Enjoyment: How much you enjoy doing something, independent of any external rewards. 2.…
i try so hard every day i tell me i’m right in every way my heart doesn’t dare to hope so it pulls strings and hangs them in ways that paint a picture of you as ‘nothing, buts’ and for weeks there’s emptiness and abyss and space and void until, there you are, emerging and yet this time you are stronger tanner eyes…
Sim, mas chegando em casa, eu respirei um pouco, esperei o suor secar, pedi um uber. Demorou, cancelaram, até que um taxi mal humorado apareceu. Cheguei no Sesc Pompeia às 18h20. O show era 18h30. Peguei a comidinha mesmo assim. Um sanduíche de palmito com pesto maravilhoso, o suco de laranja que não pode faltar e um…
Let me hold you a little longer Let me pretend you're mine to keep Let me tell you " I Love You " ever and forever again.
Como é bom descobrir alguém novo e gostar. Hoje fui no show da Salma Jo com meu boy com ingressos que ganhei de uma amiga. Ela comprou, mas não conseguiu mais ir. Disse que era porque estaria em outra cidade, mas eu acho que é porque a namorada dela falou que ela tem ido a muitos shows. Isso aconteceu em uma discussão…
In February 2024, I opened an account on 750words.com — a private journal for free-writing, where the goal is simple: write at least 750 words, every day. As I typed, I noticed a short lag between pressing a keyboard key and the letter appearing on screen. The lag was subtle, but erratic enough to start grabbing my…
I’m Nanaji of Akhil and Abhi. My grandson, Akhil, made me start writing this blog, to share my memories and events of my daily life.
Creativity is such a strange bedfellow. It warms you, sometimes. It guides you, sometimes. It frustrates you, sometimes. It refuses to leave, always. There are plenty of days when I wish that my creativity would take all these disparate parts and bring them together into a cohesive whole. Instead, creativity somehow…
