Jul 14, 2022

14th July - missed 2 days

Hello.

I have missed the last 2 days of blogging. Sorry.

I have been having immense anxiety for the past 2 days. And I think I am in a state where nobody and nothing seems to be helping.

The biggest reason for this is because my sense of self worth is tied to my sense of productivity. And I feel like I am productive if others deem me productive, because I simply do not have any bars for myself.

I will obviously always suffer from FOMO if I dont have anything im happy to be doing.

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