Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
Are we ever truly free from the past? Do fresh starts exist or is it just another mind trick that serves more as a consolation than a solution? Maybe consolation itself is a solution when facing hard situations. The mind needs to believe in some reaffirming story, however unreal it may be. Maybe it's all stories like…
I write this at 8 AM on my birthday in one of my worst states of mind in a while. Ideally, it shouldn't have been this way. Courts have closed in Kolkata for summer holidays and I was to embark on a vacation abroad after more than two years. Only for my visa not to arrive in time. At this point, I am gutted. A while…
Day-3 of my 30 day atomic essay streak. In essay-2, I wrote about the concept of mindful repetition. Quick recap: It's a repetition of a simple actions that moves a system towards stability and makes it sophisticated with time. This sits very well with personal habit formation a.k.a building daily life systems (DLS).…
I did not expect this one: === anon8858 It’s finally happening. General Rodriguez will make a public appearance for the first time in 2 years. This is the longest time a public official has been outside of the public eye. Last year, the rumors of his death were the top conspiracy theory in the country. These rumors…
I hope this is free and online forever because you know we've been burned many times. And we never got rich from all the time we spent on the Internet.
I feel that verbal (and even nonverbal) communication is the most important thing for all beings! But it seems, that such capability deteriorates, becomes empty, or (and) false. Not only in hackneyed phrases of politicians or some of journalists, but generally... What about to discuss about possible reasons?
There was an interesting discussion on Hacker News (https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=33675503) about burnout, which spawned some reflection within me. The comment that really got me thinking, was a user that wrote that for him, burnout had not occurred in the periods with the highest pressure or workload. But in…
I. Humans began their story on this Earth as brutish, violent, tribal knuckle-draggers, barely distinguishable from their ape relatives. Over thousands of years of gradual genetic and cultural evolution, humanity has marched through history to achieve progressively more peaceful and prosperous societies. We're slowly…
It's rarely as bad as you build it up to be. If you have to do more, you'll take it one step at a time. Your dad may NOT have been wanting to tell you about your mother's heart attack. All you can control is how you feel and what you do. 0856
You want it - you need to get it. Speaking like yourself And having that “qualifications” and deep thought process Having a mind is one thing But speaking eloquently and able to convey your messages to the world is one too You think of mum - speaks and shouts loud but no content - people look at her for fun Think of…
The prevailing cultural norm views work as a necessary evil - something to endure from Monday to Friday and escape from on weekends. In contrast, I perceive work differently. For me, work is engaging and fulfilling; it isn't a switch to turn off at 5 PM or on weekends. Yes, I have to push myself sometimes, and no, I…
The last few weeks, I've unknowingly put myself under great pressure in becoming more than what I am now. How did I know? I noticed a pattern of disassociating from my wants, needs, life. I craved for a type of satisfaction I don't know how to fulfill. I slept it off, I ate it off, I drank it off. I went away. There's…
In my teens - I was a commi/socialist. Read Che. I thought everyone should share everything in equal parts. In my 20s, I want to conquer the world. Nothing can stop me. Hell yeah! Started tilting towards center. In my 30s, I'm part of capitalist system, and turned capitalist. Believes money can buy happiness & many…
Its 16/Apr/2023 I have entered a weird patch in life where I dont know what I feel. I am turning 25 and that's not making anything better. Its been more than half a year I escaped an extremely abusive family and the trauma still lingers on. Too broke to have a therapist. It feels horrible, I feel like I am fighting…
I scored 11 out of 11 here. This has been, I suppose, the greatest source of psychic pain. It’s hard to cope, when you’re constantly reminded that the way your mind works is a mess. There are benefits to this psychic disorganization, it just takes some time and understanding to accept the benefits. I’ve accused myself…
1) when striking a conversation - don’t allow negativity 2) it’s a brain training: how to continue the conv Intelligence: is judged not based on the preparation But your current status: what can you come up with on the spot Can you hold the fears The ego and the inferiority You gotta feel very steady and calm To do…
the air seemed void and no one knew why, even the loudest ones got dazed, maybe shy. the girl on the clouds, yet on floor, seemed as if she would outpour any minute her tears, a galloon, those eyes bear. all the elation, all that frenzy, all the fury that made her crazy. why did she hide them, until today? but not…
perhaps we blog for the same reason we do work/read in coffeeshops we want to feel amongst others even in our solitude i wonder if anyone has ever met anyone in a coffee shop and become best friends
I had another heavy conversation with my mom today. I’ve noticed she often has these outpouring sessions ever so periodically where she shares her pain and hurtful past incidents with me. 1. I’ve noticed a lot of repetition in the stories she narrates and I believe these are unresolved issues and conflicts that she…
This exercise of mostly for my own benefit. I got into the habit of being negative and critical. Apparently digging yourself out of that hole is harder than the little effort it took to dig a negative hole and have a petty party down there. Here is my first try to climb up 🧗🏻♀️: 1. I'm grateful that my parents…
Today was a day with many little frustrations. Nothing worked out the way I hoped for. What frustrated me the most though, was how much this affected my mood negatively. I want to get better at decoupling my mood and view of the world from external factors. Why not just be happy in the moment, no matter what.
I was thinking whether or not I should write this post. The reason I didn't want to is simply because my opinion on this does not matter at all. The reason I did want to write this is that it can throw some light on my thought process which applies to other things in life. I'd say I'm quite pro-Elon. Simply because…
There lived a man in southern Spain He had no penny, no fear, no pain Into an alley he lost his way Ran into gold, saved it for a rainy day Not a day went past, he didn't count it all His friends now few and fears grew tall Looking for more in his alley of gold With nothing to share he grew lonely and old The weight…
When ever we talk about ARM and Performance. Most discussions, whether that is on Twitter, HN or Reddit immediately jump into an Apple Fanboy thread. And pointing out how far behind the other ARM cores are. But is that really the case? Apple A16 has a GB5 of 1870 @ 3.6Ghz. Running at close to 5W. On the same TSMC 4nm,…
Observe Frequently Notice Dispassionately Accept Realistically Evaluate Creatively Reflect Broadly Value Accurately Embrace Gratefully Adjust Accordingly https://jeffdoolittle.com/2022/02/28/mindfulness/
In my previous blog, I wrote about an interrupted childhood - one where I was a day away from beginning tennis classes, when my family broke apart over the course of one consequential night. A few weeks ago, I decided to experience the reality that could have altered my childhood. Life throws curveballs at us that we…
I understand they happen to be there because it's cheaper and simpler, but what a tasteless and generic place to put them. Lighting can be beautiful if you set the sources gracefully. Indirect lighting can make a magic atmosphere and functional lightning can be a great tool depending on your goals. But "one light bulb…
Be so harsh on yourself Just keep doing the same things you did Don’t overthink thinking that they are talking about Rolex, fashion, or any materialistic topics & you have to join them. If you don’t know then just try to know rather than acting like you know Rather than focusing on the non have - why don’t try to…
15 months ago I left my home and moved to NYC, marking my entry into the most socially disconnected phase of my life. Faced with the formidable foe of newfound isolation, I wanted to hold on to those in Seattle who made me feel like a loved member of humanity. I felt optimistic that maintaining contact over the phone…
What does a brownian motion day or path look like for you? --- SCIENCE Formally Brownian Movement and commonly referred to as brownian motion, this is the random motion of particles (e.g., molecules, element) in an environment (e.g., gaseous, liquid) bumping into each other. references . about The Brownian Movement…
É meu primeiro dia de volta ao trabalho depois da cirurgia que abriu minha barriga em três lugares. O céu chora compulsivamente em SP ilustrando bem meu estado de espírito. Eu quero muito ganhar na loteria para não ter que trabalhar. Passaria o dia inteiro pintando, fazendo cursos, cantando e dançando nua e aprendendo…
and we are standing there match in each hand in a room full of petrol pretending not to notice the air shimmering in a quiet resonance something we’ve seen before fairy-tale tangled in ‘what ifs’ scared of bruising whilst knowing exactly one wrong move and the place is ashes and dust
This 100-day project does not take weekends off. But I'm staying true to my overall writing philosophy: write something every day. In my mother's immortal words, "Keep Saturday Saturday: start late and go slow." I started very late, 2pm, and the 15 minute goal to write anything project-related became 30 and 45 and…
Finally got around to this project after buying the cigar box at a thrift store a few months ago. All the rest of the parts I had around from other builds/mods. I’ve modded a few guitars now but I think I might be most proud of this one. It wasn’t a struggle the entire build, only took me 3 days in total, and best of…
As I see myself on pictures I’m not happy with how I look. I been self aware that i’m a big boy and have been all my life, only take action as if was seasonal work and don’t commit to myself. Looking at this picture really makes me reflect a lot on my bad habits and how I’m really just poisoning myself.. I don’t have…
I have stepped foot on the hamster wheel, constantly running, keeping things in motion—the act of creation and destruction. In my case, my online persona. Just now, I discovered this blogging site, on my umpteenth attempt to write some sorry excuse of a blog which I will be deleting once again, just like the others I…
Short one today. Got stuff somewhat ready for tomorrow. Invited some coworkers over for a hangout after work. First time inviting people over to my place. Was trying to print and post some photos that I took as wall decorations. Almost end of the week. One more thing: I think I may want to try and make this a photo…
Focus is overrated. There, I said it. We’re told to zero in, eliminate distractions, and optimize every second. “Deep work” or whatever the latest productivity cult is preaching. But constant focus? It’s not a superpower. It’s a CAGE. Your best ideas don’t show up when you’re grinding away, when you're trying to force…
1. Protect attention Help users control their attention. Don’t rely on growth and retention strategies to hijack attention with unnecessary demands, distractions, and requests. - Can we design to minimize the consumption of attention, both on and off screen? - Can we consider where adding delays or friction could help…
it's so easy to take our greatest strengths for granted simply because they come naturally to us. and conversely, to normalize behavior that simply conforms to our surroundings. without stopping to ask the hard questions - to quiet the constant noise begging us to react to it, to be fiercely autonomous, it's easy to…
Acabei de ver um vídeo de uma senhorinha de 100 anos fazendo exercícios com a ajuda de um personal trainer. Coisa simples, levantar pesos, pegar e jogar a bola, levantar a perna com pesos no tornozelo. Coisa que muita gente com décadas a menos não consegue fazer. É isso, gente. Vamos fazer exercícios para ter…
One of many advantages of being on the other side of 50s is a sense of familiarity of that having happened before and a realization that nothing is as good or as bad as it seems. Some label the reaction to these events as extreme, stoic or cynical. However, visiting someone in intensive care at a Hospital, no matter…
To honor your mother and father is not to obey what they say, to honor your mother and father is to respect them.
It is not easy to write anything. Everyone wants to write something. Preferably something good. Preferably something good and useful. Preferably something good, useful, and uplifting for the heart. But isn’t the very act of writing itself a kind of uplift for the heart? I will not settle that question now. Because my…
I completed a 2-day "ultra-marathon-type" race this weekend where you run 48 miles over the course of 48 hours. It was grueling and I enjoyed the challenge. I have run a regular marathon and done other various physical challenges, always trying to maintain some novelty and keep myself interested. In the final hours of…
hospitals are scary - their cream tinted walls that seem to stretch out infinitely, the clutter of people walking and what seems to be the most terrifying is the occasional stretchers filled with sick people that pass by. you see their faces, their eroded smiles and the only a husk of the person they used to be -…
somewhere between platonic and romantic there is you & me. i don't see your eyes when the lights are off. take my hand-- we dance. romance?
Mindset makes or breaks your success in life’s endeavors. Journaling is a tool that changes your mindset. I didn’t journal very long before this became evident to me. I didn’t even know I needed a mindset change. I changed because of my journaling. Let's look at two examples of how journaling changes your mindset.…
