Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
Why are we so unhappy with our work? And if we are unhappy? Why are we doing it? Who is making us do it? Is it the govt? The society? Your family? The ‘top 150’ people who run the world? Why are they called ‘top 150’ anyway? Is happiness even a correct measure of us working? Or should we just be satisfied? Is it…
she is a core memory in my heart long gone, but never forgotten, just too many memories with her, you may delete the photos, but not those imprinted in your mind. she has had the single greatest influence in my life, came at a dark time, left at another. some never leave your soul, she was one of them.
the wind is howling and i am sitting inside the boat, cozy and warm and drinking peach tea and listening to this monk talk about non-duality thinking and he said "the mind is a clear blue sky" and i don't know what it means! but i like the way it sounds as i stare at him i became aware of a brand new concept: that…
We have steadily become trained to gather inspiration like a humpback whale gulping down thousands of krill. The constant inundation of images and concepts can confuse the mind and stifle your own creative spark. Really, the most profound moments of inspiration happen, not within the outer noise, but within the inner…
wake up early // get active // find solitude 4 am // run + lift // movement meditation "We rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope" - Romans 5:3-4
Technology is not, and can never be, neutral. Since it is impossible to present all available choices with equal priority, what we choose to emphasize is an expression of our values and priorities. Choosing defaults, providing recommendations, or identifying what content is shown and in what order. These are all…
As I wrote in my last part of Cortex X4 [1], We finally have some news on X5. Quote: which forms part of (ARM CEO) Rene Haas's strategy to "eliminate the performance gap between ARM-designed processors and custom ARM implementations." Moorhead's inside information has "Blackhawk" demonstrating the "largest…
Today, as I strolled down the familiar streets of HSR Layout, the sound of a man riding his mopet caught my attention. He was shouting "Paper," "Bottles," and other familiar calls. Instantly, a wave of nostalgia washed over me, and a smile spread across my face. It took me back to the long, lazy summer holidays of my…
i've been thinking endlessly about sex lately either my biological clock is ticking and i'm ovulating and the body is desperate or it's because of the things i've been writing, creatively or i'm writing those things because the clock is ticking i'm writing the story i can't get out of my head the more i write it the…
This was it. A day off after several months of parenting, working under pressure, side-hustling, managing the house, and doing all the third shift admin if my life. Finally I get to have some reprieve. A momentary escape. It was planned. I looked forward to it, after arranging for childcare and making a ton of…
the writing (that i'm reading, that i wrote, that i'm editing) is getting better. it is less sour. oh thank god this is salvageable. also i seem to encounter norwegians who make me think "you are so cool bc we are so similar" but i am not even remotely scandinavian and i think it has a lot to do with how they like to…
Yesterday night, I left home to take a walk. I spent time looking up at clouds. I arrived on the school field, late at night, and laid down on the cold grass, right in the exact center of the field. It was around 7:30 p.m. - the sky was a mix of blue, pink, and orange. The most perfect time of the day to take some…
Earlier this month, I wanted to fix something that's been bugging me for the longest time. On my personal blog, dates would show up to the left of post names. When I first set this up, with a kind of obtuse styling, I got the dates to line up in one "column" on the left, and then the post names to all start from the…
Hello, self! You're receiving this email because uhm, you subscribed to yourself. I think Louis is onto something here, and I hope it catches on. I just find that welcome message a tad funny. "Subscribe to yourself to receive your messages!" At least I know someone will read it later. Writing anonymously does give…
The invisible hand assumes that when individuals act in pursuit of their own self-interest, their decisions cumulatively generate outcomes that benefit society. This principle rests on several assumptions—perfect information, rational decision-making, and institutions that allow private choices to align with broader…
As writers, we long to express (our) thoughts and be heard. In today's climate, we castrate authenticity from artists willing to push (against) the global consensus. Luckily, those daring enough, regardless of the consequences — barge through any boundaries that are societally placed within (our) psyches. I adore the…
Então, fiquei aqui em casa com a minha dor, fiz uma bolsa de água quente e dormi. Acordei brevemente pra comer salada de beterraba com tomate e farofa de banana, voltei a dormir. Abri o whats e vi que um grupo que eu sou adm estava pipocando, não consegui responder nem ajudar em nada. Voltei a dormir e acordei pro…
Childhood is a magical time. As a parent, I feel pressure to preserve this sanctity for my own children. Of course I could be wrong but I’ve noticed a trend: if there are at least two children in a family, there are two archetypes: a favorite and a performer. The favorite in the family was the one that was, knowingly…
I'm terrified of this one word. It's just one word but contains an unknown universe within. A universe that I am part of, that I live in, yet that which I want to get out of. I was born into this realm and I continue to live within this reality. Even death does not seem to be a meaningful escape from this multiverse…
when you're in the jungle -- or any type of "wilderness" -- it is of obviously survival benefit to take note of the little noises and sights in your environment. the jungle is NEVER boring because you always have to pay attention and there are many things to pay attention to after being in the jungle, "regular life"…
Our current understanding of biology suggests that telomeres play a role in protecting genetic information during the replication process. During every cell division, the protective ends of every strand of DNA are shortened just a bit, protecting the important stuff from damage. If memes are analogous to genes as the…
Message to myself 2 years ago: There are different ways of looking at the world than the way that you look at the world. This fact feels obvious to you, but the part that doesn’t is: it’s really easy to dismiss those other ways as less real, relevant, meaningful, realistic. The aversion you have to looking at the…
everyone reading ottessa moshfegh makes me want to read MORE ottessa moshfegh to know exactly what i hate about her i read a bit of "homesick for another world" but did not like it i felt it was pointlessly pointless. pointlessness should be enjoyed the way that you enjoy doing nothing on a beautiful sicilian sunday…
Happy holloween, a day to entertain our hearts with exciting fright and terror. Humans are weird. I think I mispelled a word or two, probably more as I go write along, but hey, who says I can't be dumb on a spooky day. I habitually nervously scratch my nose as I gather and piece together my scattered thoughts. Do I…
Hoje é aniversário do meu pai, um mineiro de natureza simples, falante como eu, dono de uma memória invejável e do maior sorriso que conheço. Está fazendo 83 anos. Tem saúde invejável mantida com caminhadas regulares de 7km e muito dedo de prosa com quem cruzar com ele pelo caminho. Tem 1,55m, uma pequena saliência na…
Today I realised that most of the NICU(neonatal intensive care unit) everywhere are filled with babies with some problem related to their lungs. Which made me think, wow that’s a lot of problem and infection happening in one particular organ, which led me to think about which organ systems are exposed to the external…
"The thumbs-up-react is actually a war crime," I texted. This was in response to me using the question-mark-react, to which you said, "the question mark react is an act of terror." This is how I want to fold. At first, when I said 'I'm folding,' I meant like a fitted sheet: loose, unstructured, but still crumpling,…
Today I had one of the worst outbursts possible. I screamed like hell at mummy. It’d been brewing since morning. Festival time is always a delicate trigger time for mom. One would need to dig deeper to find out why she’s like that. It seems to stem from some memory she has of being judged by festival days. For me, it…
When hunter-gatherers discovered fire, they would have felt it was magic. But now, when we look at fire, we just see it as a normal thing. In recent times, there are a lot of AI tools popping up. When looking at tools like ChatGPT, it feels like magic, but in another five years, it will become a normal thing, like…
This is not an essay. Rather, a letter to self. I have been journaling for almost 3 months now. It's irregular at best. Yet, it has been the best clarity building exercise for me. During the writing process, I discovered - patterns in my thought process. Such as - I start, seldom finish. I am an instant-dopamine…
I certainly don’t expect everyone to like /Lolita/ So what’s the matter with me not liking others that many like? I suppose I just want to know what there is to like! So what do I like about Nabokov? He has big dick energy, that’s the first thing. And he’s funny about it. And he creeps me out in the right ways. It’s a…
I read every day. It has become automatic so that even in the busiest of days, I will take out the Kindle on my phone and read for 10-20 mins. It is one of those seminal activities that has given me meaning to my life, improved the quality of living. I picked up reading seeing a erudite colleague of mine, which made…
Vcs estão preparados? Eu não estava. Não li o livro (ainda) e não me aprofundei na sinopse. Vi que ganhou prêmios muito legais e muitas pessoas comentando em todas as redes, mas minha resistência para modinhas não me deixou ler o livro (ainda). Sei que parece escroto, mas não posso negar que esse frenesi todo em torno…
Lately, everything seems a bit blurry. Too many thoughts. Too many feelings. A mix of the two and it's a mess. I'd wish to not feel, but being on a perpetual high, due to the pill-popping, makes me feel emptier than usual. The emptiness engulfs me, leaving me completely bare and broken. I've been feeling like this for…
Last Sunday, I took a reverse glass painting class. I’m not a painter. Exploring creative outlets is on my to-do list in retirement. I might find a new hobby. I might make new friends. My new experience was positive. Not for the reason you think. Learning a new skill means making mistakes. Encouragement determines the…
These areas may be stand-alone, aligned, interplay, or coalesced with others and represent how I show up in the world. What I choose to do (and not do) is rooted in how I identify the external world in context of my values and strengths. R|CAT (Resource Catalysts) aka FLYWHEEL role: CONSULTANT ... business owner…
When we prepared for our move from plush to mush, we planned to live mostly without electricity. Solar power was - and still is - part of our plan. Since that part requires more funds than currently in our tiny bank account, we rely on whatever electricity is available. I have mixed feelings about just how easy it has…
I went for a head, neck and shoulder massage a few days ago. It was 45 minutes long. 45 minutes of freedom from a constant barrage of digital notifications. 45 minutes of letting my mind marinate in whatever it wanted to. 45 minutes of not staring at my phone or my computer. 45 minutes of a stress free existence. 45…
I’m Nanaji of Akhil and Abhi. My grandson, Akhil, made me start writing this blog, to share my memories and events of my daily life.
Gostei muito da música nova da Miley Cyrus; além da música ser ótima e um "chiclete", a atitude dela me encantou. Nesta semana em que o tom foi "mostrar aos ex que estamos bem", além de fazer isso, a Miley afirma que gosta de si mesma, que curte a própria companhia e que não precisa de alguém que faça essas…
Life, it seems, will fade away Drifting further, every day Getting lost within myself Nothing matters, no one else. While the rest of the old Metallica banger Fade to Black doesn't really apply to this post, I wanted to borrow generously from the past kings to start it. In a remote hyperconnected world, it is easy to…
Alguien regresó diciendo: "He visto al lobo estepario, lo ví, existe"... Había un lobo jovén y fuerte, el futuro líder de la manada. Pero un día, el lobo decidió dejar la manada y se marchó, caminó durante días. Al final, llegó a un lugar hermoso, con montañas, ríos y bosques. El lobo se quedó allí. Un día, una manada…
Breathing vast cerulean Crisp cobblestone Remembering when I visited Centuries ago I meet a young girl Full of wonder and ache The world is yours But it will also take Misguidance awaits Learning is painful Something I like to remember When things are blue I breathe and I remember A stunning place In silent November
Today we did an excursion to a famous startup incubator in San Francisco. They offered us to be part of their community and work there for free. Extremely generous. As an aspiring founder, having access to the best startup ecosystem in the world and being part of a fantastic community of ambitious builders is an…
I was other day randomly thinking about the way we spend our time on weekends. We have around 52 weeks in a year and for most of us it is 2 days off so effectively we have 104 days for ourselves. If we take out effectively 2 hours for our productivity schedule in a day on a weekend, then we have around 208 hours to…
Hoje "tropecei" na internet com um poema que eu adoro, "Do not go gentle into that good night", do Dylan Thomas. Quem assistiu Interestelar deve lembrar que o poema é mencionado várias vezes durante o filme. Na tradução de Augusto de Campos (um trechinho): "Não vás tão docilmente nessa noite linda; Que a velhice arda…
A quick thought; Interesting results for AI portraits come when a prompt is structured with two genders. An example prompt; a photograph of a woman by Man Ray. Thinking about how this sentence can be confused and how the AI could be interpreted. The woman is taken as priority, it guides the overall features, then Man…
Today I submitted my thesis and fully enjoyed life afterwards. Cooking great food, laying in the sun, kayaking in the lake, enjoying the sunset next to the water, going into a woodfired sauna - I kind of understand now, why Finnish people are the happiest in the world.
