Overwhelmed
Tons of people Tons of things to do Tons of places With all this, I just go into a very extrovert personality to protect myself
Gathering thoughts…
Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
Tons of people Tons of things to do Tons of places With all this, I just go into a very extrovert personality to protect myself
Often, when we do things we overlook things and don't see the blind spots. In retrospect they look stupid and trivial to point that you get harsh on yourself. You often say things to yourself like "how can you be so dumb?" and "i should have been careful and not so naive". You start questioning your ability and it…
Alright, guess the calendar block did not help at all. Let me not bore you with the details of inconsistency. But one of the reason why I start with this is because all around me in social media, everyone seemingly makes habit building a really easy task to achieve. I really want to put my genuine self of struggling…
I'm someone who feels FOMO not about the parties I'm not going to but about the things I'm not doing, the hobbies I haven't tried out, the books on my TBR/ I'm someone who feels sick in the stomach just thinking about conflict, and would do anything to not feel that way/ I'm someone who's on cloud 9 when I find an…
As my father and mother waved goodbye to me from a train that moved away from me, I felt like a man whose blanket was taken away on a cold night. As I step into my early 30s, the feeling of missing somebody whom you're used to being around is getting stronger. The mind yearns to be back in places that are familiar. I…
It began back in early march of 2024. I'd just returned from my birthday trip to Iceland. My partner at the time, recently unemployed had come along for the trip. I'd already felt some resentment from having to pay for everything on my own birthday trip, though the trip was my idea, so this wasn't justified. Upon…
Computing metaphors are often stretched a bit thin, but one of my favorites that I find myself returning to over an over is serialization. When machines need to exchange information that is being actively processed, they need to first structure and then write out that information in a format that can be transmitted…
We often encounter wisdom in books, podcasts, and advice from others, absorbing these insights with a nod and a belief that they're transforming us into better individuals. Yet, despite this accumulation of knowledge, there's a huge difference between knowing something and truly understanding it. I just noticed this…
After half a year obsessing over the university that I actually got into, I finally saw it in person. Its so weird, it's so different, felt so different. The campus matched the multiple videos that I saw, it felt a bit smaller, but its so much better than I ever imagine, cause I'm actually here, experiencing and being…
I missed journalling yesterday. But i do want to capture my thoughts. So here goes. I had a conversation with mummy today. I was as usual badgering her about not having confidence, not putting herself out there, etc. But after a while, i realised something that I have always known, but did not register. Mom's problem…
Rambling is what I do more than talking only to realise that talking is no more than censoring your rambling and picking out the best variation of a collection of words. The more you talk the better you get at picking out the best words and that is considered normal. The art of filtering your ramble is talking. All of…
An observation I had while waiting at the international airport departure terminal in Bangalore. Picture a 40,000 square feet departure lounge. Interspersed with a mix of cafes, restaurants and plenty of lounge chairs, sleeping pods and tables. The departure gates on their part are on the outer periphery of this…
Used to feel anxious and NOT wanting to do any work because feels like it’s forced But now I feel - it’s OKAY to just go with the flow ESPECIALLY that will get you to where you want Rather than wasting time feeling bad and not good about it Think of it as a learning experience! Everything might be new If you just…
Não é gostoso ver uma praça ser ocupada? Aqui perto de casa tem uma e é uma profusão de diversidade. Crianças e seus pais, adultos e seus pets, comunidades de imigrantes, militantes, festeiros, universitários, fumantes e assim vai. Eu levo minhas cachorras duas vezes ao dia para uma voltinha. Elas adoram. É bom sentir…
For the past two weeks work has been quite stressful. We have this major change going through the system and I am running point. Now normally this wouldn't scare me but there is a lot of attention on this one. Ever step is being judged and reconsidered. Every day I get another earful of caution. Don't make a wrong…
Age appropriate things for me now include ''Temple Hopping'' and getting immense joy from that experience! Who would have thought? Early part of this year, my sister and I set off on a beautiful Friday to explore some wonderful places of worship in aamchi Mumbai! Bright and early, we rendezvoused at 6:30 am at…
These are the first words I've written in many months. I've been thinking about why this is the case, and part of it might have to do with fear. I'm afraid of not being able to do it well. But there's something more there. I think I'm afraid because I believe I might have some type of cognitive decline. That was…
Estou quatro dias atrasada na minha meta e vou tentar tirar esse atraso hoje. Também estou atrasada com meus e-mails, com um livro que eu tenho que ler pro clube do livro que eu entrei e com amigos e familiares. Estou atrasada comigo, não apenas nessas metas que eu impus pra mim mesma, mas com metas que os outros…
Friendly reminder to save your amazing ideas before they disappear into the void. Find a note app you love, or go old school with a note pad. Simple pen and paper. Write your ideas down right when you think of them. Review them daily. Don't forget to take action. Let your ideas live. Don't let them die on the page.…
i have had quite an interest in exploring what it means to build and inhabit more “homey” and inviting digital spaces. oftentimes i've had hangups about the polished and performative pressures that i experience on social media apps. feeling the need to tweet or post the perfect thing to represent myself. very often,…
He came to see me, Even if I forgot. He was the inspiration, Behind every lovely shot. He always sat there, Fulfilled and lone. Beholding me gracefully, He jollied and shone. I remember spending nights, Thinking of him on my roof. I crave this gorgeous- He lives aloof. I ask the ones whom he met, Is he the same he…
Can people be captivated by unknown personalities solely by the way they write or will they be motivated primarily by subjects or interests. My main gripe with normal blogging is that I have a very diverse set of interests. I work in IT, I do photography, work on old motorcycles and spend a lot of time working out.…
as coisas mudam tão rápido né? começo de ano mais uma vez, estou mudando de casa, mudei de emprego e me vejo rodeada por caixas e buscando desesperadamente assentar. no trabalho, as coisas tão ficando cada vez melhores. completei três meses hoje e continuo feliz. quem diria que a minha enxaqueca semanal era por…
"Everything you want is on the other side of cringe". I read that line somewhere on X, and it changed the way I judge my own actions. It's one of those rare sentences that illuminates a truth that has been experienced but not verbalized. I love those sentences. Anyway, I digress. Cringe is an emotional barrier that…
“Women are so keenly aware of the male experience because our entire existence had to be kind of through that lens. Whereas men have never had to understand the female experience in order to exist in the world.” Here the comedian Sarah Silverman sums up a feeling at the root of so much of our hatred for outsiders.…
In everything I do, I've noticed a universal truth: I need time to warm up. Whether I'm writing my thesis, exercising, or editing a video, the initial phase is crucial to reach a state of flow. This warm up phase is critical, and it highlights why minimizing distractions and avoiding frequent context switches is…
(original: 2009 April 18) in memory of jengyee: april 27 tree planting at Cal for the tree planting ceremony ... To commemorate Jengyee's lasting devotion to Cal, a beautiful California live oak tree will be planted on campus just south of Etcheverry Hall. We cordially invite you to join us for the planting and an…
Remember that time I had a meltdown and we talked my worries away over some terrible whiskey and dangerous Oreos, with rain pattering over the rooftop? You told me that you believe life is now- a discussion with a friend over a drink, some cookies, some tears, some laughs, and all the love in the world. We spoke about…
The optimal number of imperfections in a city is not zero. I just spent 24 hours in Lima, and I think it comes pretty close to finding the right balance between organisation and chaos. Combine that with a friendly people, an incredible cliff-edged coastline and world class cuisine, and you've got yourself a city you…
The road behind is lined with trees that are tall enough to puncture clouds and obstruct birds. Some people of the world call it a single-lane road, but most know that it is more a passageway, a corridor through which we're expected to move heavy-duty vehicles with big fat asses through. And you best hope that there…
my transitional coworker, a coworker who took over my piano teaching job for me and who, during this transition, became my friend, is a musician more precisely stated, his main thing, as he sees it, is the music he makes, and this piano teaching gig, as he sees it, is just a side hustle -- it's the root that nourishes…
The idea is pretty interesting. I always loved to do some similar thing as my personal blog. Though may I do so, since Nicheless is a micro-blogging platform. The best things about Nicheless in my opinion are its neat UI design, simple white theme by default and suckless UX as a blogging platform. The lack of "numbers…
- at the group meeting we were going back to the same state for the holidays, bonding over public transport - at the holiday party chatting about vampires (i go on a 10 minute tangent about iwtv); we decide we should hang on 1:1 before declaring each other friends; bit about me being a 206 year old vampire - at the…
This is what I'd like to say: "Hey, how are things going with Project X? Do you require more time?" What I have to say is this: "Hey, how are you doing? I just wanted to check in on Project X and make sure everything is running smoothly. The deadline is approaching, so please let me know if you require extra time. :D"…
I had a tough night. I wasn’t in my bed or house. I was listening out for the baby, who typically wakes up for a bottle in the middle of the night. I knew the five-year-old would be up early. Did I mention I wasn’t in my bed? Don’t misunderstand; I love being available to babysit my granddaughters. The downside is I…
Então, fiquei aqui em casa com a minha dor, fiz uma bolsa de água quente e dormi. Acordei brevemente pra comer salada de beterraba com tomate e farofa de banana, voltei a dormir. Abri o whats e vi que um grupo que eu sou adm estava pipocando, não consegui responder nem ajudar em nada. Voltei a dormir e acordei pro…
I seem to be needing emotional punching bags to deal with my emotions. What happens if the punching bag is alive and feels you punching it? Anyway, just commemorating the first time I’ve cried on call with SM because of an argument we’ve been having.
Muito possivelmente eu não vou manter esse diacho de blog atualizado, mas hoje deu vontade de escrever, de falar com as pessoas e nadar numa piscina de academia. Olha que são 3 hábitos que só me fariam bem. Ao longo dos meus quase 48 anos esperando o ônibus que não vem no meio de uma zona que não conheço muito bem.…
I don't dare let myself believe the ideas I actually feel are true. It would make me feel far too exposed. I need someone else to validate me before taking an idea on as a capital-B Belief. I'd like at least one other person to go 'yeah, makes sense to me'. If I don't get that, I better tuck the idea away and try to…
India is undoubtedly facing challenging times. This isn't solely due to a specific party, but rather the collective direction we are taking as a nation. Our control has slipped away, replaced by desperation and misguided efforts. The current government's lack of action or passive endorsement of lawbreakers exacerbates…
I subjected myself to another thought experiment yesterday (12th September) to try and figure out if i could break down and understand how and why I feel a certain way. I purposefully sat down to think through and break down my issues with his past and try to figure out why it hurt me or why I did not like the fact…
Anything you could achieve can be seen when you’re young When your SOLE and ONLY purpose is the grades inside your REPORT CARD When the only thing you’ve wanted is really just to get good grades And you didn’t work hard & you knew you didn’t study that much And you got bad grades with Cheehou (that was the dream…
I love just how quiet this interface is.
It is a fact of civilized life that there exist rules which govern and constrain individual behavior. You can't steal your neighbor's car because you don't have one, or because his is faster. Regardless of one's moral philosophical framework, just about everyone agrees on that. We tend to put the people who don't in…
I wonder when it first dawned on me that one day I will not be here anymore. Was it when I was 12, roller-skating, back in my hometown? Afraid to fall or be thrown to the ground, always afraid to hurt myself beyond repair. Dreading the pain, my fists clenched, gliding on the edges of the rink. Or was it at 18, when I…
& control your own. Emotions, Your time, Your relationships, Your mental strength. Know the cards if you want to play the game Then you won’t feel anxious or feeling that the world is against you Know that the world won’t be pretty with people First important skills: learn how to deal with different people And what…
I wish they had given me some heads up about life. I wish they knew better about the rat race, and did not nudge towards the same path and mistake the made. I wish I knew better about money, I won't be in the hole I dug myself and I won't be stuck in a job that's draining every drop of life out of me. I wish they knew…
Just be interested in what you truly wants to know If you think that the materialistic stuff & the factories and the stories are interesting - genuinely try to understand first Hey you got this new knowledge - you should be grateful not being sour about it right? Previously I’ve been quite conservative to understand…