Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
O texto é pra lamentar que agora o Sesc 24 de maio não vende mais sorvete de iogurte but also to talk about something more deep, como minha rigidez cognitiva com algumas coisas. Eu não gosto de mudanças. Na real, não gostar é muito ameno. Eu ODEIO mudanças. E tudo está sempre mudando o tempo todo nesse mundo. Tudo…
I started this year, finding out my supposed boyfriend had a pregnant finace. It was a nasty experience, but I had to forgive myself and forgive him to forge ahead.
A future belonging to all. Not one. All. No countries. Only administrative borders. Signals of hope. No past. Now and forever.
Crazy thought -- I know -- but what if much of what ails this world could be fixed simply by finding the right place for people to fit? Now, I know I'm CrAaAzY but maybe -- just maybe -- that's because sanity is defined by the contrast of perspective; what is sane to you is insane to me, and so forth. "Well, WE are…
Karena merupakan hal paling rasional untuk dilakukan, jika menggunakan sistem keuangan saat ini. Yang dikenal dengan istilah "FIAT currency". Uang fiat adalah mata uang keluaran pemerintah yang tidak didukung oleh komoditas fisik, seperti emas atau perak. Salah satu kekurangan uang fiat adalah inflasi. Bank Indonesia…
We often look to this quote with fondness and admiration. We often use this quote to inspire and motivate. For a new skill. For a promotion. For a healthier lifestyle. Yet we are often baffled and surprised when we see the other side of the same coin. The ugliness of how negative small changes can add up too. For…
On our first day in Washington, D.C., we woke up to rain. My family turned to me. “What are the plans?” I love planning. Vacations, menus, my daily schedule, planning my new Substack newsletter, any kind of planning. There’s satisfaction in looking at all the possibilities. Plans make me feel safe. Details and options…
Regardless of what you do, we all have little moments in our daily life, where our minds get cluttered up with all kinds of negative thoughts, So, what do you do to get yourself out of it? this blog is just for it. I read a lot of self-help books, and everyone seems to have a different answer to this issue.…
Jack in Titanic Doesn’t care how rich Rose is Every phase of Jack’s life there is a best version to live the life There’s no point worrying and feeling self abasement for yourself Work towards it & there’s a way to live out of poverty Feeling bad is just the easy way It doesn’t mean you stop being someone caring…
Lately, everything seems a bit blurry. Too many thoughts. Too many feelings. A mix of the two and it's a mess. I'd wish to not feel, but being on a perpetual high, due to the pill-popping, makes me feel emptier than usual. The emptiness engulfs me, leaving me completely bare and broken. I've been feeling like this for…
“This is what I’m thinking about where to stay on our vacation.” I’m talking to my husband. The decision about where we stay will affect both of us. It’s important that he be in on this conversation. Even when my decisions don’t affect others directly, I talk to myself. Saying what I’m thinking clarifies my options…
Play the cards you are dealt with! All my life, I have constantly compared myself to others and then made a decision. It's after a long period of time that I have developed an understanding that no one will ever have the same experiences the way you do. If you wish you were Ambani's son/daughter today and presented…
I was wondering about how long it takes to get the results of a blood culture and the fact that they don’t yield great results in most cases, which led me to think about flow cytometry and how it might be able to detect bacteria faster than waiting for bacteria to grow in a blood culture. Turns out other people have…
His eyes were shut, and everything was dark. He inhaled, sharply, snapping his head upright. It were as though life abruptly crashed into him. Slowly, he wiggled his toes. Pinky toes first, gradually working toward the big ones. He was alive, but that was all he knew with certainty. He tried to blink, but his lids…
What I want to learn to figure out: how to forgive and forget? I think the reason I got triggered again is because I dealt with the Nelson story by painting him as the villain and moving on. But shoo dating him is just clear evidence that I can’t be right and it has deeply challenged my beliefs on that. If Nelson…
Asking is a vital part of communication and connecting with others. As a professional, I had no difficulty asking questions to clarify a situation. I wanted to make the best decision possible. In social settings, I find it difficult to ask questions. Do you find yourself falling victim to these situations? We assume…
I've been looking forward to this post all day even though I didn't always know what I would write about. My new phone set up is working perfectly. I have begun making everything I need and want to do a "Task" in the "My Tasks" application. I then enter dates, times and recurrences. If timing changes I make the needed…
Every time I need to tweak something on my work mac, I'm irked by the title of the settings pane. What every computer interface has referred to as "settings", Apple chose to rename "preferences". Settings implies a certain relationship between us and our tools. You set the fuel / air mixture of a carburetor for…
Eu acho que me daria muito bem na Alemanha, pq gosto de encarar. Em SP, sinto que isso é mal visto. Há alguns dias comi no churrasqueto. Alcatra, arroz, fritas, suco de abacaxi, suco de limão, polenta frita, pãozinho com cebola em conserva e molhinho de cheiro verde com tomate. Não necessariamente nessa ordem. Tudo um…
Species, amongst other things, are defined by their niche. The environment they interact with defines the trajectory of their evolution. You notice a tradeoff between specialization and flexible adaptability. Typically, to dominate a particular niche, a species must specialize. The Environment Confines and Refines.…
Na quarta ainda (dia mega movimentado), depois da minha terapia semanal, onde eu choro minhas pitangas e com frequência falo pra minha terapeuta que eu só falo certas coisas com ela porque em outros espaços eu não tenho a mínima coragem de verbalizar (e acho que é sobre isso), recebi uma amiga querida em casa. A gente…
My journey with gratitude grows like wildflowers. It's like a packet of mixed seeds. You don't know what kind until they bloom. My simple gratitude habit bloomed into other complementary characteristics. I’ve often written about how my gratitude practice makes me look for the positive in my life. Something that seems…
my transitional coworker, a coworker who took over my piano teaching job for me and who, during this transition, became my friend, is a musician more precisely stated, his main thing, as he sees it, is the music he makes, and this piano teaching gig, as he sees it, is just a side hustle -- it's the root that nourishes…
Not really sure what to write here. Just checking this website out. I'm thinking of using this more if I find it fancy, as I don't really have the habit of writing and I'm sort of thinking about getting into it. Peace out.
I tossed out an essay ready to publish. It was no better or worse than my usual essays. It may have even drawn a few more likes and comments than usual. The topic was wrong for me. The essay was negative. I decided my writing I publish needs to focus on the positive. I don’t have time for negativity. Every day I write…
To Jiang Wei & Bryan: don’t just think of yourself: 下次跟你们抽, 我现在赶时间 If you reroute it same destination but different feels: 我回来再跟你们抽 我刚好要meet 朋友; 这个可以让他们好回 因为你让他们开心,所以他们也不会 因为你的不开心而不让你开心 The most topnotch about emotional intelligence: people care about you because you care about them; and also you have that aura ✨ and…
When I came back home, I naturally established a routine. I would wake up when my body wanted to (around 8 to 9 am), make breakfast, and study. After that, I would go out if needed or have lunch at home, then study again and go for a run (if it was a workout day). In the evening, after dinner, I would sit down with my…
Since 2020, I had been on a steady tech detox, a la Cal Newport. I switchd to DuckDuckGo, I traded my android for a feature phone, I started writing notes by hand. And in cursive! It was beautiful, I was present. No "Power of Now" needed. I could take my kids to the playground and be perfectly happy with my face in…
Back from spending time with "family" - not blood, but "adopted". had to drag myself out a bit to get there, but had a thoroughly good time with them, some of whom I hadn't seen in person for several years. It can be nice to have non-family family around. No word from my buddy, but then again, for all his faults and…
Já são 31 anos com fome. Fome essa de ir jantar o mundo que não passa. E quanto mais barriga vai ficando cheia, mais insatisfeito que se acha. Fome de comer tantas histórias, de mastigar tantas culturas e de engolir tantas comidas. Fome de sentar em tantas mesas, degustar as sobremesas e perguntar todas receitas. Fome…
the most normal taste i have is in music. i'm really into the 1975 right now, but specifically 3 songs: - about you - robber - all i need to hear ("somebody else" is great too but it doesn't fit the vibe of those three songs i just listed that i feel is the best aspect of the band; i basically want to feel like i'm…
Vi o termo na newsletter da Bárbara e parece ir ao encontro do que me propus ontem. Só escrever. Cheguei em Loppiano na terça-feira e desde então tenho evitado socializar. Voltar pra cá e reencontrar a não completa liberdade e o empenho da vida em comunidade pede alguns dias de costume. Foram dias mais retraída mas…
You want it - you need to get it. Speaking like yourself And having that “qualifications” and deep thought process Having a mind is one thing But speaking eloquently and able to convey your messages to the world is one too You think of mum - speaks and shouts loud but no content - people look at her for fun Think of…
Today, I struggled with stomach pains, felt generally a bit unwell, and even vomited. Initially, I thought it might be food poisoning from something I ate. But as the day went on, I started to think there might be another reason. I've been pushing myself too hard lately - not regarding the workload, that's doable, but…
Lately I've realised I've been quite prescriptive. A friend of a friend pointed this out and I plan to work on it. Going back to social. I wanted to start a SubStack, wrote one and dipped. This is another issue. There are rabbitholes I should jump into but haven't. On the social front, I plan to just experiment more…
Childhood As a child, my weekends meant catching up with friends, enjoying a little extra TV time, or excitedly heading to the supermarket or the movies. For better or worse, my parents didn't push me into extra classes, whether for studies or homework. So, if I didn't have anything to do, I would simply hang out.…
Okay, it's 2022 and i'm 45 y/o and i still don't know what i want to do with my life. I wonder if surviving and not to be a burden is good enough goals.
ahh as i continue to think about ways to create in the realm of digital worlds it becomes more evident that old utopian concepts are relevant to todays context. in Constant's New Babylon there was a notion that we crave adventure. to adapt in a digital world would be; when we dont find our current world stimulating,…
Just saw though - from a dying 23 yo patient His last ideal was to bring his kindness and love to everyone around him And he hoped to be remembered from that Because when I was poor I was not in the right state of mind My mind was abit evil and selfish I didn’t want to spend time with my ex because I wanted to focus…
I’ve been meditating on compassion lately, which has led to me trying to figure out what it means. Does it mean wanting people to be happy? Having their material needs met? Does it mean giving people what they want? Satisfying their urges? Wanting freedom for others? Wanting what they want for themselves? Or wanting…
People find their own ways on how they want to give back to society and people in their lives. Giving back to society is about making a positive impact, and there is always something out there for everyone. My mother was not from a very wealthy background, so she would say there will never be a perfect time to give…
Brands today give little credit to their customers. Failed branding and marketing efforts are often disguised under the ruse of 'fickle customer loyalty' and 'minuscule attention spans'. But the truth of it is the same customers that are scrolling right past your ad are binging 8 episodes of that Netflix show they…
Another year to graduation and I've finally started thinking about the future, more seriously than ever before. Various trains of thought have lead me to realise that through most of my life I've restricted myself to goals that were easy to meet and so I hardly ever really got to a point of complete satisfaction. As a…
Really this is just a place where I am going to keep my notes about things I am currently learning/working on or have learned in the past. Maybe some code snippets (not that I know any language fully). I suspect this blog is going to be all over the place as I am going to try to write about what I know, what I am…
The cold, empty space stares back at me: What if it doesn't resonate? What if I'm not pleased with it? Tick-tock More seconds elapse and I don't even have a draft to call first. It's an uncomfortable feeling. Staring across the chasm between the brilliant insight in your mind and the not-yet-articulated onto the…
Ahhh observe from behind. an alternate message is revealed. is this a message you want to share? if not iterate on the original until both messages are what you want to share because the alternate view from others is just as valid as your own...
party slut my friend and i were walking on venice beach and two guys came up to us and they were like what do you do and i'm like i'm a piano teacher and they were like holy shit we're musicians too and they showed us their music and it was legit good and i showed them my chopin nocturne op 9 no 1 and they were like…
Childhood is a magical time. As a parent, I feel pressure to preserve this sanctity for my own children. Of course I could be wrong but I’ve noticed a trend: if there are at least two children in a family, there are two archetypes: a favorite and a performer. The favorite in the family was the one that was, knowingly…
