Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
I started out with a writing goal of everyday and I literally forgot the very next day to write a post :( Nevertheless, I'm convincing myself that writing is a skill to be learnt and it happens slowly. So I'm trying not to be hard on myself. Today I want to write about something which I have struggling with this in…
We are having an argument. On social media. Well, you know, not exactly an argument. That's what everyone always calls it. Maybe it's a conversation, a dialogue? It's hard to tell. Sometimes it feels tense, but I can't really know can I? Is there a goal in mind or are we just passing time. What is the endgame, I being…
Every self contains multitudes. It can be helpful to sort these elements of self into defined parts. This can help you conceptualise these competing and contradictory bits of you. One distinction that’s been super helpful to me is the child and parent, the maiden and knight, the experiencer and the agent. Separating…
Notice JPA students. Or scholars. They usually get the things once Cos they’re so aware right, their cognitive skills are on point as well. They relate what others are saying. No further delay: like I’m like “oooh wait that makes sense when she say that. Why do I even ask her questions the first place?!” Like yeah…
Hola lector, lectora! El día lunes 14 de mayo 2023, tuve una reunión con mis cofounders Alexis y Luis para determinar el rumbo de Fonogram y de otros proyectos paralelos que teníamos corriendo en la compañía. Decidimos poner pausa a algunos proyectos y los guardamos en "el cajón de los buenos proyectos" que es un…
7.46 AM Tiene varios días que me despierto antes de que salga el sol. Estoy decidiendo si leer o escribir. Crear o consumir. Ayer fue un día interesante, practicando programación en Go, visitando a mi familia. Más un día de descanso que otra cosa. Ah, y viendo por fin el documental de Fyre, que me dejó un sabor…
Do music help us to form narratives in our head? Do some music make us think about conflicts while others about compassion? Do our brains have the ability to translate the signals from music into more structured words, sentences and stories? Recently I have been inspired to think and write about topics that I feel are…
“We are splinters and mosaics; not, as they used to hold, immaculate, monolithic, consistent wholes.” schreef Virginia Woolf in een van haar dagboeken. Wanneer ik schrijf raak ik soms gefrustreerd met de manier waarop ik mijn gedachtenstromen volg, laat dwalen en met vele omwegen weer terug probeer te leiden. Ik denk…
Uma das minhas metas de ano novo é voltar a escrever. Simples assim. Sem nenhuma frequência específica, com tema livre. Apenas com o objetivo de exercitar a mente, organizar os pensamentos e ter pequenos registros dos meus dias. Ainda estou lembrando aos poucos como que eu fazia isso, quais processos mentais eu tinha…
You might be able to sum up the dharma with “comparison is the thief of joy”. Just expand the comparison to not be versus other people, but versus anything and everything. Your food fell on the floor, and it’s made you sad? Now you’re comparing having the candy versus not having the candy. Let go of it. You stubbed…
I procured a taxi driver poster at 18. It followed me everywhere since then, much like loneliness did with De Niro in the same movie. The poster was perhaps a silent token of my acknowledgement of my struggles with loneliness. Upon graduating, presuming that perhaps loneliness would no longer follow me, I left my…
It was a productive Monday. My apple pencil came and so did the cat food. Went to h-mart to get stuff and ate more leftover curry. Started thinking of ways to improve my workflow on the new iPad. Had a recording itch and tried using garageband. Sleeping late.
Everything you do… have a want in your head. Always want something. rather than resting - or else you feel tired all the time. Be it impressing your colleagues. Or sounding smart. Or getting reputation. Or getting that money. Or getting something Or even as general as wanting to feel productive. And smart. (So that…
Hello Everybody 👋, I am Shubham and I am new to this new platform and with its first impression, I loved the look and feel of it ! I have always liked nicheless blogging because when you are interested in lot of things and want to say a lot we spend more time categorizing rather than actually telling the story. Going…
Separate the time out for everything. Don’t go beyond the time. Look at Bryan - comes early. Go home on time, but it was effective. He didn’t do anything wrong. That’s the most effective thing to do. Going past your time just because you fucked up some certain thing is your weakness Embrace it and improve Your Alevels…
I guess having a stream of thought is a lot like a thread. It can break once it becomes too long. Which is easy when sentences are stuffed with filler words and excessive adjectives. Spelling errors galore. Reading back with proof reading eyes feels like a draughting task. Many essays and thoughts abandon before they…
15 months ago I left my home and moved to NYC, marking my entry into the most socially disconnected phase of my life. Faced with the formidable foe of newfound isolation, I wanted to hold on to those in Seattle who made me feel like a loved member of humanity. I felt optimistic that maintaining contact over the phone…
I noticed a thing about myself a couple of times - I go into the "I'll prove I am worthy of this" mode too soon. It is a pretty natural reaction to feeling rejected or challenged. I guess some of it also comes from a childhood where quite a bit of validation came from achievement. On most counts that need to prove is…
The duality baffles me. Of who I am, and who people think I am. Actually fuck duality. Let's call it the unholy trinity. Disgusts me. Who I am, who I think I am, and who people perceive me to be. It's surreal once you become slightly aware that you might already be living in a multiverse. Of your own faults. Of your…
"What's your name?" One encounters this question in an ever declining frequency. As you add years, the frequency of the question reduces. Recollect the moment you answered with pride with your chest bloated Pronouncing your name. As one ages, one takes increasing offense if asked "What's your name?" So courtesy comes…
Maturity is you know how to 守 not just 攻. You don’t need to keep replying the guys who have bad intention to you. Don’t make yourself the victim And just do you Be interesting
We grow up in small contexts. Until the internet. Life was local. Sentiments were local. Supply and demand were local, and hence taste. The menu available for leisure had limited options. Liberalisation and globalisation opened the world to new experiences. As part of the generation that grew up in this time, I…
Excuse the generic title, I am programmed to type those words first on all social media- Orkut, Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Google plus, etc. For me, internet in the late 2000's was about discovering humour blogs. We used to have those neighbourhood newspapers complete with satirical takes on our everyday lives. A…
So many excuses to not create. I need to take a leap of faith. Pounce onto the challenge with hunger. To act with conviction, not just ponder.
One of the most vivid memories I have, of witnessing violence in cinema comes from a Malayalam film called 'Karumadi Kuttan' where the mentally disabled male protagonist is being physically abused by a bunch of goons to the point of him being stripped in public, laughed at, hit-all because the protagonist was trying…
Unplanned, unexpected moments are the most beautiful ones. Today we were walking around Aalto University without a plan, without any expectation. It was cloudy, we accidentally found this lookout spot, and then all of a sudden the cloudiness turned into one of the most beautiful sunsets of my life. Even the birds were…
Getting home from work and being in a kitchen all day it makes you realize how much more you want that dream to work. Cooking it’s cool it’s fun and creative but to be doing all day? Not that cool. . . Need to hyper focus more on the dream/goal
I have always wanted to build a writing habit for the longest time. However a combination of imposter syndrome, unavailability of time, not prioritising writing and fear of my bad content stopped me. A major factor was also the world around me which shared their writing on social media. I was even afraid to create a…
We waste too much time waiting. We wait for the clock to strike the perfect 9 AM, 10 AM, 2.30 PM, or 11 PM to resume work after a break. We'll scroll through a few more reels if there are 3 minutes to 5.30 PM. I used to do that while studying. I would arbitrarily take a break and then resume at half past something.…
To begin some things either there should be passion or fear in your heart. Guess I have both and additionally the overwhelming feeling in my head which pushes me away from my tasks and also pulls me back from long procrastination. I remember learning this word "Overwhelmed" in my 10th standard. My English teacher told…
I just read "Selbstdenken" and I've been reading Byung Chul Han's "Agonie des Eros" and... Schopenhauer's language is even clearer and simpler than Han's... And Han is already rather acknowledged for his easy style. I think to be popular it's better to be easy-to-understand. That's why Harry Potter was such a hit. And…
I love non fiction. The Master & His Emissary by Ian McGilchrist is ideal, a fascinating study of the brain and how it works. If you are interested in creativity it’s a gold mine. Sadly I can’t say the same for fiction. Of course I SHOULD appreciate the works of great authors but impatience kicks in, pages gets…
Or, “How have you been?” Or “How are you doing?”. These are one of the most cliched questions. When you get to its heart, it’s about being honest with the person asking you. But do you want to be vulnerable in front of anyone? There are times you want to share a piece of your puzzled mind - not necessarily seeking…
Both my folks are the least loved, miserly happy kids in their respective families. Both have been at complete agreement to all decisions their parents have made for them. Yet both have terrible personal lives but have made peace with the perils of this life.
I have three weeks until the first day of school, and the teaching dreams have already started. I don't mean aspirations and hopes kind of dreams; I mean REM sleep dreams. These dreams follow a predictable, yet challenging, pattern. A disruptive and defiant student is acting out, and it's severe enough that it must be…
The environment can be sick, the music can be sick, every single detail is sick, But if the people are not right everything can be off
Every time I need to tweak something on my work mac, I'm irked by the title of the settings pane. What every computer interface has referred to as "settings", Apple chose to rename "preferences". Settings implies a certain relationship between us and our tools. You set the fuel / air mixture of a carburetor for…
It has occurred to me several times in the past. I feel like expressing it to a friend of the opposite gender. It is the feeling of polyamory - it is not about just sex, it is about having conversations, it is about being available to listen and share with each other. I felt like calling the friend and asking to meet…
Imagine you are making a cake and a milkshake. You put the cake in the oven and realise it's going to take 2 hours to bake. Until the cake is in the oven, you smartly make the milkshake, and then come back to the oven and finish making the cake. That's async processing. All the work is being done on one thread but…
Do things you think are stupid but other people swear by. Maybe you’re the stupid one. - Nat Eliason I fought the recommendation to journaling. Now I know everyone should. If you want to start small with a journaling habit, start with gratitude. Here are the benefits you can expect. Identifying what you have, allows…
What happens when a world imaginary yet real chooses to collapse within itself, annihilation they call out loud but that dystopian is far stretched to be comprehended for physicality to experience. Yet, for a subjective individual withdrawing from an addiction would be a close reference to that “annihilation” wherein…
Our world is shaped by shared myths What is a shared myth anyway? Shared myths are things which has zero or near zero intrinsic value by itself.Its value is provided by the people believing in them.They lose their value if everyone stops believing Most people do things for Pleasure,Money & Religion Money does not have…
“Acho que vocês deveriam sonhar a terra, pois ela tem coração e respira.” —- Davi Kopenawa, entrevista a F. Watson. Breu, mas o escuro não impedia a visão, a floresta trazia conforto e não medo, haviam muitas flores tropicais com os mais sedutores tons, as ciano eram leves e moviam lentamente com o vento, as de…
the wind is howling and i am sitting inside the boat, cozy and warm and drinking peach tea and listening to this monk talk about non-duality thinking and he said "the mind is a clear blue sky" and i don't know what it means! but i like the way it sounds as i stare at him i became aware of a brand new concept: that…
I didn't see the loneliness coming, the solitude I craved turned on me. I'm trying to reach out, to feel some sort of connection. But I won't beg for it, I deserve to be wanted.
- at the group meeting we were going back to the same state for the holidays, bonding over public transport - at the holiday party chatting about vampires (i go on a 10 minute tangent about iwtv); we decide we should hang on 1:1 before declaring each other friends; bit about me being a 206 year old vampire - at the…
It is vitally important that you understand this one thing. If you want to achieve your dreams, you must stop chasing them. Here’s why. In nature, things that are chased run. Think about it. What would your instincts tell you to do if someone started running toward you? Run. Be it from them or with them. It’s in our…
eu odeio aulas com dois professores. acabo numa espiral de comparação e, via de regra, um professor é MUITO melhor que o outro, sim. infelizmente. tenho ficado mt irritada com pessoas que viram mães e de repente as pessoas que não querem ser mães viram "egoistas radicais". sem paciência total! você não virou alecrim…
