Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
That first step is a doozy. It can be hard, even if it’s a step you've taken before. Maybe it’s a difficult step, a step you don’t like, a step you fear, or a step you have taken in a while. The reason you're not taking the step doesn’t matter. Not taking it does. I restarted a project I set aside 20 years ago. I…
We were never taught how to be angry. Wrath was the province of God, and occasionally that of fathers offered insult. That, I think, is how I never noticed it seeping in at slights and kicks until it had long curdled in my marrow.
some of the first things that i want to read now, before i really start reading a book, is the "about the author" section and i've noticed that it is usually like - birth year - birth place - current place of residence and it's like: why? why is this the info they choose to share? and when talking about artists of any…
It's not nostalgia. It's not missing someone or some place. But it still stings the same. This winter has sent me to miss what I'll call "The Feeling". The Feeling is warm and cozy. The Feeling is like a lovely conversation over a cup of tea. The Feeling could last forever. The Feeling is the little things. The…
Okay, some more thinking. Maybe I can relate now with what Nelson went through when I started dating Musti. He said he found it mean that I was being so lovey dovey in front of him. That I was doing things and showing affection for musti that I never showed Nelson and that he always craved. Perhaps I’m going to feel…
Today I officially logged out of Facebook. I do not have the app on my phone and just use Chrome to doom scroll. Today, I just had enough. I catch myself doing it all the time. Its like I naturally gravitate to it, my thumb's natural navigation. Even if I fill that time spent elsewhere on social media, at least it…
The founder of this blog wrote a couple of days ago that Nicheless had found a couple of niches of its own as follows: "(1) Content creators who use it to publish content outside their niche. (2) Other creative people who use it as a low pressure environment to publish their thoughts." There's perhaps a third niche -…
Something as simple as a hot shower can be so many things at the same time: a moment to reflect, a moment where ideas pop, a moment to rewind, a moment to be peaceful with yourself, a moment to share with your loved one (?), a moment to feel the hot water rinsing your skin, a moment to feel refreshed, a moment where…
Everything you do… have a want in your head. Always want something. rather than resting - or else you feel tired all the time. Be it impressing your colleagues. Or sounding smart. Or getting reputation. Or getting that money. Or getting something Or even as general as wanting to feel productive. And smart. (So that…
People who wait for other people to tell them how to feel about a book or a movie or a musical piece seem to have completely missed the point of reading or watching or listening: to have a personal experience. I have a friend who is so nervous about these things. He wants to appear as though he has good taste. He’s…
Today I have improved a lot. I had a totally different mindset, full sage mode – open, curious, positive, creative, empathetic – and it’s crazy how others picked up on it and mirrored it. I participated in many of the sessions, communicated openly about what I needed and wanted, and simply talked to the others instead…
have you ever considered that maybe the toxic things you once felt bad about enjoying are the only things that truly nourish you? i am feeling that the life i now have is not really a life worth living; it is for someone but not for me (this must seem insane ; i'm living people's lifelong dreams...and everyone says…
In the late 1990s, the most visited website for many Indians, especially NRIs, was samachar.com. It provided single-point, free online access to most major national newspapers. A quarter of a century later, and the online Indian news landscape is unrecognisable. Some of the best, most honest journalism in India today…
All things and beings that exist are born from the vastness of the universe, shaped from its matter, yet we wander through life believing ourselves to be independent, everlasting souls, existing within but separate from the very cosmos from which we were created. This illusion of separatedness is the mind’s deception,…
"PKM is not so much about creating knowledge but rather the development of conscious regular activities from which new knowledge can emerge." Harold Jarche I am re-taking Jarche's PKMastery 40-day Workshop. I first took the workshop in 2015, which includes access to subsequent workshops as Jarche evolves his material…
Assistindo a um documentário sobre invenções que nos poupam tempo (ou não), pensei em viagens no tempo, e em como estamos viajando no tempo, mas apenas em uma direção: para o futuro. É uma viagem contínua, sem volta, e cada segundo que passou foi aproveitado ou perdido. Mas como julgamos se estamos aproveitando ou…
I always carry pieces of the people I’ve lost with me. Lovers, friends and even some strangers. They reside in me. I have never been great at showing emotion or telling people how much they mean to me. But I miss them dearly. Each and everyone who added to my life. Even those from what feels like ages ago. It’s not…
4 days before I was gonna move into my dorm I got the news that I'll be having to move 8 days later from what I expected, my first reaction was frustration. Everything was already planned, already in order and now I had to deal with it. I guess I'm very lucky that I don't have economical problems and I can just book a…
I've come to realize how so much of my life has been circumscribed by fear; of people, of loss, of consequences (intended or otherwise). How that fear has quietly and silently shaped what I've done or not done, and how it has hung over my life, forever clouding my ability to see hope on the horizon. What I would have…
You can tell a lot about someone by the contents of their fridge. My fridge was mostly empty, some condiments and take out on a shelf and some stale vegetables at the bottom. I won't bore you with bullshit excuses about why I wasn't looking after myself. The worse part was the social dimension. Eating is as much a…
Modern life makes us hyperfixated on the destination. Get into a top college, get a job by 22, marry by 30 etc etc. Drilling into our heads that the destination is what it is, whereas if you take a step back, you'll realise that destination is largely irrelevant except for a specific reason, the destination helps us…
As a fellow degen, I've done my fair share of discord grinding. Most times, it almost feels like a job. In the rarer (and best) cases, it feels natural and becomes like a virtual third place. The problem is if you want to be a degen, you have to continue grinding in other discords to get those other WL opportunities.…
- Continued from part I America is a dream in a different way. It’s been over 7 years since I moved here. Looking at my life now, I’ve done pretty well for myself. I have a stable job, a solid group of friends, a long term home for the first time in this country. I’m lucky enough to not grapple with visas and have…
要怎么成大事? You need to keep a habit of doing everything small correct and nicely; Else you’ll just reward yourself for being as you should: like being on time, went to the gym, don’t keep yourself too harsh but don’t keep yourself too loose & without control and discipline. “The most free people are the ones who control…
today is sunday and the air has a quiet and restful quality and i have decided to go with the energy and do whatever i want to do, wander with my mind. and youtube is recommending me videos with 43 likes by people with 2.23k followers [i'm talking about the channel tokyochemist; she talks about books] and i am so…
Recently, the Indian Supreme Court deferred the decision on mandating a policy for menstrual leaves for women to the Central Government. This raises a critical question: At the current stage of India's growth journey, what's more important? 1. Bringing more women into the workforce? 2. Ensuring the best workplace…
Yesterday we started a road trip around Scotland. Our search for lunch was constrained by the lack of variety. Fish & chips, fish & chips ... oh, and another fish & chips shop. Hungry and without alternatives, we settled for a meal that was pricey, unappetizing, and unhealthy. Why is such food prevalent and who…
Age appropriate things for me now include ''Temple Hopping'' and getting immense joy from that experience! Who would have thought? Early part of this year, my sister and I set off on a beautiful Friday to explore some wonderful places of worship in aamchi Mumbai! Bright and early, we rendezvoused at 6:30 am at…
Tô lendo os anos, da Ernaux certo? Não sei se já falei aqui. Não lembro. Pois bem. Tô sempre me surpreendendo como que eu consigo me identificar com ela, uma mulher escrevendo sobre os anos 60. Como muito e, ao mesmo tempo, tão pouco mudou. Ela falando que quando volta nas folgas da universidade pra visitar a família…
1. What's something that puts a smile on your face instantly? 2. Who's that someone you look forward to sharing the good news as soon as you receive it? 3. If money and responsibilities are taken out of the equation, would you still live in the same city? 4. What's your favourite childhood memory? 5. Do you feel…
the air seemed void and no one knew why, even the loudest ones got dazed, maybe shy. the girl on the clouds, yet on floor, seemed as if she would outpour any minute her tears, a galloon, those eyes bear. all the elation, all that frenzy, all the fury that made her crazy. why did she hide them, until today? but not…
There’s one simple rule for beginning journalers about what time to journal every day. Journal at the same time every day. You are building a habit. You want to be consistent. The time you choose to journal dictates your consistency. Consider these three factors when choosing your time. Your typical day: Is there a…
The optimal number of imperfections in a city is not zero. I just spent 24 hours in Lima, and I think it comes pretty close to finding the right balance between organisation and chaos. Combine that with a friendly people, an incredible cliff-edged coastline and world class cuisine, and you've got yourself a city you…
I've been on the lookout for platforms on which I can jot down more sporadic thoughts. Perhaps I have found it?
- a way to receive money - a portfolio (Zapper) - your identity (ENS) - an access key (to discords and events) - a treasury account (for DAOs) - an investment club (by Syndicate) - your reputation (6529) - your verifiable track record (trading history) - an art collection (with NFTs) - an email/chat account (via…
The duality baffles me. Of who I am, and who people think I am. Actually fuck duality. Let's call it the unholy trinity. Disgusts me. Who I am, who I think I am, and who people perceive me to be. It's surreal once you become slightly aware that you might already be living in a multiverse. Of your own faults. Of your…
Voltei de uma imersão de uma semana em Brasília. Foi o encontro anual do meu trabalho. Foi bom, mas não foi. Bom pela comida, pela natureza e pela oportunidade de ver pessoalmente quem eu vejo só online. Bom pela oportunidade de aprofundar laços e dançar em conjunto. Também conversar, rememorar e celebrar. Não foi bom…
Então, voltei pra casa. Saí da internação graças a Deus, mas não posso mentir falando que não sinto saudades da comida. Muito boa a comida do hospital que eu fiquei e equipe fofa. Descansei bastante e espero que meu corpo me recompense com uma barriga sem líquido infeccioso e sem pontos sangrando. Um outro aspecto da…
Booking a plane ticket or places to stay can be such a pain in the ass. There are so many options and factors to consider that I end up spending more time booking than studying (which is what happened today and yesterday). At first, it's fun—you're excited and full of energy to find the best flight and stay. But after…
Hie there, I'm a college pass out student and really looking forward to getting into a good job (Which is in the IT dept. imo). But there are times when I feel completely exhausted as I'm working on several projects and also learning so many new things about programming. I guess this time shall pass and soon I'll be…
my heart just skipped a beat i noticed that you can only tell in hindsight who you really loved for me, one of my true loves in life was my friend danny we used to listen to music together and talk about philosophy i just found danny on my old spotify account; he follows me there i want so badly to message him but…
AKA the perils of ambition and the loss of your home by emigration induced demographic change You wake up today and you are not 7 years old anymore. You cannot run outside and put your feet on soil or climb a tree with your brother Outside is the concrete and the great unwashed, more people in this building than in…
There's a sickening feeling of being surrounded by darkness. What feels like an everlasting doom consuming your peripherals. You're trapped, maybe not physically, but mentally, or both. If, one stands in place, that place becomes your home. A home that echoes into the voids of your mind driving you insane. The purpose…
Dead trees still cast shadows
Today, I hiked in a remote area. It was beautiful, but very muddy and slippery, and I fell a few times. Nothing more than wet feet and dirty clothes resulted, but it made me think what could happen if something serious occurred. Today, we have emergency services ready to deploy with cars, boats, and helicopters.…
Notice JPA students. Or scholars. They usually get the things once Cos they’re so aware right, their cognitive skills are on point as well. They relate what others are saying. No further delay: like I’m like “oooh wait that makes sense when she say that. Why do I even ask her questions the first place?!” Like yeah…
why do some people give off the vibe like you can trust them? like they don't judge you? like you want to tell them everything? without even getting to know them, you get that vibe, and it turns out you're right! i think at my best i can have a pure childlike aura with curiosity and humor ; at my worst i'm childish…
last night was norwegian taco night. e was like "do you guys want to play a game?" i said "yeah" then he made us take a political stances test and he put in my scores and said "it says right here you are a fascist"
