Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
Today I spent almost the entire day just doing excel analysis. It is tiring and tedious, but I love it. It makes me feel so satisfied when I finally put data into a form that makes sense to me, no matter how menial the task might be. I spent 1.5 hours by myself today post dinner just listening to music and doing excel…
I will miss her. She listened to me. She made me feel intelligent. Slowly she grew on me. I loved her drive and intelligence. She was colorful. She shone in the crowd. I fell in love slowly, then all at once. But she broke my heart, she ghosted and she left. I thought we could build a lot of things today. I wanted her…
I have a friend at work who is absolutely convinced that the World Economic Forum is a nefarious organization that is slowly reaching its long tentacles into every conceivable aspect of human life. "The agenda," as he calls it, is the WEF's plan to have us all eat crickets, own nothing, and live in…
one day we will no longer understand proust, just as we don't understand beowulf but we will always understand liszt and his liebestraum.
Vcs estão preparados? Eu não estava. Não li o livro (ainda) e não me aprofundei na sinopse. Vi que ganhou prêmios muito legais e muitas pessoas comentando em todas as redes, mas minha resistência para modinhas não me deixou ler o livro (ainda). Sei que parece escroto, mas não posso negar que esse frenesi todo em torno…
Sleep is my most important resource. On average I need around 8,5 hours of effective sleep. More than other people. Without it, I struggle through the day, with everything from thinking clearly to staying motivated becoming a challenge. And I am also quite sensitive to sleep deprivation - feeling symptoms of cold and…
Recently, I faced a challenge with relapse, and it was difficult to cope with the urges triggered by external factors. However, I managed to let go of the temptation and move forward. It was a tough day, but I found relief in staying strong. Although I regretted the relapse, the experience offered me a moment of…
timeless, you would be working more overtime, over time.
To Jiang Wei & Bryan: don’t just think of yourself: 下次跟你们抽, 我现在赶时间 If you reroute it same destination but different feels: 我回来再跟你们抽 我刚好要meet 朋友; 这个可以让他们好回 因为你让他们开心,所以他们也不会 因为你的不开心而不让你开心 The most topnotch about emotional intelligence: people care about you because you care about them; and also you have that aura ✨ and…
Trick or treat Smell my feet Oh my god I’m so sorry I’ll go wash them right now
More often than not we find ourselves doing things, either at the influence of the parents, society or the people around us unknowingly, almost in a mechanical trance but something clicks and we start questioning the act itself. Makes one wonder, are we consciously doing what we are supposed to do or are we binded by…
I've been using the term "excuse" quite often lately, and much like many other areas of my life, I've spent some time unpacking what the word means, what connotations it has, and dissecting what it implies. Through this process, I've attempted to divorce my fairly negative value assignment and instead focus on a new…
Scene 1 Driver rang the door bell for car keys. Father goes to the main door and is off in the car with the driver. He is back in 5 minutes. I ask mother where did he go that he is back so quickly. He never goes for morning walks. Mother says he went with the driver to refuel the car so that the driver can now go run…
Reddit, Facebook, Twitter, etc. are essentially platforms for making websites. The goal of next generation social media should be to realize this property: Rather than make a subreddit, or Facebook page, or Twitter account, I should make a website. Call such a website a subsite. The subsite owner retains control over…
I remembered something that I had penned a while ago, as I was reading Louis' post on disregarding intuition. I wrote about why we rely on it so much in the first place and how understanding a little nuance to our intuition might help us. It goes something like this. Intuition helps us understand things instinctively…
A learning from recent experience. It’s natural to feel a rush of excitement when we meet someone we deeply admire, whether they are celebrities, industry leaders, or personal heroes. But putting them on a pedestal completely blocks the path to genuine connections. True connections are built on mutual respect and…
Here's an idea. Record player Pomodoro timer. I'm sure you've heard of the Pomodoro productivity technique where you do deep work for 25 minutes, then take a 5 minute break, then back to 25 minutes of deep work. You repeat this rhythm for your allotted time, until you get the project done, etc. It allows for a good…
Read the news about the incident in Itaewon in South Korea. Shocking event really. 156+ dead with 151+ injured. Work was productive. I can finally start working on design docs to push for ideas I’ve had. I started looking at jetbrains space, a new productivity tool. Started looking at the ActivityPub protocol. It…
Such a stupid word, really. Disappointment. According to Oxford, "sadness or displeasure caused by the nonfulfillment of one's hopes or expectations." While I've never enjoyed the spotlight during recognition of accomplishments, even birthdays, I learned pretty recently how greatly disappointed I feel when my…
Just saw though - from a dying 23 yo patient His last ideal was to bring his kindness and love to everyone around him And he hoped to be remembered from that Because when I was poor I was not in the right state of mind My mind was abit evil and selfish I didn’t want to spend time with my ex because I wanted to focus…
Saya menyatakan bahwa saya ateis sejak 6 tahun silam, banyak pertentangan dari orang yang mengetahui bahwa saya tidak mempercayai tuhan dianggap kenistaan bagi mereka dan teguran untuk kembali mempercayai tuhan menjadi makanan penutup ketika mereka berbincang mendalam dengan saya. Landasan moral sudah mendarah daging…
Good night's sleep, even without the whirlpool and crappy eating. Odd dream: only a snippet of making out with a woman I know to be a lesbian. Got to listen to birdsong over coffee this morning. The birdsong doesn't make me feel as happy as it used to. Time for a break, time for a change. 280720 May 2022
Lately, I’ve been thinking: home is not a place, a country, or any physical location. Home is a feeling you get around people, people who always welcome you with a warm hug every time you see them and give you a tight hug every time you leave. While some people identify with their country or hometown, I identify with…
The slow start, quiet open windows and fresh morning air. Delight.
To the ones, Laying awake at night, Wondering if you’ll ever find someone. Scrolling through Instagram, Looking through the window of life, And it seems like the Whole world is finding love, You’re happy for them. But there’s a whisper, A doubt, A tiny prick to the heart “Will I ever be as happy as them?” Some of us…
I was recently asked about what gives me hope when I don’t believe in religion or God. And this got me thinking. Well, hope is a belief that you hold that the future will be better. It’s not bound by logic. At times, it’s also something that you create in your own mind. Whether it’s through God, religion or anything…
Hello! Lets talk about inhibitions and hurdles in taming the day. As someone who has tried almost every trick to stay on track and create a routine and series of habits that help me in navigating life as I see fit. Here are my observations: 1. Diligence is key, identifying action items and getting started is simple…
Started playing Dungeons & Dragons again and Im easing back into being a dungeon master, something I enjoyed as a child. There are two big challenges: Preparation time and wielding narrative tension The reality of playing DnD as an adult is that time is scarce. And preping for a game as a Dungeon master takes up a lot…
the most normal taste i have is in music. i'm really into the 1975 right now, but specifically 3 songs: - about you - robber - all i need to hear ("somebody else" is great too but it doesn't fit the vibe of those three songs i just listed that i feel is the best aspect of the band; i basically want to feel like i'm…
A Vanessa, uma das minhas melhores amigas, completava 9 meses de gravidez enquanto eu fazia as malas para viajar para São Paulo. "Segura o Dante, eu estou chegando", avisei já ansiosa para conhecer o bebê. Fui visitá-los tão logo cheguei ao Brasil, no entanto o Dante continuava tranquilão no útero da mãe sem denotar…
Hello Everybody 👋, I am Shubham and I am new to this new platform and with its first impression, I loved the look and feel of it ! I have always liked nicheless blogging because when you are interested in lot of things and want to say a lot we spend more time categorizing rather than actually telling the story. Going…
i'm trying to understand what it is that i so admire in a person i will name people i admire and see if i can spot a pattern: (1) M - truly conceited - has a dream, has a plan (and carries it out, somewhat) - content - telepathic understanding (2) H - truly conceited - has many dreams, many plans (AND CARRIES THEM…
Acho que já falei que comecei essa série com meu amor. Adoro a questão dos sonhos, o mistério e as músicas. É violento e triste. Ainda estou na primeira temporada. Hoje em dia, muita coisa séria impossível. Imagina ter que falar por orelhão pra não ser rastreadom Poder queimar um restaurante sem mil câmeras…
We are all but pawns in someone's game of life. When we have absolutely no control over some things, the only thing we can resort to is to take a deep breath, sit and back and let the future unfold. There is no point putting the heart and mind to strife.
...a place where you get to write just 300 words. Nice. Just capture what's on the mind. A snapshot. First impression: Nice, neat, uncluttered. Reminds me of blank paper on typewriter, minus any other prompts. No random feeds and hashtags, pulls or pressures. What way will this go?
This PPT from Jim Keller is suggesting roughly 30% of Performance increase with a slightly increase in clock speed. We are talking about 23% of IPC increase. If we were to fit this number into Geekbench 6.1, assuming linear scaling of performance with clock speed, you get about 2250 Single Core Performance at 3.5Ghz.…
This seems like a very traditional and a cliche thing to say, but its more important than we give credit to. Coming from a broken household, experiencing things no one would want their worst enemies to experience. If i ever got a chance that allowed me to change what happened in the past i would decline that offer…
My eldest cousin took me out to a handful of football matches in 2015. He had come back from his masters in the UK and I was extremely delighted to go watch football with him. I enjoyed and loved hanging out with him. I don't remember much about what we did and some of the tiny details but I remember how I felt. I…
In my 4th decade I realize that 40s is the real inflection point in our lives - few reflections. 1. Curiosity: Whether getting lost in encyclopedia during my younger days to now reading up about cars. Somewhere during the Social Media era, my curiosity had become perfomative, I caught this bug of sounding…
I was at work today looking for some piece of furniture in the warehouse, and was like, "Man, I can't wait to get home today and read my books." The two in particular right now are "A Difficult Par" and "Dream Golf", but there are uncounted others. I can see several armfuls from where I sit, any one a treasure trove…
The ultimate sin on Wikipedia is original research. You know, cranks adding lengthy conspiracy diatribes to what was a perfectly reasonable article. Banning original research is a convenient way to shut these people down. Now all you have to do is say 'where's your source?' Unluckily for us, you can fall foul of this…
I've been running up against lots of large, intractable issues recently. The nature of work, the problems with capitalism, climate doom-erism, the absence of any kind of regulation on social platforms (or tech in general), my role in all this... All heavy stuff. It's exhausting. These are not things individuals can…
(original: 2007 Aug 17) fill in the blank with a word or phrase ... Here we go: 1. My favorite childhood toy was ... jacks. 2. My favorite childhood game was ... red rover. 3. The best movie I ever saw as a kid was ... willy wonka & the chocolate factory. 4. I don't do it much but I enjoy ... bowling. 5. If I could…
I am no longer employed. For anyone to survive in the corporate world, one has to follow some rules. If you want to pursue further studies, you have to study for it along with your job. You have to manage to keep your boss happy and at the same time squeeze more time out to study and ace your exams. If you are someone…
When you're a young, high-potential kid, you're told of the things you can be: "you're brilliant, maybe you'll be a doctor" "you're so clever, you could be an inventor someday" "you're so convincing with your opinions, you'd be a great lawyer" In college, most of us start to specialize: accounting majors become…
If you’re starting a journaling habit, there’s no reason to write deep thoughts. You need to concentrate on the habit you’re creating. You want to be consistent at the same time each day. It doesn’t even matter what you are journaling. It matters that you are journaling. Making your journaling habit easy to complete…
See that? That’s a sticker on that glass door you’re about to open. It says PULL. But here’s the thing, the sticker is on the other side of the door. It’s an instruction on opening the door, but it’s not for you. For your eyes it’s backwards, like a mirrored version of the word, but your brain still reads the word…
Most of us have hobbies or interests that are a part of, or define who we are. Some make a career out of it, going in deep and letting their curiosity lead them wherever it goes. Others just like being able to relax, doing what they enjoy. But there are some who are interested in a multitude of things, so many objects…
