Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
You should shed people’s expectations of whom you should be or what you should behave like. There is no reason to be concerned with what your friends or neighbours or acquitances think about you. You’re the driver in your life, only you can see your road ahead and the journey you have traversed. You cannot expect…
We just escaped from the loud club. We had just celebrated your birthday there but it wasn’t your environment. Apparently you once lived a party life, but I hadn’t seen that side of yours, you had put all that behind you. Our drunk friends took an auto. We decided to walk it. I was sober enough, I am fucked up on the…
To the ones, Laying awake at night, Wondering if you’ll ever find someone. Scrolling through Instagram, Looking through the window of life, And it seems like the Whole world is finding love, You’re happy for them. But there’s a whisper, A doubt, A tiny prick to the heart “Will I ever be as happy as them?” Some of us…
Remember V from furniture? He’s moving through life pretty quick Be like him Put your mind into it Never focus of the past The future abit Think of the present mostly Like he could’ve finished what I was studying within 3 hours Because he wouldnt have thought he had “enough” and rest of a bit; did a good job etc…
The weight of 40ºC heat is torture, but that's nothing compared to the endless search for purpose. Ok, that's all the whining for now. Boredom sucks, but it serves a purpose. I managed to write again after months of nothing. I'm not doing it every day, but it'll do for now. So let's see. I just discovered the work of…
I was sitting around and doing some work, and it hit me. This is the best feeling there is. It's the height of existence. Paradoxically, it's the opposite of what we all chase. Everyone wants the easy wins and the pleasures of life. Successful people say they miss the times they had to struggle. What hit me was a…
Timoteo Rhousdy adalah sebuah karakter fiksi yang lahir dari imajinasi penulis dengan panggilan BAST. Seluruh kisahnya dibangun dari khayalan dan kreativitas semata, oleh sebab itu, nama, lokasi, dan peristiwa yang berkisar di sekelilingnya sepenuhnya merupakan ciptaan penulis untuk tujuan bermain peran (role-play).…
thick full lashes seem like an adaptation strategy to desert living...(like camels) i wonder why people think thick full lashes are so sexy are we attracted to desert dwellers? i read that when modern humans left africa, they mated with neanderthals (who come from the valley "thal" of neander) and thus gained genes…
Ahh reading of an old utopian idea with a realization that it has a possibility to exists in the context of today...
Back to writing again, as I process emotions I've been avoiding for a while. I'm determined to be consistent this time. Last week marked one year since I escaped my abusive family. When I went back home to meet my dad, I was heartbroken to see how much he has aged since the last time I saw him. Despite still loving…
Even though I have known about the problems with invasive species since I took an environmental science class in high school, I hadn’t stopped to consider that our garden could spell disaster for local ecosystems. Invasive species are organisms brought to a new environment and adapt to it so well that in doing so they…
i love patti smith's writing but i've never really like, gotten into the musician side of her and because "just kids" focuses so much on that, i got curious and so i'm watching a 1977 interview+concert of her and i'm shocked that she (1) has a new york accent (2) sounds so damn confident and opinionated in person…
And having that “purpose” Like I don’t go to badminton just for another purpose Actually make friends Or be good in badminton Whatever your purpose is You don’t just “go there” Like you WANTED something If nobody is there you also wanted right? That should be the spirit Remember You don’t have to be friends with…
Of trying to be the responsible one. Of trying to be the one with empathy Of trying to keep my own value in my mind Of trying to receive an iota of love and care of what I need Of being the one constantly abandoned Of giving it my all Of just trying sometimes.
Non-monetized. Is that even a term? I was recently creating a page on my Notion called "leisure + fun". It basically has 1 database with all my hobbies and leisure activities. But I soon realized that there's only one hobby or leisure activity that I regularly enjoy doing and haven't monetized. That's reading books.…
Queria que o título fosse positivo. E foi por algumas horas. Hoje eu acordei depois das 9h da manhã, o que é uma grande raridade, visto que tenho duas cachorras que agem como agiotas se eu não levo elas pro passeio às 7h da manhã. Meu namorado levou elas então eu pude dormir um pouco mais. Acordei de ótimo humor,…
I wonder when it first dawned on me that one day I will not be here anymore. Was it when I was 12, roller-skating, back in my hometown? Afraid to fall or be thrown to the ground, always afraid to hurt myself beyond repair. Dreading the pain, my fists clenched, gliding on the edges of the rink. Or was it at 18, when I…
i just did something new i commented on a tim senesi yoga video where he had a thumbnail of himself cringing @ and judging you and with the words "you're doing this wrong" and said that i think he's otherwise a splendid force in the world but that it's essentially beneath him to clickbait and say things that feed on…
i'm losing the faith that i can ever really be ordinary in the ways i wanted to be ordinary but i hope to at least be extraordinary in the ways i want to be extraordinary i'm gettin a feelin that i want to look at megan boyle's birth chart
Why do I live like this? Do I have to? Can I do better? If so, how? I owe it to myself to ask myself The Real Questions. What brings me joy? What brings me fulfillment? What are my values? How much money is enough? How much success is enough? What does success mean to me? What do I like about myself and my life? What…
One day, I picked up my grandson from school and had a conversation with him about his day. I asked if he enjoyed math and English. Then I asked whether he was good at handwriting and told him that mine was poor unless I took my time with it. My grandson's response to the handwriting question floored me a little. He…
I’ve been so supportive to Shivani. I’m so excited for her. That is true. But I’m also going through pain but don’t want her to have to see this because I don’t want it to affect her relationship. I can already imagine nelson saying “oh, you’re such a liar, you’re such a fake, yada yada” Fuck off okay? Take your own…
This morning I watched a desert spiny lizard successfully intimidate an antelope ground squirrel. The squirrel is a delicate but scrappy creature. The lizard on the other hand is a spiny and tentative being. The squirrel lay bathing in a little patch of dust warmed by a sunbeam. He indulgently rubbed his belly and…
Sometimes everything feels a bit off. The motivation isn’t quite there and nothing flows like you want it to. The most frustrating thing is that the main problem I have these days is that I can’t seem to type properly. Normally I’m pretty good at not misspelling things but when I have those days I’m always messing up…
faz tempo que eu não venho aqui. isso não é uma cobrança, tampouco um pedido de desculpas. a vida acontece e os pratinhos vão caindo, normal. desde a minha ultima visita, consegui terminar mais coisas da reforma e trazer mais uma doguinha pra casa. desta vez, a minha dog há 9 anos. incrível como sua jovialidade e…
Suddenly 10 days had passed and it feels like I arrived yesterday. It feels weird that tomorrow my mom goes and for the first time I won't really know when is the next time I see her, for what I know it's probably gonna be minimum a year which it would be the longest without seeing each other. I'm kind of used to be…
i'm reading carl jung's memoir and his descriptions of himself as a little boy (born 1875) makes me think of Pip, who started out as 7 in Great Expectations (set in 1812 but published in 1860) i absolutely loved Pip even though i overall did not enjoy Great Expectations. Pip was so cute in the beginning and then…
Twitter is terrible, as are all other algorithmic feed social networks. I want the fun of early twitter and livejournal back.
Today is 31st Dec. The last calendar day of 2022. Hence, I will keep this one very short. In fact, this is just a year end note to self. A lot happened this year. I got my dream job but left it in 9 months. Instead, I chose a soulful path of wealth building. Took a bet on myself. Now building my own venture.…
Perceptions give me the benefit of the doubt with an unseen cost
Brands today give little credit to their customers. Failed branding and marketing efforts are often disguised under the ruse of 'fickle customer loyalty' and 'minuscule attention spans'. But the truth of it is the same customers that are scrolling right past your ad are binging 8 episodes of that Netflix show they…
There are myriad of ways in which one can claim that a person has lived a good life. After all, isn't what we are all aiming for ? To have a "good life". Obviously, the definitions of the same may differ. It maybe defined by certain achievements, familial bonds or a hundred other ways. But this writer just wants to…
I reflected on my Linkedin activity last week on the platform. The immediate response of my friends and their network within the first hour of posting felt good. People found the post amusing! So I of course HAD to post the same jab on twitter, and share a screenshot of the original post on my Instagram story. What…
i not-so-proudly announce that i am not okay. it is also not okay. but okay.
Então, voltei pra casa. Saí da internação graças a Deus, mas não posso mentir falando que não sinto saudades da comida. Muito boa a comida do hospital que eu fiquei e equipe fofa. Descansei bastante e espero que meu corpo me recompense com uma barriga sem líquido infeccioso e sem pontos sangrando. Um outro aspecto da…
When you sit and stop listening to your cravings, stop giving in to your aversions, stop following the “should”s, just sit, eventually you realize: wanting isn’t craving. they’re not even similar. A common response to “What if you just did whatever you want all the time?” is “Oh, I’d just get fat and play video…
Hoje, tomando um sorvete da cangote, na Santa Cecília, em São Paulo, eu vi o Pedro Bial! Ele vestia um moletom cinza e um chinelo havaianas preto na conta do pé dele. São Paulo é assim. Você está andando e bum! Um famoso. Ele só pagou, pegou o sorvete e foi embora em seu volvo. Não olhou prós lados, não deu chances de…
Knowing is table stakes. “Do you know the patient?” A common question asked in the clinical world. When I was in training, I literally thought the question meant whether the patient is part of the list I am responsible for that day. A simple yes or no. Now when I get asked, I know that the knowing is much deeper. Do…
Okay, it's 2022 and i'm 45 y/o and i still don't know what i want to do with my life. I wonder if surviving and not to be a burden is good enough goals.
The anti-hustle people will tell you that if you're procrastinating on something, it doesn't mean you're a lazy good-for-nothing loser. It means your subconscious is sending you an important message. At the time of writing, I've just spent 5 hours pointedly not doing the real-life paid work that has been stressing me…
Why stressing into the things when it’s too late to control The first mistake that people make is they try to avoid mistake It’s okay to be making mistake About systematic You remember the times you woke up for school, do the homeworks and be a goodboy That’s training yourself to be adulting It’s nothing “nerd” about…
My older son (see photo) is starting to have serious homework every day. Serious means: if he did it on time, it would be 30 min max. But he doesn't, so I need to check and check and check. Today he was playing Minecraft on his laptop... Instead of doing fractions, learning a song for Music class or reading about…
After an intense day, I just sat down to write today's post on Nicheless. While reflecting on my day, I have noticed, that all I did today was rushing from one task to the other - getting a lot of stuff done but never standing still, breathing in the moment. So instead of taking the time and coming up with something…
After 8 years living with me, my rabbit died this morning. He was not eating properly for days. I gave him his medicines right after I wake up, worried about his health, but he couldn't even keep himself standing. So I tried to force feed him with a seringue. After the first shot of the Critical Care, the mix of herbs…
People has so many topics outside of work. You gotta have life outside work or feel energetic & interested to go outside to enjoy life. Now I’m feeling like it a bit - I like going outdoors and explore Or just listen to conversations That’s how you get to like know more perspectives and more things It’s pretty…
On our first official full day in Finland I realized how lucky I am to have experienced so many cultures and seen so many different countries/continents. My mom couldn't stop stopping at every single corner to take pictures about the silliest things (in my opinion), for example, being surprised at how blue the sky…
Mais uma rede social? Mais uma "plataforma"? Pois é, eu me defini como um "arroz de festa" em uma conversa, alguns dias atrás. Toda rede social ou plataforma de comunicação que aparece eu tenho curiosidade de conhecer e experimentar. No fim, acabo usando mesmo só umas poucas, e cada vez mais raramente. Mas quando tive…
I've lived my life on high ambition. In school it was about getting the highest marks, or winning the competitions I enrolled in. Slowly it turned to having a great career, becoming the best person I could be etc. But recently, I've been disillusioned by this approach. Don't get me wrong. Greatness is... great. It's…
