Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
Since the Supreme Court of the United States has punted Roe v. Wade back to a State issue, there has been debate and effort about explicitly protecting the right to abortion at the state or federal level. This issue is also touched upon by many governments worldwide. However, there is a more fundamental right…
The room was silent and my body was motionless. But my mind was agitated. I’d been sitting cross-legged on the floor for over an hour, with sweat dripping down my brow, and intense pain radiating from my knees. It felt like they were being crushed by giant invisible fists that were provoked by my stillness. I needed a…
When you were a child, this was a recurrent scene: It's Sunday, all your family gathers around the table to have breakfast. Your mother is pouring the coffee and your father is reading the paper. You see him scanning the pages, looking for something that grabs his attention. He reads and nods a few times, doing some…
when it feels like it’s not going to work out when you think you’ve exhausted all your options when it feels like the end of the road you have a decision to make keep going or move on but no matter what choice you make you’ve gotta remember this none of it was a waste of energy there’s a lesson in everything you did…
Many times I have thoughts that is quite unnecessary? In the end of the day it doesn’t matter When it comes to story telling Details are king Though some unimportant filler words “I heard this story from another guy, he said” “Then he said, when he was sitting on the chair, he was trembling” I don’t think the story is…
Acabei de assistir"secretária" Que filme incrível. E o jeito que acaba, deixa tudo melhor. Um convite para todas as mulheres que se sentem fora da norma. Sustentar o prazer é difícil! É uma dor, para você e para os outros. Como se fosse um band aid arrancado de vez. Hoje uma colega de trabalho veio almoçar em casa. O…
I recently read an article by my fav blogger/idol/human Lawrence on finality of everything (look it up, it's a gem). Here's an excerpt from that- 'Understanding the finality of everything brings a clarity that only a wiser version of myself can see. If I know that one day I’ll long for the very things I routinely…
These words have jumped out to me daily, the last 6 months has been happy and rough, I carry the heavy weight of "I wish, I had". I have carried this weight year after year, I know what to do but I find it difficult to do, back to ground zero every single time, solving for everyone except me, getting away with the…
I’m a big advocate of making the most out of the cards you’re dealt. Take what you have in the moment and start fixing things. Slowly but surely, and within a reasonable timeframe, you’ll get what you want — or at least you’ll be 2X or 10X better than when you first started. Even if don't get what you want, or get…
Depois de um post inteiro reclamando, quero tirar um tempo para agradecer o que me tirou risadas nos últimos dias - teve um momento que eu e o conge assistimos a um filme de comédia. O que parecia ser um filme besta de adolescente realmente surpreendeu e nos arrancou boas risadas na sexta-feira a noite. Meu amor deu…
I noticed a thing about myself a couple of times - I go into the "I'll prove I am worthy of this" mode too soon. It is a pretty natural reaction to feeling rejected or challenged. I guess some of it also comes from a childhood where quite a bit of validation came from achievement. On most counts that need to prove is…
I want you to know I mean the things I say. But how can you When the things I say Are the things I am expected to say Whether I mean them or not?
We often look to this quote with fondness and admiration. We often use this quote to inspire and motivate. For a new skill. For a promotion. For a healthier lifestyle. Yet we are often baffled and surprised when we see the other side of the same coin. The ugliness of how negative small changes can add up too. For…
I remember I started writing blog posts about 13 years ago, during my gap year when I was preparing for my university entrance exam, kind of like the SAT. But when one of my college friends found my blog, I suddenly felt so embarrassed that someone I knew had read it. I ended up deleting the whole thing. At the time I…
Se sentó en la orilla del borde y gimió: "Nadie me hace caso". El viento siguió pasando, haciendo las cosas que hace el viento, incluso dentro del propio cuerpo que dijo el absurdo. Luego llovió y de su agua salitrosa se hizo un espejo, donde vió, por fin, la causa de su nube amarga. Daniel Verdad ©
Sick infants cry, some sick infants have increased respiratory rate. Assessment of respiratory rate is important for identifying the disease and assessing the general wellness of the child. This is pretty difficult to do when the infant is crying. This led me to wonder if the rate of vocalising?/phonation? while…
think of me like a torch in your hand, a helping light. someone who helps you see through the dark tunnel. but not as someone who latches onto your wrist and pulls you through—without you seeing, without noticing the world as it rushes by. the tunnel is yours, not mine. we are in our own dark tunnels, carrying tools.…
I am a shelf builder who displays my creativity, in my areas of practice, on my shelves. Recently, friend, Marlon, shared about the three domains in creativity - corporeal, hermeneutic, analytical - where Christian Julmi unpacks Hermann Schmitz's phenomenological approach. In the same conversation, Marlon and I…
Muito fácil nossa cabeça nos dar o baile quando estamos tentando criar hábito. Tô nessa missão de escrever todos os dias aqui e hoje esqueci (até agora!). Acordei mais de 9h da manhã, coisa raríssima, visto que tenho duas cachorras exigentes e pontuais. Sete horas da manhã, às vezes antes, elas já levantam e, como…
We like to think of ourselves as rational decision-makers who are persuaded to accept arguments and ideas on the basis of logical merit. This is laughably divergent from how things really work. The idea itself that humans are rational decision-makers has no basis in empirical observation; it is just some wishful…
coming from the fertile goddess that is indonesia -- where you spit on the ground and your saliva grows into a giant beanstalk -- back to the arid desert that is italy, i'm thinking: why are we deforesting biodiverse gems of the earth? why don't we farm more seriously in barren places like most of the "1st world"?…
Sometimes I get a rush of motivation for studying, even if it’s a subject I don't necessarily like. I enjoy the process and the feeling of learning. However, when I start to feel the weight of others’ expectations about my performance or results, that spark of motivation quickly fades. It’s strange because many people…
I'm kind of tired seeing people sharing unsolicited advice about growth, productivity, finance - all of these things that supposedly make you successful. My definition of "success" is so different from those in my surroundings now, but... it feels so strange to leave so fast when this is all I've known, too. But I…
Reflecting on the experiment of writing every day for more than a month, I can say that, at first, like any other challenge in life, it seemed daunting. You doubt yourself and are scared of all the "what ifs" that could happen. The first days are probably the hardest; there is a change in your life, and you're not…
last week, i fell into an argument with jaime who pushed back against my desire to investigate the workings of the orb. “theres no figuring out how it works” they said. “nothing here makes logical sense, nor should it. we just have to trust in the path that this planet is giving us. the orb is an opportunity to…
The same scary thought haunts me It could be the brightest day or the coldest dark night The same thought haunts me It's something I've lived with for years It pops up in my dreams, my daydreams It creeps up on me when I least expect it The same thought haunts me "Why me?" We all have our own version of "why me?" Yet…
1. What's something that puts a smile on your face instantly? 2. Who's that someone you look forward to sharing the good news as soon as you receive it? 3. If money and responsibilities are taken out of the equation, would you still live in the same city? 4. What's your favourite childhood memory? 5. Do you feel…
Since the beginning of the web, people have been making personal websites. But when someone makes a personal website, it is forever an exhibition to the public and cannot truly be a private, authentic space. Recently, the concept of a “digital garden” has become popular. It’s like a personal website but welcomes a…
My office consists of cubicles for associates and cabins for the partners. The partners take up the perimeter of the office, having glass walls with blinds - allowing them to observe us and prevent us from observing them. A subliminal show of their power over us. All in all, very panoptican and something I ruminate…
When we prepared for our move from plush to mush, we planned to live mostly without electricity. Solar power was - and still is - part of our plan. Since that part requires more funds than currently in our tiny bank account, we rely on whatever electricity is available. I have mixed feelings about just how easy it has…
Entrei numa pira com os filmes do Wes Anderson. Mesmo sendo fora da realidade, tem muitos dramas comuns aos humanos de sempre. Acabei de assistir os excêntricos tenenbaums e pensei muito no perdão, no arrependimento, no privilégio masculino, no poder da amizade, na raiva manifestada, no suicídio. Que loucura. Me deixa…
I have always regarded opportunities as rare. Having that mentality does not help in university and, honestly, even in life. I was good at what I did. I am an excellent developer (I study Computer Science). Once people started noticing the quality of my work and the value I charged, the demand for my work increased.…
Só temos controle sobre como reagimos às coisas que acontecem conosco. Não temos controle sobre o que as outras pessoas fazem ou sobre o que acontece conosco.
We are having an argument. On social media. Well, you know, not exactly an argument. That's what everyone always calls it. Maybe it's a conversation, a dialogue? It's hard to tell. Sometimes it feels tense, but I can't really know can I? Is there a goal in mind or are we just passing time. What is the endgame, I being…
Life, it seems, will fade away Drifting further, every day Getting lost within myself Nothing matters, no one else. While the rest of the old Metallica banger Fade to Black doesn't really apply to this post, I wanted to borrow generously from the past kings to start it. In a remote hyperconnected world, it is easy to…
Creativity is such a strange bedfellow. It warms you, sometimes. It guides you, sometimes. It frustrates you, sometimes. It refuses to leave, always. There are plenty of days when I wish that my creativity would take all these disparate parts and bring them together into a cohesive whole. Instead, creativity somehow…
I received a text saying, "Hey, Keshav! I had spoken to you about an internship at Goodread", a couple of days back. On the out-front, it seems correct, but there's one massive problem here. To set the context: I work at a company called Goodera. I had initially reached out to the person and progressed through the…
O texto é pra lamentar que agora o Sesc 24 de maio não vende mais sorvete de iogurte but also to talk about something more deep, como minha rigidez cognitiva com algumas coisas. Eu não gosto de mudanças. Na real, não gostar é muito ameno. Eu ODEIO mudanças. E tudo está sempre mudando o tempo todo nesse mundo. Tudo…
Came across a captivating question recently by Nicheless founder Louis on his post "12 questions that captivate me". Can a society with diverse, conflicting values survive? I believe only a society with diverse and conflicting values can survive. Humans follow their desires to pretty much any extreme. If a particular…
The only constant I have observed in my 21 years of existence is this — no matter how well I sleep at night, it just won't be as good as that nap in the afternoon. I'm a Bengali. And what science suggests is that since Bengalis have a carbohydrate-heavy diet, food that takes long to digest, they're naturally more…
I own three pairs of shoes at any point. The kind of shoe varies. Right now I don't have a formal pair of shoes in the set. There's one for work. There's one for walks or the gym. And then the's one which is is a generalist. Comfortable enough for anything. I washed the comfortable-enough-for-anything one last week.…
I crave something, I get it. I need something, I get it. Someone close to me needs something, they get it from me. It's a beautiful feeling to not have to worry about costs. It's a beautiful feeling to not have to worry about money. This has been my experience for the past few days after making what can be said to be…
This is not a post where I tell you that getting bored is good and all. But to see why actually am I getting bored! I just said that I've been working as an Intern for the past 9 months, and yet when my room mate is not around, it seems that I don't have anything to do apart from work. My room mate does not make a…
I had a dream that Kiese Laymon, Ta-Nehisi Coates, and Damon Young were hosting a writers' retreat somewhere verdant. It was me, Young, Laymon, Coates, Kenny Smith (of the NBA), and some writers I can't remember right now but we were all Black and saw ourselves as men. One was named Joel, I think. We were in the big…
Continuation of https://nicheless.blog/post/focusing-on-work--types-of-di A good strategy for resisting distracting thoughts is essential to maintaining focus on the work you want to accomplish. Let's take a closer look at the first distraction highlighted in the previous chapter: Waiting for a Process to Finish In my…
Eu lembro exatamente o momento que tive meu primeiro contato com a meditação. Por algum motivo (que eu imagino que fosse grana), estava ansiosa e minha namorada na época falou pra eu deitar relaxada e seguir a voz dela. Foi meu primeiro escaneamento corporal, também conhecido body scan. Lembro que dormi, de tão…
I have always felt a lingering conflict about why people who take care of themselves get deadly diseases. Isn't it better to not care about our health, if anyway we're gonna get those XYZ diseases? Why unnecessarily cut down on sugar? Why count calories for every meal intake? Take an example: Person X is a fitness…
Of all the things people tweet about online regarding startups, I've not seen a single one about cofounder dynamics. Yet, in my experience, cofounder dynamics are one of, if the not the, most important aspect of a young startup. Cofounders can argue and disagree. Individuals have egos sand insecurities. People have…
