Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
Feeling hurt. Feeling broken. Knowing dreams won't happen. Needing to live with pain. How can I say I can't hang out more? I keep getting hurt. It's like a cycle I know I shouldn't repeat, but hope lingers. Things won't progress unless I align thoughts and actions. I'm stuck in a pit, not wanting to leave, yet…
Not really sure how this goes, but I do like the 300 word cap. Halloween was last night and it's always fun to see the kids all dressed up. I'm more of a dress up parent. It feels inauthentic to be walking around on Oct. 31 in your regular people clothes. It's like a no judgement / everyone accepted day. More men opt…
(original: 2007 Aug 17) fill in the blank with a word or phrase ... Here we go: 1. My favorite childhood toy was ... jacks. 2. My favorite childhood game was ... red rover. 3. The best movie I ever saw as a kid was ... willy wonka & the chocolate factory. 4. I don't do it much but I enjoy ... bowling. 5. If I could…
I have always been anxious when presenting, I even get this increase in body temperature when I answer questions in big classes. But, for some reason I have been feeling comfortable when presenting in class, the groups are small and personalized, there is no pressure from teachers, because for them by doing the task…
...she, anyway, doesn't know me anymore. we ended things. i couldn't stand being around her. it doesn't mean that i loved her any less. i loved her more than she loved herself. she loved me less than she loved the version of me she wanted. you see...there was our problem. i had brought this to her attention as well.…
Yesterday, while at the grocery, a teenage stocker complimented my glasses. It tickled me. She looked at me with her bright young face and told me my glasses were cute. of course, they sit on a 65-year-old face. Then we talked about choosing new frames. The exchange was gratitude worthy, but it isn't in my journal. I…
I have earned the guts to say this out loud the hard way. I don't HAVE TO do anything. I feel like doing NOTHING and that's what I'll do. I do the things I want to do and feel like doing. There's no shits left to give for anyone or anything else. Only a very calm space inside me where there's an absence of all kinds…
I don't hate my job, but I don't love it. I've been running away all these years, jumping from one job to another and then hating myself. All because I don't have the courage nor the discipline to chase my dreams. Chasing your dreams isn't a luxury, it's hard work and requires a lot of determination. I am ready to…
A common misinterpretation of Sun Tzu's Art of War is that competition involves 'deception' in the sense of lying, cheating, and manipulation. However, if we considered his work as aiming for peace being the highest form of excellence rather than destroying opponents, it can have a very, very, different meaning. For…
"Don't tell me the moon is shining. Show me the glint of moonlight on broken glass" Chekhov. And there it is. The secret of creativity in 16 words. Sounds deceptively easy... until you look for the glass. In this four part series on creativity, moving from mayhem to magic in your writing (photography, painting or…
our existence is very bland and senseless, battling against the corrosive force of time. the dying of the light. it's very much like ingredients, which in and of themself do not make much sense. left to itself, it will decay without discrimination and we only have just enough time as everybody else to make any sense…
I am a crow widow. Tonight the crows took my wife from me. I knew this day was coming. They called to her for months, drew her with shiny gifts. And she courted them too, attracted by their intellect, the prehistoric tilt of their heads. She was always too good for me. I knew that from the start. But I never imagined…
Hoje eu fiz as pazes com uma grande amiga, uma daquelas amigas que estavam aqui desde que o Guilherme Candido deixou de ser Guilherme Hurts, cresceu barba e disse que tinha o sonho de fazer filmes. Essa amizade me auxiliou no caminho tortuoso do audiovisual e me fez chegar em outros lugares que eu não teria chego…
Your heart beats fast as you anticipate the dopamine. Rendering. Loading. At last: Look at all that engagement in others' timelines: "if only I could be so influential!" But then, that dreadful feeling: the uncertainty, fear, and doubt The last time you posted something, it was crickets and dropped pins "Am I the only…
Fui a um brunch muito chique à beira do rio Spree com um amigo. Coloquei um vestido bonito e um casaco tão pomposo quanto parecia ser o evento. O lugar era moderno, uma construção recente no meio de uma área industrial decadente. Chegamos às 13h35. Encontrei um conhecido na entrada do jardim. Depois uma amiga que…
I wrote this in February, thanks to Nicheless it’s seeing the light of the day. With Covid, we adapted from buying from stores to buying almost everything online and getting it home delivered. This was ok (not saying great). We ordered stuff and it reached in 1/2/3 days. Local kirana wala, a phone call away also got…
twitter isn't what it used to be and too many people i know follow me so i can't be totally candid with my thoughts; i love my physical journal but i think i like a digital space for fleeting thoughts, sometimes the pen to paper feels too permanent. journal is also more of a documentation of time, not as much as an…
I don't know where to start. For some reason I find this medium intriguing. I only found it a few days ago, but can't remember where now. I feel like I am going to need a few accounts. I would love to have one that is totally anonymous. I'll fess up to this one at least. I don't even know how long 300 words is. I…
It is something that I don't purposely wanna hold to someone, holding a grudge is something really tiring, but at the same time very hard to let go. It makes me get annoyed at the smallest things and quirks from a person that I usually wouldn't mind, but because of something bigger it just bothers. I should get better…
This is not an essay. Rather, a letter to self. I have been journaling for almost 3 months now. It's irregular at best. Yet, it has been the best clarity building exercise for me. During the writing process, I discovered - patterns in my thought process. Such as - I start, seldom finish. I am an instant-dopamine…
i read a book about how there are people who defy all expectations. like they just HATE fulfilling expectations, doesn't matter if it's internal or external. i may be such a person. i told myself that i should go running at 5 and cook at 6 and have dinner ready by 7.30 but it is now 5.55 and i have been working on…
You want a journaling habit, but journaling requires thinking. Thinking is hard work. You are wrong if you think creating a journaling habit requires deep thinking. Don't overthink what you write when you journal. You journal for yourself. No one else will read what you write. Journaling is getting your thoughts on…
A couple of days ago, I was really struggling to come up with ideas for that day's writing challenge. Feeling stuck, I was riding an electric scooter through the nighttime streets to get home. With the rush of wind and the feeling of moving forward, ideas started flowing. I came up with concepts for six different…
had a terrible day. when is it that you don't have that. took my folder of reading material and went down to the bar downstairs. realized that my transitions glasses don't work in low light and certain angles. 2 martinis and 1 drink done by a bartender in tequila, had something to eat. bonded with the bartenders, came…
I. Humans began their story on this Earth as brutish, violent, tribal knuckle-draggers, barely distinguishable from their ape relatives. Over thousands of years of gradual genetic and cultural evolution, humanity has marched through history to achieve progressively more peaceful and prosperous societies. We're slowly…
I'm not saying I've discovered the secret to happiness, but daily fiber supplements and a bidet is working out great for me.
Don’t forget your party favor! Thanks for coming to my birthday party yesterday. I'm glad you could make it. I've learned a lot in 65 years. I started writing so I could share it with you. You might have to spend some money on my gift to you yesterday. Today's party favor is also a list of life lessons, but these only…
Yes, I have a sweet tooth. I love me some sweets: pastries, candy, cakes, cookies… you name it, I love it. But there has been no better sweetener in life than community. Combining community with all aspects of my life has provided that extra 🤌 But how? I’m currently learning how to DJ right now, and sure, learning…
I remembered something that I had penned a while ago, as I was reading Louis' post on disregarding intuition. I wrote about why we rely on it so much in the first place and how understanding a little nuance to our intuition might help us. It goes something like this. Intuition helps us understand things instinctively…
During Culturati's on-line January 13, 2025 "Preview of Conflict to Connection", Rajkumari Neogy was featured - https://youtu.be/VZaS5UiOmU?si=P5aMj5yJ1Q3YGiuu (recording). During the Q&A, I was reminded of a friend's pursuit of discrimination in his workspace thus posing the question. Because of the No FEAR Act, in…
There are animals that are also plants. Elysia Chlorotica is a slug that looks like a leaf. She's the one on the top left in the image above. Part of what makes a plant a plant is that it can make its own food out of inorganic materials like sunlight and water. Slugs like Elysia are mixotrophs. They eat food like…
Today we had a lawyer friend of my dad and his 19 year old son who is about to study law visiting. In our conversation we started discussing AI and the future. This not only highlighted my deep immersion in the tech world but also surprised and somewhat triggered me by seeing once again just how naive some educated…
It's the fourth quarter of 2023, and I chose to replenish my 6-month undated Roterunner planner - https://roterunner.com/products/purpose-planner - partly out of convenience, partly out of utility. Meanwhile, here's a list of planners which folks have shared -…
"Sometimes, the heaviest things we carry are the things we never got to say" Grief is not a storm. It's the cupboard that won't open anymore. He found it on a Tuesday. That quiet, off-colored moment where nothing hurts and everything does. A sock without a pair. A phone with the number still saved. The absurdity of a…
I’m not a big fan of competition. For many people, the race to the finish line is irresistible. No matter the game, something drives them to seek nothing less than first place. The idea of first place doesn’t motivate me. Whether I place first or 31st, it feels about the same. I don’t have any particular elation when…
For a while now, the question of what niche should I pick for my public writing has haunted me. For some reason, an OCD-like obsession haunts me in figuring out my niche and starting to post online. I started with Medium, writing 2 articles on which I felt some impostor syndrome. While they felt close to my heart and…
Li A hora da estrela, de Clarice Lispector e hoje discuti no clube do livro sobre como a obra me tocou. Também me pergunto com frequência se sou um monstro ou isso é ser uma pessoa, Clarice, por ir contra minha criação principalmente. Ver uma pessoa tão simples economizando a vida, repetindo crenças que não fazia…
Good intentions. Plans and goals. Expectations. Reality. The struggle for me is accepting the intentions I have as good enough. I aim to be a good person, to be kind, to remain open, to be healthy and active. But so often, intention is met with opposition. Whether it’s internal or external, what I wish to do gets…
Congee served in a ceramic bowl, cubes of salmon still cooking slowly in a thickened broth of grain, stock and minced pork, each bite velvety on the tongue. Tangerine pollock roe smushed into a paste, generously seasoned with salt, pepper, lemon, egg yolks and a spoonful of Japanese mayonnaise. Expertly tossed through…
Hoje falei pras minhas amigas sobre o cara elegante do meu trabalho e como, quase de forma obsessiva eu olho para ele procurando alguma parte amassada em sua roupa, algum desvio de postura ou um fio de cabelo fora do lugar. Não encontro. Da ultima vez que o vi, notei que ele vestia uma camiseta branca de algodão e uma…
Big bosses stick to their final game plan They have a very strong will point Not just putting one foot in And when it’s about business You need to learn how to talk With a very strong will inside your brain Not being affected just because of emotions And other people manipulating you You gotta stand strong of your…
Start slow. Then whenever you progress you’ll learn along the way to make it the best - that’s also a way of starting: when you start to do, you start to learn as well! Never be afraid of starting. Being procrastinating isn’t going to anywhere. It’s not a good system. It kills you slowly, laying on the bed rather than…
Where I'm from, asking your waiter about the ingredients in a dish usually prompts one of two responses: 1) "You can't have this, this, or this. But this and this are safe to eat." 2) "Uh, I'll ask the kitchen and get back to you." While visiting London, I was really surprised that the near universal response was…
Never be stressful about relationships Even when the Grab driver is doing stupid things such as driving a bit to the front when you walk towards it - I don’t know what is his intentions but if I step forward and go forward and fight: it’s a waste of time. I will keep thinking about the negative points and I’ll be…
Don't believe every wisdom that you get blindly, do not follow into the dogma instead fuck around and find out, which means test out your own hypothesis. Don't give into the seduction of borrowed wisdom, learn to rigorously test out the biases as well as the wisdom that you are given as true. Do not accept anything at…
Very happy with the typo pun in the heading. Been trying to onboard close friends to the first social protocol and also been tinkering with figma make to have a mini app by next month. I've been trying to pitch the premise and thesis to people. Some jump in to product feedback mode without even trying the app and some…
My life has been rough lately. I am stressed, sleep-deprived, and unable to function well. This year is my second attempt at applying to grad school programs, and the journey has been anything but easy. I have to keep retaking the GRE, write multiple essays (even just for one school!), and conduct original…
My parents video call me everyday. It could sound like I am complaining but that's not it. I like that they do. Most days I do pick up the call regardless of if I am out, at a party or at a friend's place. Usually, the conversation goes as follows- where are you (when I'm out) did you eat? what's happening? what else…
